7 May 2018 Anniversary

Hi there.  Hope this finds you well.  Todays theme of words and numbers is in honor of my husband and I celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary tomorrow.  It’s interesting to me how two different words for the same thing, like wedding and marriage,  can come to different outcomes in the numeric realm.  The more I do this, the more I am beginning to see that when the 9 cycle comes up, it’s usually not a positive thing!  Speaking from experience and what I’ve seen in especially America,  marriage can come to be quite a negative arrangement!

How my husband and I began back in FFXI playing Prinzessa and Efess

As with everything, marriage is all what you make of it.  My husband and I have certainly been testing these past few years and yet we are still together!  I tell him he’s already got his angel suite putting up with me!

1  14 14 9 22 5 18 19 1 18 25

A N N I V E R S A R Y = 146 = 1 +4+6=11 can go straight to 11, 2 then 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 =5+5=10 go straight to 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.

23 5 4 4  9 14 7

W E D D I N G= 66 = 6 +6 = 12  1+2 = 3 divided by 2 =1.5 1+5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

13 1 18 18 9 1 7 5

M A R R I A G E = 72 = 7 +2 = 9 = 9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 4 +5 = 9 cycle (always comes back to 9)

21 14 9 15 14

U N I O N = 73 = 7 +3 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

8 1 14 4 6 1  19 20 9 14 7

H A N D F A S T I N G  (Kyle and I had considered this in lieu of formal marriage) = 103= 1 + 3 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

https://www.brides.com/story/handfasting-wedding-ceremony-101

2 18 9 4 5

B R I D E = 38 = 3 +8 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2  divided by 2 = 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 5 + 5 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.  (I prefer the most direct approach)

7 18 15 15 13

G R O O M = 68 = 6 + 8 = 14 = 1 + 4 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

8 21 19 2 1 14 4

H U S B A N D = 69 = 6 + 9 = 15 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

23 9 6 5

W I F E = 43 = 4 + 3 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

 

 

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6 May 2018 Drawing and more fun with words and their numeric values

6 May 2018 – drawing I did this morning.

Just stopping in to say hello.  I’ve really been having an adventure with the numeric value of English words.  It’s been interesting to find that the values of different words, meaning the same thing, like Pyramid and Triangle, could come out to the same exact value!

Words that I explored the numeric value of this weekend and got some surprises:

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.

19 25 18 21 16

S Y R U P  = 99/18/9/2=4.5=9 (cycle)

19 21 7 1 18

S U G A R = 66/12/3/2=1.5 =6/2= 3  (cycle)

It’s interesting that both words, both addictive substances, have a “cycle” aspect.  If you flip either 99 or 66 over and they are the same number too!

16 25 18 1 13 9 4

P Y R A M I D = 86/14/5

20 18 9 1 14 7 12 5

T R I A N G L E = 86/14/5

8 21 13 1 14

H U M A N= 57/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

20 18 5 5

T R E E= 48/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

*3 I think of cycle as life, death and rebirth or a number that keeps coming back to itself even after you divide it in half.

 

 

4 May 2018 Sleeping, Dreaming and Healing

Just a note to say hello before the weekend.  We woke up to thunder, lightning and much needed rain this morning.  As I write, it continues to rain. We really needed it so I am grateful for it.

This kind of weather does make me just want to stay in bed!   Lately that’s all I’ve been wanting to do is sleep!  My therapist and I agreed this morning it’s probably just my body healing after what I went through recently.  That last round of a new medication really messed me up!  Ironically, speaking of the healing power of sleep, last night I had a vivid dream of helping a man a woman with the balancer/healing wands I’ve shared about.  In the dream I taught them to make the sea salt GANS for themselves.  It would be nice to think that it wasn’t just a dream and actual people may have been helped somehow!

The dream world is very interesting for me because my mind will incorporate elements of my real world into the dream world.  Sometimes I don’t want to wake up and want to just stay in the dream world.  Have you ever had one of those dreams that made you feel that way?

