21 May 2018 Breaking down walls

20 May 2018 – we had some wonderful rain. God cleaned off my canvas ūüôā

Reading this first thing this morning helped me a lot.   What if this message could transcend all the barriers we put up to separate ourselves from each other?!  What if this message could transcend and eventually melt tools people use to harm one another into playgrounds and places that would bring us together in peace?  May be some day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/pope-francis-tells-gay-man-god-made-you-like-that/ar-AAxzTp8

Describing his encounter with the Pope to CNN, Cruz said: “You know Juan Carlos, that does not matter. God made you like this. God loves you like this. The Pope loves you like this and you should love yourself and not worry about what people say.”

19 May 2018 – what happens when you don’t go to a professional to go blonde LOL!¬† I am working on finding my way through the darkness I’ve been in.¬† I’m so grateful for my family (two and four legged) and dear friends who love me no matter how wild it gets.¬†

 

6 18 9 5 14 4 19

F R I E N D S = 75 (3 cycle)

6 1 13 9 12 25

F A M I L Y = 66 (3 cycle)

2 5 12 15 22 5 4

7 18 1 20 5 6 21 12

G R A T E F U L = 90 (9 cycle)

B E L O V E D = 65

19 16 9 18 9 20 21 1 12 9 20 25

S P I R I T U A L I T Y = 179

2 12 15 14 4 5

B L O N D E = 52

Yesterday I got a little teary thinking about my dogs and cats.¬† It’s because I was feeling overwhelmed by all the art and writings I have through the house.¬† Dogs and cats are so simple.¬† What do they leave behind by way of material things but a collar, a leash and a few toys?¬† What matters the most is what they leave in my heart….so much love and gratitude!¬† Intangible things you can’t hold on to with your hands!¬†¬† I found the actual story where a vet shares a beautiful story and explanation from a little boy about why dogs don’t live as long as humans.

http://blog.nilesanimalhospital.com/2011/10/normal-0-false-false-false.html

Why Dogs Don’t Live as Long as Humans

A four year old child’s wisdom

(From the internet….author unknown)

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten year old Irish wolfhound, named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa and their little boy Shane were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog. Ron and Lisa told me that they thought it would be good for the four year old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few moments, Belker slipped away peacefully. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker‚Äôs death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ‚ÄúI know why.‚ÄĚ Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I never had heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, ‚ÄúPeople are born so that they learn how to live a good life ‚Äď like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?‚ÄĚ The four year old continued, ‚ÄúWell, dogs already know how to do that, so they don‚Äôt have to stay as long.‚ÄĚ

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19 May 2018 Royal Wedding (Sheku Kanneh-Mason) and Are we going to end up like planet Krypton?

Hello to you.¬† Today has been very slow here….something happened with some hair color and now I look like an orange lol.¬† I¬†guess¬†I didn’t have as many gray¬†hairs as I thought!

We caught the royal wedding just in time.¬† We hadn’t planned on watching it and we really enjoyed it.¬† The cello solo by Sheku Kanneh-Mason was a highlight for me.¬†¬†This isn’t from the wedding but a great example of what we heard today:

Sheku Kanneh-Mason – Leonard Cohen: Hallelujah, arr. Tom Hodge

I’ve had planet Krypton on the brain today.¬† Ever since I saw an article about a climate conference where they were wondering if falling rocks are contributing to climate change:¬† https://www.msn.com/en-us/weather/topstories/gop-congressman-mo-brooks-asks-if-rocks-are-causing-sea-levels-to-rise/ar-AAxroCn.‚Ķ”GOP congressman Mo Brooks asks if rocks are causing sea levels to rise”

Yes, you aren’t dreaming, that really came up in discussion.¬† It made me think of what happened¬†with Superman’s home planet Krypton before it blew up: http://superman.wikia.com/wiki/Krypton

Hopefully we aren’t¬†going to end up like that!¬†¬†We had a 3.5 earthquake just last night in a town¬†near us, Venus! https://earthquake.usgs.gov/earthquakes/map/).

18 May 2018 Collage and Low Tide

Hello to you.¬† I hope this finds you well.¬† I’ve been very tired the past couple of days and just wanting to sleep.¬† Kyle thinks it’s probably me just coming down from the past few months of an extreme high.¬† He’s probably right.¬† The cycles are very taxing for me and the older I get, the more difficult they can be.¬† So my little travel buddy Link and I just have been resting as we can and trying to restore the ol’ battery.¬†¬† My life can be¬† like the ocean currents with the high and low tides.

