18 Feb 2018 Who are we now?

Hello to you.  It’s 11:45 am on this cool, gray Sunday.  I just wanted to share a positive word.  I feel like I am discovering a way to be useful in this world, and it’s not an easy process but a process just the same – seeking and finding the positive things in people, places and things.   I used to be really good at this – when I was a child of course.  Well thankfully, inside, I still feel my inner child very much alive!  The part of me that our Sam taught me to hold on to – there are no strangers in this world, just family you haven’t met yet.  Not just friends, FAMILY.  Why do I say that?  With my understanding of God as energy.   If everything is energy and everything is God then that makes us all – every single form of life know and unknown – family!

Anyhew.   In my meditation this morning, the message that came forth was about how the past can hang and or trip us up to getting to where we want to go.  I have shared this before here but I will share it again:  “It’s not who we were in the past, it’s who we are now.”  The God of my understanding doesn’t care about the past because Time is our device.  The God of my understanding doesn’t care about what mistakes we’ve made in the past only if we don’t learn from them and intentionally keep repeating them.  If we don’t even try to make amends to those we’ve wronged to include ourselves.

As I sat outside doing this drawing and meditation a thought occurred to me for places we could start making amends – prisons of all kinds, nursing homes, mental health facilities, rehabilitation centers and our churches.  All the places for humans, animals and plants that could be considered cages.  Unconditional love and forgiveness has not been taught or learned by many.  What if we were to work together starting in a place we all share….the heart?  Just a thought…an idea with a positive intention and or motive.


DSC_0549 18 Feb 2018 Jackie Wygant morning meditation Alvarado TX


12 Feb 2018 Blue TV Screen (dreams) and Time to make amends

Hello to you.  Just a short note to help me process a couple of dreams that woke me from my sleep.  The first one was scary until after I processed it and went back to bed.

What happened is I dreamt I was in bed and Link was next to me and kept growling like he really does.  Then he was on top of my legs like he was protecting me from something in the room.  There was someone there but I couldn’t see them but Link could.  I got up out of bed and was able to see in the dark.  I was slapping my hands together in front of my face like someone was there trying to get inside me.  I was yelling at “them” to “get out!” over and over again. I chased them to the living room and I saw a blue television screen in the darkness and whoever, whatever was in front of it and just disappeared and the tv shut off.  I woke up yelling and screaming which of course upset Kyle.    This dream was like my life but in a different “configuration.”

What came to me, trying to process this dream and calm myself down, was it was not meant to scare me, it was information.  Recordings are like the Horcruxes  in Harry Potter.  We “choose” who had immortality in this process (tv, movies, books and music).  The energy of our attention (adoration) and the emotions attached to what we watch determines what kind of immortal those recorded will be.  Often conflicted.  This brought forth E=Mc2 from my reading about Albert Einstein’s life.  About how yesterday I came to understand Hiroshima was like splitting God into two parts – turning energy against energy….God against themselves!  What came to me this morning also was remembering about God being a jealous God in the Old Testament,  isn’t jealousy a human emotion?  What I have come to wonder is if Time is God’s way of both punishing and loving us for making mistakes like Hiroshima.  Like them saying to us, “I will give you “time” to make amends.”  I visualized us, this whole earth being like one of God’s snowglobes.   Who else but a God could make Time?  Who else but a jealous man could conceive of it?  I know….out there to think such things but that’s how I think – how things are “alike” more than “unalike.”   It is in this way of thinking I have come to this God of my understanding.

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You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me,

He stretched out what looked like a hand and took me by the hair of my head. The Spirit lifted me up between earth and heaven and in visions of God he took me to Jerusalem, to the entrance of the north gate of the inner court, where the idol that provokes to jealousy stood.

[ The Lord’s Anger Against Nineveh ] The Lord is a jealous and avenging God; the Lord takes vengeance and is filled with wrath. The Lord takes vengeance on his foes and vents his wrath against his enemies.

