Hello to you. How are you doing today? I am doing better than I was a few minutes ago. Mornings are really rough for me. I keep having feelings like I’m being pulled apart inside and it’s a horrible feeling. So what I do is go back my bedroom and do stuff like this and it kind of helps keep me from pulling apart completely.
Communication is helpful. I am starting to understand why people are addicted to their cell phones and other electronic devices. If it’s like for me, it’s a lifeline to the world. My cell phone and laptop help get me out of myself and connected with others so I don’t feel so alone. I never used to be this bad about being alone until I came out of the hospital this last time.
Decided to run a couple things through the gematria calculator got interesting results: ridingthebeast.com
“communication is important” in the English Ordinal system equals 304 (yes no may be in the unknown for the brain) also another way to look at it is one with brain in between.
“electronic devices help with loneliness” in the English Ordinal system equals 396 (yes no may be with no process of all vices in check but one).
electronic devices help with communication” in the English Ordinal system equals 422(brain process process) also self(42) process.
“communication by talking to another human being is helpful” in the English Ordinal system equals 569 (why people). why” in the English Ordinal system equals 56 “people” in the English Ordinal system equals 69
“Nomophobia” in the English ordinal system equals 108 (one unknown in eternity and or the race track of life) I also look at zero as an object that the numbers surround if that makes sense.
Nomophobia is a humorous word for the fear of, or anxiety caused by, not having a working mobile phone. It has been considered as a symptom or syndrome of problematic digital media use in mental health, the definitions of which are not standardized.
Hello. I haven’t written in a couple of days. I was fortunate this weekend and my neighbors decided to have a garage sale. I was able to sell several things and they gave me the money for it Now we don’t have to worry about the king mattress being at the curb or a couple other things. It was so nice of them to allow me to see some things in their sale. My husband and his dad came by on Saturday to get some the last of his things out of the house. I was happy to see them and so was Link but sad for the reason. Link howled like crazy again after they left. The noises Link was making is what I was feeling but not expressing inside. I did manage to get him calmed down after a walk and a Skype session with my cousins wife which soothed us both.
Sometimes you just need a friend!
I can feel myself resisting what is happening with this separation/pending divorce/home sale/moving process even though I’m doing the next right things. I have been fighting with myself inside a lot. All of this is provoking a lot of anxiety. I’m starting to wonder if I don’t need to talk to my doctor about an anti-anxiety as needed medication. I don’t want to be one of those people who pops pills for everything but I think I may need to about this. When I start t feel those feelings I don’t want to do anything but go crawl into bed!
I wish I could be like Link express myself and move on and not ruminate – just grab one of my toys and play and not be trapped in emotions!
The toy I do grab that helps some is my laptop it’s a DELL Inspiron 15 3000. The only problem is it gets so hot when I want to play video games on it. Very disappointing. So I mainly can use it for chatting and stuff like this. I should have know better.
As always thank you for stopping by and reading. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers.