Good morning to you how are you? I hope this finds you well. Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life and no matter what you do you can’t seem to fill it. A huge void, That is what it’s like to be me this past year. I have tried people, places, food and things and nothing has worked to fill the void. I have known from past experiences that there is only one thing that can fill the intangible void and that is God, Source, Spirit, Universe…..the intangible “I am.”
I have written about this many times in my life; usually to try and console someone else! I was writing from a place of having. I had a husband who loved me, I had a house of my dreams and I wasn’t wanting for much of anything. It was easy to write about all of this then and now I am writing from the other end of spectrum – chronic loneliness and wanting ….not having.
How do solitaries do it?! How do people live without anything tangible?! How do I learn to live where an intangible God is enough? I long so much for a hug, a kiss, a face to face word each and every day and there is none to be had. I pray to God and ask for their presence and I find myself greeted by a dog when I want to be greeted by a man.
All I can think is there is something God is trying to teach me and until I learn it, I will be alone in the intangible void that is me right now.
Let’s see what Filling the Void is in the numbers:
“earth” in the English Ordinal system equals 52
“Filling the Void” in the English Ordinal system equals 152
To be 
My wonderful, magical wife passed last October. It isn’t easy. Even in a group of people, one is alone.
My condolences for your loss Tom. Divorce is kind of like a death at least that is how it’s felt for me. I can’t imagine how hard it must be for you and I hope you have a good support system.