7 Dec 2018 Fast Car (Tracy Chapman)

I woke up thinking of this song and crying about a young man we love and care about who has chosen to join the Navy and leave home.  A journey many of us have made.  A journey I chose to make to join the Air Force on 13 Aug 1986.  It’s a choice made about getting away, leaving home, trying to find and make a better life for ourselves.  It’s important to know why your leaving before you go.  You can’t run from yourself.  Where you go, there you are no matter how fast the car.

2 Aug 2009 – Here he is with our Sam. We were celebrating his Grandpa Ed’s s 75th birthday. Seems so long ago!

fast car in Simple Gematria equals: 68  (I was born in 1968)

As I look at my life in this moment, there is a comfort in this.  Regardless of “how” or “why” we seem to get “there.”  Wherever “there” is meant to be for us.   There is so much wrapped up in all that.  So many variables that are beyond our control.  The variable at the center of whatever happens is us and our behavior in the midst of it.   For me, the other variables have been God and love.   The God part has changed a lot as I have gone through life.   I had to abandon many parts of what I learned and was taught early in my life to find God for myself.

It’s been hard, especially these past years to trust this world and the people in it.  I have had to remind myself that each and every life on this planet, in whatever it’s shape and form is part of the God of my understanding.  The earth and the energy forces that keep it together.  Whether or not I love each shape and form is my choice.  I have found that because I know I have made many mistakes and am not perfect that everyone is worthy of love.  Worthy of a chance (or may be more than one).  Worthy of forgiveness;  I don’t forget easily.  It doesn’t mean they have to part of my day to day life or in my life at all, but I still love and care about them.

I left home thinking I was going to get away from a small town.  I left home thinking I was going to get away from the influence of my parents.  I left home not really completely knowing why I was doing it.  I do know I was running.  Not like I did in cross country and track….the other kind of running.  Doesn’t that seem a bit like what birds in nature do?   They either leave the nest on their own or Mom and Dad push them out?  Neither of them really knows what’s going to happen, it’s just what their programmed to do.    The programming of nature as a whole seems a bit off these days doesn’t it?

bluebird in Simple Gematria equals: 73 (my parents Larry and Dianne were married in 1973)

Tracy Chapman – “Fast Car” (Official Music Video)

programmed in Simple Gematria equals: 110

you cant run away from yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 375

68 + 73 + 110 + 375 = 626/68 or 86

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6 Dec 2018 Attraction and Eternal Life

Hello to you.  I ran some numbers this morning on the subject of attraction and what I’ve seen for myself as evidence there must be eternal life.  Some would say these are just words, just phrases and numbers they don’t mean anything.  Well this is how we communicate to each other.  We use words and we use numbers….does that make them meaningless?  I believe that the God of my understanding works through each of us to include language and numbers we use to communicate.  They say only 10% of a human is actually human.  What is the other 90%?  What are they doing in and outside of us and how does that affect civilization?  Affect communication?  Affect how we relate to each other….why we have all these ongoing “fights” we can’t seem to get resolved.  I’m going to give an example I’ve noticed lately in myself.  I will be looking at something, reading something, hearing something and then all the sudden I scratch my nose and I find myself thinking, “that stinks.”  Like my body is giving me a verbal indication of disagreement or dislike of what I’m interacting with.   Is that just a coincidence?  I would encourage to take a look at these variables…words…numbers.  Check my work.  Add other things that come to your mind and see what comes forth for you personally.

I would encourage you to pay attention to how you and your own body interact.  Do you get the chills when you are around someone?  Do you get flushed when you are around someone?  Do you find yourself drawn to a particular scent someone is wearing?  Why is that happening?  Is it memory?  Is it attraction?  Is it the beings within us?  As much as we’d like to think we are in control of who and what we are and the world around us, I suspect we are not.

