11 Nov 2018 Peace

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well in your where and when as you visit here.  Kyle and I had a rare adventure yesterday and went to the Steampunk November festival.   We didn’t stay long but did get the honor or talking to and listening to some very good people.  This morning we enjoyed some lovely tea we acquired.  There was books with folded pages, bad yet funny poetry, music and bonfires to sit by and enjoy the atmosphere around us.  Kyle found a treasure of his own as did I.  It was just great to be in the presence of so many creative and interesting souls.  We are grateful.  Our many thanks to the organizers, vendors and performers that make the gathering so special.

Today is a day to honor Veteran’s living and those who have passed on.  The best way I can think to honor them (me as I too am a Veteran) is to “be peace” in your world.  All these folks fought and far too many died for us to still be harming each other with violence via all the weapons we have at our disposal these days made both of metal and words.

*Metropolis is name of important silent film this movie quote is from

*the mediator between the head and the hands must be the heart in Simple Gematria equals: 506

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

metropolis in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

veterans day in Simple Gematria equals: 134

8/4/2/1

steampunk november in Simple Gematria equals: 214

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

heart of iron in Simple Gematria equals: 129

12/6/3 cycle

people of love and peace in Simple Gematria equals: 193

13/4/2/1 or 13 Divided by 2 = 6.5 =11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 1318

58/13/4/2/1 or 13 Divided by 2 = 6.5 =11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

blessed are the makers of peace in Simple Gematria equals: 241

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*1776 – number/date that came up today that has a lot to do with war and peace in this country

https://saymber.com/2018/06/14/14-june-2018-mediator-metropolis-1927/

https://saymber.com/2015/04/18/18-april-2015-metropolis-1927-the-mediator-between-the-head-and-the-hands-must-be-the-heart/

 

Blue Oyster Cult: Veteran of the Psychic Wars

*veteran of the psychic wars in Simple Gematria equals: 283/13*

Veteran of the Psychic Wars

You’re seeing now a veteran of a thousand psychic wars,
I’ve been living on the edge so long, where the winds of Limbo roar.
And I’m young enough to look at,
And far old to see, all the stars are on the inside.
I’m not sure that’s there’s anything left to me

Don’t let these shakes go on!
It’s time we had a break from it,
It’s time we had some leave.
We’ve been living in a place,
We’ve been eating up our brains.
Oh please don’t let these shakes go on!

You ask me why I’m willing, why I can’t speak to you,
You blame me for my silence, saying it’s time I changed and grew.
But the wars still going on dear,
And there’s no one that I know.
And I can’t stand forever.

I can’t say if were ever gonna be free,
Don’t let these shakes go on!
It’s time we had a break from it,
It’s time we had some leave.
We’ve been living in a place,
We’ve been eating up our brains,
Oh please don’t let these shakes go on!

You’re seeing now a veteran of a thousand psychic wars,
My energy is spent at last, and my armor is destroyed,
I have used up all my weapons, and I’m helpless and bereaved.

Wounds are all I’m made of!
Did I hear you say that this is victory?
Don’t let these shakes go on!
It’s time we had a break from it,Send me to the rear!
Where the title madness swell,
And been sliding into Hell.

Oh please don’t let these shakes go on!
Don’t let these shakes go on
Don’t let these shakes go on!

Songwriters: MICHAEL MOORCOCK
© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind
peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30
3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle
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21 Oct 2018 Drawing Meditations in Numbers and Being Real (Smooth McGroove)

(the numbers in the first drawing, this is just stuff that came to me yesterday in thinking about my life and also current events)

27 = Red 104 = Versus 40 = Blue = 171

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nothing = 87 Ever = 50 Changes = 57 = 194

(The faces, places and specific circumstances may appear different, may give us the illusion of change and the passage of time,  but the underlying stories remain the same all the way back to our beginning.  I feel like that is because much is unresolved and just keeps on rolling forward into each new generation of life.)

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cycle = 48

12/6/3 cycle

Dad = 414

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Sun = 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

= 881

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

We found Smooth McGroove on our morning journey through You Tube and really enjoyed what we found.  He does these types of videos for video game music as well.  I enjoyed one of his latest videos talking about “being real” on You tube and in whatever you do.  A message I needed today.  Thank you Smooth McGroove!

Everytime – A Failed Kitty Romance 😿 Acapella by Smooth McGroove (Boy Pablo cover)

Published on Feb 10, 2018

After hearing this song, I decided it was actually about my cat Charl and Dahli, my parents’ cat 😺 They’ve never met, so she literally doesn’t know who he is.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve done anything besides video game music, and almost five years to the day that “My Cat Knows What You Do in the Dark” came out. Hope you guys enjoy!

