28 April 2018 Drawings – The Air Is Alive

“I walked through the sky with my hands today.  Little whispers and eyes the whole journey through.  All around me blurring, whirring, buzzing and fluttering sounds of life.  A gentle waltz of nature in figure 8’s around my soul.”  – Jackie

(I live next to a busy road where the sounds of loud vehicles and stuff make meditation and connection with nature more difficult.  I am working on trying to tune the noises I don’t want to hear out.  It can be difficult sometimes even with headphones on and music playing.  I try to remember that we are all different sorts of people trying to coexist on the same plane of existence.  Many individual dimensions (people and their personal way of living) overlaying each other.  For some people peace is having their music blasting loud while others, like myself, sometimes prefer complete silence.)


29 Oct 2017 Dreaming while your awake – imagining

Hello to you.  It’s Sunday afternoon now and it’s been a lovely day here.  Lots of drawing today.  I don’t know how to describe what it is that is going on with me and this chalk drawing now.  The phrase, “dreaming while your awake” comes to mind or just good old fashioned day dreaming.  Just putting down on the pavement whatever comes to my mind.  Sometimes it makes sense and sometimes it’s just thoughts and images passing through.  I like to share them because may be something within them will spark your imagination too?!  I hope so.  It’s so important to make time and space for imagination….imagining.  When I go out with my chalks, that is what I’m doing.  What do you do as an outlet for all those miscellaneous thoughts?

25 Oct 2017 Identity Crisis

Hello to you in your where and when from mine. How are you today? Today was quieter “upstairs” but around lunch time I found some thoughts that came to me. I grabbed a notepad, ironically the one I got from the Veteran’s Land Board folks at the State Fair, and just started writing. I recognize my own experience from what I wrote down. I hope there might be something from my notes today for you too.

25 Oct 2017/1200 pm

We don’t know who we are anymore — roles. Goes back to “label” problem. With labels there are associations made…definitions…color, function and purpose…place in the world. When we don’t match or live up to expectations of our label, we have an identity crisis. With the crisis can come unexpected, previously unaddressed emotions and grief.

Each time we change it’s a sort of “death” to a self we used to be. If we were really attached to our former self and that self “dies” it can be very disorienting, confusing — anger, resentment, betrayal and deep sorrow…lash out, lash in…act out or retract within. This is when addictive and destructive behaviors set in. The seeking of the external to soothe the internal like people, places and things in a feeble attempt to exert influence, power and ultimately control. When control of self is lost, most turn outward. We were and continue to be taught to do that.

AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) helped me with doing that. Sometimes the most dangerous and toxic place to dwell is with ones own company….within ones own mind, body and soul. Especially if there has been “bad programming.”

How then to stay tethered?

Faith and looking to nature is what I’ve come to for myself.

Find the God of your understanding and raise the white flag not out of defeat but surrender. Realize you don’t have all the answers and it’s o.k! Let God be God and show you the way.

Like when I’m drawing a picture or thinking of what to draw and get “stumped.” I’ll hear my inner voice say, “Just draw!” I would say, “Have Faith!” Just be you. We are co-creators in this endeavor of life and as I’ve experienced many times now…I’m not in charge and when I think I “know” I find out I don’t know shit!

There is always more to learn in Earth school!

Dilemma – In spirit


6 Jan 2016 Nikola Tesla interview inspiration, Doodling, important info on Keshe Foundation health pens, Gravity and Wrinkles and NRA anti-gun tirade (13 Nov 2018 edit)

Hello out there – hope today finds you well. This morning has been inspirational for me.

First….another example of why I love my man LOL!  He brings home cupcakes!

5 Jan 2016 Kyle home from work with cupcakes from Cakes bakery up street Alvarado TX


*13 Nov 2018 just a note/reminder that the Map to Multiplication turned out to be the work of Joey Grether:


This mornings inspirations came from a video/audio I found a You tube.  Someone made an audio and video presentation of the interview done by a journalist with Nikola Tesla back in 1899 by a John Smith: http://www.freedomtek.org/en/texts/nikola_tesla_interview_1899.php  – if you can get past the robotic female and male voices, the powerful messages are there and extremely relevant to our times.

NIKOLA TESLA – Everything is the Light – Interview with Nikola Tesla
Gary Lite

And as I was watching it, I was intrigued to see this image from the presentation (one in the middle):


When I was in my doctors office on Monday I had to wait to be seen (no surprise but he’s worth it) and I hadn’t brought anything to keep me occupied in the meantime. The oversized fashion magazines didn’t hold my interest.  So I pulled out the little notebook I always have in my purse and started to look harder at the Map to Multiplication I had printed out and brought along to show my doctor.

After I saw the video image this morning I had to smile at my doodles.

During and after I watched the video the thoughts I’ve put to my sketchpad here came to me. I feel like what Nikola said way back in his time and what Mr. Keshe is now bringing forth are the same messages.  Mr. Keshe has credited Nikola as part of the inspiration and innovation behind his work, much of what Mr. Keshe is teaching is an echo from the past.  It seems this time people are listening and taking action to bring this to our reality.  I know I am trying!

