# 14 Sept 2018 Brainstorm about natural disasters, God and Energy forms in the numbers

Hello to you.  Just a quick visit.  I hope this finds you well in your present moment.  There are many all over this world experiencing natural disasters and trauma at the moment.  There isn’t much I can do for any of them but express that I care and I hope everything ends up alright.

https://www.gematrix.org/

I did a bit of brainstorming here with this subject.  I didn’t break these out like I normally do because it can get confusing to look at.  If you find an error, let me know!  If you notice something interesting – leave a comment.  Thank you!

powerlessness in Simple Gematria equals: 189/18/9 cycle

I am powerless in Simple Gematria equals: 155/11

natural disaster in Simple Gematria equals: 182/11

It is out of my control in Simple Gematria equals: 269/17

I care in Simple Gematria equals: 36/9 cycle

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle  (It’s not an easy thing to care about others even if some people make it seem like it is, there is always a cost be it seen or unseen to the person doing the caring.)

My thoughts and prayers are with you in Simple Gematria equals: 422/62/8/4/2/1

Add all of the above together = 1253/11

It is all a matter of how you see things in Simple Gematria equals: 394/16/8/4/2/1  (Phrase that came to my mind with this line of thinking)

perspective in Simple Gematria equals: 138/12/6/3 cycle

perception in Simple Gematria equals: 121/4/2/1

Add 394 + 138 + 121 = 653/14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

1253 + 653 = 1906/16/8/4/2/1

The Great 1906 San Francisco Earthquake 5:12 AM – April 18, 1906 San Francisco City Hall after the 1906 Earthquake. (from Steinbrugge Collection of the UC Berkeley Earthquake Engineering Research Center ) The California earthquake of April 18, 1906 ranks as one of the most significant earthquakes of all time. Today, its importance comes more from the wealth of scientific knowledge derived from it than from its sheer size.

## The Great 1906 San Francisco Earthquake

earthquake.usgs.gov/earthquakes/events/1906calif/18april/index.php
1906 san francisco earthquake in Simple Gematria equals: 229/13

earthquake in Simple Gematria equals: 107

typhoon in Simple Gematria equals: 113

hurricane in Simple Gematria equals: 97

tsunami in Simple Gematria equals: 97

flood in Simple Gematria equals: 52

hail in Simple Gematria equals: 30

fire in Simple Gematria equals: 38

volcanic eruption in Simple Gematria equals: 197

= 731/11

Adding up all values = 2866/22/4/2/1

13 Sept 2018/12:31pm – thinking about God being a consciousness without a body

God = 26/8/4/2/1

space = 44/8/4/2/1

“The human body in Simple Gematria equals: 136/10/5

“Consciousness = 176 without = 116 a=1 body = 46= 339/15

“God = 26 without = 116 a=1 body = 46” = 189/18/9 cycle (powerlessness in Simple Gematria equals: 189/18/9 cycle)

Earth = 52/7

Gas = 27/9 cycle

air = 28/10/5

atoms = 68/14/5

matter = 77/14/7

atmosphere = 120/3 cycle

“The Five Senses” = 156/12/6/3

know = 93/12/6/3

intuition = 131/5

“Go with the flow” = 171/9 cycle

“Let Go, Let God” = 122/5

“Let go” = 59/14/7

“Let it go” = 88/16/8/4/2/1

Added together: earth, God, body, space, gas, air, atoms, matter, atmosphere, senses, knowing, intuition, go, flow = 908

908 + Spirit (91) = 999/27/9 cycle

(“God = 26 without = 116 a=1 body = 46” = 189/99)

908 + Soul (67) = 975/21/3 cycle

91-67 = 24 (Five is 42, reverse of 24)

Heaven = 55/10/5

Cloud = 55/10/5

“God is Gas” = 81/9 cycle

everything is energy in Simple Gematria equals: 235/10/5

god is energy in Simple Gematria equals: 128/11

https://www.thoughtco.com/main-energy-forms-and-examples-609254

Energy is defined as the ability to do work. Energy comes in various forms. Here are 10 common types of energy and examples of them.

### Mechanical Energy

mechanical energy in Simple Gematria equals: 143

Mechanical energy is energy that results from movement or the location of an object. Mechanical energy is the sum of kinetic energy and potential energy.

Examples: An object possessing mechanical energy has both kinetic and potential energy, although the energy of one of the forms may be equal to zero.

### Thermal Energy

thermal energy in Simple Gematria equals: 151

Thermal energy or heat energy reflects the temperature difference between two systems.

Example: A cup of hot coffee has thermal energy. You generate heat and have thermal energy with respect to your environment.

### Nuclear Energy

nuclear energy in Simple Gematria equals: 148

Nuclear energy is energy resulting from changes in the atomic nuclei or from nuclear reactions.

Example: Nuclear fission, nuclear fusion, and nuclear decay are examples of nuclear energy. An atomic detonation or power from a nuclear plant are specific examples of this type of energy.

