Hello to you it’s morning yet here as I write. As I look out my bedroom window, it is ashen gray and the sun is trying to shine. It’s been like this for days now. The air quality alert is red so I don’t plan on being outside much today.
Today is the official closing date on us selling our house. Yesterday they sent out a mobile notary. I was grateful they did that so I could sign the documents and get them back to Texas today for my husband to sign. It was all bittersweet. I am even having trouble writing about it right now. I wish we had been able to do the closing together but that’s the past.
Like the ending of our marriage, this is anti-climactic and is just happening . Our marriage happened, We bought a house and lived in it for 12 years. We made lots of memories together and I don’t want to just act like nothing happened. All this said, to keep myself from losing my shit inside, I have to in a way act like nothing is happening. A part of me wonders if this is what my husband has had to do too so he doesn’t lose it.
“closing” in the English Ordinal system equals 79 (all vices in check in a no cycle)
“together” in the English Ordinal system equals 98 (no cycle for eternity and or racetrack of life)
I have to believe that all of this has been happening for a reason and everything is going be ok for both of us.