The drawing today is a collage of stuff I’ve been watching and thinking about lately…all just floating out there in the collective conscious space.

I am sad to see so many more shootings in this country, the latest¬†in Sante Fe Texas….a 17 year old kid too! (http://abc13.com/10-dead-10-injured-in-shooting-at-santa-fe-high-school/3490869/)!¬†¬†What is sad for me is these¬†shootings are taking place¬†in homes and schools.¬† Our kids are supposed to be safe¬†in their homes and at school and they aren’t.¬† Even with all the new security and open carry laws, it’s just not getting much better.¬† We keep putting band-aids on top of what the real problems are like allowing so many troubled people access to a tool¬†they can use in an act of passion (not self defense).¬† A tool they end up¬†using to do¬†something they can’t ever take back.¬† It’s not just the victims and their families that suffer either, it’s all of us!¬†It is essentially an act of terrorism to go into a public place and shoot people.¬† Why these types of shootings are not treated at as an act of terrorism I don’t know but that’s what it is.¬† Now you have a whole bunch of people who are afraid to send their kids to school and go out into public places again.¬† Every time this kind of shooting happens in this country,¬†it is an act of terrorism.¬†¬†¬†

“I walked through the cosmos today….all I had to do was stand still and dream…‚Ķ”

13 9 14 4

M I N D = 40

16 5 1 3 5

P E A C E = 30 (3 cycle)

18 5 4

R E D = 29 (9 cycle)

8 5 1 22 5 14

H E A V E N = 55

1 14 7 5 12

A N G E L = 39 (3 cycle)

8 5 12 12

H E L L = 37

4 5 13 15 14

D E M O N = 51 (3 cycle)

18 1 4 9 15

R A D I O = 47

4 5 13 15 3 18 1 20

D E M O C R A T = 79

18 5 16 21 2 12 9 3 1 14

R E P U B L I C A N = 101

3 8 9 12 4

C H I L D = 36 (9 cycle)

19 20 1 18

S T A R = 58

3 15 19 13 15 19

C O S M O S = 84 (3 cycle)

20 5 18 18 15 18 9 19 13

T E R R O R I S M = 135 (9 cycle)

7 21 14

G U N = 42 (3 cycle)

8 1 20 5

H A T E = 34

20 5 23 1 19

T E X A S = 68

13 May 2018 Dreaming stone (Labradorite) and Mom’s Day

Hello to you.  Today has been a really  nice day.  My sweetheart cooked us dinner while I was outside drawing and sweating Рreally warm and humid today.

13 May 2018 – this drawing is me thinking of myself as a baby blue dragon clutching my labradorite ball last night. I had like 2 or 3 lucid dreams in a row! One of them is represented by the little black girl holding a pink crystal necklace. She wanted to take it and I told her no. There is also a box represented by the realtor like lady from one of the dreams last night. There is a box with two people with huge dogs – these special beautiful beings seem to show up and just disappear for me. The dogs they are with are almost like spirits more than dogs.

Hope all the folks that nurture others are having a special day.¬†¬† The term “Mom” isn’t just for women in my book.¬† I called my Mom today and it was hard because there was so much I wanted to say but tears got to¬†me first.¬† For all my Mom and I have been through, I just dearly love her and am so grateful for all the important things she managed to get through my thick skull.¬† This is her first Mother’s Day without her Mom and I can only imagine how surreal that would be if I were in her shoes.¬† We lost Grandma a couple of months ago.¬† We had all been praying for her to “be free” but as we all know, it’s not all up to us with these sort of things.

13 May 2018 – drawing I did after I talked to Mom

As I mentioned in my notes with the drawing, last night I decided to sleep with my Labradorite crystal ball and it was like one lucid dream after another.¬† This hasn’t happened to me in a¬†long time.¬†¬†¬† Both of the orbs I have are in the picture.¬† Do you have a favorite crystal for dream travels?

