31 Aug 2016 Cosmic Procreation (Drawing for today…me shutting up and coloring) and Prayer lists

31 Aug 2016 - Hello!

31 Aug 2016 – Hello!

Hello to you!  It’s about 2:36 pm here as I start to write to you on this partially cloudy, better air outside Wednesday.  I was actually able to spend some time outside without having that bitter taste on my mouth and difficulty breathing, headache, nausea stuff!  I’m grateful for a reprieve even if it was short.  I haven’t been feeling 100% an need to be in tip top shape for Friday’s concert at the Meyerson in Dallas — Final Fantasy Distant Worlds!!!  Last night I had terrible pains in my stomach which I’m thinking was a case of too many black beans lool and I just felt so sick.  With the help of my rose and clear crystal quartz crystals, amethyst crystal cluster and my plasma vile and this mantra that came out of seemingly nowhere (I’ve include it in the drawing I did this afternoon and am sharing here) I am feeling much better!   My crystal sisters helping me out once again!

Anyhew….there is a lot going on in the drawing today.  As I’ve mentioned many times before, these drawings I do are just whatever comes to me, I just “shut up and color” lol.  The numbers are just what I heard in my head and wrote down.  I have absolutely no idea what they mean and they are probably are just numbers.  The “women” in the middle is symbolic of the passing down of a gift through generations….the gift activated by the fusion of internal and external light…light activation for cosmic procreation.  It is inspired by Philip K Dick’s Ubik and Exegesis books.  I feel like by my interaction with the “shinies” whether they be in the sky or on the ground has activated positive insight within me.    The “Potential” is about what dark matter is to me, it is the space in between being a mere possibility and actual existence….the gap between a thought and an action….hence the word “potential” aka a “possibility.”   

The spirals are all the bazillions of galaxies we’ve recently discovered exist an the idea that came to me, and I’ve written about this before: https://saymber.com/2015/04/21/21-april-2015-the-age-of-hubble-are-we-responsible-for-expanding-the-universe/  , that the more we look for other planets, stars, galaxies….answers to the riddles of existence the more we are going to find.  It used to be just a few people looking and now we have LOTS of people with varying degrees of technology (the ability to probe space) looking….what you focus on expands.  If we didn’t look, it wouldn’t exist, because we look, it exists.  Kind of the age old if a tree falls in the forest does it make a sound if no one is there to hear it?  It probably does but there is no proof it did…..we suspect there are other worlds out there but until we looked, there was no proof.  So did they exist only because we looked or were they always there?  Definitely a riddle lol.

My prayer lists for past couple of days…..you will notice that there are people and places listed on here that people would question why I would include them…..remember on my lists there is no judgement, they are neither “good” nor “evil” ….they just are and entered my consciousness enough to make it to the list.    The way this works for me is I can be perusing the news, listening to the radio, driving in the car, walking down the street, talking to a friend or family member, a person, place or thing will just “pop” in my head so I write it down….random.

My prayer list the past couple of days.  Today I took out the world map and just meditated on all of it both geographically and names of places.  I think I need an updated map as I realize a lot has changed since the one I have.

My prayer list the past couple of days. Today I took out the world map and just meditated on all of it both geographically and names of places. I think I need an updated map as I realize a lot has changed since the one I have.




30 Aug 2016 My drawing for today, pink spirit book messages and why are there shiny dots all over my brand new plant sprouts after a rain (possible cloud seeding fallout?!)

Hi there.  How is your day going?  Me?  For the most part it’s been a good day until I went out to look at my baby plants I’ve shared with you recently and found the same shiny silver dots all over their leaves after a rain like I’ve mentioned before that I noticed on our trees.

Well come to find out, for cloud seeding they use an material call silver iodide, which doesn’t completely dissolve in water!  Is this the culprit?!  The only way to know for sure would be a lab test of the plants which is worth considering!  The last time we had an environmental lab test was for mold in our bathroom and it was almost $800!  Ouch!

We had noticed this same material getting on our car windshield and our house windows for most of the 6 years we’ve lived here.  Just this past year or so I noticed this shiny substance was showing up on the leaves of our plants and trees too.  I wondered if it was bugs or slug trails or something else but they are too uniform in shape and form.   Some of the dots were brown so I thought it was just artillery fungus at work but the dots on the brand new plants are clear and shiny.   Are the cloud seedings spreading too much “seed” – are we drinking, eating and breathing this stuff?  It wouldn’t be such a big deal if only a few places were engaged in this activity but it’s happening all over the world.  This takes a small exposure to a major, long term exposure especially if they’ve been doing it since the late 1940’s!

Tell me, what’s the point of making rain so we have water if the water and everything that uses the water is poisoned?!  Doesn’t make any sense at all to me! 

It’s starting to get to the point I don’t even want to go outside or even let our dogs out for extended periods of time.   I am concerned about my fellow citizens that work outside and are subjected to this environmental issue all day long, day after day – people with fossil fuel jobs, home construction, road construction, utility workers, our children who play outside at school and at home…play sports.

