30 Aug 2018 A Long Time Ago (1990’s) and Hold On (Wilson Phillips)

Hello to you.  Doesn’t it seem like 1990 was such a long time ago?!  A whopping 28 years!  So much has happened for those of us that have been here all that time.  Today I had a pity party for myself.  Sometimes it’s good to cry it out, bitch, whine and moan a bit.   To point at the piles of dog poop in the backyard and make self comparisons…”yeah that one is definitely me today.”   My poor backyard that has to listen to this!  I had a bird walk by me while I was sitting out back tonight blubbering.  It stopped and just stared at me with that”what is your problem” look.  Kept on walking.  Anyways, I hope this finds you well.  If you are feeling a bit low too, just do the best you can.  Remember, it’s inside work!

Nineteen ninety = 173


Hold on = 68  by Wilson Phillips = 193 Number One = 107 = 368  (I was born in 1968 – go figure!  Perfect song and message for me today!)

Wilson Phillips – Hold On

Hold On

I know there’s pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don’t ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You’ve got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin’ your worries pass you by
Don’t you think it’s worth your time
To change your mind?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won’t you tell me now
Hold on for one more day ‘Cause
It’s gonna go your way

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can’t you change it this time

Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

Songwriters: Carnie Wilson,Chynna Phillips,Glen Ballard
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29 Aug 2018 Mix it up

Hello!  Just a quick visit today.  How are you?  I hope this finds you in good spirits!  I had a thought this morning when I found out they have hired Matt Smith (Dr. Who for me) for Star Wars:

https://www.theguardian.com/film/2018/aug/29/matt-smith-star-wars-episode-ix – Matt Smith ‘lands key role’ in Star Wars: Episode IX .

Wouldn’t it be funny and fun as all get out if they let Matt Smith be Dr. Who in Star Wars?  I got to thinking about a way to salvage what seems like a barrel whose bottom has been found. I mean they are rebooting Bewitched!  What I was thinking about was genre cross overs and mixing film and television universes.  I mean I would fall out if I went to see a Star Wars film and Dr. Who and the Tardis showed up with a companion of say Sherlock Holmes LOL!  Daleks versus Stormtroopers.  The Doctor taking out Sith with their sonic screwdriver?!  How many times have you watched something and thought how fun it would be to see your favorite character from another place in it?  There is so much, with great writers, that could happen to truly freshen things up.

I’m really tired of the same old stories.  The telling of the same stories but just switching up the race, gender and or sex just seem desperate to me. Grasping about for an audience.  Some people I’ve spoken with feel like lately certain agendas are being shoved down their throats and it’s really a turn off.  There are so many stories that have never been told!

This article I found from 2014 sums up things very well; little has changed:


We can bemoan the decline of good studio movies until we’re blue in the face, but that won’t change much. If you want good movies to come out, go see the good movies that do come out — go see The Immigrant, which is gorgeous and has made all of $50 thousand at the box office. Go see Under the Skin, and Ida. If you keep spending money on bad remakes and sequels, the people with the power will keep dishing them out. Summer blockbusters like AlienTerminator 2 (most expensive movie ever made at the time), and Jaws seem risky compared to Captain America or Spider-Man or Transformers. People were scared to go to the beach after seeing JawsTransformers doesn’t even scare people away from spending money on awful movies.

https://saymber.com/tag/breaking-canon-with-stories-of-our-past-to-move-forward-in-our-future/ – I’ve talked about this before.

29 Aug 2018 – My Mom makes these and this message is perfect for today!

46  29 37

Mix it up = 112 (8 flowers and 4 bowls)

https://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/driving-resurgence-reboots-remakes-revivals-tv-film/story?id=47645549 – lot of good info in this article

With studios and networks owning so much IP, expect to see more revivals and nostalgic content, for better or worse. While networks have originality in mind, Patten said, the list of creative, one-of-a-kind pilots that never got picked up is never ending.

“Everyone is trying to find a way to break through the clutter,” he said. “Originality is a great mantra that almost nobody believes in. You therefore find people taking strong elements of other properties, other shows, other movies and finding a way to bring them back to life.”

