30 Dec 2017 Shoe shopping, Work Houses and Video Game Reality (dreams)

Hello there. It’s Saturday and the new year is almost here. Yesterday evening we got a call from Zales that our rings were ready….well mine was. It was disappointing they both weren’t ready but no biggee. Since we were in a shopping area, we decided to do what we had been putting off….finding a new pair of shoes. We ended up at JcPenny’s and actually found something. Kyle was not a happy camper at how hard it’s been to find a pair of shoes for $30. Most of the shoes we looked at, even with reductions in price were in the $50 to $100+ range. What we know from our past experience, is most shoes available these days are not worth that much. We’ve had shoes we’ve paid that much for last us less than a year. Kyle doesn’t like the wild colors and all that and neither do I. We just want a simple pair of shoes! It would be nice too if the materials to make the shoes were all from repurposed materials and the people who make the shoes were being paid a livable wage.

I came up an idea for shoe and clothes shopping on our way home last night. It may already exist, but if it does, not were we live:

Imagine going to a kiosk instead of a store. If you are there to buy shoes, a digital scan is done of your feet to get precise measurements (for clothes, body scan). Then you would be given choices of different shoes. You would select the shoe you liked. Something like a 3D printer but much more advanced would make the shoe you chose and voolah! Then when the shoe wore out, you would take the used shoe to be melted down so you could get a new pair of shoes. The same line of thinking with clothes…..everything. Every single thing we bought would be able to repurposed and reused making zero waste. Eventually you would be able to get this type of thing for home use.

Lots of dreams and they may or may not make any sense to you. My waking world must have put just the right things together to make keys to unlock these dream worlds:

4:28 am

Dreamt about what I would describe as work houses where people had been murdered, shot. I passed ghost of a man who looked like he was wearing bad old-time movie makeup and a little blonde girl with pig tails. You could hear echoes of screaming. From this I was in a place with rooms full of people, almost like the work houses before the murders. Then it was sunny out and lots of people were waiting for trains. There was something about travel to Guam and having someone who looked like Scarlett Johansson (actress) guide me to the right train. Then I was a person wearing a suite and being recognized as Nikola tesla. I can remember adjusting my sleeves because they were too short. Before these dreams I can remember hearing a man’s voice in my head, “You belong to me.”

7:28 am

Dream that was like I was actually existing in a video game like FFXIV. I was able to kill large groups of enemies with AOE’s (Area of Effect). It was dark. Then there was this cute old couple, Taru types, and one of them wanted to know how to say “How do you do” so I wrote it on the ground with my finger. The dream evolved to a sort of reality with epic battles and never ending wars. People didn’t realize they weren’t really dying. There were characters on a stage that had blue refresh bars after they went down in battle. When I asked them what they remembered, they said there was a “blank.” The video game was their actual “life.”


29 Dec 2017 Before Bed Drawing and The Flash (Season 3)

29 Dec 2017 – One of my “before bed” drawings. A lot going on in this one! Like I mentioned before. When I draw I don’t usually have an idea before I start. I just draw and sometimes what comes is kind of strange lol!

Hello to you.  It’s Friday morning, 7:14 am as I start to write to you.  Hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are at this moment.  It’s still cold and overcast here after many days.  Thank goodness for my sun lamp!

Last night we finished Season 3 of The Flash (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt3107288/?ref_=nv_sr_1) and talk about some twists!  We were both crying at the end!  We think Grant Gustin is an awesome Flash (wish they used him in the movies too) and really enjoy the chemistry between all of the characters this season.   Barry (Grant Gustin)  and Iris (Candice Patton) are just beautiful together.  It was so fun they added actor Tom Felton of the Harry Potter verse to the cast.

A Mark Twain quote I hadn’t remembered seeing before came up in this final episode and I liked it so much I wrote it in my Pink Spirit book.

“The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” —Mark Twain.

Heard the song Runnin Home to You from episode 17  in my head as I was waking up this morning.  We really enjoyed this episode because it was about the power of love!  I also enjoyed it because it was a small Glee cast reunion!  The Music Meister was Darren Criss (http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2023050/?ref_=tt_cl_t14) …miss that show!



