# 8 Nov 2018 In the Dark Spaces

This morning, after processing yet another act of terror in this country, I kept my heart centered with love.  This doesn’t feel like a coincidence to be happening again so soon.  It feels like yet another very public distraction from other goings on in our country.  Instead of feeling anger and all the feelings I normally have felt, I choose love.  I choose truth.  I choose justice.  I pray for the greatest most loving good in all of this.  As a friend I once knew chose as his personal campaign, choose love not hate.  (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

in the dark spaces of the unknown i will shine a light of love in Simple Gematria equals: 571

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

truth in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

justice in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

honor in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 815 (86)

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

respect in Simple Gematria equals: 86

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

american in Simple Gematria equals: 64

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

hero in Simple Gematria equals: 46

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(64 + 46 = 110)

earth angels in Simple Gematria equals: 110 (president in Simple Gematria equals: 110)

110/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

good in Simple Gematria equals: 41

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

evil in Simple Gematria equals: 48 (birth, cycle)

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 =

mental illness in Simple Gematria equals: 155

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

disease in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

impaired in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

violence in Simple Gematria equals: 85 (same value as the phrase that came to me to share but different meaning)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

life in Simple Gematria equals: 32

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

death in Simple Gematria equals: 38 (light)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

birth in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

cycle in Simple Gematria equals: 48

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

light in Simple Gematria equals: 56 (death)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

darkness in Simple Gematria equals: 91 (hero)

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

anger in Simple Gematria equals: 45

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34 (honor)

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

possessed in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

perception in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

reality in Simple Gematria equals: 90 (love)

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

freedom of choice in Simple Gematria equals: 130 (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

= 1633

76/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1633

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https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/“Is this what America is?”  “Is this what our world is?”

8 Nov 2018 Gun violence map 51fd6d40-2abd-4a58-9e24-7ac72fd4fbde

• 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

Data Validated: November 08, 2018

By saymber

# 21 Oct 2018 Drawing Meditations in Numbers and Being Real (Smooth McGroove)

(the numbers in the first drawing, this is just stuff that came to me yesterday in thinking about my life and also current events)

27 = Red 104 = Versus 40 = Blue = 171

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nothing = 87 Ever = 50 Changes = 57 = 194

(The faces, places and specific circumstances may appear different, may give us the illusion of change and the passage of time,  but the underlying stories remain the same all the way back to our beginning.  I feel like that is because much is unresolved and just keeps on rolling forward into each new generation of life.)

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cycle = 48

12/6/3 cycle

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Sun = 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

= 881

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

We found Smooth McGroove on our morning journey through You Tube and really enjoyed what we found.  He does these types of videos for video game music as well.  I enjoyed one of his latest videos talking about “being real” on You tube and in whatever you do.  A message I needed today.  Thank you Smooth McGroove!

Everytime – A Failed Kitty Romance 😿 Acapella by Smooth McGroove (Boy Pablo cover)

Published on Feb 10, 2018

After hearing this song, I decided it was actually about my cat Charl and Dahli, my parents’ cat 😺 They’ve never met, so she literally doesn’t know who he is.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve done anything besides video game music, and almost five years to the day that “My Cat Knows What You Do in the Dark” came out. Hope you guys enjoy!

Published on Mar 3, 2018

Over the years I’ve seen people starting YouTube channels for the wrong reasons and, because of that, they have a hard time. This video is me trying to explain why I think being yourself, being real, is the most important foundation to start any creative project.

I hope this video helps anyone who has hit blocks with their own channel or in their creative life. Being on YouTube these past five-plus years has taught me a few things so I thought I’d try and share these lessons as best as I could.

I really appreciate all the people who shared their stories after the previous video. I can’t respond to them all but I’ve read most of them and I’m glad that the video could help in any way!

Being comfortable in your own skin and being your own best friend isn’t easy to do.  From what I’ve seen of even those the most comfortable in who and what they are, the forces of the external world don’t allow them to be that without interruption:

being real in Simple Gematria equals: 73

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 128

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

to thine own self be true in Simple Gematria equals: 256

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

inner critic in Simple Gematria equals: 122

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

criticism in Simple Gematria equals: 103

4/2/1

being your own worst enemy in Simple Gematria equals: 325

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

finding balance in Simple Gematria equals: 101

2/1

=1108

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1