Category: Leading Life by Example

19 April 2021 The Wind

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you? I am doing pretty good today. The wind has been blowing something fierce this morning. I wonder what God is talking about today:

Psalm 104:4New International Version

4 He makes winds his messengers,[a]
    flames of fire his servants.

Sometimes when I hear the wind through the trees I wonder what it is they are talking about. I wonder if it’s like going to the hair dresser and being under a fan getting your hair to set. “Did you see Weeping Willow down the street?! I wonder how long she’s going to let her hair grow out?!”

Sometimes the wind is scary if it blows too hard….is that a fight?! Lets see what the wind is in the numbers:

“balance” in the English Ordinal system equals 38

“the wind” in the English Ordinal system equals 83 (eternal yes, no, may be)

13 April 2021 Prospers

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you?

I want to be this kind of person:

Psalm 1

1 Blessed is the one
    who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
    or sit in the company of mockers,
2 but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
    and who meditates on his law day and night.
3 That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers.

In the life of a person like me, sometimes it’s hard to muster enough energy and courage to do the things that need to get done. Today was one of those days. It’s like my body physically resists any effort I make to be productive. So I have to force myself to do things otherwise they don’t get done.

I have to mention here that I never used to be this sort of person! I used to clean everything compulsively. If something needed to be done I got it done. Now a lot of times I find myself asking “what’s the point?” I have come to realize a lot of tasks we do in this life are futile in nature. Like for examples laundry, getting groceries, ironing and shoveling snow. I really want to get back to some sort of balance with all of this!

“God” in the English Ordinal system equals 26

“prospers” in the English Ordinal system equals 126

“Schmidt” in the English Ordinal system equals 76

“the futile tasks” in the English Ordinal system equals 176

12 April 2021 Keeping your word

by saymber, posted in Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Home, Leading Life by Example, Money, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello, how are you? It’s a sunny Monday afternoon. I am still waiting on the people I contacted to come and spray the weeds and grass growing in my gavel.

I think it’s important in business or in your personal life that if you make a promise about something that you keep your word.

“lie” in the English Ordinal system equals 26

“keeping your word” in the English Ordinal system equals 206

Not much to write about today but wanted to say hello!

10 April 2021 Normalcy

by saymber, posted in Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, history, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you? I’m doing ok. Today’s topic is courtesy of a friend as she is struggling, like many of us are, to define what her new normal is. So much of what we used to do without thinking about it has changed. Like I heard from my cousin that her daughter had to schedule a spot to visit the zoo! We used to be able to just go and visit the zoo. We used to be able to just go shopping, eat out , get a haircut , go to a movie and various other things without a second thought. Now we have to find out if places are open and if they are open what are their procedures for being open.

I honestly don’t think things will ever be the way they were before this pandemic happened. Part of me is wondering if the pandemic has given us a new reverence for “normal” when we can have it. May be we don’t take things for granted as much.

“Normalcy” in the English Ordinal system equals 101 (one unknown person, place or thing to one) I look at this being like a two blacksmiths at an anvil working on one piece of metal.

9 April 2021 The Program

by saymber, posted in dreams, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you doing today? It’s 9:05 am on this TGIF morning. I had some weird dreams last night one of them was of watching people making a blue drink to make “blue bloods.” The other that I remember was seeing shadows of three crucifixions and one kicked one of them down and it became a shadow of a chair. Not sure what the blue bloods was about but the other was may be about Jesus being crucified so I could have rest – rest symbolized by the chair. What do you think?

Yesterday I started listening to the Lucinda Bassett Attacking Anxiety and Depression (Attacking Anxiety and Depression Midwest Center for Stress 16 Cassette Tapes | eBay) program and so far it’s pretty interesting. I need to do more than just listen but that’s all I have the energy to do right now. What I have found interesting is some of the people interviewed were completely off anxiety medication. They didn’t consider anxiety and depression a mental illness but a temporary condition. You have to learn how to talk to yourself in a positive manner.

They suggest getting an exercise program to help combat anxiety. I never thought that would be a problem for me. I have been an active person for most of my life but this past year since the divorce I’ve become quite sedentary. I’m looking forward to more steady warm weather and may be then I will get out and walk more.

“life” in the English Ordinal system equals 32

“Attacking Anxiety and Depression ” in the English Ordinal system equals 327 (yes, no, may be light and shadow existence all vices in check)

2 April 2021 Easily Overwhelmed

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you? I hope you are having a nice Friday. It’s bright and sunny here today. My weed eater and manual weed puller were delivered today. I went out and tried to use the weed puller. I immediately realized that I am going to be overwhelmed by the number of weeds and grass already growing in the yard! My Aunt and Uncle had suggested I try to find an organic weed and grass killer otherwise I am not going to be able to keep up. I am not sure that’s what I want to do! This was an interesting passage out of Isaiah about being overwhelmed:

Isaiah 28:15

You boast, “We have entered into a covenant with death,
    with the realm of the dead we have made an agreement.
When an overwhelming scourge sweeps by,
    it cannot touch us,
for we have made a lie our refuge
    and falsehood[a] our hiding place.”

Lately I have been feeling like God is answering my prayers about being easily overwhelmed. As I have mentioned before, most times I pray for something there is something I am asked to do to get the answer. You can’t get something for nothing. Part of the answer is to make me stronger. I have to be able to drive so God has been sending me places to go. For example I got a card to get my emissions test done on the car. I had to look up where to go to get the test done. I will have to rely on my GPS once again to get me there when I’m ready to get the test done. I’m pretty sure after I complete that task, another task aka quest will be on it’s way! Before long driving to do something will be normal and won’t be something to fear.

How does God work with you on things like this? Is there something you have prayed about and it doesn’t seem like there has been an answer? Can you see an answer in the questions?

overwhelmed” in the English Ordinal system equals 130 (one yes, no, may be into the unknown)

“Jackie” in the English Ordinal system equals 39

“Can you see an answer in the questions” in the English Ordinal system equals 398

1 April 2021 Chosen

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you doing today? I hope you are well. Today has been about choices and or being chosen. I signed up for the Tinder dating app and have been told that if you sign up for that you are just looking for sex! Well no that’s not my intention! I want to develop a friendship first before any of that! Ideally I have been hoping to meet someone in the natural and fall in love that way. I don’t want to settle and I want to choose wisely my next mate.

It’s been over a year since my husband and I separated. I have been waiting in vain for him to take me back. I think I have been kind of hoping all of this was just a bad dream but I am learning to accept that I have to move on. Part of moving on is finding someone new to share my life with. I don’t want to live alone so we shall see what God decides is best for me .

No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind had imagined what God has prepared for those who love him. 1 Corinthians 2:9 NLT

“body” in the English Ordinal system equals 46

“chosen” in the English Ordinal system equals 64

23 March 2021 Guidance

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you ? I am doing ok today. I got Link out for a walk early and sought to hear God’s voice and all I heard was the wind!

“Whether you turn to the right or to the left , your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it” Isaiah 30:21 NIV Bible Promises for You

It seems like I have been seeking more guidance from God and the harder I try the more difficult it has become. Talking to God used to be almost effortless. I have had to ask where is God really?! Is God in the wind? Is God in another persons voice? Is God in something to read?

I guess I am missing my manic relationship with God. When I was manic it felt like I was in a constant conversation with God and had to exert little to no effort. God was with me when I wanted to draw, write, sing, take photographs — all the ways I used to express myself God was there! I guess not being manic is the price my creative self is having to pay.

I have to believe that God has some sort of plan for me and what I’ve have been going through. Sometimes I wonder if what I’m going through is just God adding to my personal resume! God knows from my past that I will use my pain to help someone else. What I have learned from the past is we aren’t put through anything more than we can handle and what we go through can be used to connect more deeply with someone else.

Not many people know about what it means to be Bipolar and my family has had to learn a lot from me and what I have shared with them. God had me draw the mental health card for a reason and I will continue to seek guidance on where God’s voice is as I continue to go through that.

“body” in the English Ordinal system equals 46

“guidance” in the English Ordinal system equals 64

22 March 2021 Coffee Buddy

by saymber, posted in Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Leading Life by Example, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello, how are you ? It’s rainy and wet this morning but I didn’t let it stop me from going to get groceries!

This passage came to me this morning and and after reading it, I feel like it’s a perfect passage for what I am going through right now:

A Time for Everything Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

2     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
4     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

This past year I experienced a lot of things in this passage. One of the biggest being uprooted! I moved 1600 plus miles from Texas to Idaho. I am so grateful that I have had family here to help me.

Honestly it’s hard to figure out what God has planned for my time here on earth. Some days it feels like nothing makes sense; like there is no plan. Other times things will fall into place like there was a plan all a long! The in between time, the waiting part, can be so difficult.

What do I want for my time here on earth?! I think it’s simple things. A friend of mine asked me this morning what happy would look like for me and my answer was having a coffee buddy! It will be interesting to see how and when God manifests this!

“people” in the English Ordinal system equals 69

“coffee buddy” in the English Ordinal system equals 96 (no all vices in check but one)

18 March 2021 Help

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you, how are you today? I am doing alright. Even though it’s gray and overcast, it was nice for a walk with Link.

This morning I was asking for help writing to you today and I was lead to psalm 121:

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
    where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The Lord watches over you—
    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

7 The Lord will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;
8 the Lord will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

What a beautiful message about where to look for help. Lately I have been asking for God’s help. With more time on my hands, I have been lead to spend more time with God . I have seeking ways to be more useful and one way that came to me was praying for people but that doesn’t feel like enough.

This morning I wrote down, “God has a good plan for you.” Sometimes it takes awhile for a plan to made manifest and I must have patience!

“Jackie” in the English Ordinal system equals 39

“God has a good plan for you” in the English Ordinal system equals 239