Barry and team are surprised when Mon-El and Hank Henshaw arrive on their Earth carrying a comatose Supergirl who was whammied by the Music Meister. Unable to wake her up, they turn to Team Flash to save her. However, the Music Meister surprises The Flash and puts him in a similar coma, one that Team Flash can’t cure. Kara and Barry wake up without their powers in an alternate reality where life is like a musical and the only way to escape is by following the script, complete with singing and dancing, to the end.

The Flash 3×17 Barry & Iris “Runnin’ Home To You”

Published on Mar 21, 2017

Flash 3×17 Supergirl Crossover, Song #5 Musical Episode

28 Dec 2017 Timelessness (drawing and poem) and Maksim/Royal Philharmonic Orchestra/Julian Kershaw-Somewhere in Time/The Old Woman (from Somewhere in Time)”

Timelessness by Jackie Wygant

Woven thread of blood, flesh and light

Through the particles of creation

You shine bright.

A flicker, a flash, a leaf on the wind

Where you end

I begin.

Here there is no marking a passage, just flowing through

This space to that space

Is how I always find you.


Maksim – Somewhere in Time (one of my favorite movies that I can’t watch often – just wrecks me lol!)

28 Dec 2017 Crafts, Gratitude and Destino (Flow Art Station: A Salvador Dalí and Walt Disney Collaboration Circa 1945)

Good morning to you.  How are you doing?  I’m doing pretty good.  Just trying to stay in a heartspace of gratitude today.  Flow Art Station shared this collaboration between artist Salvador Dali and Walt Disney that I had never seen before and I really enjoyed it.  Passing it on!

Destino: A Salvador Dalí and Walt Disney Collaboration Circa 1945

Destino: A Salvador Dalí and Walt Disney Collaboration Circa 1945

‘A magical display of the problem of life in the labyrinth of time.’ – d

The film Destino tells the story of Chronos, the personification of time and the inability to realize his desire to love for a mortal. The scenes blend a series of surreal paintings of Dali with dancing and metamorphosis. The poetic, wordless animation features a score by Mexican composer Armando Dominguez performed by Dora Luz.

The target production began in 1945, 58 years before its completion and was a collaboration between Walt Disney and the Spanish surrealist painter, Salvador Dalí. Salvador Dali and Walt Disney Destiny was produced by Dali and John Hench for 8 months between 1945 and 1946. Dali, at the time, Hench described as a “ghostly figure” who knew better than Dali or the secrets of the Disney film. For some time, the project remained a secret. The work of painter Salvador Dali was to prepare a six-minute sequence combining animation with live dancers and special effects for a movie in the same format of “Fantasia.” Dali in the studio working on The Disney characters are fighting against time, the giant sundial that emerges from the great stone face of Jupiter and that determines the fate of all human novels. Dalí and Hench were creating a new animation technique, the cinematic equivalent of “paranoid critique” of Dali. Method inspired by the work of Freud on the subconscious and the inclusion of hidden and double images. Dalí said: “Entertainment highlights the art, its possibilities are endless.” The plot of the film was described by. Dalí as “A magical display of the problem of life in the labyrinth of time.” Walt Disney said it was “A simple story about a young girl in search of true love.”

“Destino” by Walt Disney and Salvador Dali (1945-2003)

20th Century Time Machine

Published on Jul 11, 2016

Destino is an animated short film released in 2003 by The Walt Disney Company. Destino is unique in that its production originally began in 1945, 58 years before its eventual completion. The project was originally a collaboration between Walt Disney and Spanish Surrealist painter Salvador Dalí, and features music written by Mexican songwriter Armando Dominguez and performed by Dora Luz. It was included in the Animation Show of Shows in 2003.

