Hello, how are you? I am doing well as I write to you late this sunny Sunday afternoon. The past few days I have been trying to pay more close attention to my thoughts and how they are associated with my feelings. This passage resonated:

Isaiah 55:8-11New International Version

⁸ “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
⁹ “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.
¹⁰ As the rain and the snow
    come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
    without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
    so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
¹¹ so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

As an empath, I have lived most of my life as a “feeler.” This past year living like that has been very difficult for me. To feel every little thing so deeply riddled me with anxiety and paralyzed me with fear.

With the help of God through friends and family I am learning to find a balance between my thoughts and the feelings those thoughts evoke. A couple simple phrases when I think something and feel anxious is, “it’s just a thought” or “it’s just a feeling” or “This is just a feeling it will pass it always does.”

I am gradually learning to take control of my thoughts and how I choose to feel about those thoughts. I learned about this from the program I mentioned in my previous blog. In some ways anxiety is just a bad habit that can be broken. So gradually, over time, I hope to reprogram myself and get back to some semblance of who I used to be.

“thoughts” in the English Ordinal system equals 118 (two parts of one in eternity)