16 Nov 2018 Mother Earth

16 Nov 2018 Jackie painting outside with fabric paint Alvarado TX DSC_0257 – used up the last of the fabric paint I had. An abstract interpretation of the mother we all share….earth.

What follows here may or may not make any sense to you.  It’s just come to me to put this together and put it out into the blogosphere and hope it helps somehow.  What has been coming to me with these numbers and words is we are tasking nature to a breaking point and cannot delay or procrastinate change much longer.  The earth doesn’t understand delays and or excuses we might make to put off what is hard but must be done.

witch mother in Simple Gematria equals: 142 *52  – phrase that came up in my meditations recently and I was surprised it had the same value as earth only because I had never put the two together. 

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52*

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

soul in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

spirit of the earth in Simple Gematria equals: 197

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 646

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

*This phrase that came to me thinking about our relationship with the earth.  We have become estranged from whom all of what we are and shall ever be – the earth. 

who suffers the works of man in Simple Gematria equals: 308

who suffers the works of women in Simple Gematria equals: 350

those who cannot speak in Simple Gematria equals: 232

the language of the trees in Simple Gematria equals: 222

all men women and their children in Simple Gematria equals: 279

= 1391/491/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

http://www.thefinertimes.com/Middle-Ages/witches-and-witchcraft-in-the-middle-ages.html – interesting article about the history of what happened to people who were declared to be witches (wise women).

wise women in Simple Gematria equals: 126 (god in Simple Gematria equals: 26)

midwife in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

=195/69/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

wise wom·an
[wīz ˈwo͝omən]

NOUN
wise women (plural noun)
  1. a woman considered to be knowledgeable in matters such as herbal healing, magic charms, or other traditional lore.
    synonyms:
    prophet · prophetess · seer · sibyl · augur · wise man · wise woman · sage · oracle · prognosticator · prophesier · forecaster of the future · diviner · fortune teller · ·

    [more]
    crystal gazer · clairvoyant · psychic · spiritualist · medium · palmist · palm reader · spaeman · spaewife · haruspex · vaticinator · oracler
    mother in Simple Gematria equals: 79
    father in Simple Gematria equals: 58
    brother in Simple Gematria equals: 86
    sister in Simple Gematria equals: 90
    stepmother in Simple Gematria equals: 139
    stepfather in Simple Gematria equals: 118
    children in Simple Gematria equals: 73
    grandfather in Simple Gematria equals: 102
    grandmother in Simple Gematria equals: 123
    aunt in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    uncle in Simple Gematria equals: 55
    relative in Simple Gematria equals: 92
    family in Simple Gematria equals: 66
    = 1137/12/6/3 cycle
    friend in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    neighbor in Simple Gematria equals: 78
    = 134/44/8/4/2/1
    city in Simple Gematria equals: 57
    state in Simple Gematria equals: 65
    country in Simple Gematria equals: 116
    home in Simple Gematria equals: 41
    house in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    world in Simple Gematria equals: 72
    planet in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    room in Simple Gematria equals: 61
    = 548/98/17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    646 + 1391 + 195 + 1137 + 134 + 548 = 4051/91/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    battle of the sexes in Simple Gematria equals: 186
    patriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 94
    matriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 91
    = 371/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

    4051 + 371 = 4422/84/12/6/3 cycle

we are using up all the space to run away from arguments in Simple Gematria equals: 569

move away in Simple Gematria equals: 105

urban sprawl in Simple Gematria equals: 145

= 819/99/18/9 cycle (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9)

(thirteen in Simple Gematria equals: 99)

    4422 + 819 = 5241/75/12/6/3 cycle

cooperation in Simple Gematria equals: 131 (mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131)

  5241 + 131 = 5372/89/17/8/4/2/1  or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

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9 Nov 2018 Little Pieces

Phrase that came to me as I was thinking about posting today or not:

mind the little pieces for put together they are a planet in Simple Gematria equals: 553

9 Nov 2018 Jackie bead aluminum metal and hot glue window art Alvarado TX DSC_0248

This is a picture of a sun catcher I made today.  It was something else, I took it apart and made something new with the parts.  It’s not beautiful or fancy but it made me smile when I was done with it.  I like to fix broken things and repurpose things that were one thing to make something different.  This is what nature does with us through the cycles of life I think.

