I made a little video this morning to make a point about something. The funny things is, the point didn’t come to me right as I was doing this! I came to the realization when I went to share the video with family and friends on Facebook that my options for acknowledging the content of the video didn’t seem appropriate – namely the “Like” button. It hit me that when I click Like on things that I don’t, that I’m giving my personal power and energy to manifest more of what I would actually like to see, hear and feel less of in this world! So if you decide to watch this, and what I have to say resonates with what you feel about the subject, please feel free to give it a thumbs down! I am hoping you will. I noticed the view counter for You Tube is counting every time I look at the video from another location so the current number of 8 is just me.
I do not collect an income or royalties from blogging, I do it for me, so I do not consider myself “working” at the moment.
Good ol’ Siskel and Ebert remind me of a dream I had many years ago, after Gene Siskel died in 1999, about seeing a face in a flowing desert of red sand and that was all there was left to the world. I took a look at the numeric value of Thumbs Down and it actually can be a positive thing. Just my opinion though.
It was widely known for the “thumbs up/thumbs down” review summaries given during Siskel’s and Ebert’s tenures (this was dropped after Ebert ended his association with the program, as the phrase “Two Thumbs Up” is a trademark held by the Siskel and Ebert families).
20 April 2017 – I don’t know why but I put these things together. The Prayer of St. Francis is one of my very favorites.
Hello just a quick post. I wanted to share some thoughts that came to me today. I had been feeling anxious and my brain was running pretty fast and I’m tired from not sleeping so well the past couple of nights. So I grabbed my chalks, even though it is cold out (if you dress appropriately the cold isn’t so bad), and these thoughts came to me….specifically the words of one of my favorite prayers. The part about seeking to understand versus always being understood specifically. Most of my life I’ve tried to do the understanding part but it’s not always easy. Sometimes you want others to “get you” to understand why you are the way you are and you can’t tell them the whole story of why because they have their own problems too. It’s hard to focus on other people’s “stuff” when while they are talking, you are thinking about your own self the whole time….”what’s in this for me? why should I care?” It’s hard to be selfless and empathetic and or caring and also take care of, even “protect” yourself from others stuff. This is where compromise, respect, treating others like you would want to be treated and healthy boundaries and all that good stuff comes into play.
Anyhew – hope something here resonates. One person can’t fix a mess as big as the one we’ve got here on Earth. I know I didn’t make all this mess but I did have my part in all of it. We each have a part in the mess and have to find our way of working towards a loving, peaceful, non-violent solution to it. It didn’t happen overnight! The phrase that keeps coming to me, “Trust the Process.” For me that means having faith in myself and the God of my understanding that there is a plan in all of this.
26 Oct 2017 A Simple Prayer St Francis that belong to Kyles Grandma Pat Hultgren
13 Feb 2018 – what a birthday gift to be able to do this every day. What is Time for? To make money or make a meaningful life? What is money without a meaningful life? We’ve created quite the paradox!
Hello to you. Just a short note to help me process a couple of dreams that woke me from my sleep. The first one was scary until after I processed it and went back to bed.
What happened is I dreamt I was in bed and Link was next to me and kept growling like he really does. Then he was on top of my legs like he was protecting me from something in the room. There was someone there but I couldn’t see them but Link could. I got up out of bed and was able to see in the dark. I was slapping my hands together in front of my face like someone was there trying to get inside me. I was yelling at “them” to “get out!” over and over again. I chased them to the living room and I saw a blue television screen in the darkness and whoever, whatever was in front of it and just disappeared and the tv shut off. I woke up yelling and screaming which of course upset Kyle. This dream was like my life but in a different “configuration.”
What came to me, trying to process this dream and calm myself down, was it was not meant to scare me, it was information. Recordings are like the Horcruxes in Harry Potter. We “choose” who had immortality in this process (tv, movies, books and music). The energy of our attention (adoration) and the emotions attached to what we watch determines what kind of immortal those recorded will be. Often conflicted. This brought forth E=Mc2 from my reading about Albert Einstein’s life. About how yesterday I came to understand Hiroshima was like splitting God into two parts – turning energy against energy….God against themselves! What came to me this morning also was remembering about God being a jealous God in the Old Testament, isn’t jealousy a human emotion? What I have come to wonder is if Time is God’s way of both punishing and loving us for making mistakes like Hiroshima. Like them saying to us, “I will give you “time” to make amends.” I visualized us, this whole earth being like one of God’s snowglobes. Who else but a God could make Time? Who else but a jealous man could conceive of it? I know….out there to think such things but that’s how I think – how things are “alike” more than “unalike.” It is in this way of thinking I have come to this God of my understanding.
