Hello to you. How are you today? I am trying to start my day off right. I made myself some breakfast and am trying to stay in the present moment which is kind of hard. I have a lot on my mind these days with everything that is going on. I know I’m not alone. Each of us has a lot going on, it’s just a little different and varying degree for each person and situation.
So I am dealing with some anxiety I can’t seem to shake. I miss my husband and the life we had together with Link and Spot when it was good. I’m having to find what my life is now and it’s tough some moments. It’s become a moment to moment sort of thing. Through the wonders of technology I’ve managed to get closer to my family and some friends again. I have found a couple chat rooms to be a helpful resource of being able to talk to people so I don’t feel so alone. I’ve just been doing whatever I find is helpful to do to try and keep the anxiety and fear at bay.
Yesterday I got a little relief from my feelings by clearing some stuff out my husband and I don’t want to move. My neighbors wanted some of the furniture we wanted to part with and I was only to happy to give it to them! Things are narrowing down in the house to easy to move, easy to pack and that’s what we want.
I think the interacting with people and the physical exertion of moving the furniture helped me feel better inside. I have been a bundle of nerves for several days now. So much uncertainty. I can imagine what I’m feeling is might be what people who have jobs and can’t work now are feeling because of the pandemic. It’s definitely a feeling of being powerless.
So the house echo’s more now with less in it….kind of a weird thing but it’s just part of the clearing out process we are going through. I’m sitting here with a laptop thinking of when my husband, Sam, May and Amber and I first got to this house. We arrived and all we had were pillows, suitcases and a laptop. I feeling things going full circle again in a way…but it’s just Link and me right now.
For whatever reason this is part of what God wants me to go through right now and I have to face it. No matter how alone I may feel at times the past couple weeks have shown me I’m not. I thankfully have Link. There are people, to include my husband who care and are there for me if I need help. I’m just having to do something that has never been easy for me and that is to ask.
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