Am I blowing this out of proportion and making a big deal out of nothing…..no….my intuition tells me this is exactly what someone needs to do.  An ordinary person like me who is paying attention to what’s going on in her world and trying to help her fellow world citizens….all of them….even the people flying the planes spreading this stuff all over.    This world belongs to all of us!



Silver iodide is an inorganic compound with the formula AgI. The compound is a bright yellow solid, but samples almost always contain impurities of metallic silver that give a gray coloration. The silver contamination arises because AgI is highly photosensitive. This property is exploited in silver-based photography. Silver iodide is also used as an antiseptic and in cloud seeding.

From what I read from the pdf file I found from the Weather Modification folks, http://weathermodification.com/:

What are the environmental consequences of weather modification?

Environmental impact from cloud seeding operations can be broken into two categories:
##The effects of the chemical seeding agents used for the programs
##The impacts of precipitation changes

Environmental Impact from Cloud Seeding Agents
The active ingredient in cold cloud seeding agents is silver iodide,  or AgI. Unlike ionic silver, the silver iodide compound is very stable, essentially inert. Numerous studies have been conducted that clearly demonstrate its safety. Even projects operated for decades have experienced no adverse environmental impacts because of silver iodide. Additional information about the safety of silver iodide, is found in many studies and reports. The active ingredient in warm cloud seeding is simple salt, either sodium chloride (NaCl, table salt), or calcium chloride (CaCl). Both are found abundantly in the environment; sea spray releases millions of tons of NaCl into the atmosphere annually.

Environmental Impact of Precipitation Changes
The effects of cloud seeding on precipitation are typically on the order of 10%, while seasonal natural variability may be as much as a factor of two. When viewed in this context, the seasonal effects resulting from increased precipitation are negligible.


Silver Iodide Toxicity – Weather Modification Association
http://www.weathermodification.org/images/AGI_toxicity.pdfyou can download it yourself here


The Weather Modification Association (WMA) is occasionally asked to comment on questions regarding the environmental effects of silver iodide aerosols used in cloud seeding, which include silver iodide aerosol complexes such as silver iodide-silver chloride.  Silver iodide is the primary component of silver iodide-based ice-nucleating complexes used in cloud seeding, and all these complexes will be referred to as silver iodide (AgI) in this statement.  The published scientific literature clearly shows no environmentally harmful effects arising from cloud seeding with silver iodide aerosols have been observed; nor would they be expected to occur.  Based on this work, the WMA finds that silver iodide is environmentally safe as it is currently being dispensed during cloud seeding programs.

Silver and chemical compounds containing silver are used by various industries and small portions of this silver are emitted into the environment as a process waste product. Industrial sources were much larger in the past than they are today; notable sources include silver emissions from the photographic and electrochemical plating industries, urban refuse, sewage treatment plants, specialty metal alloy production and electrical components.   In 1978 an estimated 2,740 metric tons (metric ton = 1,000 kg) of silver were released into the US environment. This led the US Health Services and EPA to conduct studies regarding the potential for environmental and human health hazards related to silver.  These agencies and other state agencies applied the Clean Water Act of 1977 and 1987 to establish regulations on this type of pollution.  Standards were established for industry and laboratory disposal practices of drain water into sewer systems, safe silver limits in the public water supply, and thresholds of adverse effects of silver on the biosphere.  In 1978 cloud seeding activities were the source of about three metric tons of silver (as silver iodide) released into the environment, or about 0.1 per cent of the total (Eisler 1996).  About the same amount of silver iodide is being used annually for cloud seeding activities in the U.S. and Canada today.   Cloud seeding activities release silver iodide to the atmosphere over specific areas of the western states of the U.S., Canada and some other areas around the globe to augment rainfall, augment snowfall or reduce hail damage.  Environmental impact studies related to silver iodide usage in cloud seeding were conducted starting in the 1960s and continue to be conducted today; all findings to date indicate no adverse environmental and human health impacts (ASCE 2004, 2006; WMA 2005; WMO 2007).

How much silver is released into the environment by cloud seeding?

Silver iodide is usually sold by commercial chemical company distributors in granular or powder form.  It is used in combination with various other chemicals, most often salts, and has been used for half a century as a glaciogenic agent (microscopic sized particles, referred to as ice nuclei, ice forming nuclei, or occasionally freezing nuclei, that spawn ice crystal formation). Silver Iodide is considered water insoluble (solubility constant at 10-9 g[of Ag] g-1 [of solventwater]; see units note), which means that if one gram of the chemical is added to one gram of water, roughly one billionth of that gram of silver iodide would dissolve in to the water; the remainder will stay in the water undissolved. This property allows the silver iodide particles to maintain their structure prior to contact with supercooled (colder than freezing) cloud droplets.  Silver iodide, as used in cloud seeding, is either dissolved in a flammable solution or combined with other flammable solids to produce seeding flares or other devices, which are burned to release submicron-sized, virtually invisible, silver iodide aerosol complexes into the atmosphere.  These complexes are plentiful in number and increase the probability of ice crystals forming when they reach cloud environments at temperatures near or colder than the AgI ice nucleation (or crystallization) temperature threshold (about -5°C).