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.  I don’t know if this will make sense to anyone else but it might!

I decided to play the numbers game with the words dream, sleep and heal.   I doubt what I’ve been doing with this unique, but it is for me!  It has been very interesting!  Sometimes I have to wonder that if the numeric value of a word is odd,  can there actually be a positive motive for it’s existence?  Did the person who created the word to describe something like sleep know in numeric terms it would come out to represent a cyclic pattern?  Or is that evidence of a  power greater than ourselves at work?  The more I explore the numeric value of certain words, the more it seems possible.  What do you think?

4   18  5  1  13

D  R  E  A  M = 41=5/2=2.5=7/2=3.5=8/2=4/2=2/2=1

(interesting that Dream comes back to 1 or to self as I perceive it.  No one knows if you have had a dream except yourself.  There is no evidence of it even if someone is monitoring your brainwaves)

19 12 5 5  16

S  L  E  E  P = 57 = 12 = 3 (cycle) 3/2=1.5=6/2=3

(sleep is actually a repeating cycle sort of thing.  You have morning, noon and night.  In the patterns of sleep you are either awake, dozing or actually asleep.)

8  5   1  12

H  E  A  L = 26 = 8/2 = 4/2=2/2 = 1

(healing comes out to an “even” motive number from the start and when broken down comes back to self or the value of one.  Ultimately, with healing, we are the ones who benefit right?)

*The reason I divide the number by 2 is like taking a look at something with each side of ourselves if that makes sense.

“I am surrounded by rain, thunder and lightning and yet I have traveled without leaving my bed!  Am I inside or outside of my own head?”

 

1 May 2018 Michael The General

Hello to you.   Yesterday I was drawing with my compass and this message came forth with it about the angel Michael.  As I thought about him,  he came across as a sort of General.  Can you imagine what it would be like to be God’s literal “wing man?!”

30 April 2018 – I started by using the compass and this is what came forth for me about the angel Michael, a sort of General.

The reason Michael often comes to my mind is my spiritual background.  I grew up Lutheran and then Roman Catholic for many years.   These days I don’t go to traditional church services etc. but there are aspects of my spiritual journey I have held on to.  The concept of angels is definitely one of them!   I have had experiences in my life where I believe angels have definitely been watching out for me!   There is great power in personal belief.

“In late medieval Christianity, Michael, together with Saint George, became the patron saint of chivalry and is now also considered the patron saint of police officers, paramedics, firefighters and the military.[33][84]

My Dad was a policeman when he was a young man and I’d like to think he was being watched over by Michael all those years!  That’s probably why Michael comes to mind a lot when I hear a siren go off nearby.  I am always worried about all those connected to that sound!  In many cases it’s a policeman or woman, a fire fighter or an ambulance driver….first responders to the scene of usually some persons worst day.  When I hear a siren go off, I try to just say a quick prayer that everything will be ok.

Divine beings, or angels like Michael transcend Christianity.  When you take the time to look, it’s interesting to find how many different walks of faith have angels or divine beings within them.  I am sharing some links to other information if your interested to learn more:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deva_(Buddhism)beings from Buddhism that are like angels in other walks of faith.

http://www.paganspath.com/meta/angels.htminteresting article about how angels are not unique to just Christianity

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_(archangel)a lot of information about Michael here.  This angel seems to cross boundaries between different walks of faith.  When I did the “numbers” for this name, it came to a total of 51, which becomes 6, which divided into 2 becomes 3 which then becomes the trinity or a cycle.  The word angel comes to a numeric value of 39, which is 12 which is also 3! 

http://moonatnoon.com/puzzles/reference/a1b2z26.html (something I initially looked at when I decided to start using the numeric value of the alphabet to examine words and their meanings.  I use this system a lot now.  It’s amazing to see a more logical view of words we use in the English language.  This system, for me, helps bridge the gaps I sometimes have between my faith and reality.  Unlike people and words can do sometimes, numbers don’t lie!  I don’t know if this would work for other languages but it would be interesting if it did!)