Intellectual Property = 267/15/6/3 cycle

reboot = 75/12/6/3 cycle

rerun = 76/13/4

Original script = 170/8/4/2/1

Original Idea = 104/5 (Looking at this, I see an idea is original once.  Five to me represents the human senses.  At this point of our existence, I don’t believe there is such a thing as an original idea and that’s a driving force behind scraping the barrel like these folks do.  One of the hardest of the human conditions to combat is boredom.)

Boredom = 72/9 cycle

Entertainment = 158/14/5 (matches up with Original idea doesn’t it?)

Clutter = 99/18/9 cycle

Dead End = 37/10/5

28 Aug 2018 Zero


Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Poor Teacher = 124/7

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)


Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

Songwriters: DAVID BOWIE
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26 Aug 2018 Nine and Sen. John McCain


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I am sad for us but happy for John McCain today.  I cried when I found out about his dying this morning.  He spent his entire life fighting and now he can rest.  What keeps bringing tears to my eyes for John is the fact he had a fight his whole life.  John McCain was a prisoner of war – where does war go?  One of the places is in your head.  He died of brain cancer.  War = 42, Brain = 44 and Cancer =44 (Program=88).  The other place war goes is into your Heart = 52.  If you subtract 52 from 42 you get 10 which is the same numeric value for Spirit =91/10.

John McCain = 90

Age 81=9 (Age=13)

Vietnam War = 126/9

Prisoner of War = 177/15/6/3 cycle

Nine = 42

War = 42

https://mic.com/articles/169042/john-mccain-warns-suppressing-free-speech-is-how-dictators-get-started – excerpt

(btw free= 34 speech = 56….= 90)

“If you want to preserve — I’m very serious now — if you want to preserve democracy as we know it, you have to have a free and, many times, adversarial press,” McCain continued. “And without it, I am afraid that we would lose so much of our individual liberties over time. That’s how dictators get started.”

“They get started by suppressing free press,” McCain concluded. “In other words, a consolidation of power, if you look at history, the first thing that dictators do is shut down the press. … I’m not saying President Trump is trying to be a dictator. I’m just saying we need to learn the lessons of history.”

McCain has long been one of Trump’s loudest critics. During the primary season, Trump mocked the senator for being captured during the Vietnam War.


I hope wherever John’s heaven that there is peace, rest and relaxation there for him and most of all unconditional love (205/7).

25 Aug 2018 Ichthys in the Desert

24 Aug 2018 – I asked Kyle for a subject to draw. At first he said aquatic and I said I had already drawn mermaids. He said something in the desert. So that made me think of Streams in the Desert and I came up with this. It is the title of a little red book spiritual devotion book my Grandparents gave me. I’ve shared about here before. I have an Ichthys (92) tattoo (91) = 183. I also have a chameleon which until yesterday I didn’t know has a 13 in it! It’s 76, the same number for my maiden name Schmidt. Go figure! As I sat in front of this drawing and thought about all that I’ve found out the past few days, how complicated it all is, I gained an even deeper love and respect for God as I understand them. “In the Beginning” = 137 which is the same value for my birth Mom’s full name. My Grandfather was a pastor who must have know about this system. If he didn’t….wow! She was my Grandparents first child.  She was my beginning and technically my end as I have given birth to no children. Alpha and the Omega = 131 (same value as Jack Kevorkian as I came to find out looking for Dr. Who’s Trenzalore which is 134)

It’s interesting the story the numbers are telling me about myself and my life choices and the people I’ve chosen to include on my journey.  I found out yesterday that in the numbers, it took four grandparents and two people who chose each other to make me.  When I added the first and last names of my 4 Grandparents it came to 248 (68 in there).  Just their first names came to 204 which is 6.  I was born in 1968. To me, this is proof a power much greater than myself is operating here.  To me, this is evidence of God.  Think of all the fragments, pieces..single moments that had to happen to make just one person!

24 Aug 2018 – Thinking about people and the relationship between them and insects, spiders and trees.

Human Being = 94  Sing = 49 = 143/8 – that’s me these days lol.

As I explore my life in numbers, I am beginning to understand why I feel like there is really no such thing as a coincidence (84/12/3 cycle).  I think there really is a divine (63) calendar (58) = 121/4/2/1.