What is Labradorite?

https://www.gemselect.com/gem-info/labradorite/labradorite-info.php

Labradorite Gemstone Information

About Labradorite – History and Introduction

Labradorite is a gemstone that was named after Labrador in Canada, where it was found on the Isle of Paul, near Nain in 1770. It has since been found in other places, including Finland, Madagascar, and Australia. After its discovery, labradorite became popular with the missionaries. Labradorite is a plagioclase feldspar which shows adularescence (a white or bluish light seen when turned). This optical effect is so unique to labradorite that it has been termed “labradorescence”. It is the result of diffraction of light in the layers of rock. When viewed at certain angles, labradorite exhibits such captivating color that has led to Inuit legends stating that the Northern Lights shone down on the shores of Labrador and were captured inside these colorful stones. The most highly valued labradorite is material that shows the full spectrum of color in its labradorescence. Labradorite that does not exhibit labradorescence can still make beautiful gemstones because of aventurescence, which is a glitter caused by diffraction of light from mineral platelets.

There are three further types of labradorite; spectrolite, andesine-labradorite and rainbow moonstone (which is sometimes referred to by the trade name, “Madagascar moonstone”). As the trade name indicates, rainbow moonstone comes from Madagascar and it has an intense blue schiller. Spectrolite is a rare labradorite from Finland. It is known for displaying a beautiful spectral play of color, hence the name, “spectrolite”. Andesine-labradorite is created by enhancing the color of labradorite.

Interesting:

Labradorite Gemstone Mythology, Metaphysical and Alternative Crystal Healing Powers Back to Top

According to an Inuit legend, the Northern Lights are captured in the minerals on the coast of Labrador. This is not surprising considering the magical, iridescent color of labradorite. Labradorite is thought to be a magical stone that possesses powerful protective properties and helps its wearer to find their true path in life. It is thought to “bring light” to the otherwise unknown, and thus provide its wearer with insight. Additionally, labradorite is credited with having the ability to bring out the positive in people and calm overactive minds, bringing peace to its wearer. Labradorite is also thought to soothe menstrual problems, aid disorders of the lungs, prevent colds, help with digestion and regulate both metabolism and blood pressure. In traditional Hindu belief systems, labradorite is associated with the throat chakra, or vishuddha, which is the center of purification. The throat chakra is associated with hearing, speech and self-expression. Wearing labradorite is thought to contribute to true and honest expression. Labradorite is said to facilitate communication between the spiritual and physical world, helping its wearer to recall dreams and experiences from past lives. It is therefore thought to help bring out psychic abilities.

12 1 2 18 1 4 15 18 20 5

L A B R A D O R I T E = 105 =6=3 cycle

 

My children:

13 May 2018 – my kids Spot and Link.

29 April 2018 Who should get the “credit” for creation?

Hello to you.¬† I’m up early this morning and was thinking about something that has come to me before.¬† Who gets the “credit” for what we create in this world?¬† Credit can be in the context of just pats on the back or accolades.¬† Credit can also¬†mean, in our modern world, ¬†financial support.¬† When I create, I’m not really looking for either, it used to, but not anymore.¬†¬†The reason this came up in my thoughts?¬† I was¬†I was going to try to put my initials and date on the drawings I’m sharing today and realized that it really doesn’t matter all that much!¬† They don’t belong to me really, they belong to a power greater than myself.¬† They belong to the God of my understanding, energy and energy is everyone and everything….the collective consciousness.

When I do something creative, I feel like I’m tapping into the collective consciousness.¬† After all, I my opinion, there really isn’t such a thing as an original idea just a reinterpretation of one that has already come before.¬†¬†Even what I am writing at this moment doesn’t really belong to me in a sense.¬†¬†Only when my ego needs a stroke¬†do I really care about such things!¬† Sometimes I can be pretty hard on myself.¬† When I get like that,¬†my self-esteem plummets pretty low.¬†¬†I will¬†sometimes look for a source outside of myself to somehow lift myself up.¬† Ironically, this was the driving force behind me using Facebook to share my drawings and stuff!

Since I seldom turn a profit for¬†what I channel aka “create”, I think that’s about as pure as it gets.¬† Why should I get hung up on labeling my work?¬† The only reason that comes to mind, is kind of like from that Big Eyes movie when the husband tried to take credit and actually profit from¬†his wife’s work.¬† The karmic resolution to that took place in a courtroom.¬† The judge put the husband and wife to work at¬†blank canvas painting and the husband¬†was unable to¬†recreate his wife’s paintings.

Amy Adams and Margaret Keane tell Big Eyes Movie Story (I wonder if all the folks involved with this film, to include Margaret, receive money for sales of this film?  Not quite sure how that works.)