Attraction – 1st set

content of character in Simple Gematria equals: 189

color in Simple Gematria equals: 63

sexual preference in Simple Gematria equals: 177

skin in Simple Gematria equals: 53

gay in Simple Gematria equals: 33

straight in Simple Gematria equals: 102

homosexual in Simple Gematria equals: 133

lesbian in Simple Gematria equals: 62

bisexual in Simple Gematria equals: 93

transgender in Simple Gematria equals: 125

religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89

finances in Simple Gematria equals: 71

how much money you have in Simple Gematria equals: 260

appearance in Simple Gematria equals: 80

how famous you are in Simple Gematria equals: 206

how powerful you are in Simple Gematria equals: 247

behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 80

responsibility in Simple Gematria equals: 192

actions in Simple Gematria equals: 81

= 2336/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  “two three three six” = 222/6/3 cycle

“two three three six” = 222/6/3 cycle

 

Attraction 2nd set –

breeding in Simple Gematria equals: 64

natural selection in Simple Gematria equals: 189

how you were raised in Simple Gematria equals: 214

personal preference in Simple Gematria equals: 195

sexual attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 203

fetish in Simple Gematria equals: 67

social media in Simple Gematria equals: 91

peer pressure in Simple Gematria equals: 165

television in Simple Gematria equals: 130

movies in Simple Gematria equals: 83

music videos in Simple Gematria equals: 139

magazines in Simple Gematria equals: 95

newspapers in Simple Gematria equals: 136

parents in Simple Gematria equals: 93

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66

kids at school in Simple Gematria equals: 136

friends in Simple Gematria equals: 75

society in Simple Gematria equals: 96

public opinion in Simple Gematria equals: 155

senses in Simple Gematria equals: 81

lowered standards in Simple Gematria equals: 182

low self esteem in Simple Gematria equals: 159

high self esteem in Simple Gematria equals: 141

unrealistic expectations in Simple Gematria equals: 282

superficial attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 240

just want sex in Simple Gematria equals: 176

being a fan in Simple Gematria equals: 59

fangirl in Simple Gematria equals: 67

fanboy in Simple Gematria equals: 63

admiration in Simple Gematria equals: 104

online game relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 241

platonic relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 236

mutual respect in Simple Gematria equals: 174

intellectual attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 255

wanting to be with someone who is married or in a relationship with someone else in Simple Gematria equals: 808

coveting in Simple Gematria equals: 95

lust in Simple Gematria equals: 72

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

physical features in Simple Gematria equals: 188

subconscious reasons for attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 411

soulmate in Simple Gematria equals: 106

past life in Simple Gematria equals: 88   (past life know and unknown)

age difference in Simple Gematria equals: 88

recognition in Simple Gematria equals: 129

someone reminding you of someone else in Simple Gematria equals: 388

familiar in Simple Gematria equals: 69

scent in Simple Gematria equals: 61

gestures in Simple Gematria equals: 114

speech patterns in Simple Gematria equals: 169

voice in Simple Gematria equals: 54

experiences in Simple Gematria equals: 123

proof of eternal life in Simple Gematria equals: 198

= 8067/21/3 cycle

21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

“eight zero six seven” = 230/5  “two three zero” = 178/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 16/8/4/2/1

blood memory in Simple Gematria equals: 137 (Jeanne Faith Becker, my Mom’s name, = 137)

deoxyribonucleic acid in Simple Gematria equals: 201 (DNA)

genetics in Simple Gematria equals: 82

= 420

6/3 cycle

“four two zero” = 242/8/4/2/1

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

2336 + 8067 + 420 = 10823/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

“one zero eight two three” = 261/9 (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle, difficult = 90/9 cycle)

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

people in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (animals in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

 

you cant run away from yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 375

15/6/3 cycle

no matter where you go there you are moving to a new town a new city a new country or a new house doesnt change who you are inside in Simple Gematria equals: 1328/68/14/5 or 14/7

(this is something I had to learn over time and the last two numbers of the year I was born is 68, very personal message).