12 Bible results for “Jealous God.” Showing results 1-12.
He stretched out what looked like a hand and took me by the hair of my head. The Spirit lifted me up between earth and heaven and in visions of God he took me to Jerusalem, to the entrance of the north gate of the inner court, where the idol that provokes to jealousy stood.
[ The Lord’s Anger Against Nineveh ] The Lord is a jealous and avenging God; the Lord takes vengeance and is filled with wrath. The Lord takes vengeance on his foes and vents his wrath against his enemies.
The second dream was very short but woke me up also because it was so vivid. It was about being in church or somewhere like it and reading a passage and it being the same frequency as someone else reading it. Then for the second time I go back and there is a young man with dark hair and eyes with those black horned rimmed glasses who is like a “substitute” for someone else when I come again. He wants to read with me and just before I begin to read I can hear him whisper “I love you.” Then I woke up.
In 1905, Albert Einstein determined that the laws of physics are the same for all non-accelerating observers, and that the speed of light in a vacuum was independent of the motion of all observers. This was the theory of special relativity. It introduced a new framework for all of physics and proposed new concepts of space and time.
Einstein then spent 10 years trying to include acceleration in the theory and published his theory of general relativity in 1915. In it, he determined that massive objects cause a distortion in space-time, which is felt as gravity.
The tug of gravity
Two objects exert a force of attraction on one another known as “gravity.” Sir Isaac Newton quantified the gravity between two objects when he formulated his three laws of motion. The force tugging between two bodies depends on how massive each one is and how far apart the two lie. Even as the center of the Earth is pulling you toward it (keeping you firmly lodged on the ground), your center of mass is pulling back at the Earth. But the more massive body barely feels the tug from you, while with your much smaller mass you find yourself firmly rooted thanks to that same force. Yet Newton’s laws assume that gravity is an innate force of an object that can act over a distance.
Albert Einstein, in his theory of special relativity, determined that the laws of physics are the same for all non-accelerating observers, and he showed that the speed of light within a vacuum is the same no matter the speed at which an observer travels. As a result, he found that space and time were interwoven into a single continuum known as space-time. Events that occur at the same time for one observer could occur at different times for another.
As he worked out the equations for his general theory of relativity, Einstein realized that massive objects caused a distortion in space-time. Imagine setting a large body in the center of a trampoline. The body would press down into the fabric, causing it to dimple. A marble rolled around the edge would spiral inward toward the body, pulled in much the same way that the gravity of a planet pulls at rocks in space. [Video: How To See Spacetime Stretch]
Although instruments can neither see nor measure space-time, several of the phenomena predicted by its warping have been confirmed.
Gravitational lensing: Light around a massive object, such as a black hole, is bent, causing it to act as a lens for the things that lie behind it. Astronomers routinely use this method to study stars and galaxies behind massive objects.
Einstein’s Cross, a quasar in the Pegasus constellation, is an excellent example of gravitational lensing. The quasar is about 8 billion light-years from Earth, and sits behind a galaxy that is 400 million light-years away. Four images of the quasar appear around the galaxy because the intense gravity of the galaxy bends the light coming from the quasar.
Gravitational lensing can allow scientists to see some pretty cool things, but until recently, what they spotted around the lens has remained fairly static. However, since the light traveling around the lens takes a different path, each traveling over a different amount of time, scientists were able to observe a supernova occur four different times as it was magnified by a massive galaxy.
In another interesting observation, NASA’s Kepler telescope spotted a dead star, known as a white dwarf, orbiting a red dwarf in a binary system. Although the white dwarf is more massive, it has a far smaller radius than its companion.
“The technique is equivalent to spotting a flea on a light bulb 3,000 miles away, roughly the distance from Los Angeles to New York City,” Avi Shporer of the California Institute of Technology said in a statement.
Changes in the orbit of Mercury: The orbit of Mercury is shifting very gradually over time, due to the curvature of space-time around the massive sun. In a few billion years, it could even collide with Earth.
Frame-dragging of space-time around rotating bodies: The spin of a heavy object, such as Earth, should twist and distort the space-time around it. In 2004, NASA launched the Gravity Probe B GP-B). The precisely calibrated satellite caused the axes of gyroscopes inside to drift very slightly over time, a result that coincided with Einstein’s theory.
“Imagine the Earth as if it were immersed in honey,” Gravity Probe-B principal investigator Francis Everitt, of Stanford University, said in a statement.
