18 May 2018 Collage and Low Tide

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well.  I’ve been very tired the past couple of days and just wanting to sleep.  Kyle thinks it’s probably me just coming down from the past few months of an extreme high.  He’s probably right.  The cycles are very taxing for me and the older I get, the more difficult they can be.  So my little travel buddy Link and I just have been resting as we can and trying to restore the ol’ battery.   My life can be  like the ocean currents with the high and low tides.

The drawing today is a collage of stuff I’ve been watching and thinking about lately…all just floating out there in the collective conscious space.

I am sad to see so many more shootings in this country, the latest in Sante Fe Texas….a 17 year old kid too! (http://abc13.com/10-dead-10-injured-in-shooting-at-santa-fe-high-school/3490869/)!  What is sad for me is these shootings are taking place in homes and schools.  Our kids are supposed to be safe in their homes and at school and they aren’t.  Even with all the new security and open carry laws, it’s just not getting much better.  We keep putting band-aids on top of what the real problems are like allowing so many troubled people access to a tool they can use in an act of passion (not self defense).  A tool they end up using to do something they can’t ever take back.  It’s not just the victims and their families that suffer either, it’s all of us! It is essentially an act of terrorism to go into a public place and shoot people.  Why these types of shootings are not treated at as an act of terrorism I don’t know but that’s what it is.  Now you have a whole bunch of people who are afraid to send their kids to school and go out into public places again.  Every time this kind of shooting happens in this country, it is an act of terrorism.   

“I walked through the cosmos today….all I had to do was stand still and dream……”

13 9 14 4

M I N D = 40

16 5 1 3 5

P E A C E = 30 (3 cycle)

18 5 4

R E D = 29 (9 cycle)

8 5 1 22 5 14

H E A V E N = 55

1 14 7 5 12

A N G E L = 39 (3 cycle)

8 5 12 12

H E L L = 37

4 5 13 15 14

D E M O N = 51 (3 cycle)

18 1 4 9 15

R A D I O = 47

4 5 13 15 3 18 1 20

D E M O C R A T = 79

18 5 16 21 2 12 9 3 1 14

R E P U B L I C A N = 101

3 8 9 12 4

C H I L D = 36 (9 cycle)

19 20 1 18

S T A R = 58

3 15 19 13 15 19

C O S M O S = 84 (3 cycle)

20 5 18 18 15 18 9 19 13

T E R R O R I S M = 135 (9 cycle)

7 21 14

G U N = 42 (3 cycle)

8 1 20 5

H A T E = 34

20 5 23 1 19

T E X A S = 68

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17 May 2018 Drawing and Dream

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well today wherever and whenever you are tuning in from.  Feeling gratitude today.  I had a weird dream last night/this morning.  It was about some hotel/hospital where people were going to get plastic surgery.  I saw Prince there and it was like his face was stitched on and it was a white version of himself.  This was the case of many of the people I saw there.  I think this dream was triggered by the CNN show we watched last night, “Video Killed The Radio Star.”  Since it was from the 80’s, they of course mentioned artists like Prince, Michael Jackson and Whitney Houston.  They talked about how difficult it had been for musical artists of color to break through on MTV.  They have a clip of an interview where David Bowie asked one of the MTV VJ’s why there were so few videos with black artists and he got a bullshit answer.  You could tell by how David responded that he wasn’t falling for it!

David Bowie Criticizes MTV for Not Playing Videos by Black Artists | MTV News

It made my heart ache to think on how many artists I knew and loved from the 80’s like Prince that are no longer here with us!  It’s a tough gig to choose to be a performing artist!  I miss them and am grateful for their contributions to such a big part of my developmental years.

16 18 9 14 3 5

P R I N C E = 65

3 1 20

C A T = 24 (3 cycle)

16 21 18 16 12 5

P U R P L E = 88

5 25 5

E Y E  = 35

2 9 18 4

B I R D = 33 (3 cycle)

16 12 1 19 20 9 3    19 21 18 7 5 18 25

P L A S T I C  (80)      S U R G E R Y (113) = 193

Prince – When Doves Cry (Official Music Video)

Prince – Thieves In The Temple (Official Music Video)

 

16 May 2018 Is this all just a dream?

Hello to you.  It is Wednesday in my timeline but it feels like Friday already!  Had a fun dream this morning.  I was with an old co-worker from when I was working in Personnel Systems Management for the Air Force.  I bent a piece of metal with my mind and levitated a rose quartz crystal – apparently my right hand was stronger in the dream for such things lol!  My friend was in disbelief at what he had seen, so I repeated it.  I told Kyle this is why I enjoy the dream world so much.  In the dream realm I fly invisible ships, have wings, can just jump and fly out of a tree.  In my dreams I can visit other worlds and as of last night,  bend metal and levitate crystals with my mind!  Way cool!

