Hello to you. How are you? I hope you are well. The word that came up today is resistance. I have been resisting some things because a part of me doesn’t want to believe this is my life now the way that it is.
“resistance” in the English Ordinal system equals 113 and look at that it’s a 13 in there! I was born on 13 February!
The biggest thing I have been resisting is the fact, and it is a fact, that I am a not a guest here in Idaho and I’m not going back to Texas. It’s simply my reality now. My stuff is in a storage unit here and the rest of my belongings to include Link are with me here in Idaho. I’m not going back. I really can’t go back. Once the house is sold that’s it for me and Texas. There are so many memories to overlay with new memories.
I can tell when I am resisting because I get hot flashes and also feel like I am being split into two parts. I don’t want to keep feeling this way so I have redirect my thoughts to the present moment.
Does any of this resonate with someone else? I hope that some or all of what I’m sharing helps someone else as much as it helps me to write about it.