This is significantly warmer than the threshold of most naturally occurring ice-forming nuclei, which commonly have thresholds near 15°C and colder.   Only small quantities of seeding material are released from individual cloud seeding generators typically in the range of 5-25 grams of silver iodide per hour from ground generators and up to a few kilograms per hour from aircraft depending on the size of the target area.  Moreover, this is being done only during certain periods and locations of precipitation-producing weather systems.   The reason that such small quantities can be used is that AgI dispensing systems generally produce up to 1015 (see power of 10’s note) ice forming nuclei per gram of AgI expended (e.g., ASCE 2004, 2006).  This means small amounts of AgI seeding material can produce tremendous numbers of ice crystal seeds that can create ice crystals, which can grow into snowflakes. The insolubility of AgI is a crucial factor for such small particles that allows them to maintain their identity (structure) intact and not condense water (and thus lose their structure) inside a cloud droplet.  Without this property there would be no cloud seeding effect.   As a metric of cloud seeding chemicals, silver concentrations have been measured in the snowpack of several cloud seeding target areas in the western U. S.  The average concentrations throughout the snowpack have generally ranged from 4-20 x 10-12 g[of Ag] g-1[of solvent-water], rarely exceeding 100.0 x 10-12 g g-1 (Warburton et al. 1995a,b, 1996; McGurty 1999).  Since seeding clouds could lead to rain (if snowflakes melt during their fall to earth) measurements of seeding chemical concentrations in the rainwater have also been done and found to be in similarly low concentrations (e.g., Sanchez et al. 1999).

Why is there concern about using silver iodide in cloud seeding?
It is well established that silver in some forms can be toxic to lower organisms without being toxic to higher animals (Kotrba 1968).  Numerous controlled laboratory studies have shown that silver, silver nitrate and even silver iodide when added to laboratory aquariums, even at trace levels, can be toxic to some fish and other aquatic life when exposed over long time periods; the toxicity is related to specific compounds, concentrations and other factors such as water hardness, etc (e.g., Davies & Goettl 1978).  However, these laboratory conditions bear little resemblance to outdoor freshwater bodies where the mobility of any of these silver compounds is essentially zero and these compounds are rapidly converted to less toxic compounds by the presence of other chemicals found in nature. Hence, they are not freely bio-available to the environment. Laboratory results derived from biological studies cannot be taken to imply any meaningful information about silver iodide used in cloud seeding because its insoluble nature makes it nearly impossible to dissociate sufficiently or rapidly enough to ever achieve toxic levels. Meaningful evaluation must include the specifics of the chemical form of silver (i.e., ionic silver, silver nitrate, silver iodide), the quantities involved, and the chemical, even physical, nature of the environment. Hence, care must be taken when comparing the potential impact of silver iodide on the environment as used in cloud seeding programs with the impact of silver or soluble silver  in laboratory settings, which are not representative of the natural environment where cloud seeding is conducted.

Basis for asserting that cloud seeding using silver iodide has negligible environmental impact.

The potential environmental impacts of cloud seeding programs using silver iodide have been studied since the 1960s. These studies have all concluded that ice-nucleating agents, specifically silver iodide as used in cloud seeding, represent a negligible environmental hazard, (i.e., findings of no significant effects on plants and animals), (e.g., Cooper & Jolly 1970; Howell 1977; Klein 1978; Dennis 1980; Harris 1981; Todd & Howell 1985; Berg 1988; Reinking et al. 1995;  Eliopoulos & Mourelatos 1998; Ouzounidou & Constantinidou 1999; Di Toro et al. 2001; Bianchini et al. 2002; Tsiouris et al. 2002a; Tsiouris et al. 2002b; Christodoulou et al. 2004; Edwards et al. 2005; Keyes et al. 2006; Williams & Denholm 2009).   The U.S. Public Health Service established a concentration limit of 50 micrograms of silver per liter of water in public water supply to protect human health (e.g., Erdreich et al. 1985). The concentrations of silver potentially introduced by modern cloud seeding efforts are significantly less than this level. The literature embodies tens of thousands of samples collected from cloud seeding program areas over a thirty-year period showing the average concentration of silver in rainwater, snow and surface water samples is typically less than 0.01 micrograms per liter.  More importantly, these measurements represent the total amount of silver contained in any given sample and are not specific to the form of silver present in a sample.  Nevertheless, these measurements show that silver is virtually undetectable in any form in the vast majority of the tens of thousands of samples collected from these areas. More than 100 Sierra Nevada lakes and rivers have been studied since the 1980’s (e.g., Stone 1986); no detectable silver above the natural background was found in seeded target area water bodies, precipitation and lake sediment samples, nor any evidence of silver accumulation after more than fifty years of continuous seeding operations (Stone 1995; Stone 2006). Many of these alpine lakes have virtually no buffering capacity, making them extremely susceptible to the effects of acidification and sensitive to changes in trace metal chemistry.  Therefore studies were conducted as part of environmental monitoring efforts to determine if cloud seeding was impacting these lakes. No evidence was found that silver from seeding operations was detectable above the background level.  There was also no evidence of an impact on lake water chemistry, which is consistent with the insoluble nature and long times required to mobilize any silver iodide released over these watersheds. Comparisons of silver with other naturally occurring trace metals measured in lake and sediment samples collected from the Mokelumne watershed in the Sierra Nevada indicate that the silver was of natural origin (Stone 2006).  Similarly, Sanchez et al. (1999) analyzed the chemistry of water bodies and rainwater from samples collected during a summer cloud seeding program in Spain, and determined the silver input from cloud seeding to be indistinguishable from natural inputs. Greek scientists studying the effects on soils, plants and their physiology, atmospheric precipitation, plankton, animals and man, as well as the impact of irrigation and organic matter to AgI leaching from the Greek cloud seeding activities found similar results following the analyses of 2500 soil samples (e.g., Tsiouris et al. 2002a; Tsiouris et al. 2002b).