### Chemical Energy

chemical energy in Simple Gematria equals: 128

Chemical energy results from chemical reactions between atoms or molecules. There are different types of chemical energy, such as electrochemical energy and chemiluminescence.

Example: A good example of chemical energy is an electrochemical cell or battery.

### Electromagnetic Energy

electromagnetic energy in Simple Gematria equals: 224

Electromagnetic energy (or radiant energy) is energy from light or electromagnetic waves.

Example: Any form of light has electromagnetic energy, including parts of the spectrum we can’t see. Radio, gamma rays, x-rays, microwaves, and ultraviolet light are some examples of electromagnetic energy.

sonic energy in Simple Gematria equals: 134

Sonic energy is the energy of sound waves. Sound waves travel through air or another medium.
Example: A sonic boom, a song played on a stereo, your voice

### Gravitational Energy

gravitational energy in Simple Gematria equals: 223

Energy associated with gravity involves the attraction between two objects based on their mass. It can serve as a basis for mechanical energy, such as the potential energy of an object placed on a shelf or the kinetic energy of the Moon in orbit around the Earth.

Example: Gravitational energy holds the atmosphere to the Earth.

### Kinetic Energy

kinetic energy in Simple Gematria equals: 145

Kinetic energy is the energy of motion of a body. It ranges from 0 to a positive value.

Example: An example is a child swinging on a swing. No matter whether the swing is moving forward or backward, the value of the kinetic energy is never negative.

### Potential Energy

potential energy in Simple Gematria equals: 186

Potential energy is the energy of an object’s position.

Example: When a child swinging on a swing reaches the top of the arc, she has maximum potential energy. When she is closest to the ground, her potential energy is at its minimum (0). Another example is throwing a ball into the air. At the highest point, the potential energy is greatest. As the ball rises or falls it has a combination of potential and kinetic energy.

### Ionization Energy

ionization energy in Simple Gematria equals: 206

Ionization energy is the form of energy that binds electrons to the nucleus of its atom, ion, or molecule.
Example: The first ionization energy of an atom is the energy needed to remove one electron completely. The second ionization energy is energy to remove a second electron and is greater than that required to remove the first electron.

14 Sept 2018 – using up the last of the outdoor chalk lol. Last color was red.

Interesting to see:

mother nature in Simple Gematria equals: 158/14/5
It was an act of god in Simple Gematria equals: 158/14/5
brainstorm in Simple Gematria equals: 129/12/6/3 cycle

By saymber

# 11 Sept 2018 Seventeenth Anniversary (9/11)

Hello to you.  How are you?  I’m doing ok.  Today is the 17th anniversary of 9/11/2001.  Today I’m thinking about all the survivors who are yet struggling with cancer and the other adverse health conditions that came from the day.  I am thinking about the family of those who died that day….all of us.  Directly or indirectly, we are all family.   Sometimes families fight and do really horrible things to each other.  To me, as I look at 9/11 all these years later, that day is a testimony to what extremes can come from a dysfunctional family.

https://www.gematrix.org/

nine eleven two thousand one in Simple Gematria equals: 299/20/2/1

dysfunctional family in Simple Gematria equals: 229/13/4/2/1

seventeenth anniversary in Simple Gematria equals: 283/13/4/2/1

survivor in Simple Gematria equals: 144/9 cycle

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66/12/6/3 cycle

cancer in Simple Gematria equals: 44/8/4/2/1

broken heart in Simple Gematria equals: 117/9 cycle (I see 9/11 in here)

= 1182/12/6/3 cycle

Links to some of the remaining posts I have here about 9/11:

https://saymber.com/2018/08/21/21-aug-2018-exploring-the-meaning-of-9-11-in-another-way-with-numbers/

https://saymber.com/2017/12/06/6-dec-2017-pete-davidson-snl-survivor-of-9-11/

https://saymber.com/2017/10/05/5-oct-2017-what-constant-exposure-to-negative-news-is-doing-to-our-mental-health-huffington-post-carolyn-gregoire/

A quick numbers run about some aspects of money:

old money in Simple Gematria equals: 103/4/2/1

new money in Simple Gematria equals: 114/6/3 cycle

wealth in Simple Gematria equals: 69/15/6/3 cycle  (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

rich in Simple Gematria equals: 38/11/2/1  or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

poor in Simple Gematria equals: 64/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

middle income in Simple Gematria equals: 106/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

checking account in Simple Gematria equals: 137/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

savings account in Simple Gematria equals: 168/15/6/3 cycle

bank account in Simple Gematria equals: 105/6/3 cycle

credit union in Simple Gematria equals: 132/6/3 cycle

wall street in Simple Gematria equals: 135/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

individual retirement account in Simple Gematria equals: 309/12/6/3 cycle

roth ira plan in Simple Gematria equals: 132/6/3 cycle

taxes in Simple Gematria equals: 69/15/6/3 cycle

taxpayer in Simple Gematria equals: 110/2/1  (president in Simple Gematria equals: 110)

= 1791/18/9 cycle

money in Simple Gematria equals: 72/9 cycle

By saymber

# 5 Sept 2018 Sentient or Food

Hello.   I hope this finds you well.  I saw this morning that Japan is making a proposal to resume commercial whaling and at first I got really upset.  Then I decided to look at things a little more closely and of course found myself in the hypocrite box.  I eat meat and meat comes from cows which are sentient beings.  I don’t know to what degree they rank up with whales but nevertheless, before I can point a finger at others, I have to remove “the plank in my own eye” on this.    It’s so hard to resist passing judgement on others who don’t believe what we believe and live the way we choose to live.  It’s almost like a reflex, an instinct to do so.  At least it can be that way for me.  It’s when I take a minute to reflect and step back from something and or someone I’m upset about that I realize my part in it.  I realize that I’ve either done something or been someone just like that at some point in my life.  I eventually set aside my anger to find understanding, compassion and even forgiveness.

Matthew 7 New International Version (NIV)

### Judging Others

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

“Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

As I’ve mentioned before, sometimes when you look at the words we’ve come up with through time to describe certain things, you find some interesting things numerically.  It’s become important to  me to start looking at this because words are what I use to communicate the most, not numbers and yet, if you think about it, numbers are behind a great deal of what we say and do in this world.  The numeric value of a word, I’ve been finding, doesn’t always match what it means by definition.  Since I’ve discovered Gematria, it’s really opened my eyes about the foundations of language and communication.  Take a look at what I’ve put together, what do you see?  Do you see patterns?

https://www.gematrix.org

“What’s your bottom line?” = 275/14/5  “Bottom Line” = 125/8  Money = 72/9 cycle  Survival = 124/Existence = 104/5

Alive = 49/13/4  Sentient = 106/7  self-aware = 90/9 cycle consciousness = 175/13/4  conscience = 90/9 cycle God = 26/8 Soul = 67/13/4

Food = 46/10/5  Body = 46/10/5  Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle  Animal = 50/5  Animals = 69/15/6/3 cycle  People = 69/15/6/3 cycle

Domestic animal = 138

Wild animal = 98

Pet animal = 91/10/5

Food animal = 96/15/6/3 cycle

Some of the beings we farm and or hunt for food:

whale = 41/5  dolphin = 78/15/6/3 cycle  fish = 42/6/3 cycle  chicken = 53/8  duck = 39/12/3 cycle goose = 61 pig = 32/5  cow = 41/5  goat = 43/7 sheep = 53/8  deer = 32/5  bear = 26/8  wolf = 56/11 dog = 26/8  cat = 24/6/3 cycle = 647/17/8  647-26 = 621/9 cycle

Life = 32 Death = 38  Birth = 57  Rebirth = 80 = 207/ 9 cycle (interesting that same numbers values here are above, 621).

Hunting = 93/12/3 cycle  Fishing = 72/9 cycle  Whaling = 74/11/2/1  Trapping = 83/11/2/1  Ranching = 74/11/2/1  Breeding = 64/10/1

Farming = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  = 528/15/6/3 cycle

http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/msn/japan%e2%80%99s-bid-to-resume-commercial-whaling-sets-stage-for-fierce-debate/ar-BBMS2pa – Japan’s bid to resume commercial whaling sets stage for fierce debate – Simon Denyer

“Moronuki said the United States is guilty of a double standard by allowing native communities in Alaska to continue whaling while not wanting Japan to do so, even though whaling is a tradition in some communities in Japan.

“All animals are equal,” he added. “Some say whales are intelligent, but I hear that some scientists found that other animals like cows and horses, they are as intelligent as whales. So you must be aware that we cannot draw the line between animals: ‘They should not be killed because they are intelligent, but others, they are not so intelligent, they should be killed.’ ”

Perry rejected that argument.

“Whether whales are sentient or not, they are very difficult to count. They are long-lived, slow-breeding animals. It’s very hard to know if you are depleting the population, and if you do deplete the population, it takes a long time to recover.”

https://www.livescience.com/39481-time-to-declare-animal-sentience.html – After 2,500 Studies, It’s Time to Declare Animal Sentience Proven (Op-Ed)

https://us.whales.org/issues/sentient-and-sapient-whales-and-dolphins – Sentient and sapient whales and dolphins

WDC believes that whales and dolphins are both sentient and sapient individuals, and that they deserve to have both their individual welfare protected and also for their moral and legal rights recognised.

https://www.meatinstitute.org/index.php?ht=d/sp/i/47465/pid/47465 – The United States Meat Industry at a Glance (as of 2013)

https://www.plantbasednews.org/post/are-farm-animals-sentient – Are Farm Animals Sentient?

https://news.vice.com/article/mexican-laborers-want-americans-to-know-who-picks-their-fruits-and-vegetables – Mexican Laborers Want Americans to Know Who Picks Their Fruits and Vegetables

“Day laborers in at least 19 other states in Mexico endure similarly poor working conditions. Some of these workers are among the quarter million people who live under modern-slavery conditions, according to the Walk Free Foundation’s 2014 Global Slavery Index.”

https://www.dirt-to-dinner.com/where-do-our-fruits-and-vegetables-come-from/ – Where Do Our Fruits and Vegetables Come From?

