# 28 Aug 2018 Zero

https://www.gematrix.org/?word=

Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Yeah

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

By saymber

# 22 Aug 2018 The Broken Vase (dream)

Just stopping in for a moment to say hello.  I have been resting today as I’ve had a lot on my mind.  The words to numbers has been pretty steady and has turned out to be a great coping mechanism to help me riddle out things logically for myself.  This morning I worked through through aspects of my life to include some of the major players in it and got some very interesting results.  For example, the total numeric value for my Dad’s full name (186), the numeric value of the phrase “leave home” (86) and for the age I was when I joined the military (18 years and 6 months) all line up!  What’s interesting also – I was born in 1968!  I found out the numeric value of my birth mom’s full maiden name comes to 137 which is interesting because Becker means baker or “to bake”.  Baker = 37!  I was born in Sioux Falls South Dakota and the full numeric value for this is 273.  It’s interesting that it took two to make the reverse version of my mother in numbers 73.  In doing this, I found myself feeling like I’ve finally been let in on the “plan” for my life.  I’m only half way in so that’s not too bad lol!

I went out to do some chalk drawing earlier and just couldn’t do it.  What I did draw I knew was going to take me on a path I’m done treading – the 9/11 bit.  I have to let it go and it’s so hard to.  I want justice for what happened to EVERYONE involved with this and as it seems, there never will be.  At least in this life!

I picked up the foot piece of the Blondie dog statue I had broken in anger a few months ago and examined it.  There was a tiny spider hiding in it.  If you remember, the number value for spider is 71/8 which is the same number value for God of 26/8.

16 Aug 2018 – What came to me about this here was anger being at the center of many problems. Kyle’s message was, “Anger is a symptom of hopelessness” and I agree. There is a core element to the feelings and subsequent actions people take to get relief from how uncomfortable they can become.

I started crying thinking about and missing my Dad.  Ironically the word Dad comes out to 9 in the numbers!  It makes sense this word would be a 9 cycle.  I feel like I literally have “Daddy issues.”   Attachment problems.  I love my Dad (and Mom) so much that I’m afraid to be close to him and have him leave me!  This is stupid I know, but it’s like when my Grandma, his mother was still alive and I would call her.  I used to just end up crying because I missed her so much.  After a point she kind of asked me to stop calling her.  It’s gotten that way with my parents.  The last time Mom and Dad visited my Dad said to me, “You could always come home (274/13/4).”  If it were only that easy to do!  There are so many “if’s” attached to just picking up and leaving when you are grown up!

So I went and took a nap and had a dream that pulls this all together.  Ironically the time I recorded it, 3:01 am (4).

The dream was about one of those decorative,  huge vases you might see in a museum.  There was something about rearranging furniture and this vase fell over and broke.  It had been broken many times before.  There was a discussion about putting it back together but there were so many pieces.

https://www.gematrix.org = online word/phrase calculator

Give (43) Up (39) = 80/8     Resilient = 111/3 (666 in English Gematria)  Broken (65) Vase (47) = 112/4 (4=D for Dad)

Rearrange = 87/15/6/3 cycle   Start (78) Over (60) = 138/12/3 cycle   Restart = 101/2 (# for system)  Reset = 67/13/4 (13 day I was born, 4 for D)

Forget = 71/8  (I see Christ/Devil/God, self in here)

Anger = 45/9 cycle

Forgive = 82/10/1 (I see God (26), 2 people – the one who wants to be forgiven and the one who forgives, spirit (91) and self in this)

Psychological = 145/10/1 (9 cycle is in this number for 1 person)

Psychological Shock = 201/3 cycle (part of what creates PTSD)

Shock = 56/11/2/1

Trauma = 74/11/2/1

Psychological Trauma = 219/12/3 cycle (both 22 and 19 are in here, 22 = 4 which is first letter in Dad)

Assuming KIAs accurately represented age groups serving in Vietnam, the average age of an infantryman (MOS 11B) serving in Vietnam to be 19 years old is a myth, it is actually 22 [CACF]

## history – Was 19 the average age of a combat soldier in …

skeptics.stackexchange.com/questions/9772/was-19-the-average-age-of-a-combat-soldier-in-vietnam

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) = 368/17/8 (Eleven September Two Zero Zero One = 386)

Empath = 63/9 cycle — me    Empathy = 88/16/7

He will give his angels charge over you in all your ways – Psalm 91:11= 564/15/6/3 cycle (my Bible cover from my parents)

22 Aug 2018 – Cover of my Bible my parents gave to me many years ago.

By saymber

# 8 Aug 2018 All One (chalk drawings) and The Feather

Hello!  Quite a few drawings today.  I was thinking about my seed ships idea again.  I was marveling at the shapes in the wispy clouds this afternoon.  I’m obviously easily amused LOL!  It’s the little things that fill in the spaces of a life and give it meaning.