“As the planet rotates, the honey around it would swirl, and it’s the same with space and time. GP-B confirmed two of the most profound predictions of Einstein’s universe, having far-reaching implications across astrophysics research.”
Gravitational redshift: The electromagnetic radiation of an object is stretched out slightly inside a gravitational field. Think of the sound waves that emanate from a siren on an emergency vehicle; as the vehicle moves toward an observer, sound waves are compressed, but as it moves away, they are stretched out, or redshifted. Known as the Doppler Effect, the same phenomena occurs with waves of light at all frequencies. In 1959, two physicists, Robert Pound and Glen Rebka, shot gamma-rays of radioactive iron up the side of a tower at Harvard University and found them to be minutely less than their natural frequency due to distortions caused by gravity.
Gravitational waves: Violent events, such as the collision of two black holes, are thought to be able to create ripples in space-time known as gravitational waves. In 2016, the Laser Interferometer Gravitational Wave Observatory (LIGO) announced that it found evidence of these tell-tale indicators.
In 2014, scientists announced that they had detected gravitational waves left over from the Big Bang using the Background Imaging of Cosmic Extragalactic Polarization (BICEP2) telescope in Antarctica. It is thought that such waves are embedded in the cosmic microwave background. However, further research revealed that their data was contaminated by dust in the line of sight.
“Searching for this unique record of the very early universe is as difficult as it is exciting,” Jan Tauber, the European Space Agency’s project scientist for the Planck space mission to search for cosmic waves, said in a statement.
LIGO spotted the first confirmed gravitational wave on September 14, 2015. The pair of instruments, based out of Louisiana and Washington, had recently been upgraded, and were in the process of being calibrated before they went online. The first detection was so large that, according to LIGO spokesperson Gabriela Gonzalez, it took the team several months of analyzation to convince themselves that it was a real signal and not a glitch.
“We were very lucky on the first detection that it was so obvious,” she said during at the 228 American Astronomical Society meeting in June 2016.
A second signal was spotted on December 26 of the same year, and a third candidate was mentioned along with it. While the first two signals are almost definitively astrophysical—Gonzalez said there was less than one part in a million of them being something else—the third candidate has only an 85 percent probability of being a gravitational wave.
Together, the two firm detections provide evidence for pairs of black holes spiraling inward and colliding. As time passes, Gonzalez anticipates that more gravitational waves will be detected by LIGO and other upcoming instruments, such as the one planned by India.
“We can test general relativity, and general relativity has passed the test,” Gonzalez said.
This morning I woke up thinking about friends of mine who have had weight loss surgery. I’ve had three friends undergo this sort of procedure and the recovery process has been unique for all three of them. Now the reason I got to thinking about this was because it’s on the a train of thought I’ve been on about energy vampirism and energy consumption.
I have been frustrated with one of my friends in particular because it feels like since she had the surgery, she’s been grasping about for something to refill the energy void left behind by not being a to eat food like she used to. Well, a flag went up in myself the past couple of days. Why am I so frustrated with her? I’m looking in the mirror at a past reflection that’s why! I learned this from Shakti Gawain’s books many years ago. Usually if we don’t like someone for whatever reason, it means there is something about ourselves that we recognize in them that we don’t like. It may be we’ve moved past whatever the person is reflecting to us or we are still working through it and the person is an “ugly” reminder of what we have yet been unable to change about yourself.
What I have found myself saying in regards to the friend I’m thinking of is a quote from a movie put into a song by Velvet Acid Christ: “Did you hear it?” “It shows you things, horrible things.” “The dark inside me, from the other place… I won’t go back there, I won’t.”
The Dark Inside Me
BUT…..if others had not “fed” me when I was growing up, I see everyday in the news and through history just the sort of human being, “monster”, I could have become. As I reflect on my younger years, there were times when I was a real pain in the ass to be around. I was negative, judgmental, draining, ignorant, willful and extremely unhappy. I didn’t know how to “feed myself” (soothe myself.) Religion alone did not help me, it was specific people that were part of of my life that helped me. When I was younger I used to be fascinated with monsters real and imagined and I think part of that was my quest to try and understand what the hell was going on with me! Why was I so different?!
I realized my fascination with Dracula had an origin story in the Catholic Church ritual, Communion, “The Last Supper.” “Flesh of my Flesh, Blood of my Blood.” I can remember as a little girl truly thinking about what those words meant and I made myself break out into a sweat and nearly black out right as I knelt in a church service! If you were to take those words literally it was like cannibalism or vampirism…..consuming God! Dracula at the pulpit! What does one do to fill the “void” the absence of a healthy relationship (to include sexual partner) provides when you are a priest?
