Hello to you. It’s 4:35 pm on this Friday afternoon. I just finished a drawing outside and the process really helped me with the depression and anxiety I haven’t been able to shake today. Just one of those sort of days. It’s ok to have days where your spirit sticks out!
A couple of my friends have expressed interest in my doing one of these chalk drawings for them on a canvas. Initially I was very flattered about that but then I got flustered inside when I really gave it more thought! I decided to explain to them, with Kyle’s help as he understands my processes, that when I am doing these types of drawings on our patio out back, it’s kind of like what Buddhist monks and Native American people do as a spiritual meditation with sand. The works are not meant to be permanent but just an expression of the spirit….just passing through. The most permanent my chalk drawings are is with the pictures I take or sometimes, if I really want to keep an image, I’ll draw and color it on paper. Usually the drawings aren’t as “moving” as the original chalk piece. So when people ask me to do what I do here on a canvas and for money it gets me flustered inside! I haven’t ever been able to really get comfortable with getting paid for anything I do of a spiritual nature…..what comes doesn’t belong to me….doesn’t belong to any one person. So I have talked to the God of my understanding about this matter today, “God do you want me to make money with art?” and we will see.
Like I explained to my friends, this began as me trying to find a very inexpensive, impermanent way to express myself…to meditate and focus my mind. Drawing has been, for most of my life, a therapeutic way to get back to center when life scrambles me up. When I draw outside like I do, I just let it flow and if I draw something I’m not happy with, all I have to do is turn on the water hose and wash it away…..start over! There is a part of me that is kind of intimidated by the thought of painting on canvas…..what if I fuck it up?! LOL! For those who are artists, painters specifically, you know how expensive a hobby it can be!
One of my friends recently told me she felt my drawings had healing properties so there is a part of me thinking that if I could make some of these images on a canvas and it helped people wouldn’t that be a loving and positive thing?
So we’ll see what answers come now about this dilemma! Any suggestions (Dymoon?)
Article I found that is a great example of what I am trying to explain about what I do: