6 Dec 2017 Pete Davidson (SNL) Survivor of 9/11

For the past couple of days I have been trying to soothe Kyle and I with our recent loss by turning to one of the greatest medicines on earth – laughter through comedy.  Yesterday afternoon and this morning we’ve been watching Saturday Night Live skits on You Tube.  In particular we love the videos with Pete Davidson and his portrayal of a character named Chad.  The first time we were introduced to Pete and this character was when one of my favorite actors, Benedict Cumberbatch, was hosting the show.

This is the video where we first met Pete and his hilarious character Chad:

Office Hours – SNL
Published on Feb 21, 2017

A professor’s (Benedict Cumberbatch) chats with a student (Pete Davidson) help him realize something about himself.

Get more SNL: http://www.nbc.com/saturday-night-live
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I was surprised to find this video this morning:

Weekend Update: Pete Davidson on Mental Health – SNL
Published on Oct 7, 2017

Pete Davidson explains how SNL could help ease his depression.

#SNL #SNL43

After watching this, I wasn’t sure if it was entirely fact or just another skit and decided to see if there was any information and found this Rolling Stone article:

http://www.rollingstone.com/tv/news/snls-pete-davidson-i-have-borderline-personality-disorder-w505489

‘Saturday Night Live’ Star Pete Davidson: I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

Comedian explains he originally thought his mental breakdowns were caused by weed

and then I found this US Magazine article.  When I put it all together, this helps me understand why Pete might be having problems with depression!  He lost his Dad, Scott Davidson, a fire fighter to 9/11! Pete’s mental, spiritual and physical reaction to this horrific experience and loss makes perfect sense to me.

https://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/news/pete-davidson-dad-died-911-reacts-steve-rannazzisi-lies-2015169/

Celebrity News

Pete Davidson, Who Lost His Dad in Terrorist Attack, Responds to Steve Rannazzisi’s 9/11 Lies

By Rachel McRady
September 16, 2015

Comedian Steve Rannazzisi’s lies hit a little too close to home for Saturday Night Live newbie Pete Davidson. On Wednesday, Sept. 16, after Rannazzisi, 37, released a public statement saying he’d lied about being in the World Trade Center on 9/11, Davidson took to Twitter to give The League star a piece of his mind.

“It’s ok @SteveRannazzisi people make mistakes … Can’t wait to meet my dad for lunch later,” the SNL actor, 21, tweeted.

Davidson’s father, Scott Davidson, was a firefighter who died after rushing to the scene on Sept. 11, 2001.

Rannazzisi missed Davidson’s dark humor, tweeting, “thank you pete. i really appreciate it,” which the SNL star retweeted, writing, “I think you missed the point…” Rannazzisi later deleted his tweet.

Davidson later tweeted, “All kidding aside this @SteveRannazzisi story sucks because he’s actually a funny comic and I love The League. It’s f—ked up.”

Fortunately, Rannazzisi attempted to right his wrong, and Davidson gave an update to his 175,000-plus followers.

“Take it easy on @SteveRannazzisi … He reached out to me and is truly sorry,” he tweeted. “We all sometimes lie and exaggerate a story to seem cooler …Unfortunately this is a very touchy topic n very near n dear 2 peoples hearts.Its years later but he apologized n owned up 2 it like a man.”

This young man is a classic example of what such things do to people, to families, to countries….to an entire world.  It eviscerates our very souls.  Pete is an example of not giving up, asking for help when you need it and trying to give back as you heal yourself.   I think his Dad would be proud of him – he is a survivor!

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml

Borderline Personality Disorder

Overview

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a serious mental disorder marked by a pattern of ongoing instability in moods, behavior, self-image, and functioning. These experiences often result in impulsive actions and unstable relationships. A person with BPD may experience intense episodes of anger, depression, and anxiety that may last from only a few hours to days.

Some people with BPD also have high rates of co-occurring mental disorders, such as mood disorders, anxiety disorders, and eating disorders, along with substance abuse, self-harm, suicidal thinking and behaviors, and suicide.

While mental health experts now generally agree that the label “borderline personality disorder” is very misleading, a more accurate term does not exist yet.

Signs and Symptoms

People with borderline personality disorder may experience extreme mood swings and can display uncertainty about who they are. As a result, their interests and values can change rapidly.

Other symptoms include:

  • Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment
  • A pattern of intense and unstable relationships with family, friends, and loved ones, often swinging from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation)
  • Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self
  • Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, and binge eating
  • Recurring suicidal behaviors or threats or self-harming behavior, such as cutting
  • Intense and highly changeable moods, with each episode lasting from a few hours to a few days
  • Chronic feelings of emptiness
  • Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling anger
  • Having stress-related paranoid thoughts
  • Having severe dissociative symptoms, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside the body, or losing touch with reality

Seemingly ordinary events may trigger symptoms. For example, people with borderline personality disorder may feel angry and distressed over minor separations—such as vacations, business trips, or sudden changes of plans—from people to whom they feel close. Studies show that people with this disorder may see anger in an emotionally neutral face and have a stronger reaction to words with negative meanings than people who do not have the disorder.

Some of these signs and symptoms may be experienced by people with other mental health problems—and even by people without mental illness—and do not necessarily mean that they have borderline personality disorder. It is important that a qualified and licensed mental health professional conduct a thorough assessment to determine whether a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder or other mental disorder is warranted, and to help guide treatment options when appropriate.

Tests and Diagnosis

Unfortunately, borderline personality disorder is often underdiagnosed or misdiagnosed. A licensed mental health professional experienced in diagnosing and treating mental disorders—such as a psychiatrist, psychologist, or clinical social worker—can diagnose borderline personality disorder based on a thorough interview and a comprehensive medical exam, which can help rule out other possible causes of symptoms.

The licensed mental health professional may ask about symptoms and personal and family medical histories, including any history of mental illnesses. This information can help the mental health professional decide on the best treatment. In some cases, co-occurring mental illnesses may have symptoms that overlap with borderline personality disorder, making it difficult to distinguish borderline personality disorder from other mental illnesses. For example, a person may describe feelings of depression but may not bring other symptoms to the mental health professional’s attention.

Research funded by NIMH is underway to look for ways to improve diagnosis of and treatments for borderline personality disorder, and to understand the various components of borderline personality disorder and other personality disorders such as impulsivity, relationship problems, and emotional instability.

Risk Factors

The causes of BPD are not yet clear, but research suggests that genetic, brain, environmental and social factors are likely to be involved.