repurpose in Simple Gematria equals: 133

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

repair in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

fix in Simple Gematria equals: 39

12/3 cycle or 12/6/3 cycle  (human)

replace in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

borrow in Simple Gematria equals: 91

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

brand new in Simple Gematria equals: 81

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

recycle in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

= 542

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

it all goes back to the same place in Simple Gematria equals: 260*

8/4/2/1

*If you stop to think about it, no matter where we throw all of our various forms of personal and industrial wastes, it all ends up in the same place and affects us all.

energy in Simple Gematria equals: 74 *various forms but all animated beings need energy to operate

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

air in Simple Gematria equals: 28

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

water in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

food in Simple Gematria equals: 40

4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/3 cycle or 12/6/3 cycle (fix)

insect in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

plant in Simple Gematria equals: 63

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

animal in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 501

6/3 cycle

553 + 542 + 260 + 501 = 1856

20/2/1 or 20/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1856

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nikola_Tesla – looked up 1856 because it looked like a year to me.  Turns out it was the year Nikola was born.  What’s interesting is I was looking into a couple things about him just yesterday!

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Serbian American inventor
Nikola Tesla
Photograph of Nikola Tesla, a slender, moustachioed man with a thin face and pointed chin.

Nikola Tesla, c. 1896
Born (1856-07-10)10 July 1856
Smiljan, Austrian Empire (modern-day Croatia)
Died 7 January 1943(1943-01-07) (aged 86)
New York City, United States
Resting place Nikola Tesla Museum, Belgrade, Serbia
Citizenship Austrian (1856–1891)
American (1891–1943)
Education Graz University of Technology (abandoned)
Engineering career
Discipline Electrical engineering,
Mechanical engineering
Projects Alternating current,
high-voltage, high-frequency power experiments
Significant design Tesla Tower/World Wireless System/Wireless power transfer
Tesla Experimental Station
Tesla’s Egg of Columbus
Tesla coil/Resonant inductive coupling
Tesla turbine
Tesla valve
Tesla’s oscillator
Polyphase system
AC motor/Induction motor
Rotating magnetic field
Radio control
Plasma globe
Plasma lamp
Carbon button lamp
Teleforce/Death ray
Telegeodynamics
Teleoperation
Torpedo [1]
Vacuum variable capacitor
Violet ray
VTOL
Awards
Signature
Nikola Tesla signature 1900.svg

Nikola Tesla (/ˈtɛslə/;[2] Serbo-Croatian: [nǐkola têsla]; Serbian Cyrillic: Никола Тесла; 10 July 1856 – 7 January 1943) was a Serbian-American[3][4][5] inventor, electrical engineer, mechanical engineer, and futurist who is best known for his contributions to the design of the modern alternating current (AC) electricity supply system.[6]

Born and raised in the Austrian Empire, Tesla received an advanced education in engineering and physics in the 1870s and gained practical experience in the early 1880s working in telephony and at Continental Edison in the new electric power industry. He emigrated to the United States in 1884, where he would become a naturalized citizen. He worked for a short time at the Edison Machine Works in New York City before he struck out on his own. With the help of partners to finance and market his ideas, Tesla set up laboratories and companies in New York to develop a range of electrical and mechanical devices. His alternating current (AC) induction motor and related polyphase AC patents, licensed by Westinghouse Electric in 1888, earned him a considerable amount of money and became the cornerstone of the polyphase system which that company would eventually market.

8 Nov 2018 In the Dark Spaces

This morning, after processing yet another act of terror in this country, I kept my heart centered with love.  This doesn’t feel like a coincidence to be happening again so soon.  It feels like yet another very public distraction from other goings on in our country.  Instead of feeling anger and all the feelings I normally have felt, I choose love.  I choose truth.  I choose justice.  I pray for the greatest most loving good in all of this.  As a friend I once knew chose as his personal campaign, choose love not hate.  (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

 

in the dark spaces of the unknown i will shine a light of love in Simple Gematria equals: 571

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

truth in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

justice in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

honor in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 815 (86)