A cycle is a  repeating pattern.  It makes sense to me that angels and a being like Michael,  created by human beings, would end up in this pattern.  Sometimes our faith is tested or we have doubt.  We will literally “cycle” around on a journey to either come back to believing or discarding our faith all together.     

Have you ever had an encounter with someone who seemed like an angel or divine being?  In the realm of the God of my understanding, energy, pretty much anything goes I think!

Matthew 7:7

Ask, Seek, Knock

7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

 

28 April 2018 Drawings – The Air Is Alive

“I walked through the sky with my hands today.  Little whispers and eyes the whole journey through.  All around me blurring, whirring, buzzing and fluttering sounds of life.  A gentle waltz of nature in figure 8’s around my soul.”  – Jackie

(I live next to a busy road where the sounds of loud vehicles and stuff make meditation and connection with nature more difficult.  I am working on trying to tune the noises I don’t want to hear out.  It can be difficult sometimes even with headphones on and music playing.  I try to remember that we are all different sorts of people trying to coexist on the same plane of existence.  Many individual dimensions (people and their personal way of living) overlaying each other.  For some people peace is having their music blasting loud while others, like myself, sometimes prefer complete silence.)

26 April 2018 Drawings and Balancer

Hello to you.  Just a quick note to share what I’ve been up to this morning.  I had some anxiety show up out of nowhere this morning and I’ve been having trouble shaking it.  I decided to do a drawing and that actually helped.  I’m thinking about making myself a bunch of cards that I can draw from each day to help cheer me up if I need it.  The last time I did personal cards, I sat down and worked on it for hours.  This time I’m just going to do them as I feel like it.  I have two done so far.  The second one was inspired by seeing a trailer for the new Avengers movie that is showing today.

We had a busy day yesterday.  We had to drive to Arlington to my doctor’s office which is always very stressful.  I decided to take along a couple of things for my doctor to try to help her out as it must be so stressful being her seeing people like me each day!  I had some pretty heavy stuff to share and felt really bad because at home I had been being pretty hard on her!  I wanted to somehow show her my appreciation for at least trying to listen to my concerns and trying to care about me.  I gave her an aluminum pendant I had made.  It had a rainbow bead on it with it to symbolize hope and I also gave her, what I’m calling a “balancer” or healing wand to try out.  I mean who heals our doctors?!

The wands are adapted from the things I learned from the Keshe Foundation.  I am not selling these because I just don’t feel right about doing that.  Whenever I consider the idea, I end up going back to the original intention of Dr. Keshe sharing this information.  He gave to us for free so we could pass it on to pay the blessing forward and also to learn on our own.  Having the chance to learn about this technology online was very inspiring but very hard for me to keep up with!  I just don’t have the attention span for long lectures.  I never made my own Magrav power unit but did try several things related to the research like a battery and pain pens.

I ended up using the concepts to come up with things that I was interested in.  Some people are interested in the applications for home energy use, others are interested in food and health and still others are interested in how this technology could have applications for space travel.  I try to share the information whenever I have an appropriate opportunity.  I am hoping someone  may see what I share here and have it ignite a spark of imagination.  From my own personal experience and from what I’ve seen, you should never underestimate the power of human ingenuity!

Most times when I make things like this, it is my way of trying to give back to people who don’t often get any appreciation at all like my doctors.  Sometimes people ask me to make them things and if they provide me the materials and or the finances to acquire the materials, I will do it.   I had my husband “test” the one in the picture on himself.  He doesn’t always feel anything with these things.  With this one, he said he felt a magnetic pull on his skin.  With other ones I’ve had him there he has felt warmth.  The sensation for me is like a power surge.  I am wearing the one pictured to help me with my personal issues with physical, emotional and spiritual balance.  I can tell the difference when I have it on and when I take it off.  It might be partially a placebo, the “wanting it to work” and I guess with most anything, that’s half of achieving healing isn’t it?  Belief that you will get better, that you can be better?  Wouldn’t it be nice if we could wear such a device and not need so many pills and surgeries?!  May be some day!