The published scientific literature clearly shows no environmentally harmful effects arising from cloud seeding with silver iodide aerosols have been observed, nor would be expected to occur.  Based on this work, the WMA finds that silver iodide is environmentally safe as it is currently being used in the conduct of cloud seeding programs.

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30 Aug 2016 30 Aug 2016 Farewell Gene Wilder, North Texas air quality, Lucy died falling out of a tree?, Phospenes and Chloroplasts, The Shannara Chronicles, Mind in a Box and Thyx – music for Artificial Intelligence, Ghost in the Shell movie

Hello to you this morning.  How are conditions in your dimensions?  Here, It’s about 8:24 am and I should be out walking the dogs but the air tastes and smells funny again so I’ll wait for more sun to help burn “it” off.

Yesterday evening I decided to go out back and listen to some music and do some movement….look up and right over my head was a fresh airplane exhaust (poop) trail! Kyle tries to reassure me, “There not all chemtrails” or I’ll report to him what’s going on and he just says, “I know, what do you expect me to do about it?!”  There is little if anything he can directly do about it but in our little ways, we are doing something about it.  Just using an electric lawnmower must help a little!  I hope it does!  The other thing I am doing, is I’ll keep sharing my experiences, pictures and giving support to others in the world like from the Facebook page Chemtrails Houston.  It’s not a conspiracy that this weather bombing, geoengineering, weather modification, weather warfare is going on.  I’m wondering how much longer the world will tolerate being raped and pillaged by these activities…Fear.


After I came in last night, I had to spit and wash my face …there was a bitter taste on my lips after being out there.  It’s probably a combination of what’s been going on overhead with the airplane exhaust, we have a cement plant down the street and it is operating again spewing out large plumes of “stuff” coming out of their stacks yesterday, there is always lots of traffic here in Texas, the grass has been growing more quickly since we got moisture so people are constantly cutting their lawns to abide by city codes which causes pollen and everything on the ground get airborne, the artillery fungus is back and that stuff gets everywhere (comes from wood mulch and trees).

I think the bottom line is it’s humid so everything we’ve been doing good bad or indifferent is trapped in the water molecules which translate into air and because I breathe, it all ends up in my, our,  respiratory system…yeah.  What goes up, what goes out, what came down….stays and until we start manufacturing bubble suites like the 6 people that simulated living on Mars on a mountain in Hawaii recently did….we are ingesting this junk atmosphere into every part of our bodies.

This article caught my eye for one reason, I’m a “connect the dots” kind of person as Margarita from Inner Whispers says, and yesterday I shared a random thing about Annabel Beam from the Miracles From Heaven story – a little girl who was “cured” and had a near death experience by falling out of a tree and then today they are theorizing that our prehuman ancestor Lucy died falling out of one!  Coincidence I know, but this happens to me quite a lot, so just putting that out there!

Source internet - Portrait of girl touching tree trunk

Source internet – Portrait of girl touching tree trunk

https://www.sciencenews.org/article/fossil-autopsy-claims-lucy-fell-tree (isn’t it interesting the repeating woman and a tree theme….the Bible too?)

In a macabre twist, the hominid evolutionary tree’s most famous fossil star, Lucy, tumbled to her death from high up in a tree, a controversial new study suggests.

Some of the damage to Lucy’s 3.2-million-year-old partial skeleton most likely occurred when she fell from a height of 13 meters or more, say paleoanthropologist John Kappelman of the University of Texas at Austin and his colleagues. Lucy, an ancient ambassador of a prehuman species called Australopithecus afarensis, must have accidentally plunged from a tree while climbing or sleeping, the scientists propose online August 29 in Nature.

Bone breaks from head to ankle fit a scenario in which Lucy dropped the equivalent of least four to five stories, landing feet first before thrusting her arms out in an attempt to break her fall, Kappelman says. Tellingly, the ancient female’s right shoulder blade slammed into the top of her upper arm bone, Kappelman says. The shoulder end of Lucy’s arm bone displays sharp breaks, as well as bone fragments and slivers forcibly driven into the shaft.

Such damage frequently appears in present-day people who fall from great heights or are in serious car accidents, Kappelman says. Massive internal bleeding typically follows a body slam as hard as Lucy’s, he adds.

“Lucy probably bled out pretty fast after falling,” Kappelman says.