New International Version (NIV)Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

The second dream was very short but woke me up also because it was so vivid.  It was about being in church or somewhere like it and reading a passage and it being the same frequency as someone else reading it.  Then for the second time I go back and there is a young man with dark hair and eyes with those black horned rimmed glasses who is like a “substitute” for someone else when I come again.  He wants to read with me and just before I begin to read I can hear him whisper  “I love you.”  Then I woke up.



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Einstein's Theory of General Relativity
Einstein’s theory of general relativity predicted that the space-time around Earth would be not only warped but also twisted by the planet’s rotation. Gravity Probe B showed this to be correct.

Credit: NASA

In 1905, Albert Einstein determined that the laws of physics are the same for all non-accelerating observers, and that the speed of light in a vacuum was independent of the motion of all observers. This was the theory of special relativity. It introduced a new framework for all of physics and proposed new concepts of space and time.

Einstein then spent 10 years trying to include acceleration in the theory and published his theory of general relativity in 1915. In it, he determined that massive objects cause a distortion in space-time, which is felt as gravity.

Two objects exert a force of attraction on one another known as “gravity.” Sir Isaac Newton quantified the gravity between two objects when he formulated his three laws of motion. The force tugging between two bodies depends on how massive each one is and how far apart the two lie. Even as the center of the Earth is pulling you toward it (keeping you firmly lodged on the ground), your center of mass is pulling back at the Earth. But the more massive body barely feels the tug from you, while with your much smaller mass you find yourself firmly rooted thanks to that same force. Yet Newton’s laws assume that gravity is an innate force of an object that can act over a distance.

Albert Einstein, in his theory of special relativity, determined that the laws of physics are the same for all non-accelerating observers, and he showed that the speed of light within a vacuum is the same no matter the speed at which an observer travels. As a result, he found that space and time were interwoven into a single continuum known as space-time. Events that occur at the same time for one observer could occur at different times for another.

As he worked out the equations for his general theory of relativity, Einstein realized that massive objects caused a distortion in space-time. Imagine setting a large body in the center of a trampoline. The body would press down into the fabric, causing it to dimple. A marble rolled around the edge would spiral inward toward the body, pulled in much the same way that the gravity of a planet pulls at rocks in space. [Video: How To See Spacetime Stretch]

Although instruments can neither see nor measure space-time, several of the phenomena predicted by its warping have been confirmed.

Einstein's Cross is an example of gravitational lensing.
Einstein’s Cross is an example of gravitational lensing.

Credit: NASA and European Space Agency (ESA)

Gravitational lensing: Light around a massive object, such as a black hole, is bent, causing it to act as a lens for the things that lie behind it. Astronomers routinely use this method to study stars and galaxies behind massive objects.

Einstein’s Cross, a quasar in the Pegasus constellation, is an excellent example of gravitational lensing. The quasar is about 8 billion light-years from Earth, and sits behind a galaxy that is 400 million light-years away. Four images of the quasar appear around the galaxy because the intense gravity of the galaxy bends the light coming from the quasar.

Gravitational lensing can allow scientists to see some pretty cool things, but until recently, what they spotted around the lens has remained fairly static. However, since the light traveling around the lens takes a different path, each traveling over a different amount of time, scientists were able to observe a supernova occur four different times as it was magnified by a massive galaxy.

In another interesting observation, NASA’s Kepler telescope spotted a dead star, known as a white dwarf, orbiting a red dwarf in a binary system. Although the white dwarf is more massive, it has a far smaller radius than its companion.

“The technique is equivalent to spotting a flea on a light bulb 3,000 miles away, roughly the distance from Los Angeles to New York City,” Avi Shporer of the California Institute of Technology said in a statement.

Changes in the orbit of Mercury: The orbit of Mercury is shifting very gradually over time, due to the curvature of space-time around the massive sun. In a few billion years, it could even collide with Earth.

