So after my post and breakfast this morning, I went out to draw. I’m drawing this loving and spiritual sort of thing and this little spider comes running up to me. I of course got out of their way. Then seconds later I see this little fly looking insect on top of the spider. I couldn’t understand what was happening. It happened so fast! In a manner of seconds, this spider wasp (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spider_wasp) disabled the spider, dismantled the spider and ran off with it’s midsection right in front of me! I felt powerless like I’m sure nature photographers often do when they are witnessing the sometimes brutal realities of nature in motion. There was really not much I could do about it. I’ve seen a larger wasp dragging the body of a spider 3-4 times it’s size in front of me before. It’s so shocking to see! It almost feels like nature actively trying to toughen me up. Trying to show me what the circle of life is for most living beings “See, this is reality!” UGH!!!! I DON’T LIKE IT! Says the little girl in me! TOUGH SHIT says nature! My Dad is always teasing me that I am “too soft” about these things. He’s right of course.
The quote from Temple Grandin I shared on my earlier post was very loud in my head watching this scene from National Geographic play out! I wonder if that’s what it is like for God with us? Even if help is sent. Even if everything that can possibly be done is done, the outcome is going to be just the same no matter what? There must be some sort of plan we just can’t see. All the “domino’s” must be lined up just so otherwise they all will fall. That’s why messing with events for time travelers is such a no-no. There are so many micro-events attached to one event.
May be the overall plan is as simple as making sure the circle of life continues to rotate?!
After watching how quickly the wasp dispatched the spider I have question if nature is all that cruel or is it just more efficient? Human morality doesn’t weigh in to survival for most living beings in nature. They can’t afford to stop and decide if they should or shouldn’t dispatch another being if it’s the difference between the life or death of themselves and their young.
2 9 18 4
B I R D = 33/6/3 cycle (of course!)
3 8 15 9 3 5
C H O I C E = 43/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (like perception, choices involve the activation of intellect)
12 9 6 5
L I F E = 32/5 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (between you and God)
4 5 1 20 8
D E A T H = 38/11/2/1 (pretty straight forward)
2 9 18 20 8
B I R T H = 57/12/3 cycle (of course!)
19 21 18 22 9 22 1 12
S U R V I V A L = 124/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
19 16 9 4 5 18
S P I D E R = 71/8/4/2/1 (8 legs!)
23 1 19 16
W A S P = 14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (kind of what happened to that spider going on in these numbers!)