1 Nov 2018 The ghost is alive

30 June 2018 – my astral self visiting Bela Lugosi on the island

 

This morning I woke up to a couple dreams and a message.  One dreams was a brief flash of my calculator with a total appearing in it (think it was the value for alive but not certain) and the other with the shadow of a man standing next to my bed.  The message stuck in my head was, “The Ghost is Alive.”  It was strange, but I’ve gotten so I just go with it.  Write it down, draw it or whatever.

I went and looked at our calendar and I had made a connection with a spiral between All Saints Day and All Souls Day.  I asked Kyle if he did that because I didn’t remember doing it.   He said he just writes the recycling schedule on the calendar, that was me.

1 Nov 2018 Our Calendar Alvarado TX DSC_0233 – I didn’t remember doing this writing on the calendar.

the ghost is alive in Simple Gematria equals: 179 (ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 69*) (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69*)

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

ghost alive in Simple Gematria equals: 118

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

all saints day in Simple Gematria equals: 137 * (in the beginning in Simple Gematria equals: 137)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

1 Nov 2018 Jackie outdoor chalk drawing Alvarado TX DSC_0232

all souls day in Simple Gematria equals: 141 (souls in Simple Gematria equals: 86)

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

spiral in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 cycle

christianity in Simple Gematria equals: 155*

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(69 + 86 = 155)*

roman catholic in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

the holy ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 162

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

the holy spirit in Simple Gematria equals: 184

13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

philosophers stone in Simple Gematria equals: 233 (revisiting book I bought to learn about this)

8/4/2/1   (God = 26/8)

materia prima in Simple Gematria equals: 124

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 1640/74

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

I am revisiting a book I bought some time ago about this subject.  Kind of got prompted to it after we saw the movie As Above So Below the other night.  From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself is there is “something” or “potential” energy in between what is life and what is death.  It seems to be what is drawn from to manifest reality – like a fountain comes to mind.  Everything and everyone is made of energy.  What is it that powers us through this life?  The sun, food, water, the energy of other people and life forms and the energy that exists in between it all.  I call it ambient energy.

pri·ma ma·te·ri·a
[ˌprīmə məˈti(ə)rēə, ˌprēmə]

NOUN
materia prima (noun) · materia prima (noun)
  1. a formless primeval substance regarded as the original material of the universe.
    ambient energy in Simple Gematria equals: 138
    12/6/3 cycle

What is ambient energy?

Ambient energy scavenging, also called energy harvesting or power harvesting, is the process of obtaining usable energy from natural and human-made sources that surround us in the everyday environment.
whatis.techtarget.com/definition/ambient-energy-scavenging
ether in Simple Gematria equals: 56
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
e·ther
[ˈēTHər]

NOUN
  1. chemistry
    a pleasant-smelling colorless volatile liquid that is highly flammable. It is used as an anesthetic and as a solvent or intermediate in industrial processes.
    • any organic compound with a structure similar to ether, having an oxygen atom linking two alkyl or other organic groups.
      “methyl t-butyl ether”
  2. literary
    the clear sky; the upper regions of air beyond the clouds.
    “nasty gases and smoke disperse into the ether”
    synonyms:
    sky · heavens · ether · atmosphere · aerosphere · airspace
    • informal
      (the ether)
      air regarded as a medium for radio.
      “choral evensong still wafts across the ether”
  3. physics
    archaic
    a very rarefied and highly elastic substance formerly believed to permeate all space, including the interstices between the particles of matter, and to be the medium whose vibrations constituted light and other electromagnetic radiation.
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30 Oct 2018 Who am I

Hello to you.  How are you?  I had a lot of dreams last night.  Probably triggered by the movie we watched, As Above So Below (2014) film and other happenings from yesterday.  The first batch of dreams had to do with people in their personal hell dimensions trying to leave them and it being worse for them in their new realities.  They ended up going back.

