Hello to you. Hope this finds you well in whatever time and place this finds you.
Yesterday I took my pink spirit book and a pencil out to our pecan tree to jot down some thoughts that I couldn’t get out of my head. I am a very spiritual person and quite often the topics that come up relate to the concept I have of God at this phase of my life. Intelligent Energy. I have come to believe that all of creation is an Energy construct. When I lay in bed at night I can see all these tiny little vibrating particles that make up the wall, the dresser, the blankets draped over me….the dogs and Kyle. When I lay down and gaze at the sky it’s much the same. An untold number of tiny vibrating particles making reality real. Each place I look, each breath I take….all God energy.
Here is what came up in my pink spirit book yesterday:
“Why a man to become a God? Why Jesus? Because human beings make God “care.” To look at nature without the heart of man, one would think there was no loving God. Everything is just food. One energy feeding the next size up. I saw a black spider wasp disable and dismantle a spider twice its size in seconds. I’ve seen larger wasps do the same. The bird I tried to console to its death was attacked by ants before it was completely dead. Ants attacking and eating a molting Cicada before it can even fly away. It’s new form devoured just inches from its previous one. Just energy! Just food! One energy form devouring another. There are no emotions. There are no feelings. There is no morality or conscience without human beings. God can be cruel….nature can be cruel.
Some higher forms of life seem even more compassionate than humans or is it just our wanting them to be? Our influence as observers on the “experiment” affecting how we perceive them? What came to me during several of my episodes is we are only alive because the rest of existence allows it….just hasn’t figured out a way to eat us more quickly just yet! Is this why we must not be still too long? Eat or be eaten?!”
I don’t know that God/Nature is cruel, it’s just super efficient. Everything around us is part of a perfect design and we, with our feelings and consciousness are the cog in the wheel so to speak! We are the ones who will go out of our way to save a three legged dog from death. If this dog were born into a setting without us, it would just be left to die.
I believe we are God’s heart. Without us, without a Jesus or all the pantheon of other Gods taking human form, God just isn’t all that friendly and or relatable….tangible.
How we love and take care of each other makes God real on this earth.
Later in the day we watched the Queer Eye episode where the Fab 5 went to Gay Georgia to help with a lovely woman and her church community center. A lot of irony in just that sentence! They helped Tammye, her gay son, her family and the entire town. What a beautiful example of what I am talking about! Without the heart of human beings, without the act of building bridges between different worlds, empathy, compassion and care, there really is no unconditionally loving God. We give God all their senses (sight, smell, touch, hearing and taste) and our many beating hearts in which to process this complicated existence.
It’s people like the Fab 5, like Tammye and all those in this world who seek to fill this world with unconditional love that are God’s heart.
1 John 4:20 20Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen.