23 Nov 2018 Family Seen and Unseen

(the pictures not of people are aspects of nature and the earth I consider family too.  What do we become long dead in the ground but rock, soil, crystals, oil, trees, grass, flowers, weeds, vegetables, insects, animals, oil, gas, ash…eventually human? circle of life in Simple Gematria equals: 103/13)

Just a quick hello, I hope this finds you well in your here and now as you visit.  The holidays are underway.  For me, the holidays are every day because every day is a gift from the God of my understanding.  Not just one or two specific days.  The holidays are difficult for me because I am in the present and my heart travels to the past.  I find myself missing so many people and places yet they remain etched on my heart like a tattoo.  The last thing I want to do, while I still have family and friends, is to go shopping.  That’s just me.  Some people can’t stand their family.  Some people have few if any friends so I understand them wanting to go out and be around other people, not to be alone.

I just wish the holidays weren’t just about the shopping and material things but were more about what is lasting like relationship with the earth, with the Gods and Goddesses of our understanding, with family, friends and ourselves.  I am fortunate to have love and I know to generate love for others.  Some are not so fortunate.  They were not taught.  They never learned or what they did learn of these things put them off of it forever.

This is the world we have made together as a world family and no matter what, at the end of it all, there is the stuff we bought that we leave behind to become somebody else’s problem and how we are remembered….sometimes love….sometimes hate.

Do you want back the broken doll or do you want back the Mother?  For me it is the Mother and that takes “Earth time.”  earth time in Simple Gematria equals: 99  (Thirteen = 99 which is a 9 cycle, which is difficult = 90/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 — 2 cycles)

family seen and unseen in Simple Gematria equals: 206

holiday in Simple Gematria equals: 74*  (lucifer in Simple Gematria equals: 74 – people have negative associations with this name)

tattoo on my heart in Simple Gematria equals: 210

people in Simple Gematria equals: 69

things in Simple Gematria equals: 77

shopping in Simple Gematria equals: 104

thanksgiving in Simple Gematria equals: 141*

time off work in Simple Gematria equals: 141*

black friday in Simple Gematria equals: 92* (black = 29)

= 1114/34 or 52/7   (devil in Simple Gematria equals: 52 – interesting)




1 June 2018 Good day and Journey Back to Me (Poem)

Hello to you.  How are you?  We’ve been having a really good day today.  I had an appointment I look forward to and then afterwards, to maximize our time out and about, we got some errands done in Burleson.

At PetSmart, besides the normal Blue Dog Food, we found an organic spray from Earthbath, Hot Spot Relief Spritz at PetSmart (https://earthbath.com/product/hot-spot-relief-spritz/) to help Link and Spot with seasonal allergy irritations.  Link has a real problem with allergies and insect bites.  I asked the woman who was at checkout (she always seems to be working lol), Cindy, if they were treating her well and her reply made me smile, “Yes they do, I love my job.”  How many people do you know that can say that?!  So awesome!

After that we stopped by Michael’s and I picked up a batch of canvas for painting.  I am excited because I think I’ve talked Kyle into doing a painting with me!  I would love to hang up a painting by him in the house!  I also found a little glass box on sale (http://www.michaels.com/clear-glass-display-box-with-lid-by-bead-landing/10492022.html#q=glass+box&start=10) to hold our essential oils so they don’t take up so much space on the kitchen counter.  We also grabbed a couple small boxes of chalk with colors I use the most to augment what I already have that’s almost gone.  I went out for a bit after we got home….couldn’t stay out there….just too hot!

After all this we decided to use the gift cards my parents had given to us for Christmas for Logan’s Steakhouse.  As always, it was a wonderful experience.  Besides a great steak their root beer just tasted so good!  We had to flag ourselves of the stuff LOL!  Our server,  Joseph,  was having his first day without supervision and was terrific.  We encouraged him to hold on to his wonderful attitude.  Being a waiter or waitress is not an easy job!

1 June 2018 – having a date!

I know this post is full of mundane activities but for me, after the past few months of not trusting anything or anyone and not wanting to leave the house, it was a big deal.  It was a big deal for Kyle to have his “normal” happy and silly wife back.  It’s the little things that fill all the space from our start to our finish.  They are precious moments never to take for granted. 

31 May 2018 – I was thinking of spirit travelers when I did this. This group being lead by one with the light.

This poem is about what my last bought with an episode, a cycle, a spiritual awakening….whatever the hell happens to me was like.  This last one was very volatile and we had a lot of broken stuff.  Kyle, the dogs, my family, my friends, my doctors,  and even our amazing local cops helped me so much.  Just my Dad calling me during the worst of it, pleading with me to take my meds, my Mom sending a three line note in the mail…it all meant everything.  I will tell you that you don’t have to wait to die and go to heaven to encounter angels on this earth!   Sadly we know with the way the past couple of years have been, this won’t be the last time we go through this.  Just a varying degree of it.

Journey back to Me – (Jackie)

The strangers walked through the door in me

There was mistrust, shattered glass, cops,  and conversations with the unseen

A gap in the veil most cannot see

An entire cast of unseen characters took center stage on my chest

Me a mere puppet

A pulsing heart with my flesh and blood sewn….unable to sleep…..unable to rest

Perhaps it was my sweetheart’s and dogs unconditional love

The drugs or some kind of divine intervention

From above

But I was able to finally journey back to me

Sadly we know the seasons and cycles will turn

I will not remain this me…free……