19 August 2020 Communication

Hello to you.  How are you doing today?  I am doing better than I was a few minutes ago. Mornings are really rough for me.  I keep having feelings like I’m being pulled apart inside and it’s a horrible feeling.  So what I do is go back my bedroom and do stuff like this and it kind of helps keep me from pulling apart completely.

Communication is helpful.  I am starting to understand why people are addicted to their cell phones and other electronic devices.  If it’s like for me, it’s a lifeline to the world.  My cell phone and laptop help get me out of myself and connected with others so I don’t feel so alone. I never used to be this bad about being alone until I came out of the hospital this last time.

Decided to run a couple things through the gematria calculator got interesting results:  ridingthebeast.com

communication is important” in the English Ordinal system equals 304 (yes no may be in the unknown for the brain) also another way to look at it is one with brain in between.

electronic devices help with loneliness” in the English Ordinal system equals 396 (yes no may be with no process of all vices in check but one).

electronic devices help with communication” in the English Ordinal system equals 422(brain process process) also self(42) process.

communication by talking to another human being is helpful” in the English Ordinal system equals 569 (why people).  why” in the English Ordinal system equals 56 “people” in the English Ordinal system equals 69

Nomophobia” in the English ordinal system equals 108 (one unknown in eternity and or the race track of life) I also look at zero as an object that the numbers surround if that makes sense.

Drawing I did recently sorry it’s hard to see 

Nomophobia –

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Nomophobia is a humorous word for the fear of, or anxiety caused by, not having a working mobile phone. It has been considered as a symptom or syndrome of problematic digital media use in mental health, the definitions of which are not standardized.