The Bottom Line:

Our fruits and vegetables come from all over the United States, but California leads production by a huge margin. When the season ends in the United States, production shifts to Mexico, Central and South American countries allowing Americans to enjoy many fresh produce items year-round.

By saymber

# 3 Sept 2018 “The Tree” (Dream)

3 Sept 2018 – Drawing I did last night. It was hard to concentrate. I guess they have started hunting again or something. It’s unnerving to hear gunfire so close to a residential area these days.

Hello to you.  As I write there is very gentle rain and I’m so grateful for that.  It was getting dry here again.

It’s Labor Day again and a day to remember all those laborers of the past who literally died so people of today could have this day off of work:  https://www.history.com/topics/holidays/labor-day – there is video and more information at this link

“Many of these events turned violent during this period, including the infamous Haymarket Riot of 1886, in which several Chicago policemen and workers were killed. Others gave rise to longstanding traditions: On September 5, 1882, 10,000 workers took unpaid time off to march from City Hall to Union Square in New York City, holding the first Labor Day parade in U.S. history.

I stayed in bed a bit longer than Kyle did this morning and had an interesting dream while doing so.  It was about a woman remembering a story about her Grandma asking to speak to “The tree.”  It appeared in her room but she was afraid and then she couldn’t see it.   So she asked again.  Then the woman found her Grandma nearly dying face down on the floor when The Black Tree appeared again, but she was able to wake her, she wasn’t dead yet.

CAT PEOPLE — Irena’s Dream  (One of my cult classic films from childhood)

Source is internet:  3 Sept 2018 – “The tree “in the dream makes me think of Cat People. It looked like a shadow of a tree; a black tree.

My Grandma’s taught me a lot about nature as I was growing up and to respect it – especially the flowers and the trees.  I miss my Grandma Schmidt’s beautiful flowers – especially her giant roses!  I miss my Grandma Becker and our walks in her neighborhood where she would point out her favorite trees and tell me about them.  How each one was an individual and had its own personality just like people.

In my own experience with trees, I would say the same.  I have mourned for trees that were taken in storms or by sickness.  I have sensed when a tree wasn’t feeling well by putting my hands on it.  I have listened to the wind blowing through the trees living around me and hearing a sound like cheering… “Hurray!” but in a whisper.  Through them I have learned about the cycles of life and how there is hope when you look at their life cycles.   Just one tree is a whole eco-system!  I suspect that when you take off your shoes and socks and stand on the ground, you are plugging yourself into the tree network!  Who knows for sure but the God who made all this wonder.

I found this interesting article to share on the subject.  May be there is something in it for you too:

WHISPERING PINES

A biologist believes that trees speak a language we can learn

By Ephrat Livni November 3, 2017

I’m in a redwood forest in Santa Cruz, California, taking dictation for the trees outside my cabin. They speak constantly, even if quietly, communicating above- and underground using sound, scents, signals, and vibes. They’re naturally networking, connected with everything that exists, including you.

Biologists, ecologists, foresters, and naturalists increasingly argue that trees speak, and that humans can learn to hear this language.

Many people struggle with this concept because they can’t perceive that trees are interconnected, argues biologist George David Haskell in his 2017 book The Songs of Trees. Connection in a network, Haskell says, necessitates communication and breeds languages; understanding that nature is a network is the first step in hearing trees talk.

For the average global citizen, living far from the forest, that probably seems abstract to the point of absurdity. Haskell points readers to the Amazon rainforest in Ecuador for practical guidance. To the Waorani people living there, nature’s networked character and the idea of communication among all living things seems obvious. In fact, the relationships between trees and other lifeforms are reflected in Waorani language.

In Waorani, things are described not only by their general type, but also by the other beings surrounding them. So, for example, any one ceibo tree isn’t a “ceibo tree” but is “the ivy-wrapped ceibo,” and another is “the mossy ceibo with black mushrooms.” In fact, anthropologists trying to classify and translate Waorani words into English struggle because, Haskell writes, “when pressed by interviewers, Waorani ‘could not bring themselves’ to give individual names for what Westerners call ‘tree species’ without describing ecological context such as the composition of the surrounding vegetation.”