The ichthys or ichthus, from the Greek ikhthýs, is a symbol consisting of two intersecting arcs, the ends of the right side extending beyond the meeting point so as to resemble the profile of a fish. It was used by early Christians as a secret Christian symbol and now known colloquially as the “sign of the fish” or the “Jesus fish”.




An early circular ichthys symbol, created by combining the Greek letters ΙΧΘΥΣ, Ephesus.

16 July 2018 – Completed painting with what I’m calling “Swircles” (what happens when you mix a swirl and a circle!)

https://www.ancient-symbols.com/buddhist-symbols.htmlWheel = 53/8  God = 26/8

The Dharma wheel

The Dharma wheel This wheel is also called the dharma chakra or the Dhamma Chakka and is often used to represent Buddha himself. It has also universally become the symbol for Buddhism. The dharma wheel has eight spokes, which represent Buddha’s Eightfold Path.wheel of law


24 Aug 2018 Thirteen

https://www.gematrix.org/ – calculator I use to turn words and phrases into numbers – very useful

Tulip = 78  Rose = 57 (red rose 84) Tiger Lily = 117 Crepe Myrtle = 140  Castle = 60 Neuschwanstein = 175 (76) Home = 41 Ludwig = 76 The Swan King = 131 (swan = 57 flip # around and add 1 you get 76)  Kurz = 76  Francis of Assissi (my favorite Saint) = 167/14/5 (67/76 in there).  Benedict Cumberbatch = 158 (13 in there).  Jonathan Rhys Meyers = 238 (13 in here) Elvis Presley = 167 (13 in here, one of my first musical crushes) David Bowie = 94 (13 this way and his name David Jones 103) Matt Smith = 123 (13 is twice in his name. My favorite Dr. Who).  What’s funny is my the name my husband has now doesn’t have 13 in it but the name they were going to give him did!  My ex husband also had 13 in his name, 249, David Bowie 94 was my first true love after my Dad.  One of my favorite things to do is sing and sing = 49!  Interesting to see my life and choices through a different lense!

It’s interesting to think our recognitions, interests and attractions have numbers involved as well as the senses.  Today I found something interesting since I’m always talking about Time Travel etc.  The numeric value for Time Travel (125) and Genetic Breeding Program (215) have the same numbers!  This makes sense if you look at the creation of a family starting with two people’s genetic code.  The  characteristics of each (and their ancestors) pass on to the new being, child.  In some cases making a child look just like their parent or elements of both.  I resemble my Dad’s side of the family more than my Mom’s but both sides, physical and behavioral, are within me.

A couple of spins on the prayer wheel.  This resonated with me:


May all I say and all I think
be in harmony with Thee,
God within me, God beyond me,
Maker of the Trees.

north american indian – chinook
Thank you = 115/7  I Love you = 124/7  Life is School = 132/6/3 cycle  Round = 72/9 cycle Wheel = 53/8
Life is hard = 91 (1 in a 9 cycle) Life is easy = 110  Perspective = 138/12/3 cycle  Point of View = 154/10/1 (1 in a 9 cycle)
Opinion = 92/11/2/1 (two in a 9 cycle)   Argument = 99/18/9 cycle  Forgive = 82/10/1 Compromise =125/8
Brexit = 78/16/7 (like the right (62/8) and left (43/7) of a brain (44) being pulled apart. 

23 aug 2018 – I learned a lot from exploring this line of thinking about the brain. Found out what I suspected for a time, the numeric value for Food and Body are both 46 – the same!


23 Aug 2018 Drawings (brain meditation) and Creed of Peace (Ralph M. Lewis)

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are as you visit here.  The third photo has a drawing I wasn’t sure I wanted to share.  It’s what I was talking about yesterday (the 9/11 bit).  It’s what came to me when I was thinking about it.  We can’t change what has already been done, we can only move forward and try to avoid making the same mistakes.  It’s hard for me to stay in today sometimes.  My sweet Aunt called the other day and reminded me to do that.  I just wanted to give context to the drawing.  Thank you for the visit!


Spin of the Prayer Wheel brought me this message; I’ve never seen it before today:

Creed of Peace – 35/21/30 = 86 (last two of year I was born in reverse)

I am guilty of war when I proudly exercise
my intelligence to the disadvantage of my fellow man.

I am guilty of war when I distort other’s opinions,
which differ from my own.

I am guilty of war when I show disregard
for the rights and properties of others.

I am guilty of war when I covet what another has honestly acquired.

I am guilty of war when I seek to maintain my superiority of position
by depriving others of their opportunity of advancement.

I am guilty of war if I imagine my kin and myself to be a privileged people.

I am guilty of war if I believe a heritage entitles me
to monopolize resources of nature.

I am guilty of war when I believe other people must think and live as I do.

I am guilty of war when I make success in life solely dependent
upon power, fame, and riches.

I am guilty of war when I think the minds of people should
be regulated by force, rather than by reason.

I am guilty of war when I believe the God I conceive is
the one others must accept.

I am guilty of war when I think that a land of a man’s birth
must necessarily be the place of his livelihood.

The true articles of peace cannot be legislated but are drawn up in the
personal aspirations and conduct of the millions of little people. When all
men will frankly perceive their common dependence, an understanding will
emerge that will transcend the barriers of time and space, creed and race.

rosicrucian order- creed of peace – ralph m. lewis – 1944  (Rosicrucian order = 190)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ancient_Mystical_Order_Rosae_Crucis – The Ancient and Mystical Order Rosae Crucis = 378

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A Rosicrucian Master’s Cross, from the AMORC Rosicrucian Library in San Jose

The Ancient and Mystical Order Rosæ Crucis (AMORC), also known as the Rosicrucian Order, is the largest Rosicrucian organization in the world. It has various lodges, chapters and other affiliated bodies throughout the globe, operating in 19 different languages.

AMORC claims an association with a “perennial philosophy“, often referred to as “The Primordial Tradition“. The Order further states that it is heir and custodian of the “Rose-Croix” of the past, thereby making it the oldest existing Traditional Fraternity and a modern-day manifestation of the ‘Rosicrucian Fraternity’ of old, which is believed by some to have originated in the traditions of the Ancient Egyptian Mystery schools. The ancient Mysteries are said to have been preserved through the millennia by closed secret societies until the early years of 17th Century Europe. At that point, according to AMORC internal mythology, the time was right for the existence of this body of secret knowledge to become open, i.e. revealed, to the world, in the form of the Rosicrucian manifestos. Famous seventeenth century Rosicrucian Michael Maier described the origins of Rosicrucianism as “Egyptian, Brahmanic, derived from the Mysteries of Eleusis and Samothrace, the Magi of Persia, the Pythagoreans, and the Arabs.”[1] Several of his other works also allude to the mysterious origins of the Rosicrucians.[2]

Today, AMORC is regarded as representing an “open cycle” of the ancient Rosicrucian tradition, its existence being a “reactivation” of Rosicrucian teaching in the United States, with previous Rosicrucian colonies in the United States having become dormant.

AMORC presents itself as a worldwide philosophical and humanistic, non sectarian and apolitical fraternal order devoted to “the study of the elusive mysteries of life and the universe.”[3] It is also open to both men and women of legal adult age (18 years old in most countries) regardless of their various religious persuasions.

22 Aug 2018 The Broken Vase (dream)

Just stopping in for a moment to say hello.  I have been resting today as I’ve had a lot on my mind.  The words to numbers has been pretty steady and has turned out to be a great coping mechanism to help me riddle out things logically for myself.  This morning I worked through through aspects of my life to include some of the major players in it and got some very interesting results.  For example, the total numeric value for my Dad’s full name (186), the numeric value of the phrase “leave home” (86) and for the age I was when I joined the military (18 years and 6 months) all line up!  What’s interesting also – I was born in 1968!  I found out the numeric value of my birth mom’s full maiden name comes to 137 which is interesting because Becker means baker or “to bake”.  Baker = 37!  I was born in Sioux Falls South Dakota and the full numeric value for this is 273.  It’s interesting that it took two to make the reverse version of my mother in numbers 73.  In doing this, I found myself feeling like I’ve finally been let in on the “plan” for my life.  I’m only half way in so that’s not too bad lol!