So should I consider copywriting everything I do?¬† I guess if I decided that I was going to try and make a living doing what I do but what a struggle that would be!¬†¬†Whenever I have tried to make money doing something it has often turned into a negative thing.¬† I have very few positive experiences with making money for what I have made.¬† The only ways¬† it has been positive is when I do something for a gift or¬†someone has asked me¬†to make something and they provided¬†the financial support and or materials for me to do it.¬† I think making things and churning them out for profit would¬†be very¬†pretty empty for me.¬† Something else I’ve realized, like blogging here for example, as soon as I upload anything into this artificial collective consciousness, the internet, I give away any all the relevance of ownership in my opinion.¬† Anyone can save my pictures to their hard drive and “make them their own” as I’ve done with other artists work.

Why do¬†I create?¬† What is my motivation?¬† My motivation is most often¬†having the feeling I get by being close to God.¬† It feels good!¬† It’s like having a conversation without words and¬†it makes me feel complete inside.¬† Then, out of gratitude, I feel I have to¬†pass it all on to help somebody else like I do here in this blog.¬†¬† Isn’t this the way God, divinity….whatever your word for the energy¬†that propels you through this life supposed to be?¬† A power greater than ourselves that unconditionally loves and accepts us even if we make a drawing that looks like a child may have done it?¬†

Matthew 19:14 14Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

No one, no matter how hard they try can exactly replicate what I do.¬† Kind of like forgeries and copies….they will always be forgeries and copies but never the original work as it was first channeled through me.¬†¬†So I’m not¬†very worried about it anymore.¬†¬† I feel bad for people in this world who do get so hung up on ownership¬†versus staying in the flow of creation.¬† It¬†must be such a fight everyday to keep what they perceive belongs to them!¬† I would say this is especially true¬†for¬†anyone who makes a living on their image and¬†creative endeavors in any¬†profession.¬†¬†I wonder what¬†would happen if they just let go of that?

What has¬†come to me in meditations with the God of my understanding (I use the word God because it’s simpler) many times is nothing belongs to us but¬†perhaps one thing, the essence of who we are inside.¬† The energy ball, the soul,¬†part of our being that makes us uniquely¬†“us” no matter what outside forces may try to change it.¬† I imagine that when our bodies are¬†tired and must be¬†returned back to the earth,¬†we just move on and become something or someone else but we are not lost.¬† The unconditional, loving energy of existence makes sure we are never¬†truly lost.¬†¬† We just become something a little different but just the same.

These drawings I did yesterday were made for me and for someone else to enjoy and I hope you do:

U2 – Song For Someone (Directed by Matt Mahurin)

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Lyrics

 Song for Someone

You got a face not spoiled by beauty
I have some scars from where I’ve been
You’ve got eyes that can see right through me
You‚Äôre not afraid of anything they’ve seen
I was told that I would feel nothing the first time
I don’t know how these cuts heal
But in you I found a rhyme

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Now we shouldn’t doubt
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
A song for someone

You let me into a conversation
A conversation only we could make
You break and enter my imagination
Whatever’s in there
It’s yours to take
I was told I’d feel nothing the first time
You were slow to heal
But this could be the night

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Within and without
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
This is a song for someone

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And I’m a long way
From your hill of Calvary
And I’m a long way
From where I was, where I need to be
If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a kiss
I stole from your mouth
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

 Songwriters: ADAM CLAYTON, DAVE EVANS, LARRY MULLEN, PAUL DAVID HEWSON
© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

21 April 2018 Who am I writing for?

Hello to you.¬† Hope this finds you doing well.¬† If you have stumbled into my blog, chances are there is something here that might interest you.¬† My interests are all over the place!¬† Just the way I’ve always been.¬† For the past couple of years I’ve been unsure about continuing to blog but here I am!¬† I have been writing in one form or another since I was in kindergarten so I guess that is my main “thing.”¬† I used to write short stories and that sort of thing.¬† You know what the hardest thing about writing a longer story is for me?¬† Dialogue lol!¬† Since I’m not a very sociable person, ¬†crafting dialogue between people in a story is incredibly difficult for me.¬† I think that’s probably why when I have written a story, the best ones anyway, they have been short or a poem.¬† Writing poetry has always come very easy to me.¬† My birth mother was an artist and a¬†writer too.¬† I have a few of the things she wrote and also some of her drawings.¬† Even without her being here, we are connected!