If you decide to make these types of things for yourself, remember they will not have my energy signature which is different than yours will be.  No one has the same energy signature.  From personal experience, I believe whatever you craft with your own hands is imbued with your personal energy.  If you were to try and manufacture these with a machine, I doubt they would have the same effect but I don’t know for sure.  I think it’s better to personalize this sort of device with a hands-on approach.  Kind of like in the old days when crafters like blacksmiths and the like made their own tools that were suited perfectly to them.

26 April 2018 – this is something I made for myself using what I learned from the Keshe Foundation. Here is a link to information about other applications if you would like to make an power unit for your home or automobile: https://www.slideshare.net/exopolitika/keshe-magrav-power-coil-production-step-by-step-pp24-oct302015

Anyhew…hope this is helpful.  I have made wands like this the side of earrings.  I use screwdrivers of varying sizes to wind the coils.  Sometimes I use hot glue to seal the openings on the end etc.  I purchased the wire at Michael’s craft store in Burleson.  It is 20 gauge copper wire from a company named Bead Landing in Pakistan.  Before using the wire, I prayed for those people who make the wire that I have the privilege to use for this purpose.   I try to do that for everything I buy and use.  There is so much involved the production of just about everything we often take for granted in this world!

P.S we found a essential oil diffuser at Michael’s yesterday and it didn’t require a filter!  So far so good!  Both of our allergies have been really acting up and diffusing Young Living Peppermint oil has been helping.  If we still had Amber and May, our cats, I don’t know if we could do this as they both seemed sensitive to this sort of thing.

(Thinking this may be my husband and my anniversary date movie!  I am excited to see everyone working together.  I would love it if somehow DC and Marvel did the same.  Can you imagine?!  I know blasphemy but hey, I am a dreamer!)

Marvel Studios’ Avengers: Infinity War – Official Trailer

25 April 2018 Warranty, Guarantee and Word

Good morning to you, at least it is here as I write.  I’m up very early.  My allergies kicking in after the yard work yesterday.  Since I couldn’t sleep anyway, a word kept popping in my head and that was Warranty.  I know weird right?!  Well I guess I had that come up because of all the things that are going on with our house right now to include ants.  Yesterday afternoon I went out and followed some ants that were going from our garden, along a wooden garden fence and along the wall all the way to the front of the house!  This has been a  recurring thing for us.  Sometimes it feels like a mistake to have bought this house.

24 April 2018 ants on the side of the house looking like they are making a nest in the walls. We’ve had them get into the house and into our laundry basket before!

When we first moved in here, back in November of 2009, we had inspections done to check for insects and other things going on.  Everything came up fine.  Then shortly after we got settled in we had a major termite infestation along the back of the house and had the company Terminix come and do a treatment along the entire perimeter of the house that cost us thousands of dollars.  Neighbors told us that the original builders for the homes here had some pretty shady stuff going on and were run off.  I guess they didn’t catch them in time so that Masonite siding wasn’t put on our house which we have had to recently spend thousands of dollars to replace with aluminum siding.

Then we were paying these folks to come out on a regular basis until I started to realize that if we were killing insects, we were probably doing something to ourselves and our pets too!  I started to think about how when we would bag up our leaves and yard waste that we might be taking away the insects food etc., but after yesterday, I’m not sure that is what is going on with ants.  After all I’m not an ant right?!  They don’t think like humans do even though they are very intelligent it seems.  I’m wondering if all the new construction near us, the rise in a bunch of folks to include the those the city contracts to maintain the grass by the side of our road and myself cutting the lawn and stuff may have stirred them up into emergency mode.  They seemed to be gathering eggs and trying to hide.  Most people don’t really consider this, but I have really started to these past few years, that what we do to nature will come back, in some cases, and literally bite us.  When our homes are disrupted for whatever reason we move and I’ve noticed this also the way of insects.  I try to use the least “nasty” way I can to deal with insect problems because I don’t want my husband, dogs or myself to be affected too!