  • Genetics. BPD is about five times more likely to occur if a person has a close family member (first-degree biological relatives) with the disorder.
  • Environmental and Social Factors. Many people with BPD report experiencing traumatic life events, such as abuse or abandonment during childhood. Others may have been exposed to unstable relationships and hostile conflicts. However, some people with BPD do not have a history of trauma. And, many people with a history of traumatic life events do not have BPD.
  • Brain Factors. Studies show that people with BPD have structural and functional changes in the brain, especially in the areas that control impulses and emotional regulation. However, some people with similar changes in the brain do not have BPD. More research is needed to understand the relationship between brain structure and function and BPD.

Research on BPD is focused on examining biological and environmental risk factors, with special attention on whether early symptoms may emerge at a younger age than previously thought. Scientists are also studying ways to identify the disorder earlier in adolescents.

Treatments and Therapies

BPD has historically been viewed as difficult to treat. However, with newer and proper treatment, many people with BPD experience fewer or less severe symptoms and an improved quality of life. Many factors affect the length of time it takes for symptoms to improve once treatment begins, so it is important for people with BPD and their loved ones to be patient and to receive appropriate support during treatment. People with BPD can recover.

If you think you have BPD, it is important to seek treatment.

NIMH-funded studies indicate that BPD patients who never recovered may be more likely to develop other chronic medical conditions and are less likely to make healthy lifestyle choices. BPD is also associated with a high rate of self-harm and suicidal behavior.

If you are thinking about harming yourself or attempting suicide, tell someone who can help right away. Call your licensed mental health professional if you are already working with one. If you are not already working with a licensed mental health professional, call your personal physician or go to the nearest hospital emergency room.

If a loved one is considering suicide, do not leave him or her alone. Try to get your loved one to seek immediate help from his or her doctor or the nearest hospital emergency room, or call 911. Remove any access he or she may have to firearms or other potential tools for suicide, including medications, sharp edges such as knives, ropes, or belts.

If you or a loved one are in crisis: Call the toll-free National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. The service is available to anyone. All calls are confidential.

The treatments described below are just some of the options that may be available to a person with BPD. However, the research on treatments is still in very early stages. More research is needed to determine the effectiveness of these treatments, who may benefit the most, and how best to deliver treatments.

Psychotherapy

Psychotherapy (or “talk therapy”) is the main treatment for people with BPD. Current research suggests psychotherapy can relieve some symptoms, but further studies are needed to better understand how well psychotherapy works.

Psychotherapy can be provided one-on-one between the therapist and the patient or in a group setting. Therapist-led group sessions may help teach people with BPD how to interact with others and how to express themselves effectively. It is important that people in therapy get along with and trust their therapist. The very nature of BPD can make it difficult for people with this disorder to maintain a comfortable and trusting bond with their therapist.

Types of psychotherapy used to treat BPD include:

  • Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT): CBT can help people with BPD identify and change core beliefs and/or behaviors that underlie inaccurate perceptions of themselves and others and problems interacting with others. CBT may help reduce a range of mood and anxiety symptoms and reduce the number of suicidal or self-harming behaviors.
  • Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT): This type of therapy utilizes the concept of mindfulness, or being aware of and attentive to the current situation and moods. DBT also teaches skills to control intense emotions, reduce self-destructive behaviors, and improve relationships. DBT differs from CBT in that it integrates traditional CBT elements with mindfulness, acceptance, and techniques to improve a person’s ability to tolerate stress and control his or her emotions. DBT recognizes the dialectical tension between the need for acceptance and the need for change.
  • Schema-Focused Therapy: This type of therapy combines elements of CBT with other forms of psychotherapy that focus on reframing schemas, or the ways people view themselves. This approach is based on the idea that BPD stems from a dysfunctional self-image—possibly brought on by negative childhood experiences—that affects how people react to their environment, interact with others, and cope with problems or stress.
  • Systems Training for Emotional Predictability and Problem Solving (STEPPS) is a type of group therapy that aims to educate family members, significant others, and health care professionals about BPD and gives them guidance on how to interact consistently with the person with the disorder using the STEPPS approach and terminology. STEPPS is designed to supplement other treatments the patient may be receiving, such as medication or individual psychotherapy.

Families of people with BPD may also benefit from therapy. The challenges of dealing with a loved one with BPD on a daily basis can be very stressful, and family members may unknowingly act in ways that worsen their relative’s symptoms. Some therapies include family members in treatment sessions. These types of programs help families develop skills to better understand and support a relative with BPD. Other therapies focus on the needs of family members and help them understand the obstacles and strategies for caring for a loved one with BPD. Although more research is needed to determine the effectiveness of family therapy in BPD, studies on other mental disorders suggest that including family members can help in a person’s treatment.

Other types of psychotherapy may be helpful for some people with BPD. Therapists often adapt psychotherapy to better meet a person’s needs. Therapists may also switch from one type of psychotherapy to another, mix techniques from different therapies, or use a combination of psychotherapies. For more information, please see the NIMH webpage on Psychotherapies.

Medications

Medications should not be used as the primary treatment for BPD as the benefits are unclear. However, in some cases, a mental health professional may recommend medications to treat specific symptoms, such as mood swings, depression, or other disorders that may occur with BPD. Treatment with medications may require care from more than one medical professional.

Because of the high risk of suicide among people with BPD, health care providers should exercise caution when prescribing medications that may be lethal in the event of an overdose.

Certain medications can cause different side effects in different people. Talk to your doctor about what to expect from a particular medication.

Other Treatments

Some people with BPD experience severe symptoms and require intensive, often inpatient, care. Others may use some outpatient treatments but never need hospitalization or emergency care. Although in rare cases, some people who develop this disorder may improve without any treatment, most people benefit from and improve their quality of life by seeking treatment.

Finding Help

More information about finding a health care provider or treatment for mental disorders in general is available on our Finding Help for Mental Illness webpage. You may also find additional information through the NIMH Outreach Partners or the NIMH National Partners.

How can I help a friend or relative who has BPD?

If you know someone who has BPD, it affects you too. The first and most important thing you can do is help your friend or relative get the right diagnosis and treatment. You may need to make an appointment and go with your friend or relative to see the doctor. Encourage him or her to stay in treatment or to seek different treatment if symptoms do not appear to improve with the current treatment.

To help a friend or relative you can:

  • Offer emotional support, understanding, patience, and encouragement—change can be difficult and frightening to people with BPD, but it is possible for them to get better over time.
  • Learn about mental disorders, including BPD, so you can understand what your friend or relative is experiencing.
  • With written permission from your friend or loved one, talk with his or her therapist to learn about therapies that may involve family members. Alternatively, you can encourage your loved one who is in treatment for BPD to ask about family therapy.
  • Seek counseling from your own therapist about helping a loved one with BPD. It should not be the same therapist that your loved one with BPD is seeing.