Speaking of dreams.  Yesterday we “publicked” and went and got the tires on our car rotated and did a Target run for our favorite liquid soap, Dr. Bronners: (https://www.drbronner.com/).  Exciting right?!  Well when we checked out at Target, the clerk named Robbin seemed to be having a day like I mentioned to you, that surreal feeling like nothing is real…like everything is just a dream.  I took her hands in mind to try to reassure her we were all real.  She still was left wondering about reality but a little more grounded I think!  I guess working in a place like Target could put you in that state of mind!  So many nice things that most of us can’t really afford.  We wandered around in there and talked ourselves out everything but absolute essentials.  Not easy!  I’m pretty sure Robbin’s wages don’t allow her to buy much where she works.

19 15 21 12

S O U L = 67

18 5 1 12 9 20 25

R E A L I T Y = 90 (9 cycle)

5 18 5 1 13

D R E A M = 41

20 9 18 5

T I R E = 52  (funny that tire and door have the same numeric value!)

4 15 15 18

D O O R = 52

23 1 6 6 12 5

W A F F L E = 53 (it cracks me up with words like this – essentially a waffle is a kind of wafer and they have the same numeric value)

23 1 6 5 18

W A F E R = 53

13 21 19 9 3

M U S I C = 65

Dreamt about some men this morning who looked like they may be from Hawaii or Samoa (been praying for Hawaii a lot lately!).  One of them was playing an instrument that I have come to find out today actually exists!  The Coconut Thumb Piano, Kalimba or a Mbira which actually has origins in Africa:

(Redirected from Thumb piano) The mbira is an African musical instrument consisting of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thumb_piano

Origin

It is said that before globalisation, these instruments could only be found in Africa and where African descendants lived. Therefore, the thumb piano we know in the West, called kalimba, is a modernized version of its African ancestors.

Many tribes, all across the continent, have developed their own unique thumb pianos over the centuries. Because the languages and cultures of these tribes vary so much, so do the names and traditions of their instruments.

Thumb Piano Coconut Natural

Program we started watching, kind gives me an “ache” inside…man I’m getting so old!

https://www.rediscoverthe80s.com/2017/02/recap-of-cnns-the-eighties-miniseries.html

The Sixties, The Seventies, and The Eighties Intros- CNN ***HD QUALITY***

 

15 May 2018 Fixing broken things

Hello to you.  Hope you are well today.  I am a little tired and not feeling real rested.  I had another traveling dream this morning.  There were small lime green cars and traveling to Sophie, my niece I think.  I was in one of the cars and as I was getting ready to drive away, a couple other versions of the same car I was driving got in my way.  Then I drove down a hill through what seemed to be like a bunch of shopping carts and the car I was driving was all beat up at the bottom of the hill.  Then there was a blurry image of a blonde girl at the end of the dream just before I woke up.  Anyways….those kinds of dreams aren’t very restful lol!

During my last “cycle” I went through, things got pretty wild here at the house.  I was literally not myself and things got broken.  For some reason, this time more than others, specific objects had a strong association with unpleasant feelings I had about certain people and or situations and there was bloodshed and they got broken.  The blue and red blown glass dragons I had kept fixing were irretrievably broken.  Kyle, out of frustration,  even got into the act this time.  I am happy to say, out of the wreckage, there was beauty.  Sometimes it feels like I am under siege by unseen forces and thankfully it’s just material “things” that get broken!  Being an empathic, highly sensitive person, I am very porous and if I’m not careful, can be an easy mark for spiritual mischief makers.  I am so grateful for Kyle, Link, Spot and my family and friends that know to just “stand-by” until the channel changes.

2 18 15 11 5 14

B R O K E N = 65

 

1 May 2018 Michael The General

Hello to you.   Yesterday I was drawing with my compass and this message came forth with it about the angel Michael.  As I thought about him,  he came across as a sort of General.  Can you imagine what it would be like to be God’s literal “wing man?!”

