Hello there. It’s 7:50 am on this Thursday morning as I write to you. I hope you are well. I had a frustrating time last night trying to get good pictures of the rare moon lol. This drawing about sums it up:
Anyhew, we then tried to watch Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Men Tell No Tales and that didn’t help my mood either. Kyle will probably be finishing it by himself. He’s more of a fan of the Pirates theme then I am. I showed Kyle the drawing I had done earlier. Many of the themes in it were like what we were watching in the movie that ironically had the Blood Moon as part of the story, “the compass in the eye”:
The dream I had before waking was interesting. There was something about a pretty girl in a library who could sing. I wanted to get to know her and get closer, but another guy was in the way blocking me. He even put his feet in my face saying in an irritated voice, “Do you mind?!” Then there was the part with other kids in the library and my telling them everything is energy, everything is alive, “Just look at the core of the earth! All living things have souls!”
This dream calls to mind the stories from the show Glee. There were many relationship rivalries to include what was going on with Corey Monteith and Mark Salling and their characters in the show. How difficult it must be for actors and actresses to just turn on and turn off their emotions. What if something real evolves but it is not reciprocated or too many would be harmed to go any further? This problem resonates with me and my own experience playing FFXI. I was married when I met Kyle online and initially we were just role playing and then it evolved. A lot of damage was done to make our relationship happen. We both have paid for our choice but do I regret it? No. That’s my honest answer. The only thing I regret, is hurting my ex-husband.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life and have had to pay for them in one way or another – my conscience, my heart and the God of my understanding won’t allow for anything else. When you do something wrong, you have to own it and do the best you can to make amends to those you have harmed in doing that wrong. You don’t pile new wrongs on top and bury things. Burying your poor choices just makes it worse.