Never ignore comments about someone’s intent or plan to harm himself or herself or someone else. Report such comments to the person’s therapist or doctor. In urgent or potentially life-threatening situations, you may need to call the police or dial 911.

How can I help myself if I have BPD?

Although it may take some time, you can get better with treatment. To help yourself:

  • Talk to your doctor about treatment options and stick with treatment.
  • Try to maintain a stable schedule of meals and sleep times.
  • Engage in mild activity or exercise to help reduce stress.
  • Set realistic goals for yourself.
  • Break up large tasks into small ones, set some priorities, and do what you can, as you can.
  • Try to spend time with other people and confide in a trusted friend or family member.
  • Tell others about events or situations that may trigger symptoms.
  • Expect your symptoms to improve gradually over time, not immediately. Be patient.
  • Identify and seek out comforting situations, places, and people.
  • Continue to educate yourself about this disorder.
  • Don’t drink alcohol or use illicit drugs – they will likely make things worse

Clinical Trials

What are Clinical Trials?

Clinical trials are research studies that look at new ways to prevent, detect, or treat diseases and conditions, including BPD. During clinical trials, treatments might be new drugs or new combinations of drugs, new surgical procedures or devices, or new ways to use existing treatments. The goal of clinical trials is to determine if a new test or treatment works and is safe. Although individual participants may benefit from being part of a clinical trial, participants should be aware that the primary purpose of a clinical trial is to gain new scientific knowledge so that others may be better helped in the future.

Research on BPD treatment is focused on the development and evaluation of psychotherapy and pharmacological interventions to prevent self-harming and suicidal behaviors, which occur at a higher rate among people with BPD.

Please note: Decisions about whether to participate in a clinical trial and which trial may be best suited for you should be made in collaboration with your licensed health professional.

How do I find Clinical Trials at NIMH/NIH on Borderline Personality Disorder?

Scientists at the NIH campus conduct research on numerous areas of study, including cognition, genetics, epidemiology, and psychiatry. The studies take place at the NIH Clinical Center in Bethesda, Maryland and require regular visits. After the initial phone interview, you will come to an appointment at the clinic and meet with one of our clinicians. Find NIH-funded studies currently recruiting participants with BPD by using ClinicalTrials.gov (search: BPD). NIH also supports clinical trials nationwide and in other countries.

How Do I Find a Clinical Trial Near Me?

To search for a clinical trial near you, you can visit ClinicalTrials.gov. This is a searchable registry and results database of federally and privately supported clinical trials conducted in the United States and around the world. ClinicalTrials.gov gives you information about a trial’s purpose, who may participate, locations, and phone numbers for more details. This information should be used in conjunction with advice from health professionals.

Learn More

Federal Resources

Related NIMH Booklets and Brochures

  • Eating Disorders: About More Than Food: A brochure about the common eating disorders anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and binge-eating disorder, and various approaches to treatment.
  • Depression: What You Need to Know: This booklet contains information on depression including signs and symptoms, treatment and support options, and a listing of additional resources.

Last Revised: August 2016

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1 Dec 2017 Morning Meditation

Hello to you. How are you doing in your present moment as you visit here? I hope you are less conflicted inside than I am! I am excited about seeing Lindsey Stirling tonight and sad with the news that our neighbors sister died yesterday after not recovering from complications due to an automobile accident! Rhonda was apt to remind me there are pills for my being happy and sad at the same time. I reminded her I’m taking some of those and it’s not helping with my predicament today!

There are more than a few things just popping some pill or another won’t provide any sort of consolation for. Coping with mixed emotions is an inside job to tackle with the God of your understanding if you have one or spending time in prayer, meditation, a long walk….for some to even smoke some weed! It’s important to allow ourselves to feel emotions and not just use people, places and things to obstruct or mask the experience. We are human beings and having feelings is part of being human!

Had an early morning wake up, like 1:38 am or so. It was like someone was standing right next to my side of the bed with a cup of prepared coffee! The mystery kind of got solved when I let the dogs out later and smelled the same sort of smell outside. Must have got into the house via our HVAC system or something.

So this morning’s meditation included my cards and a map of the United States I got from the Sierra Club many years ago. The messages spoke to me but also seemed to speak to what I see is happening these days in our country…in our world. I want to stress cards of any kind and there are millions of different types people use, are just tools. Sometimes I feel like my chalk drawings are too ambiguous and vague. Adding the cards lately is helping things get more specific.

It’s important to not read too much into such things..the phrase “self-fulfilling prophecy” comes to mind. There is always a fork in the road and we can choose, at any moment, which road to take.

1 Dec 2017 – overall reading

1 Dec 2017 – closer look at the cards ad their positions. The direction, facing up or down, changes the overall meaning.

8 of Cups face up- Tells you you will get what you’ve hoped for, but you may be being over-cautious

8 of Swords face down – Warns of unexpected calamities

Knight of Cups face up- Most often represents a lover, or the messenger of true love

8 of Wands face up – This is a time to take action, to be hopeful, to plan your next moves.

2 of Wands face down – Portends something unexpected will happen or enter the picture, or loss or failure in your new enterprise

Ace of Swords face up – Represents triumph by force

3 of Wands face up – Problems can be resolved if the person remains calm, dignified, intelligent

The World face down – Symbolizes complete mastery and understanding of your own inner nature and of the forces surrounding you

3 of Swords face up – Indicates the disintegration of alliances

6 of Swords face down – Indicates a journey, or visitor or message

Special: 5 of Wands face up – Signifies Greed, competition for financial gain, hardship

1 Dec 2017 – the “special” card today speaks directly to America.

The drawings that came up, especially the one with Vladimir Putin dressed in the colors of our flag, political parties and surrounded in “Cheeto Orange” comes with messages that resonated with me with the recent indictment of Michael Flynn. The messages, “They all play in this game” and “Takes many sheep to make a lamb” were what came forth after the poor drawing of Putin. In my perception, it’s not fair to just go after one person when so many are probably involved with this whole thing.  I think it’s important for transparency in this whole issue and to focus on how to make these wrongs right instead of just tearing more people and this country apart.   Sometimes looking at or hearing the news headlines in this country seems like what it may have been for the Romans in their Colosseums!  Just watching people being shredded alive!  Only in our day an age it isn’t flesh being ripped apart by lions, it’s their characters…their very souls. 