A couple of years ago, we decided to put in a new shower.  What happened is the old shower developed a leak in the floor and we couldn’t afford to fix it properly.  When we finally could afford it, we contracted a company named Bathfitters to put in a built-in shower.  What a mess that was and it had to be done more than once!  When they initially pulled everything out and there was a lot of mold from the previous shower problem.  Rather than stopping what they were doing, they just kept going and it ended up having to all be ripped out again.   Turns out there was pre-existing termite damage to the walls and an incredible amount of mold that wasn’t caught by home inspectors before we bought the house.  There were even cockroaches that seemed to have been asleep in the wall!  Wow did that ever freak us out to find huge cockroaches in the wall.  After the wall was opened up, a bunch of them came out and freaked us out so bad we taped off the bathroom for a couple of days!  Then we vacuumed them up and couldn’t believe they survived!  I felt so bad for them!  We decided to put them outside.  Any cockroach I’ve come across in the house since, which is extremely rare because we try to keep the house clean, I get back outside.

Anyhew, back to the shower.   We had to pay for someone to come and inspect the mold and do lab work which cost us almost $1,000 out of pocket. it wasn’t covered by our Homeowners Insurance.  Thankfully we didn’t get sick, which was a relief.  If anything we probably got a boost to our immune systems!  We had a Warranty with Terminix for termite damage but since it seemed to be a pre-existing condition, they didn’t honor the warranty and it felt like we had been paying for nothing.  We discontinued services with them after we had them come out and do an exclusion service for mice and rats in the attic.  Yeah…that problem too lol.  If it hadn’t been for the USAA inspector, we would have had little to now help with what we went through.  Not only did he do the inspection for the shower, this professional made sure we had an updated fire extinguisher and inspected our other water related appliances and gave us some advice on how to prevent problems.  Sadly that didn’t stop our water heater from going and flooding out our garage later but we appreciated his help.

A couple of years ago, a neighbor had her entire front walk rise up and they had already had numerous foundation repairs.  She told me she had a geologist come out and they told her that these houses with straight up slab to soil foundations shouldn’t have been built.  The geologist told her this kind of soil was for growing cotton. I don’t know about growing cotton in this soil, but I do know it is expansive clay soil that expands when we have dry weather and contracts when it rains.  I could probably make pots out of the soil when it’s wet if I wanted to,  When it’s been really dry, I’ve been able to lower the entire handle of a garden hoe into it!  After the first time I was able to do that and noticed the same thing in the field where new houses have been built,  I started putting tree branches and stuff in the huge cracks, like giving the earth stitches I guess,  to try and seal things up.  This seemed to help some with what was going on in our backyard.

It feels like every single thing that has gone wrong with our house, the HVAC going, the water heater, the fence rotting out, the existing windows being crap, the foundation of the house being cracked, the repairs we’ve had to do to the inside of the house because the foundation is bad, basically anything water related, insect issues, electrical issues….all this and more is not covered by any sort of warranty and when it is, the people who did the work are less than pleased to honor their warranty.  These are all things that go with home ownership they don’t seem to figure in when banks and mortgage companies  determine whether or not you can afford to own a home!  I want so much to be able to just live in my home and be grateful for the blessing, but it’s hard when it feels like all your doing is having to do crisis management.  Very stressful and not helpful to someone like myself going through personal issues already.

Most companies do not make money doing warranty work.  As I mentioned, the Masonite rotted out on our house so we hired Home Depot to come out and put up aluminum siding.  They contracted an independent contractor to do the work.  What are the chances that if something ends up failing on this work will I be able to have the same people who originally did the work come back and do repairs?  Not very likely.   We talked to these folks a bit, even fed them.  They mentioned being put in the position of having to get rid of materials from the job in their personal garbage!  I suggested they talk with Home Depot about this and I also included this in my feedback to the company after the job was done.