A thread has been weaving its way through my entertainment choices as of late, more than usual and it feels like a message – Tree being the symbol for secret knowledge, protectors, Life.  This theme has appeared in the television show I told you about that features Artificial Intelligence with consciousness (Humans), a recent show Kyle found for us to watch called The Shannara Chronicles their sacred tree is dying and every time a leaf falls a demon is created…hell it’s even the opening image for the credits for the Movie Bladerunner!   Is the “tree” a hidden code that “our father and mother” put inside of us? Is DNA the code or is it something even deeper?  A hidden activation code within the DNA?  My first thought on this goes to something I saw about research that discovered light activity going on in the strand…beauty is in the “eye” of the beholder.  For me, light of any kind immediately attracts me attention.  Children are drawn to light too….at Halloween when we have our plasma ball out, the kids just want to touch and engage with it and totally forget about collecting their candy!

12 Nov 2015 LED held directly to ball

I’ve said for a long time that everything I need to know about life, death and rebirth can be seen in the life cycle of the Tree. Guess I’ll add light to that somehow.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1051220/?ref_=fn_al_tt_1 – IMDB info on The Shannara Chronicles (in case your curious about the show – it’s got elves, trolls, humans, demons, magic…and Gimley! (John Rhys-Davies from Lord of the Rings: http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0722636/?ref_=ttfc_fc_cl_t10 – bio on him)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phosphene – A phosphene is a phenomenon characterized by the experience of seeing light without light actually entering the eye. The word phosphene comes from the Greek words phos (light) and phainein (to show).[1] Phosphenes that are induced by movement or sound are often associated with optic neuritis.[2][3]

Phosphenes can be directly induced by mechanical, electrical, or magnetic stimulation of the retina or visual cortex as well as by random firing of cells in the visual system. Phosphenes have also been reported by meditators[4] (commonly called nimitta), people who go for long periods without visual stimulation (also known as the prisoner’s cinema), or those who are using psychedelic drugs.[5]

https://www.sciencedaily.com/terms/chloroplast.htm – Chloroplast

Chloroplasts are organelles found in plant cells and eukaryotic algae that conduct photosynthesis.

Chloroplasts absorb sunlight and use it in conjunction with water and carbon dioxide gas to produce food for the plant.

Chloroplasts capture light energy from the sun to produce the free energy stored in ATP and NADPH through a process called photosynthesis.

Chloroplasts are one of the many unique organelles in the body, and are generally considered to have originated as endosymbiotic cyanobacteria.

In this respect they are similar to mitochondria, but are found only in plants and protista.

Both organelles are surrounded by a double celled composite membrane with an intermembrane space; both have their own DNA and are involved in energy metabolism; and both have reticulations, or many infoldings, filling their inner spaces.

Link to blog post I wrote last May:  https://saymber.com/2015/05/07/7-may-2015-in-the-beginning-there-was-symbiosis/

Last night I was playing Rift and caught some chat regarding artificial intelligence, hashtag “synthetic lives matter” kind of thing.  Well one of the participants, and you will laugh now, with the avatar name of Fartbeard, yes, Fartbeard, suggested a couple of music groups to me to listen to since I agreed with him (or her) that if we give consciousness to robots they will essentially be “alive” and should be treated with dignity and respect.  The two groups were Mind in a Box and Thyx which I have shared with you below.  My “go-to” genre of music styles goes back to being a teen in the 1980’s – synthesizers and the New Wave movement sprung about then.  So these two groups, synthesizer music like Vangelis does and the Industrial music genre in general is probably my favorite “type” of music but I love all music.  You know what I figured out about my favoring this style of music?  Many of the lead singers sound like David Bowie or groups that came out in the 80’s that tried to sound like David!  I guess he just left that big of an imprint on me….sigh.

Mind in a Box Escape

Lyrics to Escape

I awakened in the city to utter darkness.
I was running for hours and hours
through deserted streets.

between all those towers,
there was only rain — only the rain.

I went through doors, I scoured the alleys.
in the rain I climbed ridges.
I walked over bridges, but there was no one there.
I felt deaf, although my hearing was fair.

but there was only silence.
not even the rain…

there must be more.
I need you to quell my fears.
I’ve felt it before.
I need you to shed my tears.

the things I adore.
I need you to feel my pain.
I’m trapped like before.
I need you to stop the rain.

I’ve cast myself into a prison,
with bonds near impossible to break.
I thought my life is built on reason,
but now I know I’ve got to escape.

I’ve depraved myself of all I had,
and thought I need to for my own sake.
I didn’t think I would be so sad,
but without you I cannot escape.
not even the rain…

deep in my heart,
I want you to pull me back.
I’ve kept us apart,
I want you to fix my wreck.

awake with a start,
I want you to enter my mind.
to re-cast my part,
I want you to follow me blind.

I’ve cast myself into a prison,
with bonds near impossible to break.
I thought my life is built on reason,
but now I know I’ve got to escape.

