Good morning. Well Link and I had our walk, eaten breakfast and now some laundry. I am grateful to be able to do those things after looking at the headlines for Michigan this morning – severe flooding.
I didn’t write yesterday. My husband had a journal for a little while when he was welding and he said it was a bit like may be a diary of a blacksmith back in the day, “Today, I made a sword.” The next day, “Today, I made a sword and a hammer.” It gets real dull after awhile. I honestly don’t have a lot to write about right now and feel a little dull!
I am still wrestling with myself about whether or not to keep my handwritten journals, I was talking with someone in the health chat program I’ve been using lately and they brought up a good point. Feelings come and go but once I get rid of the journals that’s it, they will be gone. There are memories from my current marriage like playing scrabble with my husbands Grandma before she died. I am having a real hard time thinking about tossing away stuff like that.
I spoke with my Care manager yesterday about my anxiety issues lately. He had a lot of the same ideas my cousins wife Tawna, who has a Masters in Psychology, had to offer. He suggested breathing exercises, yoga stretches, making a safe place for being in and visualizations. He suggested church groups, prayer, meditation and reaching out like I have been doing with family, friends and chats. He is calling me once a week now. It’s helpful to have a professional checking in and being able to talk to him.
Other than that, I am missing affection. Between social distancing and my husband and I being separated it is hard. I am grateful to have Link as he likes to cuddle and is affectionate. We are planning on getting together for Memorial Day (25th). I hope when I see him and his family there will be hugs even if we have to wear masks!