In between sleeping and waking, around 7:47 am I heard a woman’s voice in and outside of my head ask, “Who am I?”  There was only Link with me in the room at the time.  I was back in Florida in between sleeping and waking from a nap, only Amber cat with me at the time and I heard a voice inside and outside my head say, “It’s Time.”  All sorts of shit hit the fan after that!  The veil is thin again and as a porous person, must make sure I am vigilant!

The past couple of days have been so beautiful so I decided to take the CD player Kyle’s brother gave us a long time ago outside.  I wanted to hear David’s voice.  Well a tiny little jumping spider decided to get on the player and on me lool.  Adorable little being!  I perceived, and this is just me, intelligence to them.  It’s happened before.  I’m the kind of person who talks to anyone who will listen to include insects, trees, flowers….they are all energy beings too.  In light of David’s Ziggy Stardust character and the Spider’s from Mar’s phase he had, thought it was pretty wonderful.  Like a visit.

The following just a tiny train of thought with interesting results to include the last picture, DSC_226, matching the number values.  I am not doing it on purpose.  I don’t do “tricks”.  When a word or thought comes to my mind, I follow where it goes and wonderful things like this happen.  I try to remain open to the possibility of the impossible being possible even if I can’t tangibly see it.  Isn’t that what Faith is supposed to be?!  

who am i in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

link in Simple Gematria equals: 46

the spiders from mars in Simple Gematria equals: 226

david bowie the rise and fall of ziggy stardust and the spiders from mars in Simple Gematria equals: 690

wonderful things in Simple Gematria equals: 195 (variation of 69)

= 1226 (A 46)/56 = Three

faith in Simple Gematria equals: 44

brain in Simple Gematria equals: 44

as above so below in Simple Gematria equals: 156 (A Three)

= 244 (64)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2870612/ – information and trailer about the film we watched last night.  Definitely a nod to Dante’s Inferno.

https://www.biblehub.com/niv/matthew/8.htm – this passage of the Bible came to mind

Jesus Calms the Storm

23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”

26He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.

27The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

you of little faith why are you so afraid in Simple Gematria equals: 418 (58/13) Matthew 8:23 (13)

29 Oct 2018 Wonderful stars on the lawn

 

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you in a positive energy space wherever and whenever you are as you read this.

My inspiration this morning comes from our Link and how he responds lately to the word “Wonderful.”  His eyes light up, his ears perk up and sometimes he starts playing enthusiastically.  It’s absolutely….well…wonderful!  It sparks in me the wonder that comes from still having a child living inside this aging suite of flesh I am wearing that is named Jackie.   So he inspired me.  I went outside and inside I heard a nudging to think about what is wonderful to me.  There are many, many wonderful things on my list but near the top has always been dewdrops shining in the sunshine.  I even made a little phrase for it.  It’s changed over the years but basically this:

“Stars on the lawn shimmer in the morning sun and then their gone.”  (number value = 641)

I would ask you to consider talking to the child within yourself and ask, “What do you think is wonderful?”  What brings you a sense of wonder in this world?  When is the last time you took time with what wonderful is for you?

 Wonderful = 118

Wonder = 79  Full = 51 = 130

Shiny = 75 Shine = 55 = 130 (A little two word song I used to sing to our Sammy…..often crying as I did because I knew he had to leave me some day.)

Three= 56  Years = 68 = 124 (The length of time Kyle and I had to wait for Link to come to us)

A Miracle = 62

= 564

Sam = 33

Link = 46

= 79 + 564 = 643

 

god is in everything and everyone in Simple Gematria equals: 338

 68/14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

28 Oct 2018 Stay in Love

28 Oct 2018 – message that came through for me today and I’m passing it along, “stay in love.”  The way it came to me was with sunshine at the end.  People close to me call me that sometimes.  A loving message to pass on in lieu of recent tragic events in our world. 

stay in love in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

powerless in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

powerful in Simple Gematria equals: 116

8/4/2/1

power in Simple Gematria equals: 77

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the power of love in Simple Gematria equals: 185

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

Power is a force exerted. Love is a power only when expressed. The power of love is potentially transformative and when expressed is kinetic; transformation occurs because of love’s movement; through the power of love, the universe is both effected and perfected. Love is infinitely available and infinitely created.

