healing from divorce

Hi. How are you? This is my second go around trying to write to you! I tried to talk to God today on the morning walk and there was nothing. I guess I was distracted by the trees in various stages of undress or the squirrel running across the road. It wasn’t until I got home and opened my Bible was there something:

Jesus answered him, “it is also written : Do not put the Lord your God to the test.” Matthew 4:7

What does it mean to test God? Is it kind of like asking a lion to jump through a hoop of fire? Asking God to do parlor tricks ? Praying prayers from a place of demanding something versus asking? In my world right now I am asking God to help me heal from the divorce. Asking not demanding. Sometimes memories of my past with him will cascade across my entire being. There is no comfort when that happens except God. Only an intangible can fit into an intangible. No testing here just seeking comfort.

“In all of this something there is someone God has made just for me. Right now without a name or specific form….just somebody “

I’ve been trying online dating and like my cousin and I were talking about online stuff is so much different now. Back in the early 2000’s when I met my ex it was a lot different… safer. Now there are so many scammers. I’ve encountered a few and they want your money not you. I find myself wanting to meet my new somebody in a natural way. Is that Gods plan?

Hello to you, how are you ? I hope this finds you doing well in your wherever and whenever. The topic that has come to mind lately is friendship. When you are divorced and or single this word comes up quite a bit. There are some phrases that come up like, “let’s just be friends,” “can’t we just be friends” ” friends but not lovers.” Isn’t there even a song about it?!

A big part of this, I think, has to do with healing after being broken. The not jumping back into something and or someone too fast. That said, the thought of this friendship process kind of puts me off a bit. How long should it take or is there any rules?

I have been using a dating site Match.com just to put myself back out there. I have had a couple of hits. Both of them are ending up in the friend zone because I am still healing.

So what does all this say in the numbers; lets see:

“friendship” in the English Ordinal system equals 108 (one unknown object in eternity process)

“one zero eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 147 (one left part of brain all vices in check)

one four seven” in the English Ordinal system equals 159 (one all senses in no process)

“one five nine ” in the English Ordinal system equals 118 (one in one eternity process)

“one one eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 117 ( one in one all vices in check)

“one one seven” in the English Ordinal system equals 133 (one in yes, no, may be yes, no, may be process)

“one three three” in the English Ordinal system equals 146 (one left side of brain, all vices in check but one process)

The way this reads has been kind of my experience with male to female friendships so far. It usually ends up not having all vices in check! Usually the one that isn’t in check is lust lol.

“friend zone” in the English Ordinal system equals 116 (one in one all vices in check but one)

“one one six” in the English Ordinal system equals 120 (one in light and shadow of self with known and or unknown object)

“one two zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 156 (one all senses all vices in check but one)

“one five six” in the English Ordinal system equals 128 (one in light and shadow of self with eternity )

one two eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 141 (one in left side of brain one self )

Tag: healing from divorce

30 October 2021 Somebody

25 August 2020 Just Friends