Because they relate to the trees as live beings with intimate ties to surrounding people and other creatures, the Waorani aren’t alarmed by the notion that a tree might scream when cut, or surprised that harming a tree should cause trouble for humans. The lesson city-dwellers should take from the Waorani, Haskell says, is that “dogmas of separation fragment the community of life; they wall humans in a lonely room. We must ask the question: ‘can we find an ethic of full earthly belonging?’”

Haskell points out that throughout literary and musical history there are references to the songs of trees, and the way they speak: whispering pines, falling branches, crackling leaves, the steady hum buzzing through the forest. Human artists have always known on a fundamental level that trees talk, even if they don’t quite say they have a “language.”

## Redefining communication

Tree language is a totally obvious concept to ecologist Suzanne Simard, who has spent 30 years studying forests. In June 2016, she gave a Ted Talk (which now has nearly 2.5 million views), called “How Trees Talk to Each Other.”

Simard grew up in the forests of British Columbia in Canada, studied forestry, and worked in the logging industry. She felt conflicted about cutting down trees, and decided to return to school to study the science of tree communication. Now, Simard teaches ecology at the University of British Columbia-Vancouver and researches “below-ground fungal networks that connect trees and facilitate underground inter-tree communication and interaction,” she says. As she explained to her Ted Talk audience:

“I want to change the way you think about forests. You see, underground there is this other world, a world of infinite biological pathways that connect trees and allow them to communicate and allow the forest to behave as though it’s a single organism. It might remind you of a sort of intelligence.”

Trees exchange chemicals with fungus, and send seeds—essentially information packets—with wind, birds, bats, and other visitors for delivery around the world. Simard specializes in the underground relationships of trees. Her research shows that below the earth are vast networks of roots working with fungi to move water, carbon, and nutrients among trees of all species. These complex, symbiotic networks mimic human neural and social networks. They even have mother trees at various centers, managing information flow, and the interconnectedness helps a slew of live things fight disease and survive together.

Simard argues that this exchange is communication, albeit in a language alien to us. And there’s a lesson to be learned from how forests relate, she says. There’s a lot of cooperation, rather than just competition among and between species as was previously believed.

Peter Wohlleben came to a similar realization while working his job managing an ancient birch forest in Germany. He told the Guardian he started noticing trees had complex social lives after stumbling upon an old stump still living after about 500 years, with no leaves. “Every living being needs nutrition,” Wohlleben said. “The only explanation was that it was supported by the neighbor trees via the roots with a sugar solution. As a forester, I learned that trees are competitors that struggle against each other, for light, for space, and there I saw that it’s just [the opposite]. Trees are very interested in keeping every member of this community alive.” He believes that they, like humans, have family lives in addition to relationships with other species. The discovery led him to write a book, The Hidden Life of Trees.

By being aware of all living things’ inter-reliance, Simard argues, humans can be wiser about maintaining mother trees who pass on wisdom from one tree generation to the next. She believes it could lead to a more sustainable commercial-wood industry: in a forest, a mother tree is connected to hundreds of other trees, sending excess carbon through delicate networks to seeds below ground, ensuring much greater seedling survival rates.

## Foreign language studies

Seedling survival is important to human beings because we need trees. “The contributions of forests to the well-being of humankind are extraordinarily vast and far-reaching,” according to the United Nations Food and Agriculture Organization 2016 report on world forests (pdf).

Forests are key to combating rural poverty, ensuring food security, providing livelihoods, supplying clean air and water, maintaining biodiversity, and mitigating climate change, the FAO says. The agency reports that progress is being made toward better worldwide forest conservation but more must be done, given the importance of forests to human survival.

Most scientists—and trees—would no doubt agree that conservation is key. Haskell believes that ecologically friendly policies would naturally become a priority for people if we’d recognize that trees are masters of connection and communication, managing complex networks that include us. He calls trees “biology’s philosophers,” dialoguing over the ages, and offering up a quiet wisdom. We should listen, the biologist says, because they know what they’re talking about. Haskell writes, “Because they are not mobile, to thrive they must know their particular locus on the Earth far better than any wandering animal.”

By saymber

# 2 Sept 2018 Hologram (Dream) and 149

Hello.  It’s Sunday morning as I write.  Laundry is chugging away and everybody is still in bed yet.  We have been struggling to get restful sleep for some time now.  I’m hoping as we get closer to fall and cooler days that this will change too.

Had a couple interesting dreams this morning.  One was one of those really brief flash dreams.  It looked a bit like a computer simulation of a black circle moving through space.  It made me think of a slinky.  A circle leaving an “after image” behind itself.  A slinky actually has a bunch of them tangibly connected to it.  Don’t know what that was about!

The other one was about walking into a dusty room and an Aaliyah like woman was standing there as a hologram….so I thought.  We started to sing together.  I did the harmonizing thing I do and walked closer to her.  I reached out to touch her because what we were doing seemed like something two real people would do not a hologram.  When I touched her she was warm.  I was surprised and said, “I didn’t think you were real!” and she said, “Neither did I!”  The song stuck in my head as I was writing down this dream was Aaliyah’s song “One in a Million.”

https://www.aaliyah.com/ – her official site

Aaliyah’s tragic death hit me really hard.  I used to sing and harmonize with her songs to try and comfort myself.