1 Dec 2017 – this poor rendering of Vladimir Putin dressed in red white blue and surrounded by Cheeto orange and the messages that came are about how it seems a lamb is chosen to take the fall for everyone and no one ultimately benefits from this. Everyone involved should be held in account!

1 Dec 2017 – my dream has always been a unified earth. Enemies we all share Greed Hate and Fear, Fear being the worst in my feeling. This is me ruminating about the plethora of sexual misconduct allegations we are seeing that are destroying people’s lives. We have to be careful about this tactic.

The other messages pertains to what is going on with people, mostly men, being ripped apart and their legacies laid waste with sexual misconduct allegations. It came to me, as someone who has experienced sexual misconduct many times in my life, that bringing such things to light out of a heartspace of spite does no one any good. It’s just pouring more gasoline on a fire. We don’t heal as a nation and a people by attacking each other out of spite and vengeance.

http://variety.com/2017/politics/news/michael-flynn-guilty-charged-russia-probe-1202627430/ – use link for complete article

Michael Flynn Pleads Guilty to Lying to FBI in Russia Probe

WASHINGTON — Michael Flynn, President Donald Trump’s former national security adviser, plead guilty to one count to lying to the FBI as part of an agreement reached with Special Counsel Robert Mueller in his probe into Russian interference in the 2016 election.

Mueller charged Flynn with “willfully and knowingly” making false statements to the FBI regarding his conversations with Russia’s ambassador, Sergey Kislyak.

 

I told Kyle this morning that in a way, despite how ugly this whole year has been in this country, I am becoming almost grateful for it.  I am seeing it has been the sort of humbling experience this country has needed for a very long time.  We can learn from what is happening in this literal and figurative dismantling of America.  We can come together as a nation and instead of rebuilding other countries as we’ve done in the past after wars….begin to rebuild ours in peaceful cooperation with the rest of this world.   

 

1 Dec 2017 – this was the last drawing and looking at it after talking to our neighbor about the tragic loss of his sister makes me wonder if this was for her.

19 Nov 2017 Drawings and In Shadow (Lubomir Arsov animated film, Flowart station)

Hello to you.  Just a quick post.  Sharing a couple of drawings and a link for a short film Flowart Station (here on WordPress) also shared called In Shadow.  They had it on You tube also, so sharing it from there.  It’s not an easy film to watch but sometimes we can gain insight from watching such things.  My husband and I really like the animated film genre, so this resonated with us on many levels.  If you aren’t into animated films, this might be the introduction you need to explore the genre.

– Link to Flowart Station Magazine post to view it on Vimeo:

IN-SHADOW – This impressive short film is a violent criticism against capitalism

Published on Nov 13, 2017

Embark on a visionary journey through the fragmented unconscious of the west, and with courage face the Shadow. From Shadow into Light.

“No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell.”
-C.G. Jung

Written, Directed & Produced by Lubomir Arsov
Original Soundtrack “Age of Wake” by Starward Projections
Composited by Sheldon Lisoy
Additional Compositing by Hiram Gifford
Art Directed & Edited by Lubomir Arsov
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Gallery quality ART PRINTS available here: https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/inshadow/

Film Website: https://www.inshadow.net/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/inshadowmovie/
Music Composers: https://www.starwardprojections.com/
Contact: light@inshadow.net

© Lubomir Arsov 2017

IN-SHADOW – This impressive short film is a violent criticism against capitalism

7 Nov 2017 This Little Light of Mine

Hello to you.  It’s a cold, gray Tuesday.  I’ve been out chalking some and my mind and heart are still processing Sutherland Springs and all the events that have happened like it before.  My heart just hurts about what is happening in our country.  Last night Kyle and I talked (I cried) about this as I was just pent up with so much pain.  People try to rationalize this by saying guns don’t kill people, a gun is just a tool.  Well Kyle narrowed it down to this.  Yes a gun is a tool but unlike a hammer that was created with the intention pounding nails…building things, a gun was always intended for the purpose of maiming, disarming and killing another living being.  The gun manufacturers have made sure that the latest and greatest versions are even more efficient at it….bump stocks etc.  I told Kyle I don’t understand how people, to include my own family, are just okay with this happening over and over and not willing to do anything about it!  How can anyone just be okay with this?!  And I’m crazy?!

I won’t belabor the point because my words are already in an echo chamber…..

My thoughts this morning went to my Grandpa and my Mom.  My Grandpa was a Pastor for many years and my Mother a “Pastor’s daughter.”  When I think of how much my Grandpa loved my Mom and what it did to him when she took her own life…with a gun at age 26.   I can only imagine the grief the pastor of the Sutherland First Baptist Church must be feeling at losing his daughter Annabelle at only age 14 at the hand of an angry young man’s gun.  I’m sure it is much the same.  My Grandpa never got over my Mom’s death.

My Mom Jeanne and my Grandpa Becker on her wedding day, 21 Nov 1965.

The first drawing I did was thinking about the keyhole to heaven and the phrase “suffer not the little children” came to me.   As I did the second drawing, the song “This Little Light of Mine” popped into my head.  I can imagine that Annabelle, the others who died with her and anyone who has had their life taken by another would not want us to simply mourn the tragedy of their being taken from us so violently.  I would think they would want us to turn on our inner lights even brighter….try even harder to make this world a better place for those who remain.  Let not their lives taken be taken in vain….be just another act of senseless violence.  This is easier said than done.  It is so hard not to let the lights go out going through such things as these.  It is so hard to avoid throwing up our hands at both the simplicity and the vast complexity of this whole issue.  My heart is with all those who are suffering right now.  There are no strangers here.

 

This little light of mine

This Little Light of Mine

Raffi

This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine

I’m gonna take this light around the world
And I’m gonna let it shine
I’m gonna take this light around the world
And I’m gonna let it shine
I’m gonna take this light around the world
And I’m gonna let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine

This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine

Well I won’t let anyone (pff) it out, I’m gonna let it shine
I won’t let anyone (pff) it out, I’m gonna let it shine
I won’t let anyone (pff) it out, I’m gonna let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine

This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine

Every day, every day, I’m going to let my little light
Shine

Songwriters: BOB GIBSON

© THE BICYCLE MUSIC COMPANY

For non-commercial use only.

Data from: LyricFind

http://abc7.com/pastors-14-year-old-daughter-among-dead-in-texas-church-shooting/2607277/

First Baptist Church Pastor Frank Pomeroy said he was not at the church Sunday morning when the shooting took place. His youngest daughter, Annabelle, was.

https://misifusa.wordpress.com/2017/11/07/life-is-not-for-the-faint-of-heart/ – message I needed today that might help you too from fellow blogger Misifusa.