A prayer for you today:

May you be filled with loving kindness.
May you be well.
May you be peaceful and at ease.
May you be happy.

ancient – tibetan buddhist – blessing

27 Dec 2017 Peace Fragile As Glass and Metallica – The Unforgiven (Video)

Hello to you.  It’s 7:55 am as I write from here.  Another gray and cold day it looks like!  We had a nice holiday with Kyle’s family and got to see Link’s (and ours) family for a short visit before they headed back to Oklahoma.  Erin talked me into reactivating my Facebook account to keep in touch.  I went through and basically sterilized whatever I’m following.  Got what shows up in my feed to mostly just family and friends versus famous people who don’t have anything to do with the pages in their names.  I’m sure I won’t be missed lol.  I also whittled out a bunch of other stuff that I allow to depress and anger me.  Testing the waters!  I go back in knowing full well that I chose to do so.

This morning I had something interesting happen when I tried to attach a star to a tree of life I had made that hangs on my bathroom mirror.  Just as I tried to attach the “broken star”, the glass peace symbol I’ve shared here before fell off and shattered!  I cut myself trying to pick up the pieces.  Is this symbolic or what?!  It was to me.  Peace is as fragile as glass and if you wreck it, there is bloodshed!


David Mitchell

“Glass & peace alike betray proof of fragility under repeated blows.”

David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

Yesterday I moved a bunch of “my stuff” into what was Amber and May’s room aka “the cat room”.  When I tried to remove the cat tree, I felt what I would describe as a “claw to my heart” and I burst into tears!  Yep….felt a physical pain in my heart at the mere thought of removing the tree.  So that tells me I’m still grieving and need to wait before passing the tree on to our friend Rhonda’s two cat boys Gio and Cocoa!
Dreamt about going to see Metallica this morning.  What’s funny is Kyle is the one who has seen them live!
Metallica – The Unforgiven (Video)

METALLICA – The Unforgiven Lyrics


Album: The Black Album

Genre: Rock

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he’s subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on

He’s known, a vow unto his own
That never from this day, his will they’ll take away

What I’ve felt, what I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never be, never see
Won’t see what might have been

What I’ve felt, what I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never free, never me
So I dub thee unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is

Throughout his life the same
He’s battled constantly
This fight, he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares

The old man then prepares
To die regretfully, that old man here is me

What I’ve felt, what I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never be, never see
Won’t see what might have been

What I’ve felt, what I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never free, never me
So I dub the unforgiven

You labeled me, I’ll label you
So I dub the unforgiven

24 Dec 2017 Drawings, Holiday songs (David Bowie and Elvis Presley) and Hope Is A Thing With Feathers (poem by Emily Dickinson)

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are.   Not much to write to you about.  If you celebrate the holidays, I hope everything goes as you have hoped and planned.  Perhaps even grown an extra gray hair or two to make happen lol!   Thank you for stopping by!  I give you big hugs, love and all the very best the world can give to you through the wires!

http://www.history.com/topics/christmas/history-of-christmasinteresting read about the origin of this holiday

Bing Crosby & David Bowie – “The Little Drummer Boy (Peace On Earth)”

Elvis Presley – – Blue Christmas – – – 1968 – – {Live} – (the year I got here lol)

Hope Is The Thing With Feathers – Poem by Emily Dickinson

‘Hope’ is the thing with feathers—
That perches in the soul—
And sings the tune without the words—
And never stops—at all—

And sweetest—in the Gale—is heard—
And sore must be the storm—
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm—

I’ve heard it in the chillest land—
And on the strangest Sea—
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb—of Me.


23 Dec 2017 The Eraser, Amber and May visit (dream), “Farm Fresh”, Time Travelers (1964 Ib Melchior film) and Elon Musk over Los Angeles

Hello to you. How are you doing in your time as you visit me in mine?  Ready for the holidays?  Ready for the holidays to be over?  Yeah….I fit into the second category as I write to you now,  but I know once we get around family it will feel more like it’s almost Christmas.

22 Dec 2017 – Almost immediately after asking God what my purpose was on a walk alone in the neighborhood I found this…a simple eraser. Hmmm.