Frame-dragging of space-time around rotating bodies: The spin of a heavy object, such as Earth, should twist and distort the space-time around it. In 2004, NASA launched the Gravity Probe B GP-B). The precisely calibrated satellite caused the axes of gyroscopes inside to drift very slightly over time, a result that coincided with Einstein’s theory.

“Imagine the Earth as if it were immersed in honey,” Gravity Probe-B principal investigator Francis Everitt, of Stanford University, said in a statement.

“As the planet rotates, the honey around it would swirl, and it’s the same with space and time. GP-B confirmed two of the most profound predictions of Einstein’s universe, having far-reaching implications across astrophysics research.”

Gravitational redshift: The electromagnetic radiation of an object is stretched out slightly inside a gravitational field. Think of the sound waves that emanate from a siren on an emergency vehicle; as the vehicle moves toward an observer, sound waves are compressed, but as it moves away, they are stretched out, or redshifted. Known as the Doppler Effect, the same phenomena occurs with waves of light at all frequencies. In 1959, two physicists, Robert Pound and Glen Rebka, shot gamma-rays of radioactive iron up the side of a tower at Harvard University and found them to be minutely less than their natural frequency due to distortions caused by gravity.

Gravitational waves: Violent events, such as the collision of two black holes, are thought to be able to create ripples in space-time known as gravitational waves. In 2016, the Laser Interferometer Gravitational Wave Observatory (LIGO) announced that it found evidence of these tell-tale indicators.

In 2014, scientists announced that they had detected gravitational waves left over from the Big Bang using the Background Imaging of Cosmic Extragalactic Polarization (BICEP2) telescope in Antarctica. It is thought that such waves are embedded in the cosmic microwave background. However, further research revealed that their data was contaminated by dust in the line of sight.

“Searching for this unique record of the very early universe is as difficult as it is exciting,” Jan Tauber, the European Space Agency’s project scientist for the Planck space mission to search for cosmic waves, said in a statement.

LIGO spotted the first confirmed gravitational wave on September 14, 2015. The pair of instruments, based out of Louisiana and Washington, had recently been upgraded, and were in the process of being calibrated before they went online. The first detection was so large that, according to LIGO spokesperson Gabriela Gonzalez, it took the team several months of analyzation to convince themselves that it was a real signal and not a glitch.

“We were very lucky on the first detection that it was so obvious,” she said during at the 228 American Astronomical Society meeting in June 2016.

A second signal was spotted on December 26 of the same year, and a third candidate was mentioned along with it. While the first two signals are almost definitively astrophysical—Gonzalez said there was less than one part in a million of them being something else—the third candidate has only an 85 percent probability of being a gravitational wave.

Together, the two firm detections provide evidence for pairs of black holes spiraling inward and colliding. As time passes, Gonzalez anticipates that more gravitational waves will be detected by LIGO and other upcoming instruments, such as the one planned by India.

“We can test general relativity, and general relativity has passed the test,” Gonzalez said.

[See our full discovery story here; a video on the find here; and our complete coverage of the historic scientific discovery here]

1028 am – I did some more thinking about the meaning of Einstein’s theory; again, everyone thinking differently may help provide new in-sights.

IMG_3410 12 Feb 2018 Jackie Wygant morning meditation about Einstein Theory of Relativity Alvarado TX

9 Feb 2018 Love and Abandonment (Morning meditation)

9 Feb 2018 /1019 am

I was outside preparing to do some “chalking” when a revelation about connection between “wisdom,” Why of Life and Death and Tree of Life came. It was instigated by my finding seeds that blew down from cotton tree to my hoodie. My good friend the cotton tree helping me again. What came brought forth a lot of tears. If I (we as a species) had remained ignorant, didn’t need to find out why (curiosity) I (we) wouldn’t know or care about living and dying. Sentience and consciousness, “awareness” would never have happened and may be we would have been happier — “Ignorance is Bliss” philosophy.