From what is coming to me through my own personal journey, it is unresolved differences that are at the root of my own personal problems.  It is when I have turned to love to face them, instead of resentment, anger, hate, fear and violence,  I have begun to find healing within myself.  I have found some semblance of inner peace.
When I look at our shared history it is riddled with unresolved differences and it is layers of this “unresolvedness” that is passed on generation to generation.
 unresolved differences in Simple Gematria equals: 229 (differences in Simple Gematria equals: 94*)
*49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
the empire never ended in Simple Gematria equals: 195  (Philip K. Dick)
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
(empire in Simple Gematria equals: 66)
transgenerational trauma in Simple Gematria equals: 267
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

Transgenerational trauma is trauma that is transferred from the first generation of trauma survivors to the second and further generations of offspring of the survivors via complex post-traumatic stress disorder mechanisms.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transgenerational_trauma
forgive yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 203
5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
forgive others in Simple Gematria equals: 167
14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

27 Oct 2018 Broken Pieces (put back together to make someone new)

broken pieces put back together to make someone new in Simple Gematria equals: 487

19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the tree of life in Simple Gematria equals: 134

8/4/2/1  (God = 26)

= 621/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle Difficult = 90/9

I tried to avoid the news but wasn’t able to avoid reading about what happened at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh.  The message from the 25th making a sense I don’t want it to make.  People shouldn’t have to worry about being shot in their place of fellowship and worship no matter what walk of faith.   We’ve now had Christians, Muslims and Jews all having to deal with this kind of violence.  The Second Amendment has made being a person of faith a difficult gamble in this country.  There is a severe imbalance at work here.   We keep putting band-aids on top of a mortal wound.

Every time this happens we decry the act.  Every time this happens we say, “This isn’t who we are” or “Our thoughts and prayers are with the victims and their families” and guess what….it happens again.  Unresolved wrongs, unresolved revenge and hatred, ancient battles that carries forward to a new generation over and over again.  The answer from our top office, “if they had only more guns or an armed guard may be no one would have been killed or died.”  They’ve tried armed guards and guess what, the guards ran and people died.  In my heart I don’t think just adding more guns to the fight is going to win it.  There is only a returning cycle to such things, no one ever truly “wins.”

This act of terrorism, not just merely a hate crime, is yet another example of why I’m reading about friends who are worried about having to leave this country because of what it’s becoming or what it has always been under the surface.

There is not much I can do to change someone’s mind, heart, thoughts or actions with such volatile matters.  I can do the things I do to include sending positive energy and love to all sides of these equations.  We are all, whether we like it or not, precious parts of a one.  We may be very dysfunctional, some even murderous but we are a family.  I will never stop believing it is possible for all of us to coexist without bloodshed in the headlines every day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/gunman-kills-11-in-pittsburgh-synagogue-massacre-investigated-as-a-hate-crime/ar-BBOY7Lw?OCID=ansmsnnews11use this link to read entire article.

Gunman kills 11 in Pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime

Deanna Paul, Avi Selk, Amy Wang, Mark Berman

A gunman killed 11 people at a Pittsburgh synagogue during Saturday-morning services in what the Anti-Defamation League called “likely the deadliest attack on the Jewish community in the history of the United States.”

Law enforcement officials said Robert Bowers — a 46-year-old man with a history of making virulently anti-Semitic statements online — was taken into custody after a gun battle with police and is expected to face federal hate crime charges.

“Justice in this case will be swift and it will be severe,” said Scott W. Brady, the U.S. Attorney for the Western District of Pennsylvania. Brady said Bowers could be charged sometime Saturday for what he called a “terrible and unspeakable act of hate.”

Authorities described a rampage at the Tree of Life synagogue, the city’s oldest Jewish congregation, that was stunning in its savagery.

“This is the most horrific crime scene I’ve seen in 22 years with the Federal Bureau of Investigation,” said Robert Allan Jones, Special Agent in Charge of the FBI’s Pittsburgh field office. “Members of the Tree of Life synagogue conducting a peaceful service in their place of worship were brutally murdered by a gunman targeting them simply because of their faith.”

gunman kills eleven in pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime in Simple Gematria equals: 790

16/8/4/2/1  or 16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/

Home 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org  http://www.facebook.com/gunviolencearchive

Data Validated: October 27, 2018

 

Interesting things here to look at in these words:

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
494 + 373 = 867
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
The account that appeared to belong to Bowers was rife with bigoted messaging. His biography on the site read “jews are the children of satan” and his background photo was a radar gun reading “1488,” a popular white supremacist symbol.
1488
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
Some of what we use to divide us and is often used as justification for much of the above:
religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89
17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  (494)
politics in Simple Gematria equals: 103
4/2/1
the media in Simple Gematria equals: 65
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
= 257 (77 – same #value as Christ)
14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
(there are many other labels we use to separate ourselves from each other that I didn’t include here.  They are just as volatile in nature as these and it makes me so sad.) 

26 Oct 2018 All Roads Lead to Rome

Hello to you.  How are you?!  I don’t know what the message is about but it’s what came to me when I was out drawing for a bit yesterday.  May it will make sense to someone else.  The sun peeked out as I had hoped!  Felt great.  The sky is clear this morning and it’s nice and cool.

We have been watching the reboot of the Star Trek films.  We watched Star Trek Into Darkness last night – awesome film.  In this reboot I was introduced to some talented actors for the first time.  This film was the first time I noticed Benedict Cumberbatch and took an interest in future work he was doing.  Sadly there are now ghosts walking within these films like Leonard Nimoy and Anton Yelchin  for example.  Both of their deaths were hard for me.  Like some hauntings, they are recordings that to come to life when we watch and rewatch their films.

Tonight we finally get to see the second season of Castlevania on Netflix.  One of the better works of animated film we’ve watched as of late.

I hope that wherever and whenever….however….this finds you that you are as well as you can be.  I know it’s hard some days to be authentic, to be yourself, to find anything that remotely resembles love or kindness in this world but it is there.

I know for myself that I have had to lower my expectations a bit to find any semblance of the life I want for myself.  I have had to accept isolation and  loneliness as my normal.  There are choices I could have made that would…could…. make my life now completely different.  Namely doing the things that I do for a profit.

I have talked about this subject many times before……….it’s just not how our world works so this message doesn’t resonate with fellow artists in whatever genre that are trying to survive in this world and still do what they enjoy.    I have other sources of income from when I worked and Kyle’s income when he is able to work.  Most people don’t have anything other than what they do to sustain them and their families.

A lot of people are doing what they think they should do for careers to make the most money and not what they have been called to do.   They are miserable people that spread a wave of their internal misery everywhere they go.  They have been unwilling or unable to heed the calling to a work that fulfills them and fulfills why they were born in the first place.   From what I’ve seen, there is a lot of systemic obstruction in place that keeps people from reaching their full potential.  It’s possible, but extremely difficult or comes at a great cost to a person as an individual to fight the system to be who they are meant to be.  To “heed the call.”

What I have been called to do in this life doesn’t seem to involve making a lot of money.

I have learned for myself is that most times I have done things for money things have been tainted by the money.  I would say the barter system or someone giving me money for supplies to make something for them has been the closet thing that has worked for me.  There is no tangible profit in this.  The profit is an exchange of energy.  Someone helping me do what I enjoy doing without expectation and their gratitude being an energetic currency that “pays” me in a way money cannot.