Being real on YouTube

Published on Mar 3, 2018

Over the years I’ve seen people starting YouTube channels for the wrong reasons and, because of that, they have a hard time. This video is me trying to explain why I think being yourself, being real, is the most important foundation to start any creative project.

I hope this video helps anyone who has hit blocks with their own channel or in their creative life. Being on YouTube these past five-plus years has taught me a few things so I thought I’d try and share these lessons as best as I could.

I really appreciate all the people who shared their stories after the previous video. I can’t respond to them all but I’ve read most of them and I’m glad that the video could help in any way!

Being comfortable in your own skin and being your own best friend isn’t easy to do.  From what I’ve seen of even those the most comfortable in who and what they are, the forces of the external world don’t allow them to be that without interruption:

being real in Simple Gematria equals: 73

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 128

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

to thine own self be true in Simple Gematria equals: 256

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

inner critic in Simple Gematria equals: 122

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

criticism in Simple Gematria equals: 103

4/2/1

being your own worst enemy in Simple Gematria equals: 325

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

finding balance in Simple Gematria equals: 101

2/1

=1108

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

20 Oct 2018 A Salmon

https://www.gematrix.org/

turn it out in Simple Gematria equals: 158

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

turn it in in Simple Gematria equals: 125

8/4/2/1

turn away in Simple Gematria equals: 123

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

fight in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

flight in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

apathy in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 cycle

abandoned in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

rebellion in Simple Gematria equals: 92

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 859  (13 and 9 are numbers that come up a lot for me personally)

22/4/2/1 or 22 divided by 2 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

What the numbers come to in this line of thinking describes me well.  I often feel like one of those salmon swimming upstream in this world.

 

Source Internet: Sometimes I feel like the salmon in this picture.

salmon swimming upstream in Simple Gematria equals: 294

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

 

Smoke Signals (12/12) Movie CLIP – To Forgive Our Fathers (1998) HD   – excerpt from one of my favorite movies of all time.  I’ve shared this before but felt it was time again to revisit this wisdom.  I love my Dad so much but I know some day he will have to move on to his next great adventure without me.  I am coming to terms these days with how I will manage to be here without him.  Will I be able to forgive him for leaving me here. 

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120321/quotes

Thomas Builds-the-Fire: How do we forgive our fathers? Maybe in a dream. Do we forgive our fathers for leaving us too often, or forever, when we were little? Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage, or making us nervous because there never seemed to be any rage there at all? Do we forgive our fathers for marrying, or not marrying, our mothers? Or divorcing, or not divorcing, our mothers? And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness? Shall we forgive them for pushing, or leaning? For shutting doors or speaking through walls? For never speaking, or never being silent? Do we forgive our fathers in our age, or in theirs? Or in their deaths, saying it to them or not saying it. If we forgive our fathers, what is left?

Source is internet: This says it all for me about the landscape of this world today.

9 Sept 2018 Defragging (drawing) and Pluto

Hi there.  Hope this finds you well in your present moment.  As you may have noticed I’ve not been doing so much outdoor chalk drawing lately.  Part of it is because of the wonderful wet weather we’ve been experiencing here lately and part of it something strange that happened to me with color.  I started to make associations, sometimes negative ones, with colors.  The same thing that I was experiencing with specific objects, some of which got broken.  Just taking a break from it and retreating back to pencils and pens for a bit.  Honestly, I’ve never been comfortable with adding color to my art.  It’s such a commitment!  This past Friday I told my friend who has a couple of my paintings that she has proof I stepped out of my comfort zone!

Do you remember the scene in the movie Close Encounters when Richard Dreyfuss character Roy Neary is shaping his mashed potatoes into Devil’s Tower and exclaims, “This MEANS something!?”  Wife is vexed, kids crying in the “Daddy your scaring me” sort of way and there he is trying to explain himself to people who just can’t understand the fuck it is he’s thinking and doing with those mashed potatoes!

Close Encounters Of The Third Kind Mashed Potatoes

Published on May 30, 2011

Dinner scene in the 1977 classic movie ‘Close Encounters of the Third Kind’ from director Steven Spielberg. Starring Richard Dreyfuss. Roy Neary (Richard Dreyfuss) can’t get the image of the Devil’s Tower out of his head, and creates the shape of it in mashed potatoes…
Copyright © 1977 Columbia Pictures. All Rights Reserved.

Life is kind of like that for me sometimes lol!  What the fuck is she thinking?!  What the fuck is she doing?!  What is wrong with her?!  Thankfully my dogs just want to be along for the ride and my husband actually gets the meaning behind most of my art and other expressions.  Sometimes we’ve been known to both shape our piles of mashed potatoes into Devil’s Tower, look at each other and not have to say it.

Some of you may find my “numbers thing” odd.  It’s become for me what doing a crossword puzzle or Suduko might be for someone else.  I am finding there is honesty in numbers that I don’t always find in words.   Like people, words don’t always mean what they say.

8 Sept 2018 – Drawing I did yesterday thinking about how meditating, praying, having a moment of silence is like defragging ourselves.

“Defragging a computer” = 190/10/1

Defragment = 93/12/3 cycle

Prayer = 83/11/2/1

Pray = 60/6/3 cycle

Meditate = 77/14/5   (talk about an intersection in the numbers, #Christ =77)

Chant = 46/10/1

“Moment of silence” = 168/15/6/3 cycle

= 717/15/6/3 cycle

“It all passes through, let it go” = 318/12/3 cycle  (one of my mantras when I’m trying to calm myself down)

anxiety = 98/17/8/4/2/1

fear = 30/3 cycle

worry = 99/18/9 cycle

happiness = 107/8/4/2/1

emotion = 91/10/1

feeling = 58/13/4/2/1

= 483/15/6/3 cycle (the numeric value of my mantra is in the numeric summary of words associated with it.)

= 1518/168/15/6/3 cycle (adding it all up) = “Moment of silence” = 168/15/6/3 cycle

 

Side note – saw just this morning they are taking another look at Pluto.  Just yesterday afternoon I was thinking about this too!  I added it back in and it seems to make sense to do that.  :

“Milky Way Galaxy” = 189/18/9 cycle

166 + 752 = 918 (same numeric values as Milky Way Galaxy)

“Solar system” = 166/12/13/4/2/1

Mercury = 103/4/2/1 Venus = 81/9 cycle Earth = 52/7 Mars = 51/6/3 cycle

Jupiter = 99/18/9 cycle Saturn = 93/12/3 cycle Uranus = 94/13/4/2/1

Neptune = 95/14/5

= 668/20/2 or 38/11/2

Pluto = 84/12/3 cycle

668 + 84 = 752/14/5 or 41/5  (5 like a celestial body?  celestial body = 132/6/3 cycle)

 

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/09/180907110422.htm

Science News
from research organizations

Pluto should be reclassified as a planet, experts say

Date:
September 7, 2018
Source:
University of Central Florida
Summary:
The reason Pluto lost its planet status is not valid, according to new research.

8 Sept 2018 Keeping things together (drawing)

7 Sept 2018 – Trying to keep myself together. 

“Keeping things together = 242/8/4/2/1”

Duran Duran – Come Undone = 225/9 cycle

Tears For Fears – Shout = 234/9 cycle

3 Sept 2018 “The Tree” (Dream)

3 Sept 2018 – Drawing I did last night. It was hard to concentrate. I guess they have started hunting again or something. It’s unnerving to hear gunfire so close to a residential area these days.

Hello to you.  As I write there is very gentle rain and I’m so grateful for that.  It was getting dry here again.

It’s Labor Day again and a day to remember all those laborers of the past who literally died so people of today could have this day off of work:  https://www.history.com/topics/holidays/labor-day – there is video and more information at this link

“Many of these events turned violent during this period, including the infamous Haymarket Riot of 1886, in which several Chicago policemen and workers were killed. Others gave rise to longstanding traditions: On September 5, 1882, 10,000 workers took unpaid time off to march from City Hall to Union Square in New York City, holding the first Labor Day parade in U.S. history.

I stayed in bed a bit longer than Kyle did this morning and had an interesting dream while doing so.  It was about a woman remembering a story about her Grandma asking to speak to “The tree.”  It appeared in her room but she was afraid and then she couldn’t see it.   So she asked again.  Then the woman found her Grandma nearly dying face down on the floor when The Black Tree appeared again, but she was able to wake her, she wasn’t dead yet.

CAT PEOPLE — Irena’s Dream  (One of my cult classic films from childhood)

Source is internet:  3 Sept 2018 – “The tree “in the dream makes me think of Cat People. It looked like a shadow of a tree; a black tree.

My Grandma’s taught me a lot about nature as I was growing up and to respect it – especially the flowers and the trees.  I miss my Grandma Schmidt’s beautiful flowers – especially her giant roses!  I miss my Grandma Becker and our walks in her neighborhood where she would point out her favorite trees and tell me about them.  How each one was an individual and had its own personality just like people.

In my own experience with trees, I would say the same.  I have mourned for trees that were taken in storms or by sickness.  I have sensed when a tree wasn’t feeling well by putting my hands on it.  I have listened to the wind blowing through the trees living around me and hearing a sound like cheering… “Hurray!” but in a whisper.  Through them I have learned about the cycles of life and how there is hope when you look at their life cycles.   Just one tree is a whole eco-system!  I suspect that when you take off your shoes and socks and stand on the ground, you are plugging yourself into the tree network!  Who knows for sure but the God who made all this wonder.

I found this interesting article to share on the subject.  May be there is something in it for you too:

https://qz.com/1116991/a-biologist-believes-that-trees-speak-a-language-we-can-learn/

WHISPERING PINES

A biologist believes that trees speak a language we can learn

By Ephrat Livni November 3, 2017

I’m in a redwood forest in Santa Cruz, California, taking dictation for the trees outside my cabin. They speak constantly, even if quietly, communicating above- and underground using sound, scents, signals, and vibes. They’re naturally networking, connected with everything that exists, including you.

Biologists, ecologists, foresters, and naturalists increasingly argue that trees speak, and that humans can learn to hear this language.

Many people struggle with this concept because they can’t perceive that trees are interconnected, argues biologist George David Haskell in his 2017 book The Songs of Trees. Connection in a network, Haskell says, necessitates communication and breeds languages; understanding that nature is a network is the first step in hearing trees talk.

For the average global citizen, living far from the forest, that probably seems abstract to the point of absurdity. Haskell points readers to the Amazon rainforest in Ecuador for practical guidance. To the Waorani people living there, nature’s networked character and the idea of communication among all living things seems obvious. In fact, the relationships between trees and other lifeforms are reflected in Waorani language.

In Waorani, things are described not only by their general type, but also by the other beings surrounding them. So, for example, any one ceibo tree isn’t a “ceibo tree” but is “the ivy-wrapped ceibo,” and another is “the mossy ceibo with black mushrooms.” In fact, anthropologists trying to classify and translate Waorani words into English struggle because, Haskell writes, “when pressed by interviewers, Waorani ‘could not bring themselves’ to give individual names for what Westerners call ‘tree species’ without describing ecological context such as the composition of the surrounding vegetation.”

Because they relate to the trees as live beings with intimate ties to surrounding people and other creatures, the Waorani aren’t alarmed by the notion that a tree might scream when cut, or surprised that harming a tree should cause trouble for humans. The lesson city-dwellers should take from the Waorani, Haskell says, is that “dogmas of separation fragment the community of life; they wall humans in a lonely room. We must ask the question: ‘can we find an ethic of full earthly belonging?’”

There’s room at the Redwood Inn.

Haskell points out that throughout literary and musical history there are references to the songs of trees, and the way they speak: whispering pines, falling branches, crackling leaves, the steady hum buzzing through the forest. Human artists have always known on a fundamental level that trees talk, even if they don’t quite say they have a “language.”

Redefining communication

Tree language is a totally obvious concept to ecologist Suzanne Simard, who has spent 30 years studying forests. In June 2016, she gave a Ted Talk (which now has nearly 2.5 million views), called “How Trees Talk to Each Other.”

Simard grew up in the forests of British Columbia in Canada, studied forestry, and worked in the logging industry. She felt conflicted about cutting down trees, and decided to return to school to study the science of tree communication. Now, Simard teaches ecology at the University of British Columbia-Vancouver and researches “below-ground fungal networks that connect trees and facilitate underground inter-tree communication and interaction,” she says. As she explained to her Ted Talk audience:

“I want to change the way you think about forests. You see, underground there is this other world, a world of infinite biological pathways that connect trees and allow them to communicate and allow the forest to behave as though it’s a single organism. It might remind you of a sort of intelligence.”

Trees exchange chemicals with fungus, and send seeds—essentially information packets—with wind, birds, bats, and other visitors for delivery around the world. Simard specializes in the underground relationships of trees. Her research shows that below the earth are vast networks of roots working with fungi to move water, carbon, and nutrients among trees of all species. These complex, symbiotic networks mimic human neural and social networks. They even have mother trees at various centers, managing information flow, and the interconnectedness helps a slew of live things fight disease and survive together.

Simard argues that this exchange is communication, albeit in a language alien to us. And there’s a lesson to be learned from how forests relate, she says. There’s a lot of cooperation, rather than just competition among and between species as was previously believed.

Peter Wohlleben came to a similar realization while working his job managing an ancient birch forest in Germany. He told the Guardian he started noticing trees had complex social lives after stumbling upon an old stump still living after about 500 years, with no leaves. “Every living being needs nutrition,” Wohlleben said. “The only explanation was that it was supported by the neighbor trees via the roots with a sugar solution. As a forester, I learned that trees are competitors that struggle against each other, for light, for space, and there I saw that it’s just [the opposite]. Trees are very interested in keeping every member of this community alive.” He believes that they, like humans, have family lives in addition to relationships with other species. The discovery led him to write a book, The Hidden Life of Trees.

By being aware of all living things’ inter-reliance, Simard argues, humans can be wiser about maintaining mother trees who pass on wisdom from one tree generation to the next. She believes it could lead to a more sustainable commercial-wood industry: in a forest, a mother tree is connected to hundreds of other trees, sending excess carbon through delicate networks to seeds below ground, ensuring much greater seedling survival rates.

Foreign language studies

Biology’s philosophers in dialogue.

Seedling survival is important to human beings because we need trees. “The contributions of forests to the well-being of humankind are extraordinarily vast and far-reaching,” according to the United Nations Food and Agriculture Organization 2016 report on world forests (pdf).

Forests are key to combating rural poverty, ensuring food security, providing livelihoods, supplying clean air and water, maintaining biodiversity, and mitigating climate change, the FAO says. The agency reports that progress is being made toward better worldwide forest conservation but more must be done, given the importance of forests to human survival.

Most scientists—and trees—would no doubt agree that conservation is key. Haskell believes that ecologically friendly policies would naturally become a priority for people if we’d recognize that trees are masters of connection and communication, managing complex networks that include us. He calls trees “biology’s philosophers,” dialoguing over the ages, and offering up a quiet wisdom. We should listen, the biologist says, because they know what they’re talking about. Haskell writes, “Because they are not mobile, to thrive they must know their particular locus on the Earth far better than any wandering animal.”

 

30 Aug 2018 A Long Time Ago (1990’s) and Hold On (Wilson Phillips)

Hello to you.  Doesn’t it seem like 1990 was such a long time ago?!  A whopping 28 years!  So much has happened for those of us that have been here all that time.  Today I had a pity party for myself.  Sometimes it’s good to cry it out, bitch, whine and moan a bit.   To point at the piles of dog poop in the backyard and make self comparisons…”yeah that one is definitely me today.”   My poor backyard that has to listen to this!  I had a bird walk by me while I was sitting out back tonight blubbering.  It stopped and just stared at me with that”what is your problem” look.  Kept on walking.  Anyways, I hope this finds you well.  If you are feeling a bit low too, just do the best you can.  Remember, it’s inside work!

Nineteen ninety = 173

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billboard_Year-End_Hot_100_singles_of_1990

Hold on = 68  by Wilson Phillips = 193 Number One = 107 = 368  (I was born in 1968 – go figure!  Perfect song and message for me today!)

Wilson Phillips – Hold On

Hold On

I know there’s pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don’t ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You’ve got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin’ your worries pass you by
Don’t you think it’s worth your time
To change your mind?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won’t you tell me now
Hold on for one more day ‘Cause
It’s gonna go your way

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can’t you change it this time

Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

Songwriters: Carnie Wilson,Chynna Phillips,Glen Ballard
© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

 

 

 

28 Aug 2018 Zero

https://www.gematrix.org/?word=

Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Poor Teacher = 124/7

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Yeah

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

Songwriters: DAVID BOWIE
© TINTORETTO MUSIC
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

20 Aug 2018 Black Panther (movie), Dishwasher and outdoor chalk meditation with words and numbers

Hello.  I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are.  I’ve had a lot of places around the world on my mind and you will see them in my pictures today.  We finally got to see the Marvel movie Black Panther last night.  Our friend who has moved back home brought it over last night so we could see it.  I really enjoyed it.  It was refreshing for me to see African culture woven into a superhero story that speaks so loudly to the times we are in.  I was glad that they brought forth to give arms to the oppressed and set them out against their oppressors makes them no better. You just become what you hate and the cycle continues.  Just a different version of tyranny.  There are other ways to win these sort of wars and this story was told too.  Well done!

