Hello to you! How are you today? I’m doing alright . I had this blog all finished a few minutes ago but I decided to discard it. I don’t know why I guess it just wasn’t what I wanted to post!
I wanted to talk about a feeling I got last night . For the first time in a long time I felt peace and contentment . I went to sleep and woke up with that feeling and it was so awesome . No emotional or physical pain! True peace . I wonder if it was spending time with my friend yesterday . We went to Red Robin for burgers and had a really nice visit. I got lots of hugs !
Oh to still the churning waters of my soul, to calm the anxiety stained winds that always seem to blow. A simple gesture of the warm embrace, to stop time and put a smile on my face. A remedy as old as can be, someone lovingly holding on to me .
I don’t know if there is a perfect formula for peace. If there was we would have a whole lot fewer doctors and pill bottles . I know part of my peace comes from God through other people . A simple thing like a hug means so much to me . I think there is a lot of power having two hearts close together .
“ruminating” in the English Ordinal system equals 126
sleep” in the English Ordinal system equals 57
“caffeine” in the English Ordinal system equals 49
“sugar” in the English Ordinal system equals 66
I have found ruminating too much to be hazardous. So when there is “too many mind” I try to think of something else. Problem is if you don’t consciously direct where your thoughts go, the mind will choose a path of it’s own. Where your thoughts go there goes the body too (something I learned from Joyce Meyers a long time ago).
Some of the medication I take is to help alleviate anxiety and ironically it makes me sleepy. This leaves my mind free to torment me with flashbacks like my wedding and songs that evoke a negative physical reaction. My cousins son is getting married in a few days and what I’m going through makes it difficult to be happy for them. I keep having to remind my mind that the wedding isn’t about me it’s about them. My feelings are so strong I have decided not to attend the wedding. I am afraid I would want to get up and leave during the middle of the ceremony.
I am sincerely hoping and praying at some point I will be able to be comfortable in my own skin again. I want to be able to remember the good stuff about my life without it being run over by the sad.
Hello to you. How are you today? I am doing better than I was doing this morning. Sometimes mornings are hard for me. I have been trying to sleep without a sleep aid and so far have been kind of successful.
Something that seems to help me with anxiety the most lately, and I realize I have mentioned it before, is the combined activity of walking and talking at the same time . My family gives me a call and I take them on a walk with me, “Hello? Wait a minute, let me get on my shoes.” So my neighbors have become accustomed to seeing me out with my cell phone while I walk. The magic number for time is about 40 minutes or less. Depending on how hot it is, sometimes it can just be a walk around the block but it helps.
“walk and talk” in the English Ordinal system equals 110
“purpose” in the English Ordinal system equals 110
Hello to you. I haven’t written in a few days. I have been hesitant to write because I am trying to keep my anxiety under control. Also I have been sharing my posts on Facebook and I am now trying to stay off of there! Even my transition care manager that called me today said he’s been taking time off of Facebook right now.
Tomorrow I have a phone call with my doctor so I can let him know everything that has been going on in the anxiety department and hopefully he will have something he can prescribe for me to take as needed to help me. I don’t want to be on anti-anxiety meds forever just something mild to help take the edge off of what I’m going through right now. Something else that has been working is doing a walk and talk with family on the cell phone. The combination of walking and talking seems to help.
My poor family that has been trying to hold my hand through this is all long distance right now. They are doing their best to help me. Their phone calls really help – they usually end up going on a walk with me!