I am happiest making something, having someone appreciate it and “speak to them” and then giving it to them because inside I realize I didn’t make it for me, I made it for them and just didn’t know it at the time.  There is no tangible profit in this.

What are you willing to give to the world to get what you want?  Some people give everything…too much….and are left with an empty shell.  It’s important to leave some of you for yourself.  It’s important to find your balance.

 

https://saymber.com/2015/05/14/14-may-2015-man-for-himself-by-erich-fromm-and-message-for-today-related-to-book/

http://www.amazon.com/Man-Himself-Inquiry-Psychology-Ethics/dp/0805014039/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1431612723&sr=1-1&keywords=Man+for+Himself+Erich+Fromm – if you are curious to read this masterpiece for yourself

Some of the language/verbage is I want to say complicated but the truths rise up at you like a brilliant piece of sea glass revealed by the ocean tide.  Here is an excerpt that really illustrates my message today :  Pages 96 and 97

(b) Productive Love and Thinking

Human existence is characterized by the fact that man is alone and separated from the world; not being able to stand the separation, he is impelled to seek for relatedness and oneness.  There are many ways in which he can realize this need, but only one in which he, as a unique entity, remains intact; only one in which his own powers unfold in the very process of being related.  It is the paradox of human existence that man must simultaneously seek closeness and for independence; for oneness with others at the same time for the preservation of his uniqueness and particularity.  As we have shown, the answer to this paradox-and to the moral problem of man- is productiveness (In Chapter 3 Human Nature and Character, Part 2 Personality, he goes into great detail what productiveness means.)

One can be productively related to the world by acting and by comprehending.  Man produces things, and in the process of creation he exercises his powers over matter.  Man comprehends the world, mentally and emotionally, through love and through reason.  His power of reason enables him to penetrate through the surface and to grasp the essence of his object by getting into active relation with it.  His power of love enables him to break through the wall which separates him from another person and to comprehend him.  Although love and reason are only different forms of comprehending the world and although neither is possible without the other, they are expressions of different powers, that of emotion and that of thinking, and hence must be discussed separately.

Who was Erich Fromm?  http://www.erichfromm.net/ – link to his main website if your interest in learning more about him has spiked! 🙂

 

*Dreamt last night about how people can see like bats – pictures and images being in the brain instead of the eyes

25 Oct 2018 Blind Creator (Blade Runner 2049)

Yesterday it rained most of the day and I wasn’t feeling very well.  A good stay inside sort of day.  This morning we’ve had a slight break in things.  I got out back to visit our adorable neighbor Buster (a tiny Yorkie) through our shared fence.  He has peeked at me through the fence as long as we’ve known each other lol.  Now he has a gap wide enough so I can give him some attention and tell him how clever a boy he is.   He reminds me of Kyle’s parents much larger Yorkie and my Aunts little guy Tex.  Such sweet dogs!  His “Dad” is a very good neighbor.

23 Oct 2018 neighbor Yorkie Buster peeking through fence Alvarado TX DSC_0184

After time with Mr. Buster,  I had a thought I’ve had many times when I am listening to music and close my eyes, run my  hands through the air.  The thought was triggered by finally seeing Blade Runner 2049 the other night.  Kyle bought it along with Covenant (Aliens) and Beyond (Star Trek) at the Game XChange in Burleson (http://www.gogamexchange.com/stores/texas/burleson/).   I’ll be honest, we were disappointed with both Covenant and Blade Runner.  The original films are so ingrained into us that anything else just doesn’t have the same impact.  Blade Runner is my favorite science fiction film, one of Ridley Scott’s finest films in my opinion.  Kyle would say the original Alien is the best lol.  They are both really good lets just say!