17 May 2017 – Cottonwood seed ships

Love changed everything because with love comes “attachment.” Something I learned more about through Buddhism’s the 4 Noble Truths and the 8 Fold Path. When you lose something or someone you love more than “existence” you will tear heaven and earth apart to find it, reclaim it. What I was willing to do at Mesa Springs when I didn’t know where Kyle was. What happened to me for 3 years after we lost our Sammy.

Source Internet: Seed of Life. I loved that this is made in stained glass with chakra colors.

Abandonment creates some of the largest energy vortexes, human black holes. It can be “perceived” or intentional abandonment but the abandoned feel it all the same. Why?!Where did you go?! When are you coming back?! Will you come back?!

(My mother, my Grandparents….all those I’ve loved and lost for whatever reason. I had to grieve and heal — fill the holes their “abandonment of me” left behind.

All of us have lost people, places and things through our shared journey. Are we so attached to these that we are willing to destroy ourselves and a planet to retrieve them? This is just what I see for myself. I hope there is something in this morning meditation that resonates with you….is helpful. I would ask you, what positive, loving aspect of existence can you put in the “holes” some sort of abandonment has made in your mind, body and most importantly your soul?

What do I do? All through my blogs here is what I’ve learned to do for myself with unseen guidance and loving nudges from the tangible elements that surround me. The arts, meaningful work, chores, spirituality, helping others and educating myself about people, places and things I don’t understand before making judgements about them. It is in the latter I have come to realize I can judge no one nor is there anyone on this earth who can either. We are all imperfect and it is in that imperfection we are amazing creations capable of greatness beyond our wildest dreams. We are here for each other. No one person can fix this shared mess our world has become. We must learn to build bridges instead of more walls.

17-feb-2011-my-puppy-sammy-and-his-tennis-ball (Sammy crossed the rainbow bridge 27 April 2011)

My Mom Jeanne and my Grandpa Harold (Hal) Becker on her wedding day, 21 Nov 1965.

8 Feb 2018 Dr. Wilhelm Reich books The Cancer biopathy and Function of the Orgasm Alvarado TX

8 Feb 2018 Jackie Wygant Blue Book for Alcoholics Anonymous Alvarado TX meditation about addiction like sugar etc

8 Feb 2018 Two books from Grandma Becker and Aunt Ruth to help me heal inside when I was younger I read from How to Be your own best friend out loud Alvarado TX

6 Feb 2018 Messy – final phase of painting #3

Hello to you.  How are you where and when you are?  It’s cold and gray here today….an inside day.  I decided to finish the painting I’ve been working on.  To some, it may look unappealing, “Messy” and “Unpolished”, like the title I gave it….my name…Jackie.  “Beauty” is definitely in the eye of the beholder!  I will be seeing my friend soon who gave me the financial support to be able to afford paints and canvas to do these.  She will be given an opportunity to choose a painting – my gratitude to her for helping me with this endeavor.  I am not sure if after the paints are gone if I will buy more.  There is a guilt I feel about this – not an eco-friendly hobby painting.  If I were to continue, Kyle and I talked about this, I would need a village lol.  Someone(s) to make canvas from scratch and Someone(s) to make paint like they used to.  There is so much that is involved for the things we use each day without even thinking about the origin of them…”where things come from” and “how they are made.”  What is the ultimate “cost” of our works, hobbies and crafts to the environment?   Are our shared activities “sustainable?”   I guess I needed a reminder.  It’s all very complicated and “Messy.” 

6 Feb 2018 – final phase of the painting and it’s messy and unpolished just like me…the title of this painting is “Jackie.”

1 Feb 2018 Life and Art

Hello there.  It’s 7:50 am on this Thursday morning as I write to you.  I hope you are well.  I had a frustrating time last night trying to get good pictures of the rare moon lol.  This drawing about sums it up:

31 Jan 2018 – drawing I did yesterday afternoon. Well later in the evening, when I was fighting with my Nikon to get pictures of the lovely moon, the figure in this drawing makes me think of how frustrated I was lol. People kept driving by each time I was trying to concentrate and it wasn’t their fault, just frustrating living behind a busy road!

Anyhew, we then tried to watch Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Men Tell No Tales and that didn’t help my mood either.  Kyle will probably be finishing it by himself.  He’s more of a fan of the Pirates theme then I am.  I showed Kyle the drawing I had done earlier.  Many of the themes in it were like what we were watching in the movie that ironically had the Blood Moon as part of the story, “the compass in the eye”:

31 Jan 2018 – My drawing yesterday, Convergence, which seems to have a lot of elements from the Pirates of the Caribbean movie Dead Men Tell No Tales Kyle, at random, decided we were going to watch last night. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pirates_of_the_Caribbean:_Dead_Men_Tell_No_Tales

The dream I had before waking was interesting.  There was something about a pretty girl in a library who could sing.  I wanted to get to know her and get closer, but another guy was in the way blocking me.  He even put his feet in my face saying in an irritated voice, “Do you mind?!”   Then there was the part with other kids in the library and my telling them everything is energy, everything is alive, “Just look at the core of the earth!  All living things have souls!”

This dream calls to mind the stories from the show Glee.  There were many relationship rivalries to include what was going on with Corey Monteith and Mark Salling and their characters in the show.  How difficult it must be for actors and actresses to just turn on and turn off  their emotions.   What if something real evolves but it is not reciprocated or too many would be harmed to go any further?  This problem resonates with me and my own experience playing FFXI.  I was married when I met Kyle online and initially we were just role playing and then it evolved.  A lot of damage was done to make our relationship happen.  We both have paid for our choice but do I regret it?  No.  That’s my honest answer.  The only thing I regret, is hurting my ex-husband.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life and have had to pay for them in one way or another – my conscience, my heart and the God of my understanding won’t allow for anything else.  When you do something wrong, you have to own it and do the best you can to make amends to those you have harmed in doing that wrong.  You don’t pile new wrongs on top and bury things.  Burying your poor choices just makes it worse.

31 Jan 2018 – Only picture that turned out from last night and ironically the background is bluer than the actual moon lol.

29 Jan 2018 Taking My Time and Never Truly Alone

28 Jan 2018 – Taking my time with this painting.  Not sure what I want to add next, so I’m going to let it sit until I know. 

29 Jan 2018 – drawing I did this morning – “5 parts.” We are male, female, light, shadow and spirit.

29 Jan 2018 – It was seeing this image through a glass crystal that inspired the title.

Just wanted to pop in and say hello.  Not been feeling 100% today.  Not sure if it’s the emerging super moon or what.  I am very sensitive to these energies.

Today was full of reminders for me that no matter how alone I feel for lack of human company, I am far from alone.  For starters, there was the rescue of a poor old cricket with a shiny golden face who was nearly frozen to death on the porch this morning.  I held them in my hand for a time and then found a safe place for them to get themselves sorted out.  Their antenna’s were all crooked lol.  Then there was the mud dauber wasp (black wasp) https://txbeeinspection.tamu.edu/mud-daubers/) that got into the house and I helped them back out – pink cup transport!  What was cool is when I got it outside, two other wasps showed up and acted almost like they were waiting for the one I got out of the house!  They twitched their beautiful raven wings at each other and all flew off together.  Finally tonight I was out admiring the beautiful night light to include Pleiades which is currently over the house and saw a dark shape on the power line across the street.  It was an owl!  It was flying up and down so it must have been hunting.  I was overcome with happy tears about seeing such a special night birdy.   Just the night before I had done a little drawing in my journal about such a thing, only it was Deegan out there with me.   My imagination of course.

Wish upon a star….the stars don’t care how old you are (wink) Pleiades

Anyhew – I hope this finds you loved and loving.  I know these times are hard for so many everywhere and it’s easy to lose to hope….to lose faith in ourselves and our fellows.  I couldn’t even bring myself to look at much by way of news or Facebook today!  There is a great upheaval going on in humanity and nature itself.