I went out to do some chalk drawing earlier and just couldn’t do it.  What I did draw I knew was going to take me on a path I’m done treading – the 9/11 bit.  I have to let it go and it’s so hard to.  I want justice for what happened to EVERYONE involved with this and as it seems, there never will be.  At least in this life!

I picked up the foot piece of the Blondie dog statue I had broken in anger a few months ago and examined it.  There was a tiny spider hiding in it.  If you remember, the number value for spider is 71/8 which is the same number value for God of 26/8.

16 Aug 2018 – What came to me about this here was anger being at the center of many problems. Kyle’s message was, “Anger is a symptom of hopelessness” and I agree. There is a core element to the feelings and subsequent actions people take to get relief from how uncomfortable they can become.

I started crying thinking about and missing my Dad.  Ironically the word Dad comes out to 9 in the numbers!  It makes sense this word would be a 9 cycle.  I feel like I literally have “Daddy issues.”   Attachment problems.  I love my Dad (and Mom) so much that I’m afraid to be close to him and have him leave me!  This is stupid I know, but it’s like when my Grandma, his mother was still alive and I would call her.  I used to just end up crying because I missed her so much.  After a point she kind of asked me to stop calling her.  It’s gotten that way with my parents.  The last time Mom and Dad visited my Dad said to me, “You could always come home (274/13/4).”  If it were only that easy to do!  There are so many “if’s” attached to just picking up and leaving when you are grown up!

So I went and took a nap and had a dream that pulls this all together.  Ironically the time I recorded it, 3:01 am (4).

The dream was about one of those decorative,  huge vases you might see in a museum.  There was something about rearranging furniture and this vase fell over and broke.  It had been broken many times before.  There was a discussion about putting it back together but there were so many pieces.

Some words and phrases that I did the numbers for about this dream:

https://www.gematrix.org = online word/phrase calculator

Give (43) Up (39) = 80/8     Resilient = 111/3 (666 in English Gematria)  Broken (65) Vase (47) = 112/4 (4=D for Dad)

Rearrange = 87/15/6/3 cycle   Start (78) Over (60) = 138/12/3 cycle   Restart = 101/2 (# for system)  Reset = 67/13/4 (13 day I was born, 4 for D)

Forget = 71/8  (I see Christ/Devil/God, self in here)

Anger = 45/9 cycle

Forgive = 82/10/1 (I see God (26), 2 people – the one who wants to be forgiven and the one who forgives, spirit (91) and self in this)

Psychological = 145/10/1 (9 cycle is in this number for 1 person)

Psychological Shock = 201/3 cycle (part of what creates PTSD)

Shock = 56/11/2/1

Trauma = 74/11/2/1

Psychological Trauma = 219/12/3 cycle (both 22 and 19 are in here, 22 = 4 which is first letter in Dad)

Assuming KIAs accurately represented age groups serving in Vietnam, the average age of an infantryman (MOS 11B) serving in Vietnam to be 19 years old is a myth, it is actually 22 [CACF]


Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) = 368/17/8 (Eleven September Two Zero Zero One = 386)

Empath = 63/9 cycle — me    Empathy = 88/16/7

He will give his angels charge over you in all your ways – Psalm 91:11= 564/15/6/3 cycle (my Bible cover from my parents)

22 Aug 2018 – Cover of my Bible my parents gave to me many years ago.

21 Aug 2018 Exploring the meaning of 9/11 in another way – with numbers

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well.  The dialogue in words and numbers continues – just sharing!  This one you might find interesting.

21 Aug 2018 4:54 am (5:39 am)

Woke up thinking about what 9/11/2001 would mean in the numbers and I was “encouraged” to write it down, meaning I couldn’t go back to sleep. Then came the word communicate popped in so I wrote that down in the dark and tried to go back to sleep. Nope, not happening. So I got up and started working the phrases and very interesting things to be seen. This event in our shared history is something I have been trying to come to terms with ever since it happened. When I look at this, there was some sort of “plan” at work.  This is not as in depth as it could be.

I am not sharing this to upset anyone or feed any existing conspiracy theories. We’ve all have had them. I wanted to show you what the words in the events say in numerical values — to me.