I’ve been thinking about these police involved shootings and thinking about reflexes.  I was thinking about survival instincts and what people do, no matter how much training they have had, when they are afraid.  People are typically afraid of what they cannot see.  When you encounter someone who is unstable, mentally ill or that you have a fear about, I suspect reflexes and survival instincts kick in.   You can’t see “what someone is going to do” in situations like what happened with Vanessa and so many others now.

Speaking as a person who has been through this,  I honestly don’t know how well you can prepare yourself.  Unless you can read minds or you are like a dog and can read even the slightest tick in body behavior and respond accordingly it seems like your screwed no matter what you do!  I think there is hope in sensitivity training and application of that training in various hands-on scenarios.  Reading about and or clicking buttons through a scenario simulator aren’t enough.  I think you actually need interactive training for this.

The way the police dealt with me to make sure I was ok came at many different levels.  One was they reminded me of my brother-in-laws I love so that helped.  Two they did not approach me in an aggressive or threatening manner – very kind.  Three they managed their energy with the tone of their voice and body language – the way they spoke to me was very soothing and enlisted my trust.   Four I am a white woman who speaks English.  I wonder if I were black, Hispanic or some other nationality if things would have gone the same?  When I think of our town police who I respect greatly, I’d like to think it would have gone just the same but I don’t know.

The internal clashes of culture, of all the labels we all wear,  do not end when someone puts on a badge.  We ask human beings to suppress so much of themselves to become police officers.  I think under duress, sometimes, all those normal safety catches get lifted and the bullets fly.  We get angry when the cops don’t respond quickly enough to our time of crisis and hate them when they do.  We ask human beings to be armed angels and are surprised when some of them fall.

I don’t know if this is an appropriate example but it’s what Kyle and I were talking about yesterday.  It’s like zombie movies.  The person looks like a human, acts like a human but behaves like something else completely.  Is this the person I knew or is it a zombie?!  You just don’t know what the zombie is going to do!  How can you prepare yourself to deal with this type of scenario?  Do you shut off any sort of human empathy you have and just shoot before finding out the zombie isn’t a zombie or do you use the empathy inside of you and risk being hurt, bitten or eaten?

To me, this is what many of our police are facing today.  They are having to deal with a lot of people who look human but under fear and duress become something completely different.  We are seeing the police survival instincts versus the survival instincts kicking in for a person who is having the worst day of their life.  In more cases than not, this is a lethal combination.

1006 am – Betrayed = 80 (Vanessa = 81 Rodriguez = 123 = 204)  204-149 = 55 (#value for cuffs) 204-80 = 124

Aaliyah – Rock The Boat

Aaliyah = 57/12/6/3 cycle

By saymber

# 1 Sept 2018 Rv’s, Woman in the mirror (dreams) and Vanessa Marquez (ER)

Hello to you.  It’s one of those weird mornings after having many dreams, some very vivid.  Dreaming about RV’s (mobile home) some of which were self-driving and that didn’t go well, a fancy replica sword in the RV, meeting a Valkyrie (cosplay) in a parking lot asking me to coffee and then her and two other people, Kyle the dogs and I ending up at some Comic-con and looking at “blobs of plastic” aka action figures and monster toys with big eyes.

I told Kyle I wonder if instead of a car I’m an RV.  He said, “As long as you aren’t carrying too many unwanted passengers!”

The one that woke me up was the woman in the mirror.  She looked familiar to me, almost like the woman I met awhile back with the 68 shirt and the dog in our neighborhood.  She also looked like the nice Valkyrie from the parking lot!  She had honey-blonde or light brown hair and dark green eyes.  She was talking to me and as she was talking I was saying what she was saying if that makes any sense.  I could almost hear my voice while I was asleep saying what she was saying.  She said, “Don’t forget about me Jackie, I’m not that old.”  Then her eyes turned red and I woke up with a warm sensation in the middle of my head at either side of my temples.  It was one of the strangest dream experiences I’ve had in awhile and if you have been following along, you know I’ve had several strange and wonderful experiences!

As I lay in bed reflecting on her eyes turning red, I remembered that when our eyes reflect light they flash red.  Like when someone takes our picture.  It doesn’t necessarily mean something evil.  It’s a phenomenon.

Has anyone else had anything like this happen?

This morning tears have been shed, yet again, for more tragic death in the news.  When I read what happened to Vanessa I felt my heart break.  This could have been me a few months ago!  Kyle called the police to come out to our house because he was afraid I was going to hurt myself.  They had guns too.  Thanks be to God our cops here know me for more than just this part of who I am and were very understanding and kind to me.  To me, this is another example of what’s gone wrong with the system.