Something I learned in my Quantum Touch training (energy healing) was to focus on what you love the most when you were working to help others heal.  The same principles can be applied for what it takes to heal yourself.

Source Internet – loved this!


28 Jan 2018 Creating Unity Begins With Inspiration

It looks like it’s going to be a lovely day today so I need to get about enjoying it.  I hope this finds you loved and loving – unconditionally.

27 Jan 2018 Repairs in the Midst of Disruption (Red Tree and Foundation)

I’m back.  Sorry my first post today was a bit “sharp” like the edges of the glass I had to pick up this morning from an act of my carelessness….not fully paying attention to what I was doing because I was mad about some things.  That’s what happens when you get mad and try to do things without calming yourself down first!  Jackie SMASH!  So what did I decide to do after I looked at those broken pieces of glass?  Remember the Aurora’s Flight drawing?

26 Jan 2018 – The title I gave to this one is Aurora’s Flight. Inspiration for the poem. It’s overcast today so sorry it doesn’t translate very well.

It came to me to make the pieces of clear glass into a crystal sculpture. I repaired the base of the red tree with three green circle shell beads.  Inside of the holes I put a gold (sun God), red (Republicans) and blue (Democrats) bead with a purple bead in the center to represent unity.  The Red Tree had broken free of it’s bindings of glass for a reason more than powers and principalities!  I suspect everything that has been happening in this world is a Disruption for the Emergence.  Sometimes the only way to fix something as broken as our current systems of government and commerce is to completely destroy it.  It must be torn apart from the inside out and examined.  The pieces that are salvageable gathered together and given new purpose.  Something new….stronger….better will hopefully emerge that benefits one and all…..especially the children and beings we share this planet with.   You don’t have to go to war with bombs, missiles, bullets or capable hackers to tear a system apart.  Sometimes choice words are more effective!  If something is fragile enough, as with the glass base that broke away from my wire tree this morning,  it requires little to no assistance to break into millions of little, sharp pieces.

Anyhew….I done yammering for today.  Time to go work on my next painting.  I hope what I’m sharing here makes sense.  I operate heavily in symbolism….*laughing….remember the mashed potato scene in Close Encounters?  “This MEANS something!”  Sometimes it does!   I realize just because it makes sense to me, “means something” to me,  doesn’t mean it will to anyone else!  Thank you for your support, love and kindness.

Action speaks more powerful than words, but when you use words as your actions; you probably won’t stop talking. – Unknown

Read more: http://www.searchquotes.com/search/Words_As_Weapons/#ixzz55PKBjl81

27 Jan 2018 – Red tree with shattered base after I found about CHIP funding issues. I don’t have my own children but care about everyone else’s! You don’t use innocent children for pawns in adult games. NEVER!

27 Jan 2018 – I have some culling to do in my blog here to make more picture room. I took other pictures but not enough room to share them without deleting more stuff!  What you are looking at is repaired Red Tree, I made a crystal sculpture out of the broken glass and there were two strings of light in the angel – now one is in the new sculpture. I am looking forward to taking this out into the sunshine to see what it looks like. There are prisms of rainbows in the glass even without the sunlight. I like doing things like this. It makes me feel better and helps give me hope for the people of this country and world. We can fix it together!


22 Jan 2018 Real Life Examples of Disruption and Emergence

Hello to you.  I’m back after being unplugged by forces beyond my control.  On Saturday, around 2:10 pm we heard an explosion in our backyard and then another one.  While this was happening Kyle and I both lost our internet connection.

Do you remember me sharing in this post: https://saymber.com/2018/01/20/20-jan-2018-kan-pai-dream/ about the dream I had about choices which included the hazards of distracted driving?  Well apparently God wanted to give me a specific example to emphasize the point!  The person who had the wreck in our backyard was a 16 year old girl.  Thankfully she wasn’t seriously injured and nor was anyone else – just someones that can be repaired…a car and the Internet box  that got completely crunched!