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

respect in Simple Gematria equals: 86

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

american in Simple Gematria equals: 64

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

hero in Simple Gematria equals: 46

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(64 + 46 = 110)

earth angels in Simple Gematria equals: 110 (president in Simple Gematria equals: 110)

110/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

good in Simple Gematria equals: 41

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

evil in Simple Gematria equals: 48 (birth, cycle)

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 =

mental illness in Simple Gematria equals: 155

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

disease in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

impaired in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

violence in Simple Gematria equals: 85 (same value as the phrase that came to me to share but different meaning)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

life in Simple Gematria equals: 32

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

death in Simple Gematria equals: 38 (light)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

birth in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

cycle in Simple Gematria equals: 48

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

light in Simple Gematria equals: 56 (death)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

darkness in Simple Gematria equals: 91 (hero)

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

anger in Simple Gematria equals: 45

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34 (honor)

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

possessed in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

perception in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

reality in Simple Gematria equals: 90 (love)

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

freedom of choice in Simple Gematria equals: 130 (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

= 1633

76/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1633

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https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/“Is this what America is?”  “Is this what our world is?”

8 Nov 2018 Gun violence map 51fd6d40-2abd-4a58-9e24-7ac72fd4fbde

1 Nov 2018 The ghost is alive

30 June 2018 – my astral self visiting Bela Lugosi on the island

 

This morning I woke up to a couple dreams and a message.  One dreams was a brief flash of my calculator with a total appearing in it (think it was the value for alive but not certain) and the other with the shadow of a man standing next to my bed.  The message stuck in my head was, “The Ghost is Alive.”  It was strange, but I’ve gotten so I just go with it.  Write it down, draw it or whatever.

I went and looked at our calendar and I had made a connection with a spiral between All Saints Day and All Souls Day.  I asked Kyle if he did that because I didn’t remember doing it.   He said he just writes the recycling schedule on the calendar, that was me.

1 Nov 2018 Our Calendar Alvarado TX DSC_0233 – I didn’t remember doing this writing on the calendar.

the ghost is alive in Simple Gematria equals: 179 (ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 69*) (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69*)

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

ghost alive in Simple Gematria equals: 118

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

all saints day in Simple Gematria equals: 137 * (in the beginning in Simple Gematria equals: 137)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

1 Nov 2018 Jackie outdoor chalk drawing Alvarado TX DSC_0232

all souls day in Simple Gematria equals: 141 (souls in Simple Gematria equals: 86)

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

spiral in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 cycle

christianity in Simple Gematria equals: 155*

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(69 + 86 = 155)*

roman catholic in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

the holy ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 162

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

the holy spirit in Simple Gematria equals: 184

13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

philosophers stone in Simple Gematria equals: 233 (revisiting book I bought to learn about this)

8/4/2/1   (God = 26/8)

materia prima in Simple Gematria equals: 124

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 1640/74

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

I am revisiting a book I bought some time ago about this subject.  Kind of got prompted to it after we saw the movie As Above So Below the other night.  From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself is there is “something” or “potential” energy in between what is life and what is death.  It seems to be what is drawn from to manifest reality – like a fountain comes to mind.  Everything and everyone is made of energy.  What is it that powers us through this life?  The sun, food, water, the energy of other people and life forms and the energy that exists in between it all.  I call it ambient energy.

pri·ma ma·te·ri·a
[ˌprīmə məˈti(ə)rēə, ˌprēmə]

NOUN
materia prima (noun) · materia prima (noun)
  1. a formless primeval substance regarded as the original material of the universe.
    ambient energy in Simple Gematria equals: 138
    12/6/3 cycle

What is ambient energy?