This afternoon I added some coils and magnets to some the GANS/orgonite setup I have working and that was interesting.  I keep wanting to combine the work of Dr. Wilhelm Reich, Nikola Tesla and Mehran Keshe into one form.  It’s all about the same source in my mind.  I know realistically it’s probably not that simple, I’m not a scientist lol.  I’m walking on a well-worn field with my puzzling over energy.  I keep feeling it’s about energy from existing sources like water, the soil, man-made creations  and ambient sources like magnetic fields.  We know there is power in particles we can’t see it’s just finding a way to collect enough of them to create power sources that can fuel cars….spaceships.

To create energy without destroying ourselves doing it!  Current sources we use for energy all have negative side effects (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Environmental_impact_of_the_energy_industry) and make a few people a lot of money.  I feel like as soon as we can set aside profit margins and focus on working towards the greater good of all living kind we will get somewhere. Greed is a powerful adversary to progress!

Changing gears…..

I also had an interesting focusing lesson with a feather this afternoon.  Sometimes I will ask God energy what it wants to do with particular things in my yard just to see what the answer is for a blade of grass, a leaf etc.  Well I had picked up this feather and put in between my feet as I sat under our baby oak out back.  I asked God what the story was going to be with this feather.  So far it grew on a bird.  The bird had shed the feather in my yard.  After several days of noticing the feather, I finally picked it up and now it was between my feet.  What was next for the feather?!  Well it came to me to just focus on the feather and I did for what seemed the longest time – nada, nothing, no movement.  It seemed the feather was destined to stay on the step between my feet!

Well my concentration broke when I heard a noise like a bird or something moving over my head.  When I looked back for the feather it had flipped over and moved!  Just a second or two of broken concentration and we have feather sign lol.  Isn’t that like God?  A miracle when we aren’t looking for it?  An answer to a prayer when we are focused on the complicated prayer and not just letting God be God?!  For quite some time, as I had my talk with God.  The feather moved several times as we spoke and I was moved to tears.

I cry a lot when I pray/talk to God and it’s not always because I’m sad, it’s because of the love I feel in my heart.  A friend of mine had a great way to explain why people like her and I were quick to tear up about such things.  She said it’s because our spirits stick out more than other people’s do!  Such is the life of an Empath or anybody who cares a lot about this world and other people and wears their heart on their sleeve.

Sometimes I get very lonely.  Today with the help of a simple feather, I was reminded while I may be lonely I am never truly alone.

https://www.gematrix.org

Feather = 63/9 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1 (Interesting Alone and Lonely have same values)

Lonely = 83/11/2/1

Concentration = 151/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Focus = 64/10/1

Oak Tree = 75/12/3 cycle (interesting with even adding oak to tree, 3 cycle still occurs)

Seed = 33/6/3 cycle

God = 26/8/4/2/1

Energy = 74/11/2/1

Universe =113/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Source = 81/9 cycle

All = 25/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting all and one have the same values)

One =34/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

By saymber

# 6 Aug 2018 Chalk drawings, quotes and numbers in the words

I touch the future. I teach.
Christa McAuliffe

We are all now connected by the Internet, like neurons in a giant brain.
Stephen Hawking

It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
JK Rowling

No one in the world was ever you before, with your particular gifts and abilities and possibilities.

Joseph Campbell

Every Child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man.
Rabindranath Tagore

I was going to go into what happened to the people of Chicago over the weekend, the horror of it, and I decided I would not give that horror power.  What I will give power to is the earth angels like the first responders, the police and fire departments, doctors, nurses, the hospital emergency room staff – all those that inherit what’s left after revenge, hatred, and senseless violence happens.  I will give my power and prayers to those left standing and struggling in these communities after something like this happens.   I will even pray for the fools who think violence is the cure for the cancers of hate in their hearts.  The people committing these acts were not born into this life carrying these tumors.

Dr. King said, ‘We are all tied together in a garment of mutual destiny.’ Which says to me no matter how well I may be doing in Hollywood, if a young brother or sister in Louisiana, the South Bronx, the South Side of Chicago, South Central Los Angeles – is not doing well, then I’m not doing very well.

Hill Harper

https://www.gematrix.org – some words and numbers with interesting results

Chicago = 46/10/1

Signal = 62/8/4/2/1

Revenge =76/13/4/2/1

Hate = 34/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Violence = 85/13/4/2/1

Forgiveness = 139/13/4/2/1

Love = 54/9 cycle

Peace = 30/3 cycle

Gangster = 91/10/1

Family = 66/12/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Crime = 48/12/3 cycle

Prison = 91/10/1

Death = 38/11/2/1

Justice = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Angel = 39/12/3 cycle

Apocalypse = 113/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Reveal = 63/9 cycle

Revelation = 121/4/2/1

Correction = 120/3 cycle

By saymber