I drew this man 11 Oct 2012 – as I drew him he morphed and at one point looked a lot like JRM which was funny as I had just found out JRM was going to portray Dracula
What I have learned from my own experience with this is when you lose something like innocence or someone significant to you like my mother committing suicide when I was barely a year old, a great energy void was created….had to be filled. I spent many years trying to put people, places, pets, “shiny things” things (which became addictions in some cases) ..anything that gave me even a fleeting glimpse of happiness into the void my mother’s death left in me. I learned the hard way that there is nothing on this earth that can fill such a void but God.
The God I understood and was taught about growing up came from churches and books. I grasped about into the New Age scene, Holistic type remedies, art, photography, work, sex, marriage, pet ownership, helping others through community service and still I didn’t truly know who God was for me. Then came that day a couple of years ago since we moved here to Texas , when my Dad and I were sitting on my back porch, and we agreed on something for the first time in a long time…..”God is in everything.”
It was kind of an “A-ha” spiritual moment for me. I have always felt like a huge part of my Dad was unknown to me because of what happened with my Mom. Here was something we both agreed on and a seed was planted in me.
30 Aug 2012 Jackie Drawing – when Dad first met Spot
When our cocker spaniel Sammy died in 2011 was another big whammy for both Kyle and I. For me, losing Sam was like losing a child and it was one of the most painful experiences I’ve had. I can remember going out to the field down the street, my “blooming field” before it became houses, and screaming in 100 degree heat at God, “BRING HIM BACK!” Just wandering everywhere looking for him, imagining he was walking with me. There was only ever going to be just one Sam and I had to find a way to live without him. I had to save myself.
Back in April 2014 I was walking in the field down the street from our house before it became houses and found half of an Choctaw Indian Christmas ornament and later found the other half at the entrance to our neighborhood! I thought it was a sign my friend Erin who is part Choctaw was having a son but we got three puppies….Link…instead. In a way it was like God answering my pleas to bring my Sammy back!
Everything is energy, everything is a sort of “food.” This is emotions, things, people, animals and nature. All of these elements consciously or subconsciously feed us energy in some way. Human beings can become “black holes” if left unchecked. A human black hole will devour anything and anyone in it’s path….negative energy vampire so to speak. Negative energy is better than not being fed and there are people, very visible people on our world stage, that model this sort of behavior for us and it may not even be a conscious effort on their part….it’s just who they are now.
We have built a society that teaches us to seek people, places and things to fill the void only God energy can fill. Well if everything is God then what to “eat?” Our diet is not just about what tangible foods we put into ourselves. Our diet is not about what celebrity’s image and spirit we can devour until we grow bored and move on. Our diet is not about the latest video game we devour until the next patch of “crack” comes out. Our diet is not supposed to be the latest electronic gadget or phone but it has become that and we are unfufilled…restless…addicted….bored and grasping about for sustainable food that just isn’t there! Do you get the idea? What are you “eating” you stay “full?”
Something else came to me from the Horror genre….the phrase that is always the worst thing to say in a horror movie, “I’ll be right back.” They never come back. After all these thousands of years of waiting for Jesus to come back he hasn’t…..or has “he?” Is God deaf to our cries? No. It’s like with our Sam. I begged God to send me Sammy back and then came Link! Three years we waited…Link was one of three boys. It was like God saying I will even let you choose! God heard me and I believe sent us Link to heal my heart but not to save me…to help me heal myself. Kyle and I had to learn to “feed ourselves” and not rely on Sammy. There is a reason dog spelled backwards is God!
Look in the mirror people. Who is there and do you love that person without condition? What are you “feeding” that person? There is nothing of this world that can fill the energy voids pain, suffering, loss and change create but God. Who is the God of your understanding? Does this God love you and all the world without condition? Learn to “feed yourself! without “feeding” off of others or using artificial God’s.
I know this is a lot but it’s what I was lead to write this morning. I’m not trying to change you or tell you what you should do or what you should believe and definitely not judging you. I’m just trying to help you help yourselves by sharing my experience, strength and Hope.
I hope something here resonates with you and if it does, pass it on in your way. We are all two-way or transistor radio’s in a way – sending and receiving signals.