30 April 2018 – I started by using the compass and this is what came forth for me about the angel Michael, a sort of General.

The reason Michael often comes to my mind is my spiritual background.  I grew up Lutheran and then Roman Catholic for many years.   These days I don’t go to traditional church services etc. but there are aspects of my spiritual journey I have held on to.  The concept of angels is definitely one of them!   I have had experiences in my life where I believe angels have definitely been watching out for me!   There is great power in personal belief.

“In late medieval Christianity, Michael, together with Saint George, became the patron saint of chivalry and is now also considered the patron saint of police officers, paramedics, firefighters and the military.[33][84]

My Dad was a policeman when he was a young man and I’d like to think he was being watched over by Michael all those years!  That’s probably why Michael comes to mind a lot when I hear a siren go off nearby.  I am always worried about all those connected to that sound!  In many cases it’s a policeman or woman, a fire fighter or an ambulance driver….first responders to the scene of usually some persons worst day.  When I hear a siren go off, I try to just say a quick prayer that everything will be ok.

Divine beings, or angels like Michael transcend Christianity.  When you take the time to look, it’s interesting to find how many different walks of faith have angels or divine beings within them.  I am sharing some links to other information if your interested to learn more:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deva_(Buddhism)beings from Buddhism that are like angels in other walks of faith.

http://www.paganspath.com/meta/angels.htminteresting article about how angels are not unique to just Christianity

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_(archangel)a lot of information about Michael here.  This angel seems to cross boundaries between different walks of faith.  When I did the “numbers” for this name, it came to a total of 51, which becomes 6, which divided into 2 becomes 3 which then becomes the trinity or a cycle.  The word angel comes to a numeric value of 39, which is 12 which is also 3! 

http://moonatnoon.com/puzzles/reference/a1b2z26.html (something I initially looked at when I decided to start using the numeric value of the alphabet to examine words and their meanings.  I use this system a lot now.  It’s amazing to see a more logical view of words we use in the English language.  This system, for me, helps bridge the gaps I sometimes have between my faith and reality.  Unlike people and words can do sometimes, numbers don’t lie!  I don’t know if this would work for other languages but it would be interesting if it did!)

A cycle is a  repeating pattern.  It makes sense to me that angels and a being like Michael,  created by human beings, would end up in this pattern.  Sometimes our faith is tested or we have doubt.  We will literally “cycle” around on a journey to either come back to believing or discarding our faith all together.     

Have you ever had an encounter with someone who seemed like an angel or divine being?  In the realm of the God of my understanding, energy, pretty much anything goes I think!

Matthew 7:7

Ask, Seek, Knock

7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

 

29 April 2018 Who should get the “credit” for creation?

Hello to you.  I’m up early this morning and was thinking about something that has come to me before.  Who gets the “credit” for what we create in this world?  Credit can be in the context of just pats on the back or accolades.  Credit can also mean, in our modern world,  financial support.  When I create, I’m not really looking for either, it used to, but not anymore.  The reason this came up in my thoughts?  I was I was going to try to put my initials and date on the drawings I’m sharing today and realized that it really doesn’t matter all that much!  They don’t belong to me really, they belong to a power greater than myself.  They belong to the God of my understanding, energy and energy is everyone and everything….the collective consciousness.

When I do something creative, I feel like I’m tapping into the collective consciousness.  After all, I my opinion, there really isn’t such a thing as an original idea just a reinterpretation of one that has already come before.  Even what I am writing at this moment doesn’t really belong to me in a sense.  Only when my ego needs a stroke do I really care about such things!  Sometimes I can be pretty hard on myself.  When I get like that, my self-esteem plummets pretty low.  I will sometimes look for a source outside of myself to somehow lift myself up.  Ironically, this was the driving force behind me using Facebook to share my drawings and stuff!

Since I seldom turn a profit for what I channel aka “create”, I think that’s about as pure as it gets.  Why should I get hung up on labeling my work?  The only reason that comes to mind, is kind of like from that Big Eyes movie when the husband tried to take credit and actually profit from his wife’s work.  The karmic resolution to that took place in a courtroom.  The judge put the husband and wife to work at blank canvas painting and the husband was unable to recreate his wife’s paintings.

Amy Adams and Margaret Keane tell Big Eyes Movie Story (I wonder if all the folks involved with this film, to include Margaret, receive money for sales of this film?  Not quite sure how that works.)

