Hello again how are you?
Do you ever feel like having a good memory is both a blessing and a curse? Right now I am feeling like it is a curse of sorts. I want to move forward with my life but memories keep popping up that drag me backwards. When I get dragged backwards it’s a very visceral experience and a lot of times I feel it on a physical level. This is ironic because for so long I was lending my support to a program called Music and Memory! As of right now, I am unable to listen to much music now! So many songs I liked to listen to are connected to memories of the past 12+ years.
Is this why people smoke, drink and or do illegal drugs?!!!!
So I am going to ask a question in the numbers and see what comes out:
“Is having a good memory a blessing or a curse?” in the English Ordinal system equals 408 (left side of the brain, with people, place and or object in between in eternity and or the race track of life existence. Could the object be the brain or the memory?)
“four zero eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 173 (one all vices in check yes, no, may be existence)
“one seven three” in the English Ordinal system equals 155 (one all of the senses for light and shadow self)
“one five five” in the English Ordinal system equals 118 (one and one separated in eternity and or the racetrack of life existence)
“one one eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 117 (one and one separated all vices in check)
one one seven” in the English Ordinal system equals 133 (one yes, no may be for the light and shadow self)
“one three three” in the English Ordinal system equals 146 (one left side of brain all vices in check but one 46=Body)
“curse” in the English Ordinal system equals 66 (all vices in check but one both light and shadow of self)
“blessing” in the English Ordinal system equals 87 (eternity all vices in check)
“memory” in the English Ordinal system equals 89 (eternity and “nein” and or no existence)
“music” in the English Ordinal system equals 65 (all vices in check but one with all the senses)
To be 
Hello dear Saymber! I have been finding that I am being triggered through memories that are coming up in order to heal. Some of the wounds that I thought I had healed apparently aren’t fully healed, hence the trigger. Perhaps this will make sense to you? Be well. ❤️
You could be right misifusa may be that’s why I have such a strong physical reaction to some memories. I can be quite uncomfortable !
I agree that it is very uncomfortable, but once cleared, the wounds heal even more profoundly and life will flow again…sending you a hug!