So this was a major disruption to our lives – especially Kyle’s.  He does a lot of online gaming and was actually in the middle of it when the accident happened.  He was already kind of fussy because he was having to go in for jury duty today.  He was nervous about it – it’s not in his comfort zone.  So when he couldn’t be distracted by his online friends and gaming like he wanted to, he was a bit disgruntled at first.

Sometimes disruptions of the status quo of our lives, whatever their form, can be good.  We can learn things about ourselves and others.  In this case there were many good things that happened.  Prepare yourself, this will shock you lol, we actually started using our kitchen table for meals again!  ZOMG right?!  Ever since the recliner couch came into this house that has trays attached, we’ve been eating in front of the t.v. for all our meals.  Kyle wasn’t as distracted by gaming so he helped me out more with caring for the dogs – giving them baths and trimming nails.  We took them on more frequent walks together which is good for all of us.  He’s been better about sticking to the daily exercise habit we are trying to establish together.  There has been more cleaning in the house.  Today, after I get off of here there will be paint going on canvas!  I told Duwon, the nice man from AT&T who came out to repair our line today, that it’s pretty amazing all the stuff you get done when your not distracted by the Internet.  On the same note, I told him I feel it is a utility.  We may not run our livelihoods off of it, but many small business owners or people who work from home do.  They just have to have it working!  I think it’s kind of crappy they keep trying to say the Internet is not a utility.

Anyhew…..almost warm enough to take stuff out for painting.  I want do it outside and enjoy the beautiful day.  I am dreaming of someday having a solarium/sun room where I can have all my craft stuff and be inside and outside at the same time without having to drag all my stuff back and forth lol.  May be some day.

What’s funny is this morning/last night I had a very detailed dream, like I was living it about car shopping after an accident!  Whoever I was, or with had taken a turn too sharply and rolled/flipped their car.  It was a large old style red car (kind of looks like the one at this link  only a bit larger if your curious https://classic-car-auctions.info/european/2016-artcurial-le-mans-classic-sale-1961-ferrari-250-gt-swb-berlinetta/)  I just remember the top being dented and deciding I wanted a new car.  We looked at a used car lot.  I remember there being a really cute little purplish car.  There was a pick-up truck that had a cab that looked like it was being held together by duct tape.  It was a very vivid experience.  I even remember looking to see how late they were going to be open because there were a lot of people being serviced while we were there.  The times and services were different.  Sales were til like 8:30 pm.  We ended up in new cars but they didn’t have any models on the floor except one that you pushed a button and it put itself together from like the size of a box.  There was someone in the dream who didn’t want to file a claim with their insurance company.  I remember someone driving after that and I was trying to sleep in the backseat.  I flipped a flap on the window for privacy.  It was night time.

Note:  I am having to delete pictures to make room for new ones so if you see something is missing from older blogs, you know why.  The only remedy is to pay for a Premium subscription.  Kyle and I live on a fixed income, which includes my Air force Pension that may not be coming if the Government shut-down continues.  Kyle is not currently employed so are trying not to spend money on anything that would put us over the narrow margins we live by.   I don’t make any money doing this blog nor do I expect to. We will work with what we have. 

21 Jan 2018 – Kyle and I really like this one. Like a sundial? I am having to delete pictures to make room for new ones so if you see something is missing from older blogs, you know why.

20 Jan 2018 Kan-pai (Dream)

Hello to you. It’s 8:24 am on this warmer Saturday morning. Not much to tell you besides we are back to a two dog house again. Kyle’s parents returned safely and came bearing a gift of white sage and a little angel candle holder made out of repurposed metal – love it! We both got some much needed sleep last night.

19 Jan 2018- Kyles Mom and Dad brought this back from Arizona for us. It’s an angel repurposed out of scrap metal. I put some tea lights in and my kaleidoscope glass in side.