Matthew 19:14 14Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

 

6 Nov 2017 You cannot control what you cannot see but there is something you can do about domestic violence

Still processing things….writing and drawing is what helps me do that.  I’m paying for this domain name/blog so I’m going to use it for what I bought it for!

I have come to understand the hardest thing about things you cannot see, you have no control.  This is especially true when it comes to mental illness.  It’s one of the unseen – there is no outward visible sign to tell another there is something wrong….but there are warnings which often go unheeded or get dismissed.

There is no knowing what things you cannot see are capable of.  I know this sounds “out there” but I am starting to wonder if we are the only ones capable of “driving the car” (our bodies.)  Sometimes I wonder if powers unseen have the ability to hack into us!  Kyle blames the pharmaceutical industry and I wonder if it’s partially that, food, water, air, technology and the “unseen” at work.  All I know is if you can’t see it, you can’t control it.  Apparently it has been found that most of the perps from these mass shootings have something in common – a history of violence and or aggression towards women.  Such is the case with the Sutherland Springs shooter. 

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/2017/11/06/sutherland-springs-church-shooting-what-we-know-now/834997001/

Motive

Martin described the tragedy as possibly arising from a “domestic situation” involving the shooter’s mother-in-law, a congregant at the church. He said the in-laws were not present at the time of the massacre, but came to the church after hearing about the shooting.

Bad-conduct discharge

Air Force spokeswoman Ann Stefanek told USA TODAY that Kelley served in the 49th Logistics Readiness Squadron at Holloman Air Force Base in southern New Mexico from 2010 until he was discharged.

Kelley was court-martialed in 2012 for assaulting his spouse and their child. He received a bad-conduct discharge, was confined for 12 months and busted to the grade of E-1. He was discharged in 2014.

Thank you for walking with me through this.  I’m really having a hard time with all these mass shootings.

Useful links:

http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/recognizing-warning-signs

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/posteverything/wp/2017/06/15/what-do-many-mass-shooters-have-in-common-a-history-of-domestic-violence/?utm_term=.7ce424d3f237

“At first glance, mass shooters like James T. Hodgkinson, who authorities say opened fire Wednesday morning as Republicans practiced for a Congressional Baseball Game, seem like a diverse group.

Hodgkinson, whose attack injured House Majority Whip Steve Scalise, a congressional aide, a lobbyist and two Capitol Police officers, frequently criticized President Trump and other GOP leaders on social media and in letters to his local newspaper and contacted the office of Rep. Mike Bost (R-Ill.) 14 times to criticize Republicans. Past mass shooters have chosen targets or left manifestos indicating wildly different possible political beliefs or motivations — or given no indication at all of what made them act. With no common ideology or goal uniting the perpetrators of such horrific violence, how can we identify those likely to perpetrate mass shootings and prevent them from doing so?

There is one thing, though, that an alarming number of the recent mass shooters in the United States share: A history of aggression and violence toward women. Seung-Hui Cho, who killed 32 people in the horrific massacre at Virginia Tech in 2007, had been previously investigated for stalking two female classmates. Elliot Rodger, who killed six and wounded 13 in Isla Vista, Calif., in 2014, was obsessed with perceived rejection by women, and not long before the shooting had thrown coffee on two women at a bus stop because they failed to smile at him. Ismaaiyl Brinsley, who murdered two police officers in Brooklyn, N.Y., in 2015, shot his ex-girlfriend in the stomach just hours earlier. Cedric Ford, who shot 17 people last year at the Newton, Kan., plant where he worked, killing three, had been accused of abusing his ex-girlfriend and had been served with a restraining order not long before the shooting. Robert Dear, who shot and killed three people at a Planned Parenthood in Colorado Springs, in 2015, had a history of domestic violence and harassment toward women. And Omar Mateen, who murdered 49 people at Pulse nightclub in Orlando, physically abused his wife for years, beating her because she had not finished the laundry or a similar offense.”

 

 

 

1 Nov 2017 Legion of Darth Maul’s (dream)

Hello to you.  It’s the day after Halloween and we did have one after all here even with it raining.  We had a few kids but because they have trunk or treat in town, forgot they were having it the same day, most kids didn’t get to our neighborhood til 7:30 or later and by about 8 I was done.  I just wasn’t in the spirit this year.   May be next year.

Last night I got to thinking about things and was thinking about taking a long if not permanent break from this blog.  A lot just because of being tired after several weeks of trying to acclimate to Kyle’s work schedule.  I was praying, talking to the God of my understanding about it and left it with this, “make me care.”  Well then I wake up to a dream that wouldn’t “let me alone” until I got up and wrote it down.  It wasn’t detailed but it was vivid and the message pretty clear…..literally made me care.

It started with something about asking for and wanting a cold beer and someone saying there wasn’t any.  Then I see my Uncle Bill as a much younger man laying outside in a weird place passed out and we (someone else was in the dream with me) waking him up by touching his earlobe.  This dream transitioned to watching an angry group of young men as they were suddenly teleported from where they were by a flash of red light into being part of rows and rows of men who looked like the character Darth Maul from Star Wars.  They were still angry when they transformed but their grumbles were silenced.  They were all in black robes holding double light sabers .

This dream, in a couple of images tells a lot about what it’s like for young men in our world doesn’t it?  How tempting is it to take a bunch of angry young men and transform them into a unified army of angry young men willing to carry out the right leaders cause?  We are seeing it with many of the extremist nationalist groups right now – like Charlottesville and other places.  When asked “why do you hate me?”  They can’t even answer with more than the mortifying sign of programming….”I don’t know.”

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/protester-who-hugged-a-nazi-pleads-why-do-you-hate-me/ar-AAtKMJs?OCID=ansmsnnews11

 Protester who hugged a Nazi pleads, ‘Why do you hate me?’

Jessica Chia
a group of people standing in front of a crowd: A man wearing a t-shirt emblazoned with swastikas on Thursday was surrounded by a crowd of protesters who screamed, punched and spat on him before Aaron Alex Courtney gave him a hug.
© Provided by New York Daily News A man wearing a t-shirt emblazoned with swastikas on Thursday was surrounded by a crowd of protesters who screamed, punched and spat on him before Aaron Alex Courtney gave him a hug. The man who hugged a Nazi outside Richard Spencer’s speech at the University of Florida on Thursday said, “I could have hit him, I could have hurt him … but something in me said, ‘You know what? He just needs love.’”A man wearing a T-shirt emblazoned with swastikas on Thursday was surrounded by a crowd of protesters who screamed, punched and spat on him before Aaron Alex Courtney gave him a hug.Courtney, a 31-year-old high school football coach in Gainesville, yelled, “Why don’t you like me, dog?” as he wrapped his arms around the Nazi in a video that quickly went viral on social media.Speaking to the New York Daily News early Friday, Courtney said, “It’s a step in the right direction. One hug can really change the world. It’s really that simple.”