Ambient energy scavenging, also called energy harvesting or power harvesting, is the process of obtaining usable energy from natural and human-made sources that surround us in the everyday environment.
whatis.techtarget.com/definition/ambient-energy-scavenging
ether in Simple Gematria equals: 56
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
e·ther
[ˈēTHər]

NOUN
  1. chemistry
    a pleasant-smelling colorless volatile liquid that is highly flammable. It is used as an anesthetic and as a solvent or intermediate in industrial processes.
    • any organic compound with a structure similar to ether, having an oxygen atom linking two alkyl or other organic groups.
      “methyl t-butyl ether”
  2. literary
    the clear sky; the upper regions of air beyond the clouds.
    “nasty gases and smoke disperse into the ether”
    synonyms:
    sky · heavens · ether · atmosphere · aerosphere · airspace
    • informal
      (the ether)
      air regarded as a medium for radio.
      “choral evensong still wafts across the ether”
  3. physics
    archaic
    a very rarefied and highly elastic substance formerly believed to permeate all space, including the interstices between the particles of matter, and to be the medium whose vibrations constituted light and other electromagnetic radiation.

29 Oct 2018 Wonderful stars on the lawn

 

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you in a positive energy space wherever and whenever you are as you read this.

My inspiration this morning comes from our Link and how he responds lately to the word “Wonderful.”  His eyes light up, his ears perk up and sometimes he starts playing enthusiastically.  It’s absolutely….well…wonderful!  It sparks in me the wonder that comes from still having a child living inside this aging suite of flesh I am wearing that is named Jackie.   So he inspired me.  I went outside and inside I heard a nudging to think about what is wonderful to me.  There are many, many wonderful things on my list but near the top has always been dewdrops shining in the sunshine.  I even made a little phrase for it.  It’s changed over the years but basically this:

“Stars on the lawn shimmer in the morning sun and then their gone.”  (number value = 641)

I would ask you to consider talking to the child within yourself and ask, “What do you think is wonderful?”  What brings you a sense of wonder in this world?  When is the last time you took time with what wonderful is for you?

 Wonderful = 118

Wonder = 79  Full = 51 = 130

Shiny = 75 Shine = 55 = 130 (A little two word song I used to sing to our Sammy…..often crying as I did because I knew he had to leave me some day.)

Three= 56  Years = 68 = 124 (The length of time Kyle and I had to wait for Link to come to us)

A Miracle = 62

= 564

Sam = 33

Link = 46

= 79 + 564 = 643

 

god is in everything and everyone in Simple Gematria equals: 338

 68/14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

28 Oct 2018 Stay in Love

28 Oct 2018 – message that came through for me today and I’m passing it along, “stay in love.”  The way it came to me was with sunshine at the end.  People close to me call me that sometimes.  A loving message to pass on in lieu of recent tragic events in our world. 

stay in love in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

powerless in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

powerful in Simple Gematria equals: 116

8/4/2/1

power in Simple Gematria equals: 77

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the power of love in Simple Gematria equals: 185

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

Power is a force exerted. Love is a power only when expressed. The power of love is potentially transformative and when expressed is kinetic; transformation occurs because of love’s movement; through the power of love, the universe is both effected and perfected. Love is infinitely available and infinitely created.

From what is coming to me through my own personal journey, it is unresolved differences that are at the root of my own personal problems.  It is when I have turned to love to face them, instead of resentment, anger, hate, fear and violence,  I have begun to find healing within myself.  I have found some semblance of inner peace.
When I look at our shared history it is riddled with unresolved differences and it is layers of this “unresolvedness” that is passed on generation to generation.
 unresolved differences in Simple Gematria equals: 229 (differences in Simple Gematria equals: 94*)
*49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
the empire never ended in Simple Gematria equals: 195  (Philip K. Dick)
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
(empire in Simple Gematria equals: 66)
transgenerational trauma in Simple Gematria equals: 267
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

Transgenerational trauma is trauma that is transferred from the first generation of trauma survivors to the second and further generations of offspring of the survivors via complex post-traumatic stress disorder mechanisms.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transgenerational_trauma
forgive yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 203
5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
forgive others in Simple Gematria equals: 167
14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

27 Oct 2018 Broken Pieces (put back together to make someone new)

broken pieces put back together to make someone new in Simple Gematria equals: 487

19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the tree of life in Simple Gematria equals: 134

8/4/2/1  (God = 26)

= 621/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle Difficult = 90/9

I tried to avoid the news but wasn’t able to avoid reading about what happened at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh.  The message from the 25th making a sense I don’t want it to make.  People shouldn’t have to worry about being shot in their place of fellowship and worship no matter what walk of faith.   We’ve now had Christians, Muslims and Jews all having to deal with this kind of violence.  The Second Amendment has made being a person of faith a difficult gamble in this country.  There is a severe imbalance at work here.   We keep putting band-aids on top of a mortal wound.