BLACK PANTHER Trailer 2 Extended) Marvel 2018

We have a dishwasher again!  Kyle’s parents purchased some new appliances and changed out the Miele they had.  It was still in excellent working so we said we’d take it.   We had bought a Whirlpool July of 2015 and it stopped working just after the warranty on it expired!  It’s curbside as I write.  May be someone who is into fixing things will pick it up and be able to get it operating again.  Our poor Link howled like a wolf for a couple of hours after they left!  He acts just like a toddler when he does that.  Just stands at the window and cries.

Yesterday afternoon I was, I want to say seized, by a meditation.  It started with a my drawing a young Indian (India) woman in water. I was thinking/praying about the flooding going on over there right now.  Things just went from there!  This is what happens to me once I get on a train of thought!  There is much here.  For many it will not resonate.  This is for those who enjoy the thought process and riddles numbers and words put together can produce!  This process can be quite enthralling.  It even got me into a bit of trouble this morning! I was doing this sort of thing instead of getting the dogs walked while Kyle got groceries!  Opps!

Origin of numbers:

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Hindu-Arabic-numerals

Hindu-Arabic numerals

Written By:

The Editors of Encyclopaedia Britannica

See Article History

Alternative Title: Arabic numeral

Hindu-Arabic numerals, set of 10 symbols—1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 0—that represent numbers in the decimal number system. They originated in India in the 6th or 7th century and were introduced to Europe through the writings of Middle Eastern mathematicians, especially al-Khwarizmi and al-Kindi, about the 12th century. They represented a profound break with previous methods of counting, such as the abacus, and paved the way for the development of algebra.

Origin of letters:

http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/alphabet.html

The Origin of the Alphabet


In Chinese: 字母表的起源 (translated by Liu Yu)

The original alphabet was developed by a Semitic people living in or near Egypt.*  They based it on the idea developed by the Egyptians, but used their own specific symbols.  It was quickly adopted by their neighbors and relatives to the east and north, the Canaanites, the Hebrews, and the Phoenicians.  The Phoenicians spread their alphabet to other people of the Near East and Asia Minor, as well as to the Arabs, the Greeks, and the Etruscans, and as far west as present day Spain.  The letters and names on the left are the ones used by the Phoenicians.  The letters on the right are possible earlier versions. If you don’t recognize the letters, keep in mind that they have since been reversed (since the Phoenicians wrote from right to left) and often turned on their sides!

‘aleph, the ox, began as the image of an ox’s head.  It represents a glottal stop before a vowel.  The Greeks, needing vowel symbols, used it for alpha (A).  The Romans used it as A.
Beth, the house, may have derived from a more rectangular Egyptian alphabetic glyph of a reed shelter (but which stood for the sound h). The Greeks called it beta (B), and it was passed on to the Romans as B.
Gimel, the camel, may have originally been the image of a boomerang-like throwing stick.  The Greeks called it gamma (Γ).  The Etruscans — who had no g sound — used it for the k sound, and passed it on to the Romans as C.  They in turn added a short bar to it to make it do double duty as G.
Daleth, the door, may have originally been a fish!  The Greeks turned it into delta (Δ), and passed it on to the Romans as D.
He may have meant window, but originally represented a man, facing us with raised arms, calling out or praying.  The Greeks used it for the vowel epsilon (E, “simple E”).  The Romans used it as E.
Waw, the hook, may originally have represented a mace.  The Greeks used one version of waw which looked like our F, which they called digamma, for the number 6.  This was used by the Etruscans for v, and they passed it on to the Romans as F.   The Greeks had a second version — upsilon (Υ)– which they moved to to the back of their alphabet.  The Romans used a version of upsilon for V, which later would be written U as well, then adopted the Greek form as Y.  In 7th century England, the W — “double-u” — was created.
Zayin may have meant sword or some other kind of weapon.  The Greeks used it for zeta (Z). The Romans only adopted it later as Z, and put it at the end of their alphabet.
H.eth, the fence, was a “deep throat” (pharyngeal) consonant.  The Greeks used it for the vowel eta (H), but the Romans used it for H.
Teth may have originally represented a spindle.  The Greeks used it for theta (Θ), but the Romans, who did not have the th sound, dropped it.
Yodh, the hand, began as a representation of the entire arm.  The Greeks used a highly simplified version of it for iota (Ι).  The Romans used it as I, and later added a variation for J.
Kaph, the hollow or palm of the hand, was adopted by the Greeks for kappa (K) and passed it on to the Romans as K.
Lamedh began as a picture of an ox stick or goad. The Greeks used it for lambda (Λ).  The Romans turned it into L.
Mem, the water, became the Greek mu (M).  The Romans kept it as M.
Nun, the fish, was originally a snake or eel.  The Greeks used it for nu (N), and the Romans for N.
Samekh, which also meant fish, is of uncertain origin.  It may have originally represented a tent peg or some kind of support.  It bears a strong resemblance to the Egyptian djed pillar seen in many sacred carvings.  The Greeks used it for xi (Ξ) and a simplified variation of it for chi (X).  The Romans kept only the variation as X.
‘ayin, the eye, was another “deep throat” consonant.  The Greeks used it for omicron (O, “little O”).  They developed a variation of it for omega (Ω, “big O”), and put it at the end of their alphabet.  The Romans kept the original for O.
Pe, the mouth, may have originally been a symbol for a corner.  The Greeks used it for pi (Π).  The Romans closed up one side and turned it into P.
Sade, a sound between s and sh, is of uncertain origin.  It may have originally been a symbol for a plant, but later looks more like a fish hook.  The Greeks did not use it, although an odd variation does show up as sampi (Ϡ), a symbol for 900.  The Etruscans used it in the shape of an M for their sh sound, but the Romans had no need for it.
Qoph, the monkey, may have originally represented a knot.  It was used for a sound similar to k but further back in the mouth.  The Greeks only used it for the number 90 (Ϙ), but the Etruscans and Romans kept it for Q.
Resh, the head, was used by the Greeks for rho (P).  The Romans added a line to differentiate it from their P and made it R.
Shin, the tooth, may have originally represented a bow.  Although it was first pronounced sh, the Greeks used it sideways for sigma (Σ).  The Romans rounded it to make S.
Taw, the mark, was used by the Greeks for tau (T).  The Romans used it for T.