There is a character, Niander Wallace  (Jared Leto) that as soon as I saw him made me think of Jesus.  He had the look of the Christ that has been painted and put before us through time.  Niander had to use technology as his eyes.  For those of you that have seen the movie, you know this character is a complete polar opposite to the Jesus of the Bible.   Niander was a Christ devoid of feeling or care for his creation.  They were a product.  They were expendable….a means to an end.

What has come to me many times is that what we see with our eyes is often a trick and deception.  Not quite a magic trick but close.  We focus on what we want to see and that is what we see even if their is tangible evidence that what we are seeing isn’t really there.  We just want it to be.   I think we are all guilty of this in one way or another be it politics, religion, sports, movies, music or other platforms where human beings are placed on the pedestal meant for God.

From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself, God doesn’t need eyes or a body to see….that’s what all of creation is for.   How else can God (energy) be everywhere at once?  This is why no one truly gets away with anything in the end.   You don’t have to have eyes (of your own) to “see” when you are God.

blind creator in Simple Gematria equals: 121 (God = 26/8)

(blind = 41  creator = 80)

4/2/1

god in the clouds in Simple Gematria equals: 156

(God = 26 in = 23  the = 33 = clouds = 74)

12/6/3 cycle

disillusionment in Simple Gematria equals: 195

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

unrealistic expectations are the seeds of all resentment in Simple Gematria equals: 570

12/6/3 cycle

false gods in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/8/4/2/1

man pretending to be god in Simple Gematria equals: 208

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

omnipotent in Simple Gematria equals: 141

6/3 cycle

you dont have to have eyes to see in Simple Gematria equals: 339 (49)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 A Wrinkle In Time DSC_0170

Interesting excerpt from book I’ve been reading:

Page 160 A Wrinkle In Time – “Like and equal are two completely different things”

Like = 37

Equal = 56

like and equal are two completely different things in Simple Gematria equals: 484

16/8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 Drawings and Destiny

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well.  Kyle went to Half Price Books yesterday and found me a copy of A Wrinkle in Time and so far so good.  There was a dying ant in it when I opened it, that was weird lol!  With all the rains we’ve been having a lot of ant activity again here at the house and around the area.  Just weird one would be in a book I was about to read.

Anyhew, pages 67 and 68 of the book correlated with some words in the numbers stuff I had done on the 10th of October.   When I realized this, I had one of those moments where I thought, “This is an example of destiny.  I was supposed to see the movie.  I was supposed to  read this book.  I am where I am supposed to be right now.”  It’s a very healing, positive feeling to have a moment like that.

A Wrinkle in Time Madeleine L’Engle

23 Oct 2018 A Wrinkle In Time DSC_0170

“Sing unto the Lord a new song, and his praise from the end of the earth, ye that go down to the sea, and all that is therein; the isles, and the inhabitants thereof.  Let the wilderness and the cities thereof lift their voice; let the inhabitants of the rock sing, let them shout from the top of the mountains.  Let them give glory unto the Lord!”

(sing unto the lord a new song and his praise from the end of the earth ye that go down to the sea and all that is therein the isles and the inhabitants thereof let the wilderness and the cities thereof lift their voice let the inhabitants of the rock sing let them shout from the top of the mountains let them give glory unto the lord in Simple Gematria equals: 3156 (96)*

sing a new song unto the lord in Simple Gematria equals: 299  (this phrase that came to me on the 10th)

destiny in Simple Gematria equals: 96*

Each day is filled with moments that slip through our fingers unexplored and then a moment will come and for the first time in a long time you feel you are home.

(each day is filled with moments that slip through our fingers unexplored and then a moment will come and for the first time in a long time you feel you are home in Simple Gematria equals: 1533 (66)

happy in Simple Gematria equals: 66

 

 

21 Oct 2018 Drawing Meditations in Numbers and Being Real (Smooth McGroove)

(the numbers in the first drawing, this is just stuff that came to me yesterday in thinking about my life and also current events)

27 = Red 104 = Versus 40 = Blue = 171

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nothing = 87 Ever = 50 Changes = 57 = 194

(The faces, places and specific circumstances may appear different, may give us the illusion of change and the passage of time,  but the underlying stories remain the same all the way back to our beginning.  I feel like that is because much is unresolved and just keeps on rolling forward into each new generation of life.)