As a person who has had several “altered states experiences” now, I’ve begun to wonder about these sorts of scenarios.  Sometimes I wonder how much say we really have once our spirit has decided it wants to leave the “car” it’s in.  I don’t know if that makes sense but that’s what I’ve begun to see.   How many of these scenarios have we seen now?

https://www.mercurynews.com/2018/05/11/report-mentally-ill-are-in-nearly-40-percent-of-south-bay-police-shootings/ – excerpt

“In the most definitive look yet at a growing public-safety problem facing South Bay police today, a new civil grand jury report reveals that nearly 40 percent of officer shootings in Santa Clara County involve someone who is mentally ill.

So the watchdog group is urging law enforcement agencies and public health officials to step up training and resources to combat the troublesome trend.

The grand jury found that nine of the 31 people killed in county officer-involved shootings between 2013 and 2017 suffered from a serious mental illness, and that 22 of the 56 total police shootings during that period — including those that were non-fatal — involved a mental-health crisis.”

9 out of 31….not good!   Why aren’t police officers just shooting someone in the leg, an arm or tackling them in these scenarios?  I think self-preservation probably plays a big part in these scenarios….”it’s them or me.”

I wonder if the “driver” of the body knows just what to do in such scenarios to make it possible to escape the car.  Are all accidents just accidents?  Are all murders just murder?  Is mercy somehow mingled in all of this?  I don’t truly know!  Could it be a hostile takeover by the organisms, bacteria, viruses etc. in the body?  Could it be a coup by the energy source within us, the soul?  Another mystery of the many mysteries of this life.

I truly hope Vanessa has found her heaven and that she has found happiness.

Source is Internet

‘ER’ actress shot and killed by South Pasadena police during wellness check at home

Hannah Fry, Laura Newberry

19 hrs ago

Actress Vanessa Marquez was identified by authorities Friday as the 49-year-old woman shot and killed by police a day earlier during a welfare check at her apartment in South Pasadena.

Marquez was best known for her recurring role as nurse Wendy Goldman on the popular medical drama “ER,” which ran for 15 seasons until 2009. Marquez appeared on the show from 1994 to 1997.

More recently, Marquez used social media to reference her struggles with celiac disease and seizures. She wrote on Facebook in March that she was “terminally ill.”

She also grabbed headlines last year when she accused her “ER” co-star George Clooney of helping to blacklist her from the series. He denied the allegations. Marquez’s landlord called police Thursday to request a wellness check on her, Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Lt. Joe Mendoza said. She was having a seizure when authorities arrived at her apartment, in the 1100 block of Fremont Avenue, about noon.

Officers and a county mental health clinician spoke with Marquez for more than 90 minutes in an effort to persuade her to accept medical help. Police said she was “uncooperative,” may have been suffering from mental health issues and appeared to be unable to care for herself.

Then, while they were talking, Marquez grabbed what they thought was a semiautomatic handgun and pointed it at them, Mendoza said.

Two officers fired at her, striking her at least once in the torso, Mendoza said.

The officers retrieved a weapon after the shooting and determined it was a BB gun that resembled a pistol, Mendoza said.

Marquez was taken to a hospital, where she was pronounced dead.

The Sheriff’s Department is investigating, as is common in police shootings. The names of the officers involved have not been released.

A similar incident involving South Pasadena police occurred in June 2017, when authorities said 41-year-old Marco Cardoza pointed what appeared to be a handgun at officers who were attempting to serve a warrant at his Burbank home. Multiple officers fired their weapons at Cardoza, who was pronounced dead at the scene. Detectives later learned that the man’s pistol was a replica.

hannah.fry@latimes.com

“The devil made me do it” = 174/12/3 cycle  devil = 52/7  God = 26/8  Jesus Christ = 151/7

By saymber

# 30 Aug 2018 A Long Time Ago (1990’s) and Hold On (Wilson Phillips)

Hello to you.  Doesn’t it seem like 1990 was such a long time ago?!  A whopping 28 years!  So much has happened for those of us that have been here all that time.  Today I had a pity party for myself.  Sometimes it’s good to cry it out, bitch, whine and moan a bit.   To point at the piles of dog poop in the backyard and make self comparisons…”yeah that one is definitely me today.”   My poor backyard that has to listen to this!  I had a bird walk by me while I was sitting out back tonight blubbering.  It stopped and just stared at me with that”what is your problem” look.  Kept on walking.  Anyways, I hope this finds you well.  If you are feeling a bit low too, just do the best you can.  Remember, it’s inside work!

Nineteen ninety = 173

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billboard_Year-End_Hot_100_singles_of_1990

Hold on = 68  by Wilson Phillips = 193 Number One = 107 = 368  (I was born in 1968 – go figure!  Perfect song and message for me today!)