Yesterday I finished watching the 94th Knowledge Seekers Workshop presentation and an important bit of information was shared regarding the Health Pens we’ve all been making.  Mr. Keshe stressed, and I don’t recall him mentioning this earlier but he probably did, it’s important to not hold the pen when trying to heal yourself.  I should have already known this from what I’ve learned and experienced doing the energy work Quantum Touch.  You CAN work on yourself but you usually get better results from someone else helping you.  The reason is – you are the cause of whatever is wrong to start with so chances are you aren’t going to fix it yourself!  It has to do with energy resonance.  When you try to heal yourself you are basically trying to use the same energy frequency, yours, to heal something already at your energy frequency.  Each of us has a different energy resonance field and so when someone of a higher vibration works with us, we heal or recover faster than if we try to do it ourselves.

This is VERY important because if you aren’t experiencing the results you would expect from the Health Pen – this is probably why. You would of laughed at me as I experimented placing my pen at different levels so I could reach the sore spot in my back and then knees lol!

In the gallery is a picture I drew based on what Mr. Keshe talked about regarding where the energy field from the pen goes. It’s not like a regular pen that you apply to paper and the ink goes directly to the paper.  This is plasma energy which doesn’t flow just up and down.


Everyday life is an experiment – a chance to explore my world while having fun doing it!

On a much more somber note……

Yesterday I did something toxic to me. I went on an anti-gun tirade on Facebook which like most times, amounts to one thing….me  getting pissed off and putting power into the very thing I want to change.  One thing I am going to hold on to about it is posting statistics from the http://www.gunviolencearchive.org/ website.  Most people tune-out tirades and push back more strongly with their position on issues but sometimes seeing actual facts might generate a different reaction.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org/last-72-hours – 256 reported incidents

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org/reports/mass-shooting – the first mass shooting, on the 1st day of the year….Texas.  The same state that is shamelessly promoting more and more extreme pro-gun policies.


  • Total Number of Incidents 572
  • Number of Deaths1 157
  • Number of Injuries1 348
  • Number of Children (age 0-11) Killed/Injured1 10
  • Number of Teens (age 12-17) Killed/Injured1 28
  • Mass Shooting2 1
  • Officer Involved Incident2 52
  • Home Invasion2 21
  • Defensive Use2 15
  • Accidental Shooting2 30

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 1,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries 2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org  http://www.facebook.com/gunviolencearchive

Data Validated: January 06, 2016


Gun Violence Archive (GVA) is a not for profit corporation formed in 2013 to provide free online public access to accurate information about gun-related violence in the United States. GVA will collect and check for accuracy, comprehensive information about gun-related violence in the U.S. and then post and disseminate it online.



Love, hugs and light through the wires. Go in or go out and play!!! 



Home 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org  http://www.facebook.com/gunviolencearchive

Data Validated: November 13, 2018


11 June 2015 – Wilhelm Reich and Orgonomy by Ola Raknes – it’s in the structure

Have you ever discovered someone from history and felt like you would like to meet this person?  All the time right?!  Like they could be long-lost family or something?  As I am wrapping up reading Wilhelm Reich and Orgonomy written by his friend and associate and I feel this more than ever about Wilhelm.  Ola did such a great job of giving a general overview of the highlights of his friend’s research but also an insight into the person Wilhelm was.   As I’ve been reading I get choked up, find myself thinking he’s like the Uncle I never met but would have liked to!  His journey of discovery and “being lead” to the next thing almost haphazardly has been my experience too.  I also understand his struggle with trying to share his research and discoveries and meeting resistance, slander, ignorance, fear and obstruction…in his case destruction.

http://www.amazon.com/Wilhelm-Reich-Orgonomy-Psychiatrist-Revolutionary/dp/0967967023/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1434043680&sr=1-1&keywords=Ola+Raknes&pebp=1434043723976&perid=8EA5CC908B1D4998A28C – link to preview, purchase book

Between listening to the recording I’ve linked below, watching the biography done on him called A Man’s Right to Know and now this book,  I feel the truth to his statement “it is in the structure. It is somehow in their tissues, in their blood.”  What he says can be true of those who obstructed and destroyed his work but it can be also true for those who respect him, like me.  We come from the same part of the world.  Wilhelm was born in Dobrianychi, Ukraine from research my Dad had done on his side, our people started in Vishenka, Russia.  May be there is something to “blood memory?”  Is this why Nikola Tesla has fascinated and resonated with me for so long also?  He was born in Smiljan, Croatia!

To me, my learning of Wilhelm and Nikola and their discoveries is like acquiring two halves of an equation; one half  biological and the other the mechanical elements of energy.  They were both “after” the same source.  Interestingly and ironically, BOTH of them were “shut down” as they tried to share their research and the gifts of their discoveries with the world.  Discoveries that could have made the world of today better for all instead of only few.

The television series Dracula, starring Jonathan Rhys-Meyers and his character Alexander Grayson brought to life the struggle both Wilhelm and Nikola endured with “the establishment” and how they dealt with usurpers!  Unfortunately Wilhelm and Nikola were mortals – BUT they are immortal to the likes of me and those who respect their work.  You can’t eradicate brilliance anymore than you can kill Dracula – neither can be destroyed lol!!  http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2296682/?ref_=nm_flmg_act_5 – Dracula (I had to buy this one! LOVE Jonathan!)

