10 Feb 2018 Houses and Becoming (17 April 2018 edited version)

Hello again. It’s cold and getting colder by the minute as I write. Today will be an inside day I think! This morning I finished working on the blanket I started working on back in January of last year! It’s a corner to corner pattern that my friend Erin and Red Heart Yarn taught me how to do and it’s pretty much the only one I use now lol.

I did get out for a quick chalk meditation this morning and some interesting stuff came forward. For many, what I am sharing with you may not resonate with your belief systems, culture, morals or value system…may seem strange even. You may not agree with what is here and that is perfectly fine! Everyone has a comfort zone….a “warm blanket” if you will. I am just passing on what came to me with no expectation from you the reader.

A phrase kept popping into my head this morning, “Old God’s in New Houses.” This is a phrase that came from a film called Queen of the Damned and sadly, one of my favorite female musicians was in it, Aaliyah.  After Aaliyah died in a terrible plane crash I was devastated.  It is so sad to me that such a tragedy should happen to such a talented young woman as she was.  Every time I see the movie, I am reminded of what a great loss was suffered by the music world at her passing.

Who are you? Did you know once a long time ago but the world beat and or numbed it out of you? I am hoping to empower you to be who God brought you here to be. To remember who you are and if you can’t and want to, do the work here in this shared dream this planet-sized school we are all in, and find out!

When I think of Aaliyah and from my own personal experiences of what I’ve observed in the world, this seems to be happening.  Have you ever met someone and felt like you met them before? What was it about them?  A look, a gesture, a walk, a way of speaking, something they said, sharing sentences…a smell?  Some of this is just nature of course but I believe there is more to it than that.  Perhaps on some level you have or did. If you think about the entire cycle of life, death and new life why would that not be possible? What if the energy all around us, capable of making an entire planet full of life, not have such a system? Recycling? Repurposing? What is energy? To me? God! What is God? Life, death and new life. How do we get there? It’s a process and it takes time but it is eternal.  I believe the Gods of many understanding and my own have kept their promise to all of us with this beautiful blessing of earth.

The  most valuable lessons I have learned from this life thus far has come from my observance of trees and nature.  The tree of life symbol from various different religions and walks of spirit is what resonates with me the most.  I believe that whatever we feel we have lost in the passing of someone we love is returned to us beyond measure.  This happened with our loss of our precious fur babies Sam, Blondie, Amber and May.  In the void left by their passing, they have returned to us in other ways.  I see their return and presence in nature and all of it’s forms.  The Wiccan, Native American and Buddhist walks of faith  have been milestones for me from my Christian and Catholic foundations in faith.  Each walk of faith, in my opinion, has had a contribution to my overall perspective of spirituality.

When I was stationed at Travis AFB, one of my ex-husbands roommates was a Satanist.  He was a good man and we actually were able to communicate about difficult subjects.  We never completely got a long but there was good in him.  I try to find the positive in all people, the best I can find and sometimes it’s almost impossible.  When I feel I can’t find anything positive about someone, I will pray for them and I say this in the context of not being any particular walk of spirit.  I don’t believe in hero’s and villains, good or evil or any labels put on people that make them either good or bad.  This is why I have chosen a “no labels” path for myself….it is a very lonely path to walk.  I have had a dream for a long time of all of us walking together as one but not to be ruled or made slaves.  My dream is that we would all walk together as family.

Part of the walking together involves something called forgiveness.  I think it was Oprah Winfrey that I learned this from.  We will forgive but that doesn’t mean we forget.  Right now I am feeling like a bunch of stuff I had already worked through is getting brought back up for someone else’s benefit or may be I thought I was finished with it and perhaps wasn’t.  I don’t believe we experience anything for no reason….it’s not a coincidence.  I believe everything is connected to divine timing and just how the God of energy operates.

I hope something here resonates with you today.  I am revisiting some of my blogs here and if you should come across some that are incomplete or missing pictures etc. it’s because I was considering deleting this blog entirely just so I wouldn’t hurt anyone.



21 Aug 2016 My Pink Spirit book message, “Energy God”, sometimes you want to be a Princess, Little Bird (Annie Lennox) O Hidden Track (Coldplay)

Hello there, it’s about 1:19 pm.  Since Kyle and I plan on watching the Olympics closing ceremonies tonight, figured I would jot you a note before I take my afternoon nap and we start watching.   I am pretty wore out from cutting and weed whacking the front, back and side yard before we get more rain and the grass gets even higher!  The grass here in North Texas needs little encouragement to inspire growth!  I used our Kobalt electric mower and Black and Decker electric weed whacker and got it all done.  I found myself wishing I had a beer (Shiner) afterwards….love that carbonation after doing yard work, but we don’t buy beer or alcohol anymore so Kyle bought us a Burger King lunch and brought me home a Sprite.  I know…horrible, “what about getting off of sugar?!” It’s what I wanted and I earned it dammit lol!  I’m such a hypocrite….but I try, I really try!  It’s all a balancing act isn’t it?  Trade offs?!

So after I got cleaned up, I was standing in my bedroom closet and caught sight of the tiara I had made for my Halloween costume a couple of years ago and I decided I wanted to wear it!  Why not?!  Sometimes you want to be a Princess and in this instance, I had the tiara to go with that sentiment!

Sometimes when you are tired you wish you had a magic wand to make everything all better again....sometimes you just settle for being a Princess in your own backyard and that's enough.

Sometimes when you are tired you wish you had a magic wand to make everything all better again….sometimes you just settle for being a Princess in your own backyard and that’s enough.

Here is the message I wrote down before bed last night in my Pink Spirit Book:

20 Aug 2016/10pm

I’ve come to believe in a God that is nothing but energy.  This energy cannot feel, touch, have empathy or compassion….that’s what we are here for!  We are the “body” of this “God.”  We give this God of my understanding “life.”  Through our eyes they see, with our hands they create, with our feet they walk, with our arms they hold…hug.  With our individual brains they dream and imagine.  Neither Corporation nor God can truly “BE” without people.

My Pink Spirit book message last night

My Pink Spirit book message last night

(Don’t know why I put Corporation and God in the same sentence but I did.)

My love, hugs and very best to our Olympians form all over the world – you are AWESOME SAUCE!  On to Tokyo!!!

A couple of songs….the Little Bird video with Annie Lennox isn’t the best quality but I love the song and have always loved Annie!  This Coldplay “O” Hidden track from their Ghost Stories Album is one of my favorite songs to listen to when I’m out in my backyard and spending time with nature.  It’s especially magical when I’ll be listening to it and an actual flock of birds flies by!  The version I’ve shared has a “gap” worth waiting for….sacred sounds!  Thank you for such lovely music!


Play “O”

Flock of birds
Hovering above
Just a flock of birds
It’s how you think of love

And I always
Look up to the sky
Pray before the dawn
‘Cause they fly always
Sometimes they arrive
Sometimes they are gone
They fly on

Flock of birds
Hovering above
Into smoke I’m turned
And rise following them up

Still I always
Look up to the sky
Pray before the dawn
‘Cause they fly away
One minute they arrive,
Next you know they’re gone
They fly on
Fly on

So fly on
Ride through
Maybe one day I’ll fly next to you
Fly on, ride through
Maybe one day I can fly with you

Fly on

Thinking about two of my favorite “birds”…. Hello….