Every time this happens we decry the act.  Every time this happens we say, “This isn’t who we are” or “Our thoughts and prayers are with the victims and their families” and guess what….it happens again.  Unresolved wrongs, unresolved revenge and hatred, ancient battles that carries forward to a new generation over and over again.  The answer from our top office, “if they had only more guns or an armed guard may be no one would have been killed or died.”  They’ve tried armed guards and guess what, the guards ran and people died.  In my heart I don’t think just adding more guns to the fight is going to win it.  There is only a returning cycle to such things, no one ever truly “wins.”

This act of terrorism, not just merely a hate crime, is yet another example of why I’m reading about friends who are worried about having to leave this country because of what it’s becoming or what it has always been under the surface.

There is not much I can do to change someone’s mind, heart, thoughts or actions with such volatile matters.  I can do the things I do to include sending positive energy and love to all sides of these equations.  We are all, whether we like it or not, precious parts of a one.  We may be very dysfunctional, some even murderous but we are a family.  I will never stop believing it is possible for all of us to coexist without bloodshed in the headlines every day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/gunman-kills-11-in-pittsburgh-synagogue-massacre-investigated-as-a-hate-crime/ar-BBOY7Lw?OCID=ansmsnnews11use this link to read entire article.

Gunman kills 11 in Pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime

Deanna Paul, Avi Selk, Amy Wang, Mark Berman

A gunman killed 11 people at a Pittsburgh synagogue during Saturday-morning services in what the Anti-Defamation League called “likely the deadliest attack on the Jewish community in the history of the United States.”

Law enforcement officials said Robert Bowers — a 46-year-old man with a history of making virulently anti-Semitic statements online — was taken into custody after a gun battle with police and is expected to face federal hate crime charges.

“Justice in this case will be swift and it will be severe,” said Scott W. Brady, the U.S. Attorney for the Western District of Pennsylvania. Brady said Bowers could be charged sometime Saturday for what he called a “terrible and unspeakable act of hate.”

Authorities described a rampage at the Tree of Life synagogue, the city’s oldest Jewish congregation, that was stunning in its savagery.

“This is the most horrific crime scene I’ve seen in 22 years with the Federal Bureau of Investigation,” said Robert Allan Jones, Special Agent in Charge of the FBI’s Pittsburgh field office. “Members of the Tree of Life synagogue conducting a peaceful service in their place of worship were brutally murdered by a gunman targeting them simply because of their faith.”

gunman kills eleven in pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime in Simple Gematria equals: 790

16/8/4/2/1  or 16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/

Home 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org  http://www.facebook.com/gunviolencearchive

Data Validated: October 27, 2018

 

Interesting things here to look at in these words:

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
494 + 373 = 867
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
The account that appeared to belong to Bowers was rife with bigoted messaging. His biography on the site read “jews are the children of satan” and his background photo was a radar gun reading “1488,” a popular white supremacist symbol.
1488
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
Some of what we use to divide us and is often used as justification for much of the above:
religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89
17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  (494)
politics in Simple Gematria equals: 103
4/2/1
the media in Simple Gematria equals: 65
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
= 257 (77 – same #value as Christ)
14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
(there are many other labels we use to separate ourselves from each other that I didn’t include here.  They are just as volatile in nature as these and it makes me so sad.) 

26 Oct 2018 All Roads Lead to Rome

Hello to you.  How are you?!  I don’t know what the message is about but it’s what came to me when I was out drawing for a bit yesterday.  May it will make sense to someone else.  The sun peeked out as I had hoped!  Felt great.  The sky is clear this morning and it’s nice and cool.

We have been watching the reboot of the Star Trek films.  We watched Star Trek Into Darkness last night – awesome film.  In this reboot I was introduced to some talented actors for the first time.  This film was the first time I noticed Benedict Cumberbatch and took an interest in future work he was doing.  Sadly there are now ghosts walking within these films like Leonard Nimoy and Anton Yelchin  for example.  Both of their deaths were hard for me.  Like some hauntings, they are recordings that to come to life when we watch and rewatch their films.