We’ve had storms since we moved here.  We’ve had roof was inspected by USAA.  They only found one panel out of place and didn’t want to replace the roof like has been done for other neighbors.  So now if we want to get a new roof, it’s basically hoping there is enough damage to call for repair or having to spend thousands of dollars out of pocket when we can afford it.  We don’t have flood insurance so if anything happens as far as water damage, I doubt we’ll be covered.

What are the chances, that my new fence is already failing because we chose not to put toxic chemicals on it to seal it, that they would honor their warranty?  The two men, both Hispanic, who I talked to didn’t seem sure they were even going to get paid for their work!  So now I’m stuck with another bad fence I have to figure out how to repair myself or take the chance at hiring someone to come out to fix.  We tried to hire our neighbor first, a veteran, but he didn’t want the job.

I can remember talking the man who did our foundation repair and we talked about a reason I suspect our foundation is having problems is fracking by the natural gas and oil industry.  I feel like the house and the soil around it gets shaken like a flour sifter.  He didn’t disagree with me.  He told me that most of what his company ends up doing is warranty work.  After the second time I called him to come out and he “didn’t find anything wrong” I just stopped calling him.  We had foundation repairs done on only half the house and probably needed it all the way around….we couldn’t afford it.

We paid over $1,000 to a person who owns his own business to come out and repair the ceilings that were a problem even before we bought the house, and all the problems that they were supposed to fix came undone almost right after they did them.  We had them come out more than once to fix their work and it got to a point why bother!   We could have taken them to small claims court but decided it was more trouble than it was worth.

Since we started this whole home adventure, one person, the person who installed our HVAC unit, has truly honored his work.  It was the owner of Cool Climate who installed the system and when there was a problem, he was the one who came out and did the repairs free of charge.

25 April 2018 – this is me using logic to tackle the meaning of words. I use the alphabet 1-26 and assign a numerical value to each word. Don’t know if this makes sense to anyone else but it does to me.

This morning I decided to “number out” the numerical values of the words Warranty, Guarantee and Word.  It was interesting to see that the values of Warranty and Word both ended up with an odd value, 3.   How I interpret this is both are subject to interpretation of more than one person.  The numerical value of Guarantee came back to the value of 1.  I interpret this to mean if you guarantee your work, it all comes back to you.  If there is something wrong with what you’ve made or something you’ve done and you made a guarantee…then if you don’t honor it, it ultimately reflects back on you and your reputation.  So to me, and from my personal experience warranties and words can be just about worthless depending on their motive for existing.  If you make a warranty on a product with no intention of ever honoring it or making it extremely difficult to be honored, why bother at all?  Why not just make good and services of such a quality you can guarantee they will be worthwhile?

What I have come to understand is home ownership is kind of a financial trap.  There is the illusion of ownership, but in truth, who is the master of the castle so to speak?  When I was in the military, we always had housing and when we could buy a house, I always chose to rent.  Renting had it’s own set of pitfalls but at least someone else was being help accountable for getting repairs done etc.  When I lived in base housing, there were standards to be met and if you didn’t meet them, you could face consequences through your chain of command.  Adapting to a world without consistent standards has been very difficult for me.  At least in the military, if I didn’t have a lawn mower or something there was a place I could go to borrow one so I could meet standards!

When we lived in Delaware it wasn’t easy living in a section 8 apartment but it was what we could afford and the only way we could keep my cats.  We got screwed many ways living there too, but at least it was easier to walk away.  I can’t just do that with this house without a high personal financial, mental, spiritual and physical toll to be taken on my husband, my dogs and myself.

The reason I’m sharing all this is because I know there must be many folks out there going through similar circumstances.  When you are going through stuff like we are, it can feel exasperating and overwhelming.  At times, this house seems almost like a person with health problems.  You fix one thing and then there are three other things wrong.  Sadly, we can only afford to fix one problem at a time and hope all the others don’t surface too quickly and  make it impossible to fix anything!   