The Greek letter phi (Φ) was already common among the Anatolians in what is now Turkey. Psi (Ψ) appears to have been invented by the Greeks themselves, perhaps based on Poseidon’s trident.  For comparison, here is the complete Greek alphabet:

* Until recently, it was believed that these people lived in the Sinai desert and began using their alphabet in the 1700’s bc.  In 1998, archeologist John Darnell discovered rock carvings in southern Egypt’s “Valley of Horrors” that push back the origin of the alphabet to the 1900’s bc or even earlier.  Details suggest that the inventors were Semitic people working in Egypt, who thereafter passed the idea on to their relatives further east.

 

From this morning!  I just want to stress that this is my interpretation of things, not anyone else’s.  Some may look at what I’m sharing and not agree or see things I don’t – even deeper.  I don’t know if there is a “right” or “wrong” but just different….that is where perception comes in.  We are each biologically incapable of perceiving life and what it is exactly the same way.  This goes for any life form on the planet – we were each given our own “car” to drive be it a fly or a human.

Zero = 64/10/1

One = 34/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (first time 7 and 8 appears)

Two = 58/13/4/2/1 (first time 13 appears)

Three = 56/11/2/1 (first time 11 appears)

Four = 60/6/3 cycle

Five = 42/6/3 cycle (60 + 42 = 102 = 3 cycle and 4 + 5 = 9 cycle)

Six = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Seven = 65/11/2/1 (when I see this is see two individuals in 11 that become 2 that become 1. 7 and 11 came up a lot in catastrophes I was puzzling out)

Seven Deadly Sins = 177/15/6/3 cycle (when you add up the numeric values of pride (52), covetousness (191), lust (72), anger (45), gluttony (134), envy (66) and sloth (74) you get 634/13 – taking us back to 2 either of self, perception or two separate people)

Catastrophe = 126/9 cycle

Eight = 49/13/4/2/1 (62, the value of Ate – the value of Eight 49 = 13! Interesting!)

Ate = 62/8/4/2/1 (Interesting that the word we use to describe consumption (159) both sounds like and comes to the value of the number 8.)

Eat = 26/8/4/2/1

Nine = 42/6/3 cycle

No = 29/11/2/1

Know = 63/9 cycle (Interesting that this word would equal the number value of the word Nine)

Nein (German for No) = 42/6/3 cycle

Ten = 39/12/3 cycle

Eleven = 63/9 cycle (Eleven seems to have come up a lot with Seven yesterday)

Twelve = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Teen = 44/8/4/2/1

Thirteen = 99/18/9 cycle (such a ominous number, takes us back to Two)

Fourteen = 104/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Fifteen = 65/11/2/1 (Interesting this is the same value as Seven)

Sixteen = 96/15/6/3 cycle

Seventeen = 109/10/1

Eighteen = 73/10/1

Nineteen = 86/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Twenty = 107/8/4/2/1