Tonight we finally get to see the second season of Castlevania on Netflix.  One of the better works of animated film we’ve watched as of late.

I hope that wherever and whenever….however….this finds you that you are as well as you can be.  I know it’s hard some days to be authentic, to be yourself, to find anything that remotely resembles love or kindness in this world but it is there.

I know for myself that I have had to lower my expectations a bit to find any semblance of the life I want for myself.  I have had to accept isolation and  loneliness as my normal.  There are choices I could have made that would…could…. make my life now completely different.  Namely doing the things that I do for a profit.

I have talked about this subject many times before……….it’s just not how our world works so this message doesn’t resonate with fellow artists in whatever genre that are trying to survive in this world and still do what they enjoy.    I have other sources of income from when I worked and Kyle’s income when he is able to work.  Most people don’t have anything other than what they do to sustain them and their families.

A lot of people are doing what they think they should do for careers to make the most money and not what they have been called to do.   They are miserable people that spread a wave of their internal misery everywhere they go.  They have been unwilling or unable to heed the calling to a work that fulfills them and fulfills why they were born in the first place.   From what I’ve seen, there is a lot of systemic obstruction in place that keeps people from reaching their full potential.  It’s possible, but extremely difficult or comes at a great cost to a person as an individual to fight the system to be who they are meant to be.  To “heed the call.”

What I have been called to do in this life doesn’t seem to involve making a lot of money.

I have learned for myself is that most times I have done things for money things have been tainted by the money.  I would say the barter system or someone giving me money for supplies to make something for them has been the closet thing that has worked for me.  There is no tangible profit in this.  The profit is an exchange of energy.  Someone helping me do what I enjoy doing without expectation and their gratitude being an energetic currency that “pays” me in a way money cannot.

I am happiest making something, having someone appreciate it and “speak to them” and then giving it to them because inside I realize I didn’t make it for me, I made it for them and just didn’t know it at the time.  There is no tangible profit in this.

What are you willing to give to the world to get what you want?  Some people give everything…too much….and are left with an empty shell.  It’s important to leave some of you for yourself.  It’s important to find your balance.

 

https://saymber.com/2015/05/14/14-may-2015-man-for-himself-by-erich-fromm-and-message-for-today-related-to-book/

http://www.amazon.com/Man-Himself-Inquiry-Psychology-Ethics/dp/0805014039/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1431612723&sr=1-1&keywords=Man+for+Himself+Erich+Fromm – if you are curious to read this masterpiece for yourself

Some of the language/verbage is I want to say complicated but the truths rise up at you like a brilliant piece of sea glass revealed by the ocean tide.  Here is an excerpt that really illustrates my message today :  Pages 96 and 97

(b) Productive Love and Thinking

Human existence is characterized by the fact that man is alone and separated from the world; not being able to stand the separation, he is impelled to seek for relatedness and oneness.  There are many ways in which he can realize this need, but only one in which he, as a unique entity, remains intact; only one in which his own powers unfold in the very process of being related.  It is the paradox of human existence that man must simultaneously seek closeness and for independence; for oneness with others at the same time for the preservation of his uniqueness and particularity.  As we have shown, the answer to this paradox-and to the moral problem of man- is productiveness (In Chapter 3 Human Nature and Character, Part 2 Personality, he goes into great detail what productiveness means.)

One can be productively related to the world by acting and by comprehending.  Man produces things, and in the process of creation he exercises his powers over matter.  Man comprehends the world, mentally and emotionally, through love and through reason.  His power of reason enables him to penetrate through the surface and to grasp the essence of his object by getting into active relation with it.  His power of love enables him to break through the wall which separates him from another person and to comprehend him.  Although love and reason are only different forms of comprehending the world and although neither is possible without the other, they are expressions of different powers, that of emotion and that of thinking, and hence must be discussed separately.