When you write a blog like this, it’s hard to know who your “target” audience is.¬† I may sit down and be wanting to write about something but when I look at the views, people coming to my site are looking for something else.¬† This creates a dichotomy for me.¬† Please others or please myself?¬† I try to find a way to do both.¬†¬†I’m noticing people visiting here¬†are very interested in Keshe Foundation technology seemingly more than anything else.

I’m sorry if I don’t have anything¬†new to share about that.¬† I kind of flit in and out with my interest in that on a personal application level.¬†¬†I learn best by seeing and doing when it comes to more complex things.¬† I have a tendency to get¬†parts of information and then go off on my own with it which I did¬† with this.¬†¬†This can be positive or negative¬†depending on what it is I do this with.¬† The direction I went seems to have been a positive direction.¬† Instead of coils for cars, I was experimenting with making hand-held healing devices.¬†¬†I made a couple and have shared them and apparently they actually helped people.¬† I do not take credit for whether or not they worked, just that the¬†people receiving them believed they would work and they did.

Buying wire and supplies is expensive and working with it tears up my hands sometimes because it’s hard for me to wear gloves.¬† The gauge wire you need for what Dr. Keshe is teaching is 14 gauge copper and I like to work with smaller gauges.¬† For the devices I like to make, I use like 20 gauge copper wire and or aluminum because it’s easier to work with and doesn’t hurt my hands so much.¬† It takes a lot of wire to make the coils and that can get expensive for someone like me.¬† If I were to continue making the devices I came up with, I would need supplies.¬† I wouldn’t feel comfortable selling¬†the devices.¬† When¬†Dr. Keshe gave us¬†the technology he made it pretty clear that if we passed it on, we shouldn’t profit from it.¬†¬† This is just me, not all would agree with my point of view.

In this video, is an example of how I make my own coils:

I thank you for stopping by today and hope what I’ve written is somehow useful to you!

Organic orgonite I was experimenting with making a couple of years ago. This was extremely labor intensive to make.  I would need better equipment to be able to make it again.  It really caused quite a smell to make it in the house and composting the materials in a bucket was like cow poops lol. 

19 April 2018 Elections Dilemma

Hello to you. It’s Thursday as I write to you in your where and when. Have you ever had a lot on your mind? Have you ever had a bunch of things you think you should¬†do but just can’t bring yourself to do any of the things you used to do? My current dilemma is voting in the upcoming elections in our town. I have seen signs around town telling me who is running for office, but I don’t know who these people are. There are a lot of issues I’m concerned about but don’t even know if my going to vote will have any impact. My husband¬†and I have voted before and just didn’t feel like our votes counted. I guess I’m experiencing a bit of apathy about things like this.¬† All of what I am sharing is from my own personal experience and so keep that in mind if you decide to read what I’ve written here!

There are several¬†major concerns for me.¬† They are¬†ongoing issues we’ve been dealing with as a community since my husband and I moved here back in 2009.¬†¬†We¬† have¬†tried to do something about many of these things but little has¬†changed.¬† Many of the issues are town has had to face¬†are so expensive, like the city water system, that it’s been a very slow walk to getting things dealt with.

Am I a bad¬†person if I¬†don’t choose to vote on 5 May 2018?

Well it¬†would make me a hypocrite of sorts. My husband and I have been hard on people in the past when they told us they weren’t going to vote.¬† For the 2016 election, my husband¬†and I went and voted. We each voted for we who we felt would best serve the country.¬† We prepared as best we could.¬† ¬†I voted for a candidate that was a 3rd party candidate.¬† My hope was¬†that if enough people would do so,¬†we would have the option¬†for future elections.¬† Unfortunately, my thought process didn’t¬†seem to make a difference.¬†¬† It seems, as is customary, ¬†most people¬†voted along party lines.

I feel like we need more choices….more options.¬† There is a quote I have read somewhere, ¬†by Mark Twain that says¬†“if voting truly mattered, they wouldn’t let us do it.” I guess it’s a darned if you, darned if you don’t kind of set of circumstances. If you don’t vote, you kind of give up the right to complain about the results but ironically….we still complain anyways regardless of how things go!