So should I consider copywriting everything I do?  I guess if I decided that I was going to try and make a living doing what I do but what a struggle that would be!  Whenever I have tried to make money doing something it has often turned into a negative thing.  I have very few positive experiences with making money for what I have made.  The only ways  it has been positive is when I do something for a gift or someone has asked me to make something and they provided the financial support and or materials for me to do it.  I think making things and churning them out for profit would be very pretty empty for me.  Something else I’ve realized, like blogging here for example, as soon as I upload anything into this artificial collective consciousness, the internet, I give away any all the relevance of ownership in my opinion.  Anyone can save my pictures to their hard drive and “make them their own” as I’ve done with other artists work.

Why do I create?  What is my motivation?  My motivation is most often having the feeling I get by being close to God.  It feels good!  It’s like having a conversation without words and it makes me feel complete inside.  Then, out of gratitude, I feel I have to pass it all on to help somebody else like I do here in this blog.   Isn’t this the way God, divinity….whatever your word for the energy that propels you through this life supposed to be?  A power greater than ourselves that unconditionally loves and accepts us even if we make a drawing that looks like a child may have done it? 

Matthew 19:14 14Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

No one, no matter how hard they try can exactly replicate what I do.  Kind of like forgeries and copies….they will always be forgeries and copies but never the original work as it was first channeled through me.  So I’m not very worried about it anymore.   I feel bad for people in this world who do get so hung up on ownership versus staying in the flow of creation.  It must be such a fight everyday to keep what they perceive belongs to them!  I would say this is especially true for anyone who makes a living on their image and creative endeavors in any profession.  I wonder what would happen if they just let go of that?

What has come to me in meditations with the God of my understanding (I use the word God because it’s simpler) many times is nothing belongs to us but perhaps one thing, the essence of who we are inside.  The energy ball, the soul, part of our being that makes us uniquely “us” no matter what outside forces may try to change it.  I imagine that when our bodies are tired and must be returned back to the earth, we just move on and become something or someone else but we are not lost.  The unconditional, loving energy of existence makes sure we are never truly lost.   We just become something a little different but just the same.

These drawings I did yesterday were made for me and for someone else to enjoy and I hope you do:

U2 – Song For Someone (Directed by Matt Mahurin)

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Lyrics

 Song for Someone

You got a face not spoiled by beauty
I have some scars from where I’ve been
You’ve got eyes that can see right through me
You’re not afraid of anything they’ve seen
I was told that I would feel nothing the first time
I don’t know how these cuts heal
But in you I found a rhyme

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Now we shouldn’t doubt
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
A song for someone

You let me into a conversation
A conversation only we could make
You break and enter my imagination
Whatever’s in there
It’s yours to take
I was told I’d feel nothing the first time
You were slow to heal
But this could be the night

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Within and without
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
This is a song for someone

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And I’m a long way
From your hill of Calvary
And I’m a long way
From where I was, where I need to be
If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a kiss
I stole from your mouth
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

 Songwriters: ADAM CLAYTON, DAVE EVANS, LARRY MULLEN, PAUL DAVID HEWSON
© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

28 April 2018 Drawings – The Air Is Alive

“I walked through the sky with my hands today.  Little whispers and eyes the whole journey through.  All around me blurring, whirring, buzzing and fluttering sounds of life.  A gentle waltz of nature in figure 8’s around my soul.”  – Jackie

(I live next to a busy road where the sounds of loud vehicles and stuff make meditation and connection with nature more difficult.  I am working on trying to tune the noises I don’t want to hear out.  It can be difficult sometimes even with headphones on and music playing.  I try to remember that we are all different sorts of people trying to coexist on the same plane of existence.  Many individual dimensions (people and their personal way of living) overlaying each other.  For some people peace is having their music blasting loud while others, like myself, sometimes prefer complete silence.)

26 April 2018 Drawings and Balancer

Hello to you.  Just a quick note to share what I’ve been up to this morning.  I had some anxiety show up out of nowhere this morning and I’ve been having trouble shaking it.  I decided to do a drawing and that actually helped.  I’m thinking about making myself a bunch of cards that I can draw from each day to help cheer me up if I need it.  The last time I did personal cards, I sat down and worked on it for hours.  This time I’m just going to do them as I feel like it.  I have two done so far.  The second one was inspired by seeing a trailer for the new Avengers movie that is showing today.