Who was Erich Fromm?  http://www.erichfromm.net/ – link to his main website if your interest in learning more about him has spiked! 🙂

 

*Dreamt last night about how people can see like bats – pictures and images being in the brain instead of the eyes

25 Oct 2018 Blind Creator (Blade Runner 2049)

Yesterday it rained most of the day and I wasn’t feeling very well.  A good stay inside sort of day.  This morning we’ve had a slight break in things.  I got out back to visit our adorable neighbor Buster (a tiny Yorkie) through our shared fence.  He has peeked at me through the fence as long as we’ve known each other lol.  Now he has a gap wide enough so I can give him some attention and tell him how clever a boy he is.   He reminds me of Kyle’s parents much larger Yorkie and my Aunts little guy Tex.  Such sweet dogs!  His “Dad” is a very good neighbor.

23 Oct 2018 neighbor Yorkie Buster peeking through fence Alvarado TX DSC_0184

After time with Mr. Buster,  I had a thought I’ve had many times when I am listening to music and close my eyes, run my  hands through the air.  The thought was triggered by finally seeing Blade Runner 2049 the other night.  Kyle bought it along with Covenant (Aliens) and Beyond (Star Trek) at the Game XChange in Burleson (http://www.gogamexchange.com/stores/texas/burleson/).   I’ll be honest, we were disappointed with both Covenant and Blade Runner.  The original films are so ingrained into us that anything else just doesn’t have the same impact.  Blade Runner is my favorite science fiction film, one of Ridley Scott’s finest films in my opinion.  Kyle would say the original Alien is the best lol.  They are both really good lets just say!

There is a character, Niander Wallace  (Jared Leto) that as soon as I saw him made me think of Jesus.  He had the look of the Christ that has been painted and put before us through time.  Niander had to use technology as his eyes.  For those of you that have seen the movie, you know this character is a complete polar opposite to the Jesus of the Bible.   Niander was a Christ devoid of feeling or care for his creation.  They were a product.  They were expendable….a means to an end.

What has come to me many times is that what we see with our eyes is often a trick and deception.  Not quite a magic trick but close.  We focus on what we want to see and that is what we see even if their is tangible evidence that what we are seeing isn’t really there.  We just want it to be.   I think we are all guilty of this in one way or another be it politics, religion, sports, movies, music or other platforms where human beings are placed on the pedestal meant for God.

From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself, God doesn’t need eyes or a body to see….that’s what all of creation is for.   How else can God (energy) be everywhere at once?  This is why no one truly gets away with anything in the end.   You don’t have to have eyes (of your own) to “see” when you are God.

blind creator in Simple Gematria equals: 121 (God = 26/8)

(blind = 41  creator = 80)

4/2/1

god in the clouds in Simple Gematria equals: 156

(God = 26 in = 23  the = 33 = clouds = 74)

12/6/3 cycle

disillusionment in Simple Gematria equals: 195

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

unrealistic expectations are the seeds of all resentment in Simple Gematria equals: 570

12/6/3 cycle

false gods in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/8/4/2/1

man pretending to be god in Simple Gematria equals: 208

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

omnipotent in Simple Gematria equals: 141

6/3 cycle

you dont have to have eyes to see in Simple Gematria equals: 339 (49)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 A Wrinkle In Time DSC_0170

Interesting excerpt from book I’ve been reading:

Page 160 A Wrinkle In Time – “Like and equal are two completely different things”

Like = 37

Equal = 56

like and equal are two completely different things in Simple Gematria equals: 484

16/8/4/2/1

 

16 Oct 2018 Silence

Sometimes there are few if any words that come readily to mind when you are in the process of being frozen.  When you feel paralysis of character setting in.  When you feel like no matter what you say or do really matters that much in the scheme of things.   When you watch people get away with things they shouldn’t.  When you watch people say things they don’t mean.  When you have lost faith in yourself and the world around you.   When you realize too many of your thoughts and words have slipped to a darkened corner.  Then is a time for silence.

My only true comfort is knowing  in the end, those who profit from misery will not inherit the earth, they will feed it.   We all do.     

 

silence in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

silence is golden in Simple Gematria equals: 152

8/4/2/1

invisible people in Simple Gematria equals: 170

8/4/2/1

god will sort them out in Simple Gematria equals: 256

13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

no one gets away with anything be it this life or the next in Simple Gematria equals: 575

17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

they will feed the earth in Simple Gematria equals: 219

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.6 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

= 1439

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1