Wilson Phillips – Hold On

## Hold On

I know there’s pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don’t ever let anyone step all over you
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You’ve got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin’ your worries pass you by
Don’t you think it’s worth your time

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Hold on for one more day

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don’t you know things can change
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won’t you tell me now
Hold on for one more day ‘Cause

Don’t you know things can change
If you hold on for one more day
Can’t you change it this time

Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

Songwriters: Carnie Wilson,Chynna Phillips,Glen Ballard
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

By saymber

# 28 Aug 2018 Zero

https://www.gematrix.org/?word=

Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Yeah

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

By saymber

# 26 Aug 2018 Nine and Sen. John McCain

I am sad for us but happy for John McCain today.  I cried when I found out about his dying this morning.  He spent his entire life fighting and now he can rest.  What keeps bringing tears to my eyes for John is the fact he had a fight his whole life.  John McCain was a prisoner of war – where does war go?  One of the places is in your head.  He died of brain cancer.  War = 42, Brain = 44 and Cancer =44 (Program=88).  The other place war goes is into your Heart = 52.  If you subtract 52 from 42 you get 10 which is the same numeric value for Spirit =91/10.

John McCain = 90

Age 81=9 (Age=13)

Vietnam War = 126/9

Prisoner of War = 177/15/6/3 cycle

Nine = 42

War = 42

(btw free= 34 speech = 56….= 90)

“If you want to preserve — I’m very serious now — if you want to preserve democracy as we know it, you have to have a free and, many times, adversarial press,” McCain continued. “And without it, I am afraid that we would lose so much of our individual liberties over time. That’s how dictators get started.”

“They get started by suppressing free press,” McCain concluded. “In other words, a consolidation of power, if you look at history, the first thing that dictators do is shut down the press. … I’m not saying President Trump is trying to be a dictator. I’m just saying we need to learn the lessons of history.”

McCain has long been one of Trump’s loudest critics. During the primary season, Trump mocked the senator for being captured during the Vietnam War.

I hope wherever John’s heaven that there is peace, rest and relaxation there for him and most of all unconditional love (205/7).

By saymber

# 25 Aug 2018 Ichthys in the Desert

24 Aug 2018 – I asked Kyle for a subject to draw. At first he said aquatic and I said I had already drawn mermaids. He said something in the desert. So that made me think of Streams in the Desert and I came up with this. It is the title of a little red book spiritual devotion book my Grandparents gave me. I’ve shared about here before. I have an Ichthys (92) tattoo (91) = 183. I also have a chameleon which until yesterday I didn’t know has a 13 in it! It’s 76, the same number for my maiden name Schmidt. Go figure! As I sat in front of this drawing and thought about all that I’ve found out the past few days, how complicated it all is, I gained an even deeper love and respect for God as I understand them. “In the Beginning” = 137 which is the same value for my birth Mom’s full name. My Grandfather was a pastor who must have know about this system. If he didn’t….wow! She was my Grandparents first child.  She was my beginning and technically my end as I have given birth to no children. Alpha and the Omega = 131 (same value as Jack Kevorkian as I came to find out looking for Dr. Who’s Trenzalore which is 134)

It’s interesting the story the numbers are telling me about myself and my life choices and the people I’ve chosen to include on my journey.  I found out yesterday that in the numbers, it took four grandparents and two people who chose each other to make me.  When I added the first and last names of my 4 Grandparents it came to 248 (68 in there).  Just their first names came to 204 which is 6.  I was born in 1968. To me, this is proof a power much greater than myself is operating here.  To me, this is evidence of God.  Think of all the fragments, pieces..single moments that had to happen to make just one person!

24 Aug 2018 – Thinking about people and the relationship between them and insects, spiders and trees.

Human Being = 94  Sing = 49 = 143/8 – that’s me these days lol.

As I explore my life in numbers, I am beginning to understand why I feel like there is really no such thing as a coincidence (84/12/3 cycle).  I think there really is a divine (63) calendar (58) = 121/4/2/1.

## Ichthys

The ichthys or ichthus, from the Greek ikhthýs, is a symbol consisting of two intersecting arcs, the ends of the right side extending beyond the meeting point so as to resemble the profile of a fish. It was used by early Christians as a secret Christian symbol and now known colloquially as the “sign of the fish” or the “Jesus fish”.

## Ichthys – Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ichthys

## Origin

An early circular ichthys symbol, created by combining the Greek letters ΙΧΘΥΣ, Ephesus.

16 July 2018 – Completed painting with what I’m calling “Swircles” (what happens when you mix a swirl and a circle!)

https://www.ancient-symbols.com/buddhist-symbols.htmlWheel = 53/8  God = 26/8

## The Dharma wheel

 This wheel is also called the dharma chakra or the Dhamma Chakka and is often used to represent Buddha himself. It has also universally become the symbol for Buddhism. The dharma wheel has eight spokes, which represent Buddha’s Eightfold Path.

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