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cycle = 48

12/6/3 cycle

Dad = 414

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Sun = 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

= 881

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

We found Smooth McGroove on our morning journey through You Tube and really enjoyed what we found.  He does these types of videos for video game music as well.  I enjoyed one of his latest videos talking about “being real” on You tube and in whatever you do.  A message I needed today.  Thank you Smooth McGroove!

Everytime – A Failed Kitty Romance 😿 Acapella by Smooth McGroove (Boy Pablo cover)

Published on Feb 10, 2018

After hearing this song, I decided it was actually about my cat Charl and Dahli, my parents’ cat 😺 They’ve never met, so she literally doesn’t know who he is.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve done anything besides video game music, and almost five years to the day that “My Cat Knows What You Do in the Dark” came out. Hope you guys enjoy!

Being real on YouTube

Published on Mar 3, 2018

Over the years I’ve seen people starting YouTube channels for the wrong reasons and, because of that, they have a hard time. This video is me trying to explain why I think being yourself, being real, is the most important foundation to start any creative project.

I hope this video helps anyone who has hit blocks with their own channel or in their creative life. Being on YouTube these past five-plus years has taught me a few things so I thought I’d try and share these lessons as best as I could.

I really appreciate all the people who shared their stories after the previous video. I can’t respond to them all but I’ve read most of them and I’m glad that the video could help in any way!

Being comfortable in your own skin and being your own best friend isn’t easy to do.  From what I’ve seen of even those the most comfortable in who and what they are, the forces of the external world don’t allow them to be that without interruption:

being real in Simple Gematria equals: 73

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 128

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

to thine own self be true in Simple Gematria equals: 256

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

inner critic in Simple Gematria equals: 122

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

criticism in Simple Gematria equals: 103

4/2/1

being your own worst enemy in Simple Gematria equals: 325

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

finding balance in Simple Gematria equals: 101

2/1

=1108

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

20 Oct 2018 A Salmon

https://www.gematrix.org/

turn it out in Simple Gematria equals: 158

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

turn it in in Simple Gematria equals: 125

8/4/2/1

turn away in Simple Gematria equals: 123

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

fight in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

flight in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

apathy in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 cycle

abandoned in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

rebellion in Simple Gematria equals: 92

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 859  (13 and 9 are numbers that come up a lot for me personally)

22/4/2/1 or 22 divided by 2 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

What the numbers come to in this line of thinking describes me well.  I often feel like one of those salmon swimming upstream in this world.

 

Source Internet: Sometimes I feel like the salmon in this picture.

salmon swimming upstream in Simple Gematria equals: 294

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

 

Smoke Signals (12/12) Movie CLIP – To Forgive Our Fathers (1998) HD   – excerpt from one of my favorite movies of all time.  I’ve shared this before but felt it was time again to revisit this wisdom.  I love my Dad so much but I know some day he will have to move on to his next great adventure without me.  I am coming to terms these days with how I will manage to be here without him.  Will I be able to forgive him for leaving me here. 

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120321/quotes

Thomas Builds-the-Fire: How do we forgive our fathers? Maybe in a dream. Do we forgive our fathers for leaving us too often, or forever, when we were little? Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage, or making us nervous because there never seemed to be any rage there at all? Do we forgive our fathers for marrying, or not marrying, our mothers? Or divorcing, or not divorcing, our mothers? And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness? Shall we forgive them for pushing, or leaning? For shutting doors or speaking through walls? For never speaking, or never being silent? Do we forgive our fathers in our age, or in theirs? Or in their deaths, saying it to them or not saying it. If we forgive our fathers, what is left?

Source is internet: This says it all for me about the landscape of this world today.