It was wet, cold and gray yesterday but I needed a walk so I took one alone around the neighborhood.  I was thinking about the “what’s my purpose” question and outright asked God, “What is my purpose?!”  Almost right after I asked that I found a almost brand new eraser on the curb in front of me.  I asked Kyle what he made of this after I got home.  He said it could mean trying to correct or fix mistakes.  That resonated with me as it feels like much of my life has been about fixing my mistakes and those I see in the world.   I don’t feel like I’ve been altogether very good at this, almost an enabler in some respects, but I’ll keep trying.   I was reminded of a music group I used to enjoy called Erasure:

Erasure A Little Respect (Official Video)

Yesterday evening I decided to go into what has been the “cat room” or Amber and May’s room for the past 8 years.  Since May died, I’ve had the door to the room shut most of the time and the only reason I’ve gone in there was to clean.  I took my cards in there and did a reading while listening to some music.  It was hard to be in that room without my girls being there anymore!


Well last night they came to me in my dreams.  It wasn’t like dreams I’ve had before with those I’ve loved and lost.  This was more like an echo or memory.  It wasn’t interactive.  I didn’t feel their presence.  May’s right ear was shiny like there was some sort of ointment in it like we had to use on Amber when she had an ear infection.  They weren’t in a place I recognized ever being.

I dreamt about a girl hiding out in a hotel and having to keep moving to stay hidden and it was quite involved but I can’t remember anything more than a big man walking across a parking lot.

I dreamt about my neighbor having a huge gray black white and tan dog that came over to me in my yard.  Then it took off running across the street to the field behind us where there was a huge bull with white curly hair on it’s face (cow).  My neighbor was in his backyard and started yelling at the dog as it took off running, “Andrade!  Andrade!” (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrade – I knew Andrade’s when I was stationed in Germany).  The dog just kept on going.  As it approached the cow I said, “It’s going to get kicked”  as I thought the cow would surely kick it with how close it got to the cow.  It didn’t.  Just before I woke up I saw, “farmfresh.com” in my mind’s eye.  Weird.

(I was curious to see if there was actually a real web site and found this : http://farmfresh.com/:

Farmington Fresh Story

Nick Rajkovich, father and inspiration for Farmington Fresh. C. 1956

Since 1995 Farmington Fresh has been perfecting apple growing and slicing. We are a proud company with generations rooted in the CA orchards. Farmington Fresh continues the farming tradition of being family owned and operated today.

We are proud of our history as one of the first companies to slice and package fresh fruit. Our team is constantly developing new ideas to offer an exciting array of items. From our sliced sweet red apples and grapes to our broccoli florets and celery; we at Farmington Fresh pride ourselves in maintaining our commitment to quality in all of our products.

We believe good food can be convenient without sacrificing health by bringing the farm to you. We offer a full product line of fresh cut value-added fruits and vegetables.

Changing gears……

Last nights Mystery Science Theater 3000 film was The Time Travelers and we actually really enjoyed it!  We both agreed this would be worth a modern reinterpretation.  The premise of the film and it’s theme’s were very resonant and plausible to the direction we seem to be headed in our current times.  Especially the “man’s folly” being the cause of why the Earth was destroyed, it’s people turned into mutants and why we would have to find another inhabitable planet.     

The Time Travelers (1964) Trailer – Color / 2:18 mins

Published on Jan 17, 2017

The Time Travelers (aka Time Trap) is a 1964 science fiction film directed by B-movie director Ib Melchior. It stars Preston Foster, Philip Carey, Merry Anders, Steve Franken, John Hoyt and Delores Wells. The cast also includes superfan Forrest J. Ackerman in one of his many bit roles in science fiction films. The film inspired the 1966 TV series The Time Tunnel as well as the 1967 remake Journey to the Center of Time.

.In 1964, a group of scientists create a portal that takes them to a barren, mutant inhabited, Earth in the year 2071.

For further movie mayhem;

This morning I saw this and felt it tied in perfectly to sharing about the movie.  If I had seen it with my own eyes, I would have hoped the same thing was happening.  Aliens finally come to help us fix this mess but alas it was only a test of the escape pod


Los Angeles freaks out over ‘UFO’ sightings

By Selim Algar

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December 22, 2017 | 9:47pm

A space satellite launch sparked a brief UFO scare in Los Angeles Friday night after startled viewers gawked at an unidentifiable streak of light soaring across the night sky.