There is a part of the voting process I have a problem with,¬†the electoral college.¬† It feels like with this system in place,¬†the value of our votes¬†is somehow diminished.¬†¬†When my husband¬†and I lived in Delaware, it was primarily a Democratic state. We¬†registered as Democrats.¬† We voted in the 2008 election and felt like our vote mattered.¬† Now we live in Texas, which is primarily a Republican state. We are still registered Democrats.¬†¬†¬†Knowing what we do about the Electoral College, it felt like¬†our vote in the 2016 election was pretty much irrelevant.¬† It seems like, as I look back over the past couple of years, there is a divine plan at work.¬† For those of you who read my blog on a regular basis, you know that there has been a part of me wondering if this wasn’t some reverse psychology experiment to try to repair our damaged country.¬†¬† I want to believe positive changes are manifesting as I write today!

So what do I do for this upcoming local election¬†right?? ¬†Not vote and risk losing the option or vote and get a resentment? I’m just not sure yet what I will do.¬† My Mom, for the last elections in her town, and I’ve done this too, got ballots prior to the election.¬† She did this¬†so she could research what was up for voting before she went in and cast her ballot.¬† There doesn’t seem¬†to be an¬†easy, unbiased way to research candidates especially for local elections. Not everyone has easy access to¬†the internet. I don’t know if my town has ballots people can pick up to read and information about candidates. Sometimes I’ve seen stuff like this at the public library.¬† I wonder if they have ever considered mailing them out to all those in their water bill system?¬† We get both an electronic and paper copy of our bill now.¬† We¬†tried to pay online, but there is a¬†service fee and we chose not to participate.

I would like to see more diverse representation of life for our town. For one local election a few years ago, one of the candidates, a woman, actually walked around and came to our door to talk to us. We ended up voting for her but she lost to incumbents holding office. We had a lot of admiration for her being willing to actually take the time to talk to us in person so we could put a face with the name on the ballot. Right now, as it stands, I do not feel qualified to vote for our local election.   I have a lot of concerns I think a candidate should know about and hopefully address in their tenure in office.

I am concerned about our drinking water and personally concerned about living next to natural gas lines running along utility lines along a major road.¬† The soil in which the lines are running is expansive clay soil and next the lines are several electrical and internet lines.¬† I was very upset when they fracked the natural gas well in between our middle school and junior high school.¬† We had a gas leak a couple of years ago and didn’t find out about it until a neighbor who used gas in their house told us about it.¬† Why aren’t there sensors all along the lines or are there?¬† Are they being monitored so if something goes wrong people are¬†directly notified?¬†¬†If not, why not?!¬† We have natural gas lines running all through our town and it really kind of scares me.¬† I’ve written about the issues we’ve had since we moved here many times.¬† I have deleted many posts just because it seemed like a moot point because it just keeps happening.¬† I feel bad for the person running our town, heck our state.¬† It must be very difficult¬†to¬†be responsible for managing something like a city, state or country.¬† So much¬†money is required to maintain what seems to be a crumbling¬†infrastructure.¬† For our town, a lot of those repairs are chronic and¬†homeowners like myself end up paying¬†more than once for what¬†it takes to extract energy from the earth.¬† We have spent thousands of dollars on our home and all the repairs we’ve had to make are not covered by our home owners insurance.¬†¬†I know with all energy systems there is¬†risk, but natural gas is particularly scary for me.¬†¬†Even though we don’t choose to use it in our home, we are still subjected to the risks our neighbors incur by choosing to¬†use it in their homes and businesses.

We are getting a¬†new subdivision down the street when we have so many other pre-existing things going on that are not be addressed it seems. The other day I was using a pot of tap water with some essential oil in it and it cooked all the way down. There was a white powder residue at the bottom of the pot! I have seen this same white powder on my soaker hose that we use to water the grass and that’s part of the reason we don’t drink tap water in our town.¬† We reported the problem to the city and they came out to investigate.¬† They told us just to run the lines to clear it which didn’t make sense to me.¬†¬†¬† We have had reoccurring problems with regards to drinking water ever since we first moved here.¬† I have a health condition and have to take medication as do many other people in our area.¬† There are many families with elderly and young children.¬† I hope the water is safe.¬†¬† Personally I would like to be able to trust the tap water and stop having to feel like I need to buy water in plastic containers from the local grocery store.