Audioslave – Show Me How to Live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live …
And with the early dawn
Moving right along
I couldn’t buy and eyeful of sleep
And in the aching night under satellites
I was not received
Built with stolen parts
A telephone in my heart
Someone get me a priest
To put my mind to bed
This ringing in my head
Is this a cure or is this a disease
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
And in the after birth
On the quiet earth
Let the stains remind you
You thought you made a man
You better think again
Before my role defines you
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
And in your waiting hands
I will land
And roll out of my skin
And in your final hours I will stand
Ready to begin
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Show me how to live
Songwriters: Brad Wilk / Chris Cornell / Timothy Commerford / Tom Morello
Hello to you. How are you where and when you are? It’s cold and gray here today….an inside day. I decided to finish the painting I’ve been working on. To some, it may look unappealing, “Messy” and “Unpolished”, like the title I gave it….my name…Jackie. “Beauty” is definitely in the eye of the beholder! I will be seeing my friend soon who gave me the financial support to be able to afford paints and canvas to do these. She will be given an opportunity to choose a painting – my gratitude to her for helping me with this endeavor. I am not sure if after the paints are gone if I will buy more. There is a guilt I feel about this – not an eco-friendly hobby painting. If I were to continue, Kyle and I talked about this, I would need a village lol. Someone(s) to make canvas from scratch and Someone(s) to make paint like they used to. There is so much that is involved for the things we use each day without even thinking about the origin of them…”where things come from” and “how they are made.” What is the ultimate “cost” of our works, hobbies and crafts to the environment? Are our shared activities “sustainable?” I guess I needed a reminder. It’s all very complicated and “Messy.”
6 Feb 2018 – final phase of the painting and it’s messy and unpolished just like me…the title of this painting is “Jackie.”
4 Feb 2018 – notes on a chalk meditation I did about the water situation in Cape Town South Africa. I feel this is yet another “warning” for this entire world. Water is essential to all life. I read yesterday a town in Michigan is fighting with Nestle. Are they mad about not getting very much money from Nestle ($200 a year which makes me think of how oil and gas does business with small towns and royalties for mineral rights), the environmental impact or loss of water? What’s more important? Water is the most “precious” element on this planet, should it be made a commodity when no one can live without it? What is fair? Paying for the services it takes to get clean, safe water I think. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/tiny-michigan-town-in-water-fight-with-nestle/ar-BBIFykh?OCID=ansmsnnews11
5 Feb 2018 – We are all Human – not a color, not a creed, not a religion, not a sports team or a company logo. In the beginning there was darkness, blackness, shadow and there was light and both of them were part of life.
4 Feb 2018 – Rainbow by our back door – this with the colors of my husbands flannel were symbolic to me. There is always a fragment of Hope even when all seems lost.
4 Feb 2018 – Drawing I did after spending time out back in the late afternoon sun.
4 Feb 2018 – What I have come to understand for myself and I don’t expect anyone else to have the same understanding, is that God is everything, God is all and everything is energy. God doesn’t “feel” or “care” – that’s what we were made for.
Last night we watched the second half of the Eagles and Patriots game and really enjoyed it. It was a clean game with few penalty flags or injuries to players. I saw good sportsmanship between members of the opposing teams which is a good thing to show our young people. We decided to watch it to support the players, the fans (people), and the companies with the courage to start putting their money where their “mouths” are with regards to trying to give back to the world they (all of us) rely on to exist. Leading by example. It’s not about pride, flags, race, religion and all the plethora of labels we’ve come up with to segregate ourselves from one another – it’s about focusing on how diversity is a strength and how we are humans first.
“We are all humans – each walk of life on this planet has done bad things to ourselves and others. I would like to see us begin to focus on our shared strengths and how our diversity is part of that strength. We are biologically incapable of perceiving the world the same for a reason. If we can focus on how we are a human beings first perhaps more will develop empathy towards their fellows.”
I think we have a world filled with people who have never know unconditional love in all the many forms in which it exists. They go to church on Sunday and hear stories about a God of conditions for giving them love and all the conditions for being “worthy” of it. They go to work and schools where it’s always about conditions….being good enough or risking losing everything. They go home and their families place conditions on them for their love and devotion too. If no one ever shows you this kind of love, if all your life is nothing but conditions, how could you know what it is. I was and remain blessed to have those who show me what unconditional love is. This one, Sammy, our cocker spaniel, was the my first true example – no judgement of me when I got made at him, no cares about how I looked, smelled, what I was wearing, what music I listened to, what car we had to drive or where we lived – NO CONDITIONS! He just wanted to love and be loved. The only conditions that existed, and he didn’t put them there, we did, was spending time together, cuddling, playing together, walks, food and water.
Me with our cocker spaniel Sammy on 25 Dec 2009. He passed away 27 April 2011.
