20 Feb 2021 Getting up

Hello, how are you you doing today? I am finally getting up and engaging in the day. It’s so hard for me to do that and it never used to be. I used to be able to get up in the morning no problem. There was a routine and it just flowed. Now that I am alone with Link I am having to figure out a new routine and even after all these months, I’m still having trouble.

There is an anxiety inside of me first thing in the morning. What am I going to do with my day? Does it even matter if I get up? What is my purpose and or reason for getting up – do I even have one? Some people pray and or meditate. Some people get up and go to the gym and or exercise. The most that really gets me up these days is letting Link outside to go to the bathroom!

Lets see what Getting up looks like in the number numbers:

getting up ” in the English Ordinal system equals 119 – just by looking at this number is looks like a struggle of the inside and outside of self with a “no” existence.