(The following are a couple that came to me to number out this morning)

Disease = 62/8/4/2/1 (interesting how disease and cancer both come to 8)

Alzheimer’s = 116/8/4/2/1 (Interesting seeing 8 in conditions that involve eating)

Dementia = 71/8/4/2/1

Memory Loss = 154/10/1 (A person in a 9 cycle if you look at 154! Memory=89 Loss = 65)

Cancer = 44/8/4/2/1 (There’s that 8, ate again)

Heart disease = 114/6/3 cycle (this makes sense to me that conditions of the heart would be cyclic and or reaccuring)

Cardiovascular = 147/12/3 cycle (the heart pumps blood, makes sense it would be a cycle)

Diabetes = 65/11/2/1 (same value as Seven again!)

Mental illness = 155/11/2/1 (Mental= 65 and Illness = 90 which is a 9 cycle)

Pain = 40/4/2/1

Feel = 28/10/1 (interesting how the values of feel and pain come to 68, the last two of my birth year!)

highly sensitive person = 278/17/8/4/2/1

Empath = 63/9 cycle (it isn’t always a positive thing to be such a person)

Empathy = 88/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cure = 47/11/2/1 (Interesting that cardiovascular has a 47 in it too. A lot of what ails us has origins in the heart)

Heart = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (There’s 7 again! I see a deciding what we eat, think and feel that brings us back to self and to God – to health)

Health = 54/9 cycle (Maintaining our health is a cycle but actually staying healthy seems to be a decision on our part)

Healthy = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (to this aligns with values for the Heart)

dishwasher = 114/6/3 cycle (Couldn’t help but put this one in there lol!  It is a seemingly never ending cycle isn’t it?!)

Miele (Italian word for Honey) = 44/8/4/2/1

 

Black Panther = 111/3 cycle (interesting if you have seen the movie!)

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Leopard = 71/8/4/2/1 (the family a black panther is from)

spots = 89/17/8/4/2/1 (notice how 17, reverse of the 71 in leopard is in this word.  Leopards have spots, even the black ones)

Immortality = 155/11/2/1 (interesting how this lines up with the numbers in Black Panther)

Immortal = 101/2/1 (Same number for the dreaded room in Orson Welles 1984!)

 

14 Aug 2018 Just one look (dream) and drawings for the sick

Hello there.  How are you doing in your here and now as you visit me here?  I hope you are well.  Kyle and I didn’t sleep very well last night.  One of those toss and turn kind of nights.  One of us did dream and it was him for a change.  He rarely remembers his dreams too lol.  When we were in Half Price Books yesterday he said he had caught a brief glimpse of a book with a title like Treasures of the Olympics.  In just one look it was in his dreams.  I told him the dream machine is like the enigma to me.  Our conscious waking moments are all keys to unlock the dream enigma machine.  It takes just the right combination of these keys, sometimes quickly and sometimes over the course of a very long time, to unlock a dream.  For me, sometimes it feels like I’m unlocking doors to other people’s minds and or heavens!

Here is the dream he had and I’m thrilled he allowed me to jot it down and share it:

From what he remembers and there are a lot of missing particulars, he went to a tiny island of sand and the American flag was flying there.  After he arrived he had to climb some rocks.  The ropes to the flag were made of fishing line and all tangled up.  Someone was directing them on how to untangle the line.  The flag started to rise and then he woke up.  He said his view of the dream was like watching the Olympics on television.  He said it was because he could see boxes of ads and information on the sides of the screen during what he was watching.

This dream was very symbolic to me.  It feels like every time we get a tangle untangled in this country or even world, somebody has to come along and tangle it back up!  Kyle is a welder and has said if Texas ever got the Olympics he’d love to be able to help create things for the events.  Wouldn’t that be an incredible thing to be part of?!

This mornings drawings with Aretha Franklin and all those in this world who are sick in mind, body and spirit and need a prayer to either get well or have the courage to let go and move on.   Drawing helps me manage my feelings about these things.  I may not know her directly but I care.  Honestly I have not closely kept up with her music and other endeavors but think she is an amazing human being.  What a voice!  Like the woman in my dream from the other day – too big to contain!  I saw articles and pictures about Aretha’s condition yesterday and just couldn’t believe she’s down to just 85 lbs!  I hope for her very best.  My sentiments are the same for all in this world who are going through what she is right now.  I think it’s beautiful she is surrounded by those who love and care about her:

Aretha Franklin – Freeway Of Love (Video)