I hope something here resonates with you and in the place I’d most like to see people use when they are making decisions – your heart.
http://www.johnsoncountytx.org/election-day-locations – I looked at the ballot this morning for the Democratic Primaries. I’m glad I did and would recommend my fellow Texans do the same. I’m not sure how I feel about the word “right” anymore. When I see it and process the word, it sounds like entitlement and that word has some negative connections to it for me. I think we have basic things that are rights – like food, water, clothing and shelter, and everything else I’m not so sure is a right. I am not so sure people just want everything given to them without putting forth any effort to obtain it. I do think there should be fair systems in place so everyone has an equal opportunity to obtain what they want beyond the basics they need for survival. Anyhew, there are many important issues on the ballot! Definitely need to get informed and get out and vote!
Hello to you. Just a short note to say hello and talk about something funny that just happened. I wanted to change my profile picture and I tried several times but the darn thing would not load! So I decided to be funny and see if a recent picture of my avatar from FFXIV, Deegan DeAngelic would load…almost instantly LOL! So I said, fuck it, Deegan it is!
Lately my WordPress hasn’t been very friendly to me. Our internet with At&t has been flaky for several months now and having the young woman crunch the box recently didn’t help either! I don’t know if the repealing of net neutrality has anything to do with our internet performance. It doesn’t matter really to me as I am spending less and less time on my computer anyways. I’ve been spending a lot of time puzzling out riddles in chalk, journal writing, sketching and painting…basically spending time outside with the God of my understanding.
Anyhew…that’s the story behind my profile picture.
25 Jan 2018 – My FFXIV Avatar Deegan DeAngelic. He’s a level 62 Summoner and sporting a monocle and top hat these days lol. It’s fun and a way for Kyle and I to spend time with each other and online friends.
Here is the picture I was trying to share with you – just to say hello and give you a smile if you haven’t seen one…made one of your own in a time. Find what you love the most and let what you find illuminate that piece of sun beating in the middle of you!
25 Jan 2018 – Picture I was trying to make my profile pic lol. Oh well. Here’s a smile and love from me to you through the wires.
15 Jan 2018 – Drawing from yesterday. The word Untangled came to mind – the beauty of complete and true spiritual freedom.
Hello to you. It’s 8:39 am as I begin to write to you. It’s 21 degrees, with a feels like of 6 outside right now! Definitely winter here! So how are you? Hopefully you have nutritious food, clothing, shelter, clean water, clean air to breathe and love. Unless someone chooses to go without, I think everyone should have those basic things!
So with it being colder for sleeping, I’ve been dreaming a lot. The dreams aren’t always coherent enough to share but this first one is. It’s very symbolic I think of what it’s like to try and exist in this world.
The dream began with an actual flash of text, “What went wrong?” Then the dream progressed to a family living on a farm surrounded by a swamp populated with large crocodiles (this came from a video we watched recently of a man filming crocs and his friends telling him to run because they were coming after him) and lions (this came from a recent video of seeing a woman being dragged off by a tiger and mauled nearly to death (killed her mom) at one of those animal safari parks and healthy lion cubs being killed in Sweden).
Well if you didn’t time it right, you couldn’t travel because the reptiles would get too close to the house. I actually had a showdown with two of them through a glass door. Someone had left the house and couldn’t come home because of this situation. I remember watching lions trying to climb over the crocodiles without getting bitten. It was a very uneasy relationship.
The symbolism of the dream holds true to the world we live in especially at the upper echelons it seems. I watch these human beings who claim to be civilized barely cooperating, biting each other, mauling and even complete devouring one another just to keep their “stuff” and their power. There is little compassion or empathy it seems – just doing whatever it takes to survive with little regard to collateral damage. I haven’t lost hope in them though. Each day I catch glimpses of the leaders and type of people I think they really want to be – people who make this world better for more than just themselves and their kin. Progress not perfection!
Then there is this. I searched Google and Bing and found this one article that inspired me to believe we are more than just combatants in this world. This is also a great example of resilience. Today’s Daily Good article really ties into what it takes for a veteran like Brandon Dodson and so many others not to completely lose their shit after serving in the military. Resilience is a word that has figured into my own life on more than one occasion. Just when I thought I was broken beyond repair, the God of my understanding and all the accompanying Earth Angels they could send lifted me back up:
Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are
“Resilience — the ability to overcome adversity — has been a growing topic of study since the early 1970s. In a world plagued by stress and struggle, everyone from psychologists, psychiatrists, and social workers to clergy and criminal justice researchers want to why and how some folks are better at bouncing back from hardship than others. We want to understand why some people can cope with stress and trauma in a way that allows them to move forward in their lives, and why other people appear more affected and stuck.