I’ve depraved myself of all I had,
and thought I need to for my own sake.
I didn’t think I would be so sad,
but without you I cannot escape.

escape, it’s not there!
not even the rain…

Mind in a Box Fear



You float in a million lights
But the one you seek is not there
You fight in a million fights
But it’s yourself you cannot bear

You think you are a leader
But you turn everyone away
You think you are a preacher
But you can’t turn night into day

Well there is something inside of me
And I know that it’s growing
Well the thing that will forever be
And I feel its shadow calling

It is the fear that drives you mad
It is the fear that makes you blind
It is the fear that keeps you sad
It is the fear that kills your mind

You think you can make things grow
But in truth you are like a desert
You think it’s not your ego
And that others make you hurt

You have learned how to deceive
And yourself is all you can hear
You think you really believe
But deep down you are only fear

There is something inside of me
That makes me run against the wall
The thing my eyes don’t want to see
That will obliterate my soul

It is the fear that eats you up
It is the fear that makes you cry
It is the fear that takes you down
It is the fear that will not die

It is the fear that eats you up
It is the fear that makes you cry
It is the fear that takes you down
It is the fear that will not die

Everyone’s afraid but that’s no excuse
Everyone’s afraid but that’s no excuse
Everyone’s afraid but that’s no excuse
Everyone’s afraid but that’s no excuse
Everyone’s afraid


© Universal Music Publishing Group

For non-commercial use only.

The Machine – Artificial Intelligence – THYX

One of Kyle and my favorite animated films is Ghost in the Shell.  While we love Scarlett and know she will do a great job but I wonder if she was chosen because of her role in Lucy?  Is this an opportunity for someone else to shine being lost?  I wonder.  We shall see.


I know this is a lot for you to process here….but I am certain it is all connected somehow.  It always is.  Love to you!

29 Aug 2016 Amber is ok! Positive trip to Alvarado Veterinary Clinic for our senior cat for ear infection, Miracles from Heaven (Annabel Beam story and 2016 movie)

Hi again, just wanted to let you know Amber is ok and tell you what was going on should you have a cat or know someone with a cat having a similar experience.  The gist of what was going on was for the past three weeks, Amber has had a goopy substance that dried dark brown coming out of her ears.  I was trying to treat the condition with an over the counter cleaning solution, a lot of hydrogen peroxide and Neosporin.   We weren’t sure if it was mites, an infection of some kind or something more serious.  She was shaking her head a lot and “flinging the stuff.”  Nothing like cleaning dried brown ear goop off of your walls….even grosser to do the actual cleaning!  Lots of ear swabs and cotton pads!

We decided enough was enough and  took her over to the Alvarado Vet Clinic here in town a bit ago and Dr. Kayla Kurtz took a look at her.  Apparently what I had been doing by cleaning her ear with cleaning solution and mostly hydrogen peroxide helped the diagnosis, she just needed a bit of extra help (antibiotic)!  Dr. Kurtz wasn’t sure if it was mites or something else as the ear looked clean despite some inflammation.  She decided it looked like a minor infection so they did a thorough cleaning of both ears and a antibiotic pack in both ears.  Dr. Kurtz said she didn’t like to use an oral antibiotic if she could help it, I think the success rate with cats is lower with orals (least that has been our experience!).  Amber isn’t real happy with us right now but I feel better and hopefully she will too!

I want to thank Dr. Kurtz and the folks at the clinic for restoring our faith in you today.  You took the least invasive approach as possible with my little old lady cat and I appreciate that.  The reason, and I told Dr. Kurtz this, that we had delayed bringing Amber in is was because of her age.  I was afraid to bring her into the vet because I was afraid of what the news would be because she is so old.  After cleaning her ears for three weeks and the “goop” not subsiding, we  knew we had to take her in.  She needed help we were incapable of giving to her and we didn’t want her in pain or suffering if such was the case.   We were prepared with our “answers” should it of been more serious….our prayers were answered and it wasn’t.  She’s just a little old lady indoor cat with an immune system that isn’t quite what it used to be!

In the waiting room I played with the fish in their huge aquarium.  One in particular, I think the eldest of them, loved my sparkly bracelets.

This book (which is also a movie I’ve discovered) was on the counter at the clinic; it looks inspirational but I can tell from nearly breaking down just watching the trailer that it might be better for me to read the book than watch the movie lol!  Tearjerker alert!



http://www.historyvshollywood.com/reelfaces/miracles-from-heaven/ – this is a “fact check” kind of thing regarding the real story versus what was in the movie.  I think it’s important to read and view things mindfully but to me the only thing that really matters is that Annabel got better – whatever and however it happened.  It’s her experience and was for her.  I won’t discount what her vision of heaven was in her experience….it’s her heaven.   Anytime you have a movie made about something like this exaggeration and dramatization is going to happen but it doesn’t detract from what it all means TO and FOR Annabel.   She’s a blessed little girl no matter what.