Observers flooded Twitter with pictures and videos of the strange vessel and they speculated that aliens were finally making their long-awaited debut.

Others braced themselves for extraterrestrial visitation and chided non-believers for ever doubting the presence of life beyond the stars.

“Everyone is Downtown LA was pretty freaked out,” reported one witness on Twitter, adding that crowds cocked their heads skyward to view the phenomenon.

But to a mix of relief and disappointment, other Tweeters quickly debunked the UFO theory, noting that the jellyfish-shaped object was in fact part of Elon Musk’s SpaceX satellite fleet.

The Falcon 9 booster rocket – which carried 10 satellites – launched from Vandenburg Air Force Base around 5:30 p.m. California time en route to destinations across the globe.

‘Elon Musk just scared the f*** out of me!” tweeted one shaken Los Angeleno.

“For 10 minutes I was under the impression that the Aliens had finally come,” said another user in a tweet to the tech innovator. “It was kind of a letdown but still, thank you for the experience.”


SpaceX ‘UFO’ Sighting Over Los Angeles Sparks Fear Of Alien Invasion (Elon Musk’s Marketing Stunt?)


22 Dec 2017 Casting parts – All the World is a Stage (Dream)….Time (Hans Zimmer)

*edited 17 Jan 2018

Hello to you.  It’s 6:35 am in my here and now and it’s raining again.  I looked out and the handsome man I had drawn yesterday was washed away.  A space made for a new drawing….fresh canvas when the weather finally clears.  Not complaining about the weather – very grateful for the rain in light of California being burned to ash.  I’m pretty sure they would welcome our steady rains!

The dreams were interesting and in unusual fashion, kept to a particular theme – role casting.  I’m not quite sure what part was being cast but there were lots of phone calls being made.  A message that came through was how if you keep casting the same people, big names, you never get new talent.  New talent never gets a chance.  There was something about a woman with a circle.  The words “green tea” or “green toe” were written around the circle.  Then I heard a bell tone or chime sound like I’ve heard before but it was in the dream not with my ears like before.  What came to me was this dream wasn’t just about the arts – movie casting – this is about all parts people are cast for.  It’s about giving people a chance.  The world is a stage came to me after I finished jotting my notes.

Yesterday when I was out looking at the clouds and talking to the God of my understanding as I often do, I was thinking about this subject.  How it feels like we are all born to play a part and even equipped to do it but once we “get here” we aren’t always allowed to manifest into those parts.  We are obstructed either by the world or by our own personal acts of sabotage.   Then we get to where I am, about mid-life, look in the mirror with the world racing beyond us and can sometimes feel useless and like a waste of flesh.   It is so rare in this world to see people who get to “just be” who they were always meant to be.

“What the fuck am I here for anyways?!  I thought I knew but everyone said no….then I began to say no too…and here I am in the knowing of what “no” truly means.  We don’t have all the time in the world to build and live our dreams.  Mortality, the cruel rub of sentient-hood.”

Anyhew…..in my own way, I’m finding a way to truly manifest completely into who I was sent here to be in spite of obstructions outside of me or inside of me.  God is very patient with me, the long-time patient.


As You Like It, Act II, Scene VII [All the world’s a stage]

William Shakespeare, 1564 – 1616

Jaques to Duke Senior

All the world’s a stage,

And all the men and women merely players;

They have their exits and their entrances,

And one man in his time plays many parts,

His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,

Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.

Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel

And shining morning face, creeping like snail

Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,

Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad

Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier,

Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,

Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,

Seeking the bubble reputation

Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice,

In fair round belly with good capon lined,

With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,

Full of wise saws and modern instances;

And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts

Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,

With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;

His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide

For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,

Turning again toward childish treble, pipes

And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,

That ends this strange eventful history,

Is second childishness and mere oblivion,

Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

Lines 139-166. This poem is in the public domain.

I chose a couple different examples of people speaking this work out loud.

Monologues by Pedro Louis “All the world’s a stage.”