I highly recommend this book – I want to read more of his available publications (they tried to burn most of them!) but need to save up to acquire his other publications — they are expensive!

I did this drawing from a dream I had on 18 Jan 2006 and it correlates to Wilhelm’s discovery of Bion – it is only in the past couple of months that Wilhelm and his research have come to my full consciousness:

Drawing based on dream I had 18 Jan 2006

Drawing based on dream I had 18 Jan 2006

In the book it talks about seeing “white dots” during orgone experiments with an enclosed “Faraday” metal cage.  Well quite some time ago I noticed seeing this phenomenon when I was outside – never inside.  I always  thought it was just my eyes playing tricks on me!  May be not?!

This recording gives an insight into the suffering he endured in his quest to share with all of us:

https://youtu.be/4t5h-93bxOY  – Wilhelm Reich – Alone (10 min. home recording) (03.04.1952)

Published on Mar 23, 2012

Transcript by Mikhail Bakhtunin:

It is April 3rd, 1952, at Orgonon, Rangeley, Maine. I, Wilhelm Reich, am sitting alone in the large room in the lower house. All people are gone. In the morning and the whole day yesterday, a meeting took place of the members of the board of trustees of the foundation which carries my name. Everybody is gone now and I would like to add a few words to the recording we made yesterday and today of the disaster which struck Orgonon. There’s nobody here to listen to what I am saying. The recording apparatus is the only witness.

I hope that someone will at some time in the future listen to this recording with great respect, respect for the courage that was necessary to sustain the research work in orgone energy and life energy all through these years. I shall not go into the great strain, into the details, into the worries, the sleepless nights, the tears, the expenditures of money and effort, the patience which I had to have with all my workers and with all my students. I would like only to mention the fact that there is nobody around, there is not a single soul either here at Orgonon or down in New York who would fully and really from the bottom of his existence understand what I’m doing, and be with me in what I’m doing.

They are all very good people. They are decent, honest hard working. I trust them. They are very good friends. All of them – or most of them. But, this does not alter the fact that they all, without any exception, are against, I say, are against what I am doing. Every single one of them spites me, interferes with my effort, crosses it out, blunts out, flattens out, this one thing or another thing, whatever it may be, to diminish my effort – no, to diminish the effects of my effort. To block out the sharpness and acuity of my thoughts. To reduce to rubble and nothing – or nothingness what I have elaborated and about now thirty – thirty three or thirty four years of systematic thinking and in about forty years of human suffering, since about 1912, or rather 1910 when my mother died. There is not a single soul around who would fully understand or would not say “no” to it all.
This “no” is identical with: I don’t want it, I don’t like it, I loathe it, why is it here?, why does he have to exist?, why does he – why doesn’t he sit down and take it easy?, why did he have to start this ORANUR (nuclear radiation) experiment which gives us so much trouble? They see only the trouble. They don’t see or they don’t want to realize what it means for medicine, biology and science in general, as well as philosophy, to have this ORANUR going. To them it is mostly a bother, an inducer of sickness, suffering and at times I have the distinct feeling that they believe or they do not quite dare to admit their own thoughts, that I may have gone hayward.

This reaction of my closest friends and coworkers to the situation here is exactly the same that has harassed the human race for as much as we can say, 8.000 or 10.000 years, since patriarchy has ruled its destinies and since natural love was extinguished in the newborn infants. I shall not go into that. It is all written up in my publications. Whoever knows these publications also knows what that means. The discovery of the life energy would have been accomplished long ago, had this “I don’t want it, I fear it, I loathe it, I’ll kill it, I’ll flatten it out, I won’t let it exis- live, or exist”. If that had not been in their structures, not in their desires, not in their positive conscious wishes. They’re all descent and good people. No it is in the structure. It is somehow in their tissues, in their blood. They cannot tolerate anything that has to do with orgone energy, or life energy, or what they call God, or what is their deepest longing for love fulfillment. They cannot tolerate it and they fear it. They fear it by way of structure. Their tissues, their blood cannot stretch out, cannot take it, evades it – avoids it and loathes it.

I do not say all this to depreciate their efforts, their honour, their loves, their lives. I say it because it is true, because it turns up in every single move, in every single word, in every single opinion, in every single paper, in every single thing they did to a- to whatever ever had to do with discovery – the discovery of genitality, life, love, such people as Laurence/Lawrence, or such philosophies as Giordano Bruno’s or such great lives as Jesus Christ, ensoforth, ensoforth. It is a sad, lonely chapter of the human race.

I don’t feel that I am obligated to solve this riddle, to do anything about it. I happened to discover the life energy. I happened to induce the ORANUR experiment. I know what it means for the future development of medicine and biology, philosophy and natural science and in this awareness I am completely alone. There is no soul far and wide to talk to, to give one’s feelings – to let one’s feelings go freely, to speak like – as friends speak to each other.
This is all.