Hello to you, how are you? This morning began with some tears during a therapy session with my counselor. We were trying to find the root cause of the anxious feelings I have been having. The more talked it over with her, the more I am realizing that this condition has been an ongoing thing.
What brought me to tears was thinking about letting go of my husband and moving on with my life. I realize that my fear of driving is just a symptom of my not wanting to make my current residence a home. If I get familiar with this place and get to know my way around that means my marriage is truly over (which it is).
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” 1 Peter 5:7 NIV
I keep getting an “anxious belly” meaning I will think about something and I will feel it. I have been talking to my therapist about this for quite some time ad she says the only way to get over this is to go through what I am avoiding. I’m just not ready yet…..I am slow about this!
Letting go is more than just the context of what I’m writing here, it’s also about my life in general – to let go and let God. I say I believe and trust in God but my actions don’t always match up to that . In some ways I hold on so tight. It makes me think of riding on a roller coaster with my husband one time and how he said “It doesn’t matter how tight you hold on you aren’t in control.” You can say that about a life too. No matter how tight you hold on to your life, you aren’t entirely in control of it.
“letting go” in the English Ordinal system equals 109 ( one resisting the unknown)
“happy ” in the English Ordinal system equals 66
““It doesn’t matter how tight you hold on you aren’t in control.” ” in the English Ordinal system equals 661
2 thoughts on “25 March 2021 Letting go”
Control is an illusion but we all have responsibility.
I agree, thanks for visit Tom.