All the World’s A Stage (The Seven Stages of Man) – Shrewsbury School Variety Show 2014

Hans Zimmer – Time

21 Dec 2017 New bands (Zales) and Reptilicus (1961 Danish-American giant monster film about a prehistoric reptile)

Hello.  How are you?  I’m doing o.k.  It’s been kind of an emotional few days for me.  Christmas as an adult has always been tricky for me and as I get older it gets more and more so.  I did write Christmas cards this year and we bought a couple of things, but we didn’t put up the tree or any lights outside like in years past.  Our gift to each other this year is replacement wedding bands as Kyle split his in half a few months ago!  I don’t think it was a need but we wanted them.   We should have them in time for our “real” anniversary which is 31 Dec.

20 Dec 2017 – We got these at Zales.  The ring on the left is Kyle’s new band made of Tungsten Carbide and mine with Celtic weave is stainless steel. The white gold bands we had just didn’t hold up and Kyle corrodes sterling silver.

We “need” to replace our side fence.  The neighbor dogs reminded me this morning by busting yet another hole in the rotten thing!  I’m amazed the damn thing is still holding up at all anymore lol!   That will be the big expense for the next outage if our neighbors don’t decide to do it sooner.

11 Oct 2017 – As you can see, several methods by the neighbors and ourselves are currently being employed to try and keep the dogs out of our yard until either one of us can afford to truly fix the fence.

Last night’s Mystery Science Theater 3000 movie was the Danish-American film Reptilicus.  We managed to watch the whole thing.  Kyle and I both felt like it was a bit like watching Dracula in a way….just a huge reptile instead.   We are really enjoying the latest installments of the MSTK3000!

Reptilicus – Trailer


Reptilicus is a 1961 Danish-American giant monster film about a prehistoric reptile. The film was produced by American International Pictures and Saga Studio, and separate versions were released in Denmark and in the United States.

The original Danish-language version was directed by Danish director Poul Bang and released in Denmark on February 25, 1961.

The American version, which was in English with a nearly identical cast, was directed by the film’s American producer-director Sidney W. Pink; this version was initially deemed virtually unreleasable by American International Pictures and had to be extensively reworked by the film’s Danish-American screenwriter, Ib Melchior, before being finally released in America in 1962. Pink was angry at the changes and wound up in a legal dispute with AIP.[1] After Pink and others viewed the English-language version, the lawsuit was dropped.[2]

21 Dec 2017 – Drawing this afternoon.

God to enfold me,
God to surround me,
God in my speaking,
God in my thinking.

God in my sleeping,
God in my waking,
God in my watching,
God in my hoping.

God in my life,
God in my lips,
God in my soul,
God in my heart.

God in my sufficing,
God in my slumber,
God in mine ever-living soul,
God in mine eternity.

ancient celtic oral traditions – carmina gadelica

20 Dec 2017 Close Encounters of the Human Kind With Music (Dream)

Blade Runner – Rachael & piano

Blade Runner – Memories Of Green (Piano)

Hello to you.  It’s 4:39 am and I couldn’t go back to sleep after waking from a dream.  It was of hearing the scales being played on a piano over and over.  When I tried to dismiss it and go back to sleep,  I heard in my head, “prelude to a peace accord.”  Then I remembered how surprised I was back in May of this year to see of all people, Vladimir Putin, sitting down to play piano!

Putin Plays The Piano

I know Close Encounters was just a movie, but the idea within it about how to communicate with people we don’t know or understand through simple musical tones really makes sense to me.  Words and pictures can me misinterpreted.  Written words and pictures can be manipulated to mean things they were not originally intended to mean.  Ultimately doing more harm than good.  Every walk of life on this planet sings.   If we focus on what we have in common more than how we are different,  it could be a prelude to peace in this world.

Close Encounters of the Third Kind — “Tones”

23 July 2016 the process today — getting fancy!

747 am – I made this after I did the post this morning. It’s my interpretation of the love of music via Treble Clef.

20 Dec 2017 – I made this tree pendant yesterday with Kyle and my birthstones (February and July) and the key was a charm I bought when Kyle and I first met. Part of it broke off and it’s been a skeleton key ever since. Symbolic to me of no doors that cannot be opened when you use your heart.