We had a busy day yesterday.  We had to drive to Arlington to my doctor’s office which is always very stressful.  I decided to take along a couple of things for my doctor to try to help her out as it must be so stressful being her seeing people like me each day!  I had some pretty heavy stuff to share and felt really bad because at home I had been being pretty hard on her!  I wanted to somehow show her my appreciation for at least trying to listen to my concerns and trying to care about me.  I gave her an aluminum pendant I had made.  It had a rainbow bead on it with it to symbolize hope and I also gave her, what I’m calling a “balancer” or healing wand to try out.  I mean who heals our doctors?!

The wands are adapted from the things I learned from the Keshe Foundation.  I am not selling these because I just don’t feel right about doing that.  Whenever I consider the idea, I end up going back to the original intention of Dr. Keshe sharing this information.  He gave to us for free so we could pass it on to pay the blessing forward and also to learn on our own.  Having the chance to learn about this technology online was very inspiring but very hard for me to keep up with!  I just don’t have the attention span for long lectures.  I never made my own Magrav power unit but did try several things related to the research like a battery and pain pens.

I ended up using the concepts to come up with things that I was interested in.  Some people are interested in the applications for home energy use, others are interested in food and health and still others are interested in how this technology could have applications for space travel.  I try to share the information whenever I have an appropriate opportunity.  I am hoping someone  may see what I share here and have it ignite a spark of imagination.  From my own personal experience and from what I’ve seen, you should never underestimate the power of human ingenuity!

Most times when I make things like this, it is my way of trying to give back to people who don’t often get any appreciation at all like my doctors.  Sometimes people ask me to make them things and if they provide me the materials and or the finances to acquire the materials, I will do it.   I had my husband “test” the one in the picture on himself.  He doesn’t always feel anything with these things.  With this one, he said he felt a magnetic pull on his skin.  With other ones I’ve had him there he has felt warmth.  The sensation for me is like a power surge.  I am wearing the one pictured to help me with my personal issues with physical, emotional and spiritual balance.  I can tell the difference when I have it on and when I take it off.  It might be partially a placebo, the “wanting it to work” and I guess with most anything, that’s half of achieving healing isn’t it?  Belief that you will get better, that you can be better?  Wouldn’t it be nice if we could wear such a device and not need so many pills and surgeries?!  May be some day!

If you decide to make these types of things for yourself, remember they will not have my energy signature which is different than yours will be.  No one has the same energy signature.  From personal experience, I believe whatever you craft with your own hands is imbued with your personal energy.  If you were to try and manufacture these with a machine, I doubt they would have the same effect but I don’t know for sure.  I think it’s better to personalize this sort of device with a hands-on approach.  Kind of like in the old days when crafters like blacksmiths and the like made their own tools that were suited perfectly to them.

26 April 2018 – this is something I made for myself using what I learned from the Keshe Foundation. Here is a link to information about other applications if you would like to make an power unit for your home or automobile: https://www.slideshare.net/exopolitika/keshe-magrav-power-coil-production-step-by-step-pp24-oct302015

Anyhew…hope this is helpful.  I have made wands like this the side of earrings.  I use screwdrivers of varying sizes to wind the coils.  Sometimes I use hot glue to seal the openings on the end etc.  I purchased the wire at Michael’s craft store in Burleson.  It is 20 gauge copper wire from a company named Bead Landing in Pakistan.  Before using the wire, I prayed for those people who make the wire that I have the privilege to use for this purpose.   I try to do that for everything I buy and use.  There is so much involved the production of just about everything we often take for granted in this world!

P.S we found a essential oil diffuser at Michael’s yesterday and it didn’t require a filter!  So far so good!  Both of our allergies have been really acting up and diffusing Young Living Peppermint oil has been helping.  If we still had Amber and May, our cats, I don’t know if we could do this as they both seemed sensitive to this sort of thing.

(Thinking this may be my husband and my anniversary date movie!  I am excited to see everyone working together.  I would love it if somehow DC and Marvel did the same.  Can you imagine?!  I know blasphemy but hey, I am a dreamer!)