21 April 2018 Who am I writing for?

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you doing well.  If you have stumbled into my blog, chances are there is something here that might interest you.  My interests are all over the place!  Just the way I’ve always been.  For the past couple of years I’ve been unsure about continuing to blog but here I am!  I have been writing in one form or another since I was in kindergarten so I guess that is my main “thing.”  I used to write short stories and that sort of thing.  You know what the hardest thing about writing a longer story is for me?  Dialogue lol!  Since I’m not a very sociable person,  crafting dialogue between people in a story is incredibly difficult for me.  I think that’s probably why when I have written a story, the best ones anyway, they have been short or a poem.  Writing poetry has always come very easy to me.  My birth mother was an artist and a writer too.  I have a few of the things she wrote and also some of her drawings.  Even without her being here, we are connected!

When you write a blog like this, it’s hard to know who your “target” audience is.  I may sit down and be wanting to write about something but when I look at the views, people coming to my site are looking for something else.  This creates a dichotomy for me.  Please others or please myself?  I try to find a way to do both.  I’m noticing people visiting here are very interested in Keshe Foundation technology seemingly more than anything else.

I’m sorry if I don’t have anything new to share about that.  I kind of flit in and out with my interest in that on a personal application level.  I learn best by seeing and doing when it comes to more complex things.  I have a tendency to get parts of information and then go off on my own with it which I did  with this.  This can be positive or negative depending on what it is I do this with.  The direction I went seems to have been a positive direction.  Instead of coils for cars, I was experimenting with making hand-held healing devices.  I made a couple and have shared them and apparently they actually helped people.  I do not take credit for whether or not they worked, just that the people receiving them believed they would work and they did.

Buying wire and supplies is expensive and working with it tears up my hands sometimes because it’s hard for me to wear gloves.  The gauge wire you need for what Dr. Keshe is teaching is 14 gauge copper and I like to work with smaller gauges.  For the devices I like to make, I use like 20 gauge copper wire and or aluminum because it’s easier to work with and doesn’t hurt my hands so much.  It takes a lot of wire to make the coils and that can get expensive for someone like me.  If I were to continue making the devices I came up with, I would need supplies.  I wouldn’t feel comfortable selling the devices.  When Dr. Keshe gave us the technology he made it pretty clear that if we passed it on, we shouldn’t profit from it.   This is just me, not all would agree with my point of view.

In this video, is an example of how I make my own coils:

I thank you for stopping by today and hope what I’ve written is somehow useful to you!

Organic orgonite I was experimenting with making a couple of years ago. This was extremely labor intensive to make.  I would need better equipment to be able to make it again.  It really caused quite a smell to make it in the house and composting the materials in a bucket was like cow poops lol. 

17 April 2018 Edits and ideas about the future I would like to see

Hello to you.  I hope that wherever and whenever this finds you that you are having a good day.  This phrase where and when comes from watching a scientist named Mehran Tavakoli Keshe of the Keshe Spaceship Institute.  Ever since I started to try to follow his work back in October of 2016 I think it was, I have planted a seed in my heart for his work.   It was so exciting to see what he and all the wonderful people also inspired, are trying to do with the technology he is sharing.  He inspired me to try more experimenting in my kitchen!  Seeing and hearing what he was proposing made me think of the visionary Gene Roddenberry of Star Trek.  When I was in the United States Air Force, my dream was for their to be a purple force.  I talked about this with many people I worked with.  My vision was for all branches of the armed forces to unify for one mission of peace.  I would love to see people, if they wanted to, to be able to join with others to go to regions of the world and be goodwill ambassadors of peace-making.  I would love for them to be able to hug people, help people get on their feet again and not have to worry about their well-being or safety.  It is a utopian view I know….probably even childish in a way but that is my way of thinking.  Not everyone would necessarily share my point of view especially if they have been on the receiving end of unfair activities.  It is not my place to say….”above my pay-grade.”