Courtney said he didn’t know who Richard Spencer was when he received a state of emergency notification on his phone on Monday.

Florida Gov. Rick Scott declared the emergency ahead of Spencer’s appearance at the school just two months after the white supremacist helped plan a far-right rally in Charlottesville, Virginia, that broke out in deadly violence.

Surprised that the emergency declaration wasn’t warning of a kidnapping or an impending hurricane, Courtney set out to do some research on Spencer.

“I found out about what kind of person he was and that encouraged me, as an African American, to come out and protest. Because this is what we’re trying to avoid. It’s people like him who are increasing the distance…between people,” he said.

Courtney, who spent nearly four hours protesting on Thursday, was getting ready to leave when he saw the Nazi causing a commotion among the other demonstrators.

“I had the opportunity to talk to someone who hates my guts and I wanted to know why. During our conversation, I asked him, ‘Why do you hate me? What is it about me? Is it my skin color? My history? My dreadlocks?” he told the Daily News.

But the man simply looked off into the distance and brushed off his questions as Courtney pleaded with him and grew increasingly upset.

“After beating around the bush, and avoiding my questions, I asked him, I pleaded with him, I almost broke out in tears, growing increasingly angry because I didn’t understand,” he said.

a man standing in front of a crowd: Blood runs from the lip of a man after he was punched by a protester outside a University of Florida auditoriumCiting the teachings of his father, who is a bishop, Courtney told the Daily News, “Something in me said, ‘You know what? He just needs love. Maybe he never met an African American like this.”And so he told the Nazi to give him a hug. And despite some initial resistance, Courtney said, “I reached over and the third time, he wrapped his arms around me, and I heard God whisper in my ear, ‘You changed his life.’”

The crowd around them immediately reacted and when Courtney pressed him again, asking ‘Why do you hate me?” the Nazi finally answered, “I don’t know.”

“I believe that was his sincere answer. He really doesn’t know,” Courtney said.

After the Nazi was ushered away by police, he took a photo with Courtney’s friend.

The 31-year-old said, “I honestly feel that was a step in the right direction, for him to take a picture with a guy that he hated when he woke up this morning.”

So who was Darth Maul for the Star Wars un-initiated?

 

http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Darth_Maul/Legends – this page has Darth’s entire story if you are interested.

“Fear. Fear attracts the fearful… the strong… the weak… the innocent… the corrupt. Fear. Fear is my ally.” ―Darth Maul — Gnome-speakernotesListen (file info)[src]

Darth Maul was a male Dathomirian Zabrak Dark Lord of the Sith who lived during the waning years of the Galactic Republic. Originally a Dathomiri Nightbrother born on Iridonia and known only as Maul, the infant Maul was given by his Nightsister mother to the Sith Lord Darth Sidious, who trained him in the ways of the dark side of the Force as his secret apprentice on a secret Mustafar training facility, along with the help of a split personality droid. Maul became a master of Juyo, Ataru, Jar’Kai, and Teräs Käsi, with training in Niman, and chose to wield a red-bladed saberstaff in combat. Though well trained in the ways of the Sith and a Sith assassin rather than a full apprentice, Maul was technically a violation of the Rule of Two because his own Master was at the time apprenticed to another, the Muun Sith Lord Darth Plagueis. Plagueis however, was fully aware of Maul’s existence, and supported Sidious’s decision to train him. The primary reason for Plagueis’s support, despite the violation of the Rule of Two, was that Maul was trained to be expendable. As an assassin, he could perform high priority, boots-on-the-ground missions for the Sith without running the risk of exposing either Plagueis or Sidious should he fail.

Final test

“From this day forward, you are a Sith Lord. You have chosen the path of darkness, the path of power. You are Lord Maul. You are my instrument.”
“Yes, Master.”
“Your rage. You enjoyed it? You enjoyed wanting to kill me?”
“Yes.”
“You will do well, Lord Maul.” ―Darth Maul is decreed a Sith Lord by his Master

Yep….I care.  I probably care too much.  I hope these folks are ready for what is coming.

http://www.mlive.com/news/ann-arbor/index.ssf/2017/10/university_of_michigan_receive_7.html

White nationalist Richard Spencer wants to speak at University of Michigan

Updated on October 31, 2017 at 10:34 AM,  Posted on October 31, 2017 at 10:23 AM

30 Oct 2017 Marisa W. Harris’s tragic and ironic interface with earth school’s reality

Hello to you.  I got a bit of a shock this morning when I perused the headlines this morning, Google this time.  One of the most tragic and ironic stories was there.  A young woman named Marisa W Harris, who looks a lot like the woman I drew yesterday, was killed by a little boy (dream) who they think tried to kill himself by jumping off of an overpass and ended up landing on Marisa’s car and killing her.  She literally saved a severely troubled child?! There is something to learn here in this story.  Children don’t just starve for lack of food.  One of the main reasons I chose not to have children wasn’t just because of fibroid cysts in my ovaries, it was for fear of passing on what my mother and I share to a child in a world like this.  My prayers go out to all involved in this tragedy and all those like it all over this world.    I am truly hoping for something good to come of this.  I don’t want Marisa to have died for nothing.  Learning in Earth School is 24/7….24 hours…365 days a year.

29 Oct 2017 – After I drew the woman came the pyramid with the cavity underneath image again. The phrase is something I’ve heard in my head when I’m outside with the trees. May seem odd, just writing down what comes through.

 

https://www.upi.com/Top_News/US/2017/10/30/Woman-killed-when-suicidal-12-year-old-jumps-from-overpass-lands-on-her-police/3811509342928/

Home / Top News / U.S. News

Woman killed when suicidal 12-year-old jumps from overpass, lands on her: police

By Ray Downs  |  Oct. 30, 2017 at 2:09 AM
Marisa Harris, 23, was studying to be a counselor to help troubled children, her family said. Photo via Facebook
 Oct. 30 (UPI) — A 12-year-old boy attempted to commit suicide by jumping off an overpass Saturday, but landed on a car and instead killed the 23-year-old driver, Virginia State Police said.

The boy, who has not been named because he is a minor, was severely injured in the incident and remains in critical condition.

The passenger was not injured.

