31 August 2020 What is helpful and what is harmful

Hello and how are you ? I hope you are doing o.k.  I have been having one of those mornings where everything is a raw nerve.  I decided to focus on what was more helpful than harmful.  What do I want versus what I don’t.

I want to wake up each day grateful to be alive.  I want to be able to listen to music, watch television and or movies again without fear of an anxiety attack.  I want to be able to socialize with people again without fear.  I want to be able to be myself without being ashamed.

There are many other things I am thinking I want but that would just be wishful thinking and that would be more harmful than helpful ,  I didn’t break these down to the  patterns point.  I thought it was interesting there is just one number different between the two!

What is helpful and what is harmful” in the English Ordinal system equals 338 (when I saw this I immediately saw the=33 balance=38)

helpful” in the English Ordinal system equals 80 (eternity and or racetrack of life up against an person, place and or object)

eight zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 113 (one one yes, no, may be existence)

one one three” in the English Ordinal system equals 124 (one light and shadow self right side of the brain)

 

harmful” in the English Ordinal system equals 79 (all vices in check in a “no” existence)

seven nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 107 (one person, place or object all vices in check)

one zero seven” in the English Ordinal system equals 163 (one all vices in check but one in a yes, no, may be existence)