11 June 2018 Expectations and Afternoon Dreams

11 June 2018 – Lately I’ve been really tired a lot and my mind has been lacking clarity. I think it’s a combination of recovering from almost two months of next to no sleep and all that “stuff” that was going on. It’s probably the unrelenting heat too. I don’t do real well with excessive heat. Texas isn’t for the faint of heart! I don’t think I’ll ever really get used to heat that sucks all the moisture out of the soil and the air! Probably why the ants are doing what they are doing. Anyhew….I decided to break into the new box of chalks from my friend. Turns out some of them have glitter flecks. I wasn’t sure about that until I saw the sparkle happen. The green square on the left has a flash of glitter light on it lol.

Hello to you.  How are you?  I hope you’ve been having a good day.  I got a letter from my Mom today and it was wonderful to hear from her.  We pen pals have worked out an agreement that we will write when we feel like it and there is no obligations to immediately write back.  My Mom and I have both been learning a lot the past few years about doing things for others and expecting things of them in return.  If you are only doing things to get some kind of response and not just because you want to do it, then may be you aren’t doing it for the right reasons.  Do what you do because you genuinely want to and without expectations. 

“Expectation is the seed of resentment”

Like this blog for instance.  Again and again my  husband reminds me and I have to remind me that I am blogging for me first.  This is a tool in my sanity toolkit – repeal of net neutrality be damned lol (http://thehill.com/policy/technology/391698-what-the-repeal-of-net-neutrality-rules-means).  Writing, art and photography are a couple of the main ways I use to help me sort through and make sense of my world.

Anyhew!

I took a much needed nap this afternoon with my dream traveling buddy Link and had a couple dreams.  The first one was short, one of those flash dreams I have a lot and very creepy!  There was a phrase, “Righteous in the elevator” associated with two very strange men.  These men were in an elevator that had a cross burned into the wall and one of them pointed to it and said something like, “taken care of.”  Then I dreamt about a black man working at a gas station.  I was talking to him and telling him I was worried about him trying to take care of inside and outside customers at the same time.  Then some man pulled out a guitar and we were worried it was a gun instead.

Words in Numbers:

18 9 7 8 20 5 15 21 19

R I G H T E O U S = 122/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(interesting to note RIGHT = 62/8/4/2/1)

14 5 21 20 18 1 12 9 20 25

N E U T R A L I T Y = 145/10/1

(interesting to note NEUTRAL is 91/10/1)

5 24 16 5 3 20 1 20 9 15 14

E X P E C T A T I O N = 132/6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

(interesting to note EXPECT = 73/10/1)

18 5 19 5 14 20 13 5 14 20

R E S E N T M E N T = 133/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 – 8/4/2/1

(interesting to note just RESENT = 81/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle)

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