I hope that whomever is elected will ensure¬†each department has enough staff.¬† A couple of years ago, prior to the contract being approved for¬†the subdivision near completion down the street, ¬†I warned the city¬†that they needed to make sure we had adequate¬†resources¬†for growth. Just the traffic alone is a concern.¬† With 120 units going in, ¬†with a minimum of 2 cars per house, that’s about 240 additional cars being added to the traffic on North Cummings.¬†¬†There are currently only¬†two ways out of the subdivision and in the event of an emergency, this could prove to be a hardship for the families living there now.¬†¬†I think the city¬†still has the option,¬†to create another exit point.¬† I have been told¬†the RV Park owns the property that would be required to make another exit point for the neighborhood.

I hope¬†the people who plan to run the town are going to make sure we have the dog park that¬†we were told by other citizens was promised some¬†15 or 20 years ago.¬† A lot of people have¬†dogs in our town.¬†¬†I have tried to participate in local politics.¬† I¬†served on the Planning and Zoning Committee,¬†the Parks board and my husband and I used¬†to attend City Council¬†meetings.¬† We stopped having anything to do with most things going on in town¬†after what happened with the¬†subdivision process.¬† I was pretty hurt about it.¬† I went before the council and spoke for probably 15 minutes with my Mom, my husband and another neighbor present.¬†¬†I didn’t feel¬†we were prepared for what adding so many more people to the town would mean and what I said didn’t seem to matter.¬† It was like they had already decided what they were going to do and just let me talk anyways.

Sigh….such is local politics and pretty much every layer on up to the White House in my opinion. It’s so complex and so hard to find a middle ground for just about anything it seems. I am going to be praying about what I should do and do a little research to see if there is anything on the City web page about the election: http://www.cityofalvarado.org/.

I hope something here is helpful to someone out there.¬†¬†I’m not trying to put a stick in the hive.¬† I am¬†just sharing my own personal experience with the voting process from a perspective at the lowest level and I hope it’s helpful.¬†¬† Ultimately, you have to decide for yourself what you would do if you were in similar circumstances.¬† You can decide to do nothing or to at least try to speak up.¬† Writing is pretty much the only way I have found for myself that I can try to make any sort of difference for hopefully the better.

26 Aug 2016 – I wrote this in my pink spirit book while waiting to get a military identification card and it seems appropriate to share with all this:

We choose our anger

We choose which

Direction we look

We choose our hallowed ground

Our battlegrounds

For war or peace

Each space between an action

A thought unspent

A choice

A promise kept

It’s so easy to choose

A reflex….a flash

Buying a way out

With someone else’s cash

Whichever direction

We choose to fill the space

In between thought and deed

We best avoid reliance

On the currency

Of greed……

 

17 April 2018 Edits and ideas about the future I would like to see

Hello to you.¬† I hope that wherever and whenever this finds you that you are having a good day.¬† This¬†phrase where and when comes from watching a scientist named Mehran Tavakoli Keshe¬†of the Keshe Spaceship Institute.¬† Ever since I started to try to follow his work back in October of 2016 I think it was, I have planted a seed in my heart for his work.¬†¬† It was so exciting to see what he and all the wonderful people also inspired, are trying to do with the technology he is sharing.¬† He inspired me to try more experimenting in my kitchen!¬† Seeing and hearing what he was proposing made me think of the visionary Gene Roddenberry of Star Trek.¬†¬†When I was in the United States Air Force, my dream was for their to be a purple force.¬† I talked about this with many people I worked with.¬† My vision was for all branches of the armed forces to unify for one mission of peace.¬† I would love to see people, if they wanted to, to be able to join with others to go to regions of the world and be goodwill ambassadors of peace-making.¬† I would love for them to be able to hug people, help people get on their feet again and not have to worry about their well-being or safety.¬† It¬†is a utopian view I know….probably even childish in a way but that¬†is my way of thinking.¬† Not everyone would necessarily share my point of view¬†especially if they have been on the receiving end of unfair activities.¬† It is not my place to say….”above my pay-grade.”

I wanted to recommend to anyone who regularly reads my writing here of the many, sometimes, severe edits to the blog.¬† I have deleted countless pictures, my art and words out of concern for others.¬† My original intention at starting this blog was to write for myself like a journal and it has become much more than that.¬† I have censored myself and part of this is because I would take some time after I wrote something and realize¬†I didn’t have all the facts or was writing about things I didn’t know everything about.¬† I only had my perception or view and my sources were from the internet which aren’t always reliable.¬† Even the sources I thought I could count on seemed to have faults with them or someone would say or write something to discredit them like snopes.com.