“As I collected and analyzed my data, I recognized that many of the people I interviewed were describing stories of resilience. I heard stories about people cultivating Wholehearted lives despite adversity. I learned about people’s capacities to stay mindful and authentic under great stress and anxiety, and I heard people describe how they were able to transform trauma into Wholehearted thriving.
“It wasn’t difficult to recognize these stories as tales of resilience because I was in graduate school during the heyday of resilience research. I knew these narratives were threaded with what we call protective factors — the things we do, have, and practice that give us the bounce.
“What Makes Up Resilience?
“If you look at the current research, here are five of the most common factors of resilient people:
“1. They are resourceful and have good problem-solving skills.
They are more likely to seek help.
They hold the belief that they can do something that will help them to manage their feelings and to cope.
They have social support available to them.
They are connected with others, such as family or friends.
“Of course, there are more factors, depending on the researchers, but these are the big ones.
“At first, I hoped the patterns that I observed in my research would lead to a very straightforward conclusion — resilience is a core component of Wholeheartedness — just like the other guideposts. But there was something more to what I was hearing. The stories had more in common than just resilience; all of these stories were about spirit.
“According to the people I interviewed, the very foundation of the ‘protective factors’ — the things that made them bouncy — was their spirituality. By spirituality, I’m not talking about religion or theology, but I am talking about a shared and deeply held belief. Based on the interviews, here’s how I define spirituality:
“Spirituality is recognizing and celebrating that we are all inextricably connected to each other by a power greater than all of us, and that our connection to that power and to one another is grounded in love and compassion. Practicing spirituality brings a sense of perspective, meaning, and purpose to our lives.
“Without exception, spirituality — the belief in connection, a power greater than self, and interconnections grounded in love and compassion — emerged as a component of resilience. Most people spoke of God, but not everyone. Some were occasional churchgoers; others were not. Some worshipped at fishing holes; others in temples, mosques, or at home. Some struggled with the idea of religion; others were devout members of organized religions. The one thing that they all had in common was spirituality as the foundation of their resilience.
“From this foundation of spirituality, three other significant patterns emerged as being essential to resilience:
Letting go of numbing and taking the edge off vulnerability, discomfort, and pain”
Syndicated from Spirituality & Health magazine. S&H was founded in 1998 for people seeking holistic health in body, mind, and spirit. It aspires to help guide the journey to self-knowledge, authenticity, and integration. Its articles draw from the wisdom of many traditions and cultures, with an emphasis on sharing spiritual practices, and look to science to help provide a context for the spiritual quest. Read more from Spirituality & Health here.
3 Jan 2018 – the sun is back! It’s still very cold!
Hello to you wherever and whenever you are as you find me here. How are you? Hopefully your 2018 is off to a positive start. My prayers go out to all those experiencing unusually cold weather. I hope the homeless are finding shelter. I’m worried about people and animals with conditions like this. My neighbor had his dogs out all day yesterday and I had to tell him to get the dogs inside because they were coming over to our place! We are actually experiencing winter here for the first time in several years and no one is used to it!
Source Internet: Our Animal Control folks recently shared this and I’m passing it on. It’s important info for folks who tend to leave their dogs and cats outside all the time.
Last night there were lots of dreams; I will share this one. It had to do with going to a planet called Nayrobi (spelling in the dream), the God of my understanding and something about “dialing things back a notch.” It was like I was floating over the earth in a ship and there was a conversation going on from the ship to the Earth about going to the planet Nayrobi for some sort of therapy. I eventually agreed to go. I guess all the stuff I’ve been watching lately in my waking world about UFO’s, aliens etc. unlocked this dream lol!
I knew I had heard of an actual place on Earth with this name and I was right. Nairobi of Kenya in East Africa looks like a place that would be very therapeutic to visit!
East Africa’s most cosmopolitan city, Nairobi is Kenya’s beating heart, an exciting, maddening concrete jungle that jarringly counterpoints the untrammelled natural beauty to be found elsewhere in the country.
Nairobi (/naɪˈroʊbi/; locally [naɪˈroːbi]) is the capital and largest city of Kenya. The name comes from the Maasai phrase Enkare Nairobi, which translates to “cool water”, a reference to the Nairobi River which flows through the city. The city proper has a population of 3,138,369, while the metropolitan area has a population of 6,547,547. The city is popularly referred to as the Green City in the Sun.