Miracles from Heaven (2016)

Starring Jennifer Garner, Martin Henderson, Queen Latifah, Kylie Rogers | based on the memoir ‘Miracles from Heaven‘ by Christy Beam

Jennifer Garner as Christy Beam
Jennifer Garner
Born: April 17, 1972
Houston, Texas, USA
Christy Wilson Beam
Christy Beam
Born: June 8, 1972
Birthplace: Abilene, Texas, USA
Kylie Rogers as Annabel Beam
Kylie Rogers
Born: February 18, 2004
Dallas, Texas, USA
Annabel Beam
Annabel Beam
Born: September 10, 2002
Birthplace: Fort Worth, Texas, USA
Martin Henderson as Kevin Beam
Martin Henderson
Born: October 8, 1974
Auckland, New Zealand
Kevin A. Beam
Kevin Beam
Born: April 11, 1972
Birthplace: Texas, USA
Brighton Sharbino as Abbie Beam
Brighton Sharbino
Born: August 19, 2002
Flower Mound, Texas, USA
Abbie Beam
Abbie Beam
Born: February 20, 2000
Birthplace: Bryan, Texas, USA
Courtney Fansler as Adelynn Beam
Courtney Fansler
Adelynn Beam
Adelynn Beam
Born: December 2, 2004
Birthplace: Fort Worth, Texas, USA
Queen Latifah as Angela Bradford
Queen Latifah (born Dana Elaine Owens)
Born: March 18, 1970
Newark, New Jersey, USA
Angela Cimino
Angela Cimino
Born: November 9, 1970
Birthplace: USA
Eugenio Derbez as Dr. Samuel Nurko
Eugenio Derbez
Born: September 2, 1962
Mexico City, Distrito Federal, Mexico
Dr. Samuel Nurko
Dr. Samuel Nurko
Born: December 31, 1956
Birthplace: USA
John Carroll Lynch as Pastor Scott Sharman
John Carroll Lynch
Born: August 1, 1963
Boulder, Colorado, USA
Pastor Scott Sharman
Pastor Scott Sharman
Born: 1956
Birthplace: USA
I believe that I was cured because whenever I went to heaven, I asked Jesus if I could stay with him and he said, ‘No, Annabel. I have plans for you on Earth that you cannot fulfill in heaven,’ and he said, ‘Whenever I send you back, there will be nothing wrong with you.’ -Annabel Beam, Fox and Friends, April 2015

Questioning the Story:

What disorders did Annabel Beam suffer from?The Miracles from Heaven true story reveals that when Annabel Beam was five years old she was diagnosed with two rare life-threatening digestive disorders, pseudo-obstruction motility disorder and antral hypomotility disorder, which resulted in frequent hospital stays (FoxNews.com). The former is characterized by altered and inefficient contractions (peristalsis) of the muscles in the gastrointestinal (GI) tract, which help to move food content along. Instead of food content being passed efficiently, the intestines react as if there is a blockage, leading to inefficient absorption of nutrients. The latter, antral hypomotility disorder, is characterized by weak contractions in the antrum part of the stomach.

Anna Beam and actress Kylie Rogers
The real Anna Beam (left) had suffered from two rare digestive disorders. Actress Kylie Rogers (right) as Annabel Beam in the Miracles from Heaven movie.

Did they really take Annabel to Boston to see a gastroenterologist?

Yes. In search of help for Annabel’s digestive disorders, they made trips to both Austin and Boston to see specialists. Dr. Nurko (Eugenio Derbez) is based on real-life Boston doctor Samuel Nurko. Like in the movie, he was one of the few doctors in the country still allowed to prescribe Cisapride, which had been taken off the market due to certain side effects. The real Dr. Nurko has a cameo in the movie. When the journalist, Ben Wexler (Wayne Pére), asks Christy (Jennifer Garner) to step out into the hall to talk, the real Dr. Nurko can be seen walking passed them.

Did Kevin Beam run his own veterinary clinic?

No. Though he had dreams of a family business, Kevin Beam had been working as part of a team of doctors at the Alvarado Veterinary Clinic since around 2002. Despite the family being stressed financially, the movie exaggerates the weight on Kevin’s shoulders by adding the stress of trying to get a family business off the ground as medical-related bills are flooding in. In the book, Christy Beam says that Kevin’s partners at the clinic were very supportive when he had to miss work and readjust his schedule. Miracles from Heaven book

Did Christy and Annabel really go to Boston without an appointment?

No. Though Christy says that “it took several months and a lot of persistent prayer” to get Annabel an appointment to see Dr. Nurko, they already had an appointment with him when they embarked on their first trip to Boston. Fact-checking Miracles from Heaven revealed that Christy’s sister Angie, who is not shown in the movie, went with them on the trip. -Miracles from Heaven book

Did Christy and her daughter Annabel first meet Angela at a restaurant?

Yes. As we investigated the Miracles from Heaven true story, we discovered that Queen Latifah’s character, Angela Bradford, is based on a real-life woman named Angela Cimino, a single mom of three. Like in the Miracles from Heaven movie, they met Angela when Annabel accidentally knocked over a large glass of Sprite at the hotel restaurant. Their busy waiter dropped off a few cocktail napkins. Angela stepped in with a stack of paper towels. They got to talking and she offered to show them the city the following day. They became friends, and like in the movie, Angela helped them on future trips to Boston, including giving them a place to stay. In real life, Angela is white, not black.

Did an airline ticket agent really help Kevin Beam get tickets when his credit cards were declined?