Ironically, it is from President Trump and his proposal of “fake news” that I started to question even myself but this isn’t a bad thing.¬† Not everyone would agree with me.¬† I decided some time ago, after disputes about his Presidency were creating rifts¬†between my family and friends, that possibly our parents¬†knew something I didn’t.¬† I started to think about him differently, like a “Trump” card.¬† I began to wonder if he was¬†actually trying to help us in the opposite way we might expect.¬† I wondered if¬†everything he and other world leaders were doing was their way of attempting to¬†fix this mess we have been in without our even realizing it.¬† I began to wonder if¬†he might actually become of the greatest presidents we’ve ever had and I say that not knowing if he was conscious of his behavior.¬† I decided that I would change my perception of him like I have done for anyone I have come to know in world history, to include¬† Adolf Hitler.¬† What I came to understand, for myself, a long time ago is that based on my life, who am I to judge anyone?¬† I don’t believe anyone is perfect¬†and I don’t believe perfection even exists.¬† Someone once said, there is perfection in imperfection and I believe that.¬† This is just me and my opinion.¬† Everyone has their own opinion and personal perspective on this life and I respect that.¬† Sometimes it’s hard to get many “passionate” perspectives to communicate but I believe it is possible if we find a way to agree on what we have in common.¬† This is a good place to start and many very smart people have shown me this by their example.

I am nattering on as my friend Les often says of herself in her letters lol.¬† I hear my neighbor cutting their lawn at the moment and my back yard is very high but I wouldn’t be embarrassed if anyone saw it.¬† I don’t choose to cut my yard anymore for more than just not having a lawn mower (we tried an electric/corded mower and it didn’t work out).¬† I worry about all those I harm when I cut the lawn.¬† I have wounded crickets and other beings by mowing and those wounded have come to me while I’m in the backyard.¬† We became “friends” and I started to realize the connection between us and nature through these wounded insect warriors.¬† If you look at life at each level, it’s all the same but just a little different.¬† So I try to do the least amount of yard work that I have to so as not to harm anyone.¬† I could hire people to take care of the yard etc., but I know they aren’t like me.¬† I keep the front yard to “city” standards (like military standards) but don’t like doing it anymore.¬† I used to cut the lawn and not care about the other lifeforms but once I started to care about them, to include all the trees trying to make new families, my entire perspective changed.

Some of my greatest teachers are like the cottonwood tree in my neighbor’s yard that was struck by lightning instead of our house.¬† They let their offspring, seeds, go and sometimes they land on fertile soil and sometimes they land at my back porch or in my HVAC unit.¬† During an outside ¬†meditation I had some time ago, ¬†I started to think of what these trees do.¬† I began to think of¬†symbiosis and¬† how life on this planet may have started.¬† There is a nature photographer, his name escapes me but I shared his work here before, that inspired me to think of nature in this way.¬† This is ONLY A THEORY not a fact!¬† Here is a post I wrote about this some time ago: https://saymber.com/2015/05/07/7-may-2015-in-the-beginning-there-was-symbiosis/.¬†¬† I am providing the link but will have to edit this.

5 Feb 2017 – I did this yesterday and it was very therapeutic drawing so many little boxes to form a Pecan Tree ūüôā

Sometimes I link articles and items of interest to me¬†from other places to give my sources.¬† I don’t always know if I have permission to share what is on the internet here.¬† I will be doing less of that in the future.¬†¬†If anyone should come across something I’ve linked and or shared and you would like it removed, please let me know in the comments section of this blog.¬† In order to make comments, I think, but am not sure, you must have an account.

 

25 Feb 2018 Thumbs Up or Thumbs Down – Today is Sunday

Good morning!

I made a little video this morning to make a point about something.¬† The funny things is, the¬†point didn’t come to me right as I was doing this!¬†¬†I came to the realization when I went to share the video with family and friends on Facebook that my options for acknowledging the content of the video didn’t seem appropriate – namely the “Like” button.¬† It hit me that when I click Like on things that I don’t, that I’m giving my personal power and energy to manifest more of what I¬†would actually like to see, hear and feel less of in this world!¬† So if you decide to watch this,¬†and¬†what I have to say resonates with¬†what you feel about the subject, please feel free to give it a thumbs down!¬† I am hoping you will.¬† ¬†I noticed the view counter for You Tube is counting every time I look at the video from another location so the current number of 8 is just me.

I do not collect an income or royalties from blogging, I do it for me, so I do not consider myself “working” at the moment.