Good evening to you. I have had kind of a surreal day. I just mostly wanted to sleep and did so for most of it! Kyle assures me they are almost done with this outage and for his sake I hope so. We had an ice pack on his neck tonight because it was hurting him so bad. He said it felt like someone had hit him on the neck with a baseball bat! The pain in his next went from the inside to the outside! Between me, Peppermint oil and an ice pack we got him some mobility back but he’s still in a lot of pain. He knows about how pain is usually a physical manifestation of something emotional and or spiritual. I told him I think what’s been going on in his throat and neck is a physical manifestation of his having been so anxious and worried about being perfect for this outage. The night shift aspect I’m sure hasn’t been helping his immune system either. We can do any number of external things to assuage the physical pain but to truly negate it, the inside aspect of why the pain exists must be dealt with too. That I can’t help him with!
The past couple days I’ve drawn a symbol on my hand and then this morning it became a chalk drawing. Not sure what it can mean but the 1-2-3-4 “Dance” part does mean something to me. Sometimes when I’m really into my music and movement that I do outside or the “zone”, I’ll notice an effortless pattern, like a dance going on all around me. It’s like you count to 4 and a bird will appear and again a car will go by and again a plane will fly overhead and again an insect will buzz by and so on. It’s pretty cool!
I typed up the Streams in the Desert reading for today because it’s about one of my favorite subjects – Faith!
Over the years I’ve had to let go of how I used to pray about things. In the past I was so specific and put way too much “mind” into things and then I wondered why my prayers seemed to go unheard! When you attach expectations to something like a prayer and your expectations aren’t met….well it feels like what’s the point of praying! You can develop a resentment towards the God of your understanding. Well God isn’t a lotto machine or a wishing well! I had to learn that one too! The way I pray now about anything is very simple, “I pray for the greatest, most loving good for (person, place or thing). Not as I would have it, but as you would.” Then I just let go! More prayers I’ve said with no strings attached have been answered then ever with me still holding on. It’s takes time for God to answer prayers too….God is not a Genie in a bottle either where things just instantly change or get taken care of! Along with Faith you must find Patience….letting God be God and getting out of the way of the spiritual work that needs to happen for our prayers to be answered.
Remember: Spiritual forces cannot work while earthly forces are active (18 April msg)
April 24 – Streams in the Desert, Cowman Publications, Inc.
“Faith is…..the evidence of things not seen.” (Heb. 11:1)
True faith drops its letter in the post office box, and lets it go. Distrust holds on to a corn of it, and wonders that the answer never comes. I have some letters in my desk that have been written for weeks, but there was some slight uncertainty about the address or the contents, so they are yet unmailed. They have not done either me or anybody else any good yet. They will never accomplish anything until I let them go out of my hands and trust them to the postman and the mail.
This the way with true faith. It hands its case over to God, and then He works. That is a fine verse in the Thirty seventh Psalm: “Commit thy way unto the Lord, trust also in Him, and He worketh.” But He never worketh till we commit. Faith is a receiving or better still, a taking of God’s proffered gifts. We may not believe, and come and commit, and rest; but we will not full realize all our blessings until we begin to receive and come int the attitude of abiding and taking. -Days of Heaven upon Earth.
Dr. Payson, when a young man, wrote as follows, to an aged mother, burdened with intense anxiety on account of the condition of her son; “You give yourself too much trouble about him. After you have prayed for him, as you have done, and committed him to God, should you not cease to feel anxious respecting him? The command, “Be careful for nothing,” is unlimited; and so is the expression “Casting all your care on him.” If we cast our burdens upon another, can they continue to press upon us? If we bring them away with us from the Throne of Grace, is it evident we do not leave them there. With respect to myself, I have made this one test of my prayers: if after committing anything to God, I can, like Hannah, come away and have my mind no more sad, my heart no more pained or anxious, I look upon it as one proof that I have prayed in faith; if I bring away my burden, I conclude that faith was not in exercise.”
*As I write at 9:25 pm the Hum vibration in the house is really strong – so frustrating!