Nairobi was founded in 1899 by the colonial authorities in British East Africa, as a rail depot on the Uganda Railway. The town quickly grew to replace Machakos as the capital of Kenya in 1907. After independence in 1963, Nairobi became the capital of the Republic of Kenya. During Kenya’s colonial period, the city became a centre for the colony’s coffee, tea and sisal industry. The city lies on the River Athi in the southern part of the country, and has an elevation of 1,795 metres (5,889 ft) above sea level.
With a population of 3.36 million in 2011, Nairobi is the second-largest city by population in the African Great Lakes region after Dar es Salaam, Tanzania. According to the 2009 census, in the administrative area of Nairobi, 3,138,295 inhabitants lived within 696 km2 (269 sq mi). Nairobi is the 10th-largest city in Africa, including the population of its suburbs.
Home to thousands of Kenyan businesses and over 100 major international companies and organisations, including the United Nations Environment Programme (UN Environment) and the United Nations Office at Nairobi (UNON), Nairobi is an established hub for business and culture. The Nairobi Securities Exchange (NSE) is one of the largest in Africa and the second-oldest exchange on the continent. It is Africa’s fourth-largest exchange in terms of trading volume, capable of making 10 million trades a day.
I had to share this because it made me chuckle this morning. I was looking at search terms people used on my page and saw this: why donald trump is willy wonka. When I did a couple of searches on Google and Bing, some hits actually came up for people having made comparisons between President Trump and Willy Wonka!
1 Jan 2018 – When I drew this yesterday I didn’t consciously know about the coming Super Moon. When I added the white dots for stars I guess I should of got a clue lol. This figure is very Marilyn Monroey to me and I also was thinking of the Woman in White but had more pink chalk than white.
1 Jan 2018 – view of the Wolf or Super Moon from our back yard. I am experimenting with Nikon my in-laws gave me. Need more practice. I used to use cameras with light filters! We are so spoiled now aren’t we?!
1 Jan 2018 – I loved that I was on my computer and turned to see the moon watching over my shoulder through the window! So beautiful!
1 Jan 2018 – Drawing I did yesterday afternoon. The thoughts of “sum of the parts” came to mind. How with the light and shadow parts of ourselves we are one body trying to navigate this complex existence.
These folks had some great pictures people around the world took of the Wolf or Super Moon if you are curious.
By Deborah Byrd in Human World | Today’s Image | January 2, 2018
What a great way to start 2018! Photos here from the EarthSky community of 2018’s closest and brightest supermoon. Thanks to all who submitted, and happy new year to all!
My prayers go out to those in this world that have a new year already filled with struggle, strife, sorrow and tragedies. It seems inescapable except for one place of our choosing – within. I revisited a mantra this morning, thanks to noticing someone visited a blog I wrote a couple of years ago (thank you mystery person!). I need to make it a resolution for this year.
Yesterday I was outside and the sky was clear for the first day in a couple of weeks and sure enough, the “sprayers” came and just pooped all over the clear sky! Oh I was angry! I allowed myself to be angry about something I’m pretty much powerless to do anything about. I had some ideas in my fit of anger of course, but any of those would involve me spending the rest of my existence behind bars! I think focusing on this line of thinking in the mantra from this old blog is a much better idea. Getting angry at people, who Kyle suspects don’t even know are doing this – they are just flying their planes because they can, is like drinking someone else’s poison expecting to cure yourself!!
This picture is an example of what the “sprayers” do:
25 Nov 2017 – all the crap in the sky yesterday morning. Sometimes I wonder if they aren’t doing a sky sweeping to clean it because there hasn’t been any rain coming from this activity.
“It doesn’t matter what THEY are doing, what matters is what I am doing. What matters is how I react, think and feel and do in my day to day life. I will pray for the greatest good that can be for my fellow beings that seem to have thrown away their hearts for money, wealth and power and hope the Source, “God” of all my understanding is more forgiving than I can ever hope to be.”
This blog is to encourage others that is being victimize, been a victm, or were a victim that they no longer have to live in hidden. I want to share words of encouragement to them and let them know they can come out of their situtaion alive no matter what there abuser is telling or has told them over the years. Some individuals have left their abuser but they are still living in afraid or living in in jail mental; the victim have to get his or her life back. Living behind the wall in public isn't well for them. They have to make a stand for themselves and regain what they lost in that relationship. It will not happen within a week or probably a month. First of all its a learning process, admit to what they lost, and let go of the shame, pride, and bitter. Its up to the victim to want to be a Survior not the abuser.