I wanted to recommend to anyone who regularly reads my writing here of the many, sometimes, severe edits to the blog.  I have deleted countless pictures, my art and words out of concern for others.  My original intention at starting this blog was to write for myself like a journal and it has become much more than that.  I have censored myself and part of this is because I would take some time after I wrote something and realize I didn’t have all the facts or was writing about things I didn’t know everything about.  I only had my perception or view and my sources were from the internet which aren’t always reliable.  Even the sources I thought I could count on seemed to have faults with them or someone would say or write something to discredit them like snopes.com.

Ironically, it is from President Trump and his proposal of “fake news” that I started to question even myself but this isn’t a bad thing.  Not everyone would agree with me.  I decided some time ago, after disputes about his Presidency were creating rifts between my family and friends, that possibly our parents knew something I didn’t.  I started to think about him differently, like a “Trump” card.  I began to wonder if he was actually trying to help us in the opposite way we might expect.  I wondered if everything he and other world leaders were doing was their way of attempting to fix this mess we have been in without our even realizing it.  I began to wonder if he might actually become of the greatest presidents we’ve ever had and I say that not knowing if he was conscious of his behavior.  I decided that I would change my perception of him like I have done for anyone I have come to know in world history, to include  Adolf Hitler.  What I came to understand, for myself, a long time ago is that based on my life, who am I to judge anyone?  I don’t believe anyone is perfect and I don’t believe perfection even exists.  Someone once said, there is perfection in imperfection and I believe that.  This is just me and my opinion.  Everyone has their own opinion and personal perspective on this life and I respect that.  Sometimes it’s hard to get many “passionate” perspectives to communicate but I believe it is possible if we find a way to agree on what we have in common.  This is a good place to start and many very smart people have shown me this by their example.

I am nattering on as my friend Les often says of herself in her letters lol.  I hear my neighbor cutting their lawn at the moment and my back yard is very high but I wouldn’t be embarrassed if anyone saw it.  I don’t choose to cut my yard anymore for more than just not having a lawn mower (we tried an electric/corded mower and it didn’t work out).  I worry about all those I harm when I cut the lawn.  I have wounded crickets and other beings by mowing and those wounded have come to me while I’m in the backyard.  We became “friends” and I started to realize the connection between us and nature through these wounded insect warriors.  If you look at life at each level, it’s all the same but just a little different.  So I try to do the least amount of yard work that I have to so as not to harm anyone.  I could hire people to take care of the yard etc., but I know they aren’t like me.  I keep the front yard to “city” standards (like military standards) but don’t like doing it anymore.  I used to cut the lawn and not care about the other lifeforms but once I started to care about them, to include all the trees trying to make new families, my entire perspective changed.

Some of my greatest teachers are like the cottonwood tree in my neighbor’s yard that was struck by lightning instead of our house.  They let their offspring, seeds, go and sometimes they land on fertile soil and sometimes they land at my back porch or in my HVAC unit.  During an outside  meditation I had some time ago,  I started to think of what these trees do.  I began to think of symbiosis and  how life on this planet may have started.  There is a nature photographer, his name escapes me but I shared his work here before, that inspired me to think of nature in this way.  This is ONLY A THEORY not a fact!  Here is a post I wrote about this some time ago: https://saymber.com/2015/05/07/7-may-2015-in-the-beginning-there-was-symbiosis/.   I am providing the link but will have to edit this.

5 Feb 2017 – I did this yesterday and it was very therapeutic drawing so many little boxes to form a Pecan Tree 🙂

Sometimes I link articles and items of interest to me from other places to give my sources.  I don’t always know if I have permission to share what is on the internet here.  I will be doing less of that in the future.  If anyone should come across something I’ve linked and or shared and you would like it removed, please let me know in the comments section of this blog.  In order to make comments, I think, but am not sure, you must have an account.