There were lots of dreams like there usually is but only one that I remember. It was pretty long and involved. It was about someones wedding. In the dream I was an ex-wife I guess but invited to this mans wedding. I walked into their bedroom where I saw tickets to a *place called Kanpei on the bed. In the context of the dream it was an ancient place he was going to take his new wife. Apparently there was something negative about this and I wanted to warn the man’s new bride about it. The man found out I was going to tell his new bride and then I wasn’t the ex-wife anymore. I saw there was a blonde woman tied up on the bed and the man’s new wife saw this and was going to ask what was going on and then I woke up.

Well I was curious about where Kanpai was and turns out it wasn’t so much a place as a greeting from an ancient place. With the spelling, it was Japan in particular. So in this wierd dream scenario I got to learn a word from another country and that’s pretty cool!

Some of the waking keys that unlocked this dream I think were worrying a bit about my brother-in-law after a recent phone call, reading about a man having a 5ft long tapeworm crawl out of himself after eating Sushi and watching a video with Kyle about the upcoming patch (4.2) for FFXIV which involved clips from the most recent Live-Letter with Yoshi P who is the executive producer for the game and he is Japanese. I also did a chalk drawing yesterday that made me think of an Asian woman in the water.

Tidbits I found on the internet, I didn’t go way in depth about it. I just wanted to find out if there was a place or even a word that matched what was in the dream:

*As Jori mentioned, kanpai is equivalent to “cheers” said at a toast, often in celebratory settings (kenpai is said instead, at funerals), but also very commonly at the start of a meal with drinks and/or guests. The kanji composition ???? (kanpai) can literally be translated as “dry” – “glass.”

12 Answers – What does ‘kanpai’ mean in Japanese? – Quora



The word ???? (geonbae) literally means ’empty glass’, so is similar to the expression ‘bottom’s up’.

Japanese and Chinese speakers will notice the similarities between this word and the word for ‘cheers’ in those languages (‘ganbei’ in Chinese and ‘kanpai’ in Japanese). This is because the word is based on Chinese characters. Remembering the meaning of these characters can help you learn words quickly when your Korean reaches an intermediate level.

To use this word, raise your glass in the air, say ???? (geonbae), and clink your glass with your friend’s glass.

The word implies that you should then drink the whole of your drink, but this is not actually necessary.

The word ???? (geonbae) is usually said by itself, rather than as part of a phrase or sentence.

If somebody says ???? (geonbae) to you, then the correct response is simply to say ???? (geonbae) back to them.


19 Jan 2018 Jackie Wygant outdoor chalk drawing water spirit Alvarado TX

Forgot I wrote this one….so true and almost cruel isn’t it?

“The science of being a human being.  We are both observer and the experiment caught in the undetermined test case called Life.”

28 May 2016 – my pink spirit book message for today

It’s about the choices me make in life too.  When we make choices, there are consequences…cause and effects.  If you want to lose weight, you probably shouldn’t keep overeating.  If you don’t want to kill yourself while driving, you probably should stop doing things that distract you while your driving.

On 16 January I had a dream involving what I will call a sequence of scenarios about life choices.  One was being in a car with a man who I yelled at “Can you at least pull over and do that?!  Are you trying to get us killed?!” because he was writing something down while he was driving.  Then there was me (I want to lose weight) holding one of my favorite types of donuts with cream filling and in the dream it had bacon in it too!  Well then the dream transitioned to a blonde man with sharp pointy teeth and dark eyes (he looked like actor Jeff Daniels).  He was doing a dark comedy skit.  While he was doing it, he stopped and looked at me, like he was really looking at me as if it were real life and I was standing there.  He said, “It’s about choices.  Are you receiving me?”  As he said the last part he was nodding his head at me to make sure I was.  Yep…message received!

Anyhew – hope you have a lovely day. Hugs and love through the wires!


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