Harris was a graduate student pursuing a degree in clinical counseling at Marymount University. Family said she was studying counseling to help troubled kids.

“That’s the irony that we’re at looking at right now,” her father, Patrick Harris, told the Washington Post.

“She was caring — I mean she had an absolute love for children,” Harris’ mother, Leigh Miller said.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/public-safety/police-12-year-old-jumped-from-i-66-overpass-killing-driver-below/2017/10/29/e2d7bdbc-bce8-11e7-959c-fe2b598d8c00_story.html?utm_term=.08b36c553550

 

https://saymber.com/2017/10/29/29-oct-2017-dreaming-while-your-awake-imagining/

https://saymber.com/2017/10/29/29-oct-2017-the-hotel-of-hunger-wizard-and-the-dragon-dreams-and-mother-earth-poem-by-henry-van-dyke/

http://abc.go.com/shows/the-toy-box – fun new show, I would like to see shows like this for subjects such as science and inventions also.

13 Oct 2017 Friday

Hello to you, how are you doing wherever and whenever you are as you visit me here?  I hope you are well.  It’s Friday the 13th!  For the suspicious it is a worry but not for Kyle and I.  We were both born on a 13th day and sometimes our birthdays fall on Fridays and we just celebrate the day.  Whatever you believe, doesn’t assure but certainly increases the likelihood of it occurring!

I had some interesting dreaming last night.  The part I remembered just before waking was about agreeing to guide people through a meditation so they could go to sleep.  Basically do what I do for myself to try and fall asleep for other people.  So what was funny about this is I was actually doing this in the dream and it became much like a lucid dream experience.  When I woke up this morning I felt great lol!  Too funny.

I made the mistake, and I am trying to get better about it, of looking at the headlines.  Yeah, it’s like an addiction for me.  I wish I could just wave my hand, like we wave them over our Smartphones these days, and just make all the devastation, hurt feelings, fear, sorrow all that stuff filling so many just change to something else.  Silence the drums playing louder and louder war songs.  Alas the only special powers that I have, that are within all of us, can’t work all alone.  We lived in a shared reality.  Our thoughts, hopes and dreams whether they are positive or negative visions, all overlapping each other.  I truly feel that unless we figure out a path to unity,  define a unified vision of peace, the world will never truly advance beyond these times.

It will always be two steps forward and sometimes ten steps back.

We are taught from when we are very young that this is the law of nature.  This is how “balance” works.  If we don’t suffer then we can’t know what happiness is and vise versa.  I get it!  I guess this concept wouldn’t be so awful if there seemed to be some kind balance in our world between the suffering and happiness parts!  In my opinion, I think a lot of this imbalance is being driven by global media.  Not to jump on President Trump’s “Fake News” bandwagon, and he certainly hasn’t helped with all the stunt he’s been pulling since January, but there is definitely something going on.

To look at or watch the news, it feels to me, more times than not,  like everybody is out to destroy each other and the world!  I know a big part of that is because of how I’m getting news now versus when I was younger.  It was easier to avoid it when I was younger…just don’t read the papers and turn off the television.  Now that I live in a world where I do most everything using a computer connected to the internet…it’s almost impossible to avoid some snippet or another of news be it positive or negative!  Think about how long it took for people to find out about the sinking of the Titantic versus how quickly we found out what was going on during the Vegas shooting earlier this month!

Newspapers and news media outlets are having to work harder and harder to grab our attention to stay afloat and I think it is doing great harm.  I realize by reflecting on the direction my blog here has taken sometimes that I do the same thing!  I am constantly having to remind myself and Kyle reminds me too that I need to be writing for myself first – not writing with the sole intent of notoriety and to garner a bunch of followers!  Just my linking a bunch of negative news headlines isn’t helping make the world a better place!

So many people talking…shouting….sending messages…SOS!  SOS!  There is only a certain capacity in the world for the actual receipt of all these messages.  For every message there is a messenger and a receiver but now there is another problem.  With there being SO many messages, the messages aren’t getting through at all.  They can’t get through the wall only the condition of apathy can build!

I feel like one of the most dangerous conditions that has arisen from our modern world has been apathy.

ap·a·thy
ˈapəTHē/
noun
noun: apathy
  1. lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.
    “widespread apathy among students”
    synonyms: indifference, lack of interest, lack of enthusiasm, lack of concern, unconcern, uninterestedness, unresponsiveness, impassivity, dispassion, lethargy, languor, ennui;

    rareacedia
    “widespread apathy among the voters”
Origin
early 17th century: from French apathie, via Latin from Greek apatheia, from apathēs ‘without feeling,’ from a- ‘without’ + pathos ‘suffering.’

After a point of saturation people either care too much and check out or just stop caring at all.  I feel the way the media is going about trying to grab us is with a disproportionate amount of negative headlines about EVERYTHING!  There has got to be some sort of balance restored in this.

To wrap this up.

I used to think our special power was love.  I don’t believe that anymore.  Love has become a term used in dichotomy just like anything else human beings have anything to do with.  Just as I would love a butterfly, another would love to hit it with their car for sport.  I didn’t want to believe my Mom and Dad when they said they had been to church and the priest said people use the word love too much.  In looking at my own use of the word in my daily life, yep!  I use it for everything, even things not even worthy of it.  That priest was right.  I am starting to live a very cause and effect existence.  My faith and trust in my fellow human beings has been sorely tested these past 49 years. I have resolved not to be Pavlov’s dog.  I have decided as of late that I will be God’s dog.  Some of the greatest lessons of this life have been taught to me by my life with dogs.  If I can continue to learn and become even be a fraction of the good all of the dogs I’ve know in this life have been for me, then I will eventually be a fantastic human being.

 

Pavlov‘s dog is classical conditioning, originally experiments using dogs by the Russian physiologist Ivan Pavlov. In 1904, Pavlov was awarded the Nobel Prize for his physiology work.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pavlov%27s_dog_(disambiguation)

 

 

 

 

11 Oct 2017 Today’s Youth are Depressed, Here’s Why (Thoughty2, You tube), THIS is Why The Sumerians are NOT Taught in School – Sumerian Tablets – Lost Ancient Civilization (Bright Insight, You tube) and Evening Star (Poem by Edgar Allen Poe)

Hello to you.  It’s 9:28 pm on this Wednesday evening.  How are you?  I’m doing better after Kyle and I were able to talk with our neighbor about the fence, dog and poop situation this evening.  Sounds like chicken wire will be the solution until we can all afford to replace the fence entirely.  Works for me!  It made me feel better to be able to apologize for the outburst this morning and get things sorted out.  All he heard was yelling and wasn’t sure what was going on.  It had been bugging me all day!  I don’t like being mad at people or having unresolved conflict with people.