Marvel Studios’ Avengers: Infinity War – Official Trailer

18 Feb 2018 Who are we now?

Hello to you.  It’s 11:45 am on this cool, gray Sunday.  I just wanted to share a positive word.  I feel like I am discovering a way to be useful in this world, and it’s not an easy process but a process just the same – seeking and finding the positive things in people, places and things.   I used to be really good at this – when I was a child of course.  Well thankfully, inside, I still feel my inner child very much alive!  The part of me that our Sam taught me to hold on to – there are no strangers in this world, just family you haven’t met yet.  Not just friends, FAMILY.  Why do I say that?  With my understanding of God as energy.   If everything is energy and everything is God then that makes us all – every single form of life know and unknown – family!

Anyhew.   In my meditation this morning, the message that came forth was about how the past can hang and or trip us up to getting to where we want to go.  I have shared this before here but I will share it again:  “It’s not who we were in the past, it’s who we are now.”  The God of my understanding doesn’t care about the past because Time is our device.  The God of my understanding doesn’t care about what mistakes we’ve made in the past only if we don’t learn from them and intentionally keep repeating them.  If we don’t even try to make amends to those we’ve wronged to include ourselves.

As I sat outside doing this drawing and meditation a thought occurred to me for places we could start making amends – prisons of all kinds, nursing homes, mental health facilities, rehabilitation centers and our churches.  All the places for humans, animals and plants that could be considered cages.  Unconditional love and forgiveness has not been taught or learned by many.  What if we were to work together starting in a place we all share….the heart?  Just a thought…an idea with a positive intention and or motive.

 

9 Feb 2018 Love and Abandonment (Morning meditation)

9 Feb 2018 /1019 am

I was outside preparing to do some “chalking” when a revelation about connection between “wisdom,” Why of Life and Death and Tree of Life came. It was instigated by my finding seeds that blew down from cotton tree to my hoodie. My good friend the cotton tree helping me again. What came brought forth a lot of tears. If I (we as a species) had remained ignorant, didn’t need to find out why (curiosity) I (we) wouldn’t know or care about living and dying. Sentience and consciousness, “awareness” would never have happened and may be we would have been happier — “Ignorance is Bliss” philosophy.

17 May 2017 – Cottonwood seed ships

Love changed everything because with love comes “attachment.” Something I learned more about through Buddhism’s the 4 Noble Truths and the 8 Fold Path. When you lose something or someone you love more than “existence” you will tear heaven and earth apart to find it, reclaim it. What I was willing to do at Mesa Springs when I didn’t know where Kyle was. What happened to me for 3 years after we lost our Sammy.

Source Internet: Seed of Life. I loved that this is made in stained glass with chakra colors.

Abandonment creates some of the largest energy vortexes, human black holes. It can be “perceived” or intentional abandonment but the abandoned feel it all the same. Why?!Where did you go?! When are you coming back?! Will you come back?!

(My mother, my Grandparents….all those I’ve loved and lost for whatever reason. I had to grieve and heal — fill the holes their “abandonment of me” left behind.

All of us have lost people, places and things through our shared journey. Are we so attached to these that we are willing to destroy ourselves and a planet to retrieve them? This is just what I see for myself. I hope there is something in this morning meditation that resonates with you….is helpful. I would ask you, what positive, loving aspect of existence can you put in the “holes” some sort of abandonment has made in your mind, body and most importantly your soul?

What do I do? All through my blogs here is what I’ve learned to do for myself with unseen guidance and loving nudges from the tangible elements that surround me. The arts, meaningful work, chores, spirituality, helping others and educating myself about people, places and things I don’t understand before making judgements about them. It is in the latter I have come to realize I can judge no one nor is there anyone on this earth who can either. We are all imperfect and it is in that imperfection we are amazing creations capable of greatness beyond our wildest dreams. We are here for each other. No one person can fix this shared mess our world has become. We must learn to build bridges instead of more walls.

17-feb-2011-my-puppy-sammy-and-his-tennis-ball (Sammy crossed the rainbow bridge 27 April 2011)

My Mom Jeanne and my Grandpa Harold (Hal) Becker on her wedding day, 21 Nov 1965.

8 Feb 2018 Dr. Wilhelm Reich books The Cancer biopathy and Function of the Orgasm Alvarado TX

8 Feb 2018 Jackie Wygant Blue Book for Alcoholics Anonymous Alvarado TX meditation about addiction like sugar etc

8 Feb 2018 Two books from Grandma Becker and Aunt Ruth to help me heal inside when I was younger I read from How to Be your own best friend out loud Alvarado TX