A couple of “breaks” ago I found this system for myself when I was having trust issues. I then found out it’s actually something that has been done for a very long time by people far smarter than myself. Even found an online calculator to make it easier! May be how I’m different about this is I’m actually using it for practical application for problem solving in my own life.

I feel like I’m looking for a way between all of us so we can have world peace or at least a more cooperative coexistence!

Eleven (63) September (103) Two (58) Zero (64) Zero (64) One (34) = 386/17/8/4/2/1

Nine (42) Eleven (63) = 105/6/3 cycle

Communicate = 117/9 or Nine = 42/6 Six = 52/7 Seven = 65/11 Eleven = 63/9 — 9/11 is in communicate. Nine is a repeating pattern.

Message = 69/15/6/3 cycle

Warning = 86/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — With consideration, it is a “one time deal.” If you look, the number 86 is part of 386.

Plane = 48/12/3 cycle — If you look 3 is also part of 386. There were 4 planes involved in attack.

Plan = 43/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Twin Towers = 166/ 166/13/4/2/1

Bomb = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

New York City = 168/15/6/3 cycle — If you look 68 is 86 in reverse and 3 is the first number of 386.

Big Apple = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — Just like the word warning with reversed numbers.

Pentagon = 92/11/2/1 — Again, 9/11 is in the value for one of the places attacked

First Responder = 186/15/6/3 cycle — interesting how 386 is in these two words!

Osama Bin Laden = 128/11/2/1 — 9/11 can be found in his name.

Middle East War = 134/8/4/2/1 — Middle (47/11) East (45/9) War (42/6/3 cycle) — 9/11 is in here too.

Nuclear Weapons = 167/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 Nuclear (74/11) Weapons (93/12/3 cycle) — 9/11 can be found here also and the 5 value takes us up to warning

Religion = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Spirituality = 179/17/8/4/2/1

Dogma = 40/4/2/1

I = 9 cycle — interesting to find out that religion and spirituality come to the same values to include Dogma which I have associated with the difference between religion and spirituality. When I think of the letter I it makes me think of eye, of the ego, me or self.

Church = 61/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Temple = 71/8/4/2/1

Synagogue = 93/12/3 cycle

Mosque = 90/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nature = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/34/2/1 — where I feel the closest to God

Place of Worship = 166/13/4/2/1 — probably not a coincidence this matches up with Twin Towers number values.

Tower of Babel = 124/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Eyes = 54/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Eye = 35/8/4/2/1

God = 26/8/4/2/1 — Interesting how eye and God are the same values, probably not a coincidence. Just remembered a spider has eight eyes! Insect = 70/7 Spider = 71/8

(this isn’t an all inclusive list of all the names worshipped)

Jesus Christ = 151/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — Jesus (74) Christ (77)

Lucifer = 74/11/2/1

Satan = 55/10/1

Adonai = 44/8/4/2/1

Allah = 34/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — same values as Jesus Christ

Muhammed = 78/15/6/3 cycle

Buddha = 40/4/2/1

Shiva = 59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Odin = 42/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

Gaia = 18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Earth = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — there’s that 7 again!

Blood = 48/12/6/3 cycle — interesting how blood has the same numerical value as plane

Water = 67/13/4/2/1

Life = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — what do we use that makes us feel the most alive? Our 5 senses!

Death = 38/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1. Interesting how the number value of death includes 6






20 Aug 2018 Sum of the Parts (message, drawing meditation)

Hello to you.  Today has been very busy for me with the words and numbers bit.  I decided to spare you and just share what came through this evening.  What I’m doing makes sense to me,  but probably won’t to most anyone else unless they do this themselves or were sitting there with me and could hear my side of things.  Could hear my reasoning and or thought process.

So much is coming through as I examine the numeric value of words – like a story is being told to me.  When you look at how numbers correlate to creation, woman, man, child, fingers, toes, senses….it’s really beautiful!   I told Kyle today, because he was a bit worried about all my scrawling out back, that I’m fine.  This process is intensely stimulating and interesting to me.  It’s like how I felt the first few times I completed a Metatron’s Cube successfully.  I am working parts of my brain that are hungry to work this way!


mosquito = 129/12/3 cycle (this is pretty accurate lool)