So this evening Kyle and I were able to squeeze in part of another episode of the Living and Dead BBC One program…make it last as long as we can lol.  We also did our You tube channels scan for stuff to watch and came across this very insightful video from the Thoughty2 channel about why the youth of today are having so much trouble with depression.  It ties in nicely to the links I shared on my previous post today about Smartphones and their effect on young people’s mental health/self esteem and suicide related issues.   This video addresses a lot of things people may have not considered when making harsh judgements about young people of the past couple of generations.

Today’s Youth Are Depressed, Here’s Why…

Thoughty2

Moby & The Void Pacific Choir – Are You Lost In The World Like Me? (Official Video) – this little film sums it all up so well….so sad but true.

This is a video I saw yesterday that was very interesting to me too.  It inspired the chalk drawing I did of the Sumerian and the Reaper.  I have found the story of the Sumerians quite fascinating and kind of crossed paths with some of their history, specifically their language of the cuneiform, when I was trying to get some closure on the character Vanessa Ives from the show Penny Dreadful: https://saymber.com/2016/09/20/20-sept-2016-vanessa-ives-of-penny-dreadful-and-lilith-cuneiform-sumerian-language-finding-mementos-of-your-past-revisiting-harsh-lessons-of-farm-life-and-death-as-a-city-girl/

THIS is Why The Sumerians are NOT Taught in School – Sumerian Tablets – Lost Ancient Civilization

Bright Insight

Published on Oct 5, 2017

How is it possible that the Sumerian’s ONLY get 1-3 Sentences in the Textbooks? The world’s FIRST human civilization that dates back 6,000 years, that created our modern system of time, the calendar, writing, agriculture, and everything else is not required learning in school. This video outlines what the Sumerian tablets/records.

Here to close…this beautiful poem by Edgar Allen Poe that I have never read before:

https://www.poemhunter.com/poem/evening-star/

Evening Star – Poem by Edgar Allan Poe

‘Twas noontide of summer,
And mid-time of night;
And stars, in their orbits,
Shone pale, thro’ the light
Of the brighter, cold moon,
‘Mid planets her slaves,
Herself in the Heavens,
Her beam on the waves.
I gazed awhile
On her cold smile;
Too cold- too cold for me-
There pass’d, as a shroud,
A fleecy cloud,
And I turned away to thee,
Proud Evening Star,
In thy glory afar,
And dearer thy beam shall be;
For joy to my heart
Is the proud part
Thou bearest in Heaven at night,
And more I admire
Thy distant fire,
Than that colder, lowly light.

Sending hugs, love, hope and all the good I can muster through the wires to you…..please do pass it along 🙂 

11 Oct 2017 God’s Pop Quizzes – broken fences and dog poop

Hello to you. It’s a chilly Wednesday here as I write to you. Love the cooler temperatures! Really beginning to feel like fall but this is Texas, so give it a blink or two and that can change.  Did you chuckle when you read the title I chose for my blog today?  I hope so….it was intentional lol!

So this morning I was up early, just couldn’t get and stay asleep. Kyle’s current work schedule has us both pretty messed up sleep wise. We’ll probably fully adjust as he’s finishes the outage….just the way it seems to go.

I’m not a very pleasant person when I’m overtired and our neighbors dogs, who busted yet again through our side fence, got some choice words this morning as I shooed them back into their yard (think A Christmas Story with more expletives you can actually understand.)

Sons of B*tches! Bumpuses! (A Christmas Story Quote)

We’ve had this going on literally since we bought this house. My fuse gets shorter and shorter every time something like this happens. This goes back to the loan for buying this house not even being approved yet and one of their dogs was already busting through the fence. They’ve been through probably 10 or more dogs in the past 8 years. Nothing we’ve been able to do or say has dissuaded them from continuing to get dogs they don’t take care of like we take care of our dogs. They usually end up running away or getting picked up by Animal Control, dying , or doing what they are doing now, busting up the fence trying to get to our yard.  This said, our neighbors are good hard-working people.  They work a lot and the kids are in school most of the time, so the dogs get left alone a lot.  Dogs left alone do what dogs left alone do – they get bored, curious, hungry, restless and sometimes destructive.  These dogs seem to just want a different place to go poop.

I wouldn’t ordinarily be so nasty about this but this but I’m overtired and they have not only busted several holes in our fragile, rotting wood fence…they leave doggy presents for me to step in too. The fence needs to be replaced and we can’t afford to do it and I’m pretty sure our neighbor isn’t too eager to spend the money or effort on replacing the shared fence either.

Every time I get pissed off about this, I feel like I failed another “test.” God seems to do that to me with certain things….remember those pop quizzes you used to get in school with no warning? Yeah, it’s like that lol. Just when I think I’ve got something I don’t like about myself all sorted out, God will drop one of those pop quizzes and show me the truth. Nope! Big fat F!

After all, how can I expect the world to live in peace when I can’t even deal with something that simple without getting angry? I have some things yet to work on within myself. Leave it to the dogs and their smooshy stinky gifts to remind me of this glaring reality!

Does what I’m going through resonate at all with you today? Is there something you keep getting “tested” on that you know you need in improve about yourself?

A couple interesting articles about us and our technology habits…addictions:

http://www.dailygood.org/2017/10/11/mind-the-stream-where-mindfulness-and-technology-meet/

Oct 11, 2017— “Look around you. How many devices are bidding for your attention? If someone came into your dwelling space, could they tell what year it was by the technology that immediately surrounded you, or would they have to dig a little deeper?” Writer Emily Barr poses these questions, and others in this reflective essay that weaves together the latest findings around how our minds and our lives are being shaped by the technologies we use, and the steps we can take to make our interactions more conscious.

http://time.com/4974863/kids-smartphones-depression/

We Need to Talk About Kids and Smartphones

Markham Heid

Updated: Oct 10, 2017 8:24 AM ET

(excerpt)

“It seems like every generation of parents has a collective freak-out when it comes to kids and new technologies; television and video games each inspired widespread hand-wringing among grown-ups. But the inescapability of today’s mobile devices—coupled with the personal allure of social media—seems to separate smartphones from older screen-based media. Parents, teens and researchers agree smartphones are having a profound impact on the way adolescents today communicate with one another and spend their free time. And while some experts say it’s too soon to ring alarm bells about smartphones, others argue we understand enough about young people’s emotional and developmental vulnerabilities to recommend restricting kids’ escalating phone habit.”

 

 

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