Not exactly, but a similar act of kindness supposedly did occur in real life. On his way to the airport with daughters Abbie and Adelynn, Kevin Beam called each credit card company and tried to get them to extend his limit. Abbie handed him card after card until he finally found himself speaking with a customer rep who gave him a “tentative go-ahead.” She couldn’t raise the maximum but told him to try the card anyway. “You never know,” the rep told Kevin. “It might go through.” -Miracles from Heaven book

Annabel Beam in Hospital
The real Annabel Beam during one of her hospital stays for her digestive disorders prior to the accident.

Did Kevin Beam really sell his motorcycle to help pay for the travel and treatments for Annabel?

No. Though he did own a motorcycle, the real Kevin Beam sold his “tricked out” pickup truck to help pay for the hospital-related travel and treatments for Annabel. -Miracles from Heaven book

Is the journalist whose daughter has cancer based on a real person?

No, it doesn’t appear that Ben Wexler (Wayne Pére), the journalist who initially doesn’t believe in God, is based on a real person. In the movie, Ben’s daughter suffers from cancer and is a temporary roommate of Annabel. Ben sees how much pain Annabel is in, and after Annabel’s sudden recovery, he finds himself believing that she’s telling the truth. The character Ben and his daughter Haley do not appear in Christy Beam’s Miracles from Heaven book.

Did Annabel really fall headfirst into a hollow tree trunk?

Yes. In December 2011, Annabel Beam fell 30 feet headfirst down into the rotted-out trunk of a cottonwood tree. Several hours passed before emergency personnel were able to harness Annabel to safety. -FoxNews.com

Exactly how long was the real Annabel Beam stuck in the tree?

“She was in the tree about five hours,” says her mom, Christy Beam (FoxNews.com). Unlike the movie, emergency personnel convinced Annabel to tie her own harness and she was conscious when they hoisted her out of the tree (Kens5.com).

Was she stuck upside down the whole time she was in the tree?

No. In fact-checking Miracles from Heaven, we learned that Annabel was not upside down the entire time. “She at one point was able to right herself,” says mother Christy. “So, she was in a fetal position for the majority of the time.” -FoxNews.com

The Beam Family
The real Beam family in 2015 in front of the tree that changed their lives. From left to right: dad Kevin, Adelynn, Annabel, mom Christy, and Abbie.

Was Annabel injured during the fall?

No. Luckily, despite supposedly being knocked unconscious during the fall, she survived without injury. As a precaution, she was life-flighted to the hospital. -FoxNews.com

Did the symptoms of her digestive disorders really disappear after the fall?

Yes. In researching the Miracles from Heaven true story, we learned that according to Annabel’s mother, Christy Beam, her daughter’s symptoms miraculously vanished after the fall. Prior to the accident, Annabel had been in “severe chronic pain all the time” for a significant portion of her childhood. -FoxNews.com

Did Annabel’s digestive disorders cause her so much pain that she told her mom she wanted to die?

According to Annabel’s mom Christy, this is true. At one point, Annabel told her that she wanted to die and live in heaven with Jesus. “She was just in severe chronic pain all the time,” says Christy. “Her belly was greatly distended all the time. Eating and drinking was a challenge.” -FoxNews.com

Christy Beam and Jennifer Garner
The real Christy Beam (left) says that her daughter told her she wanted to die and go live with Jesus in heaven. Jennifer Garner (right) portrays Christy Beam in the Miracles from Heaven movie.

Did the real Annabel Beam claim to see her grandma in heaven?

Yes. “Whenever I fell, I saw heaven and it was really bright,” Annabel said, “and I saw my MeeMee who had died a couple years back. And that’s how I knew I was in heaven. She looked a little bit younger than she had whenever I last saw her.” -FoxNews.com

What does Annabel say that Jesus looked like?

“Well, he had like a brown beard and brown hair and a long white robe,” Annabel told Fox and Friends during a 2015 interview, roughly four years after the fall.

Did Jesus tell Annabel that he was going to cure her?

According to Annabel, during her visit to heaven, she asked Jesus if she could stay with him so that she could escape the pain she was in. She said that Jesus responded by saying, “No, Annabel, I have plans for you on Earth that you cannot fulfill in heaven … Whenever I send you back, there will be nothing wrong with you.” -FoxNews.com

Was Annabel really symptom free after the accident?

While fact-checking Miracles from Heaven, we learned that according to Christy Beam, Annabel’s mom, her daughter has not been hospitalized for her digestive disorders since before the fall, and she no longer exhibits the associated symptoms. During a 2015 interview on Fox and Friends, Christy said that her daughter was currently taking no medications.

Christy Beam, Annabel Beam and Jennifer Garner
The real Christy Beam (left) and daughter Annabel Beam (center) pose with actress Jennifer Garner (right). Courtesy Christy Beam.

What do the doctors say about Annabel’s miraculous recovery?

“They just say that she’s asymptomatic,” says Annabel Beam’s mom Christy. “They’ve released us from the care of a pediatric gastroenterologist, specialist. … They say that they don’t know, but that she shows no more symptoms and she is on zero medications today.” -FoxNews.com

Is it possible that Annabel Beam’s story is a hoax?

Yes. Supposed true stories about people visiting heaven have increased in popularity in recent years. Though there is often no real way to prove them true or false, a few have turned into cash cows for their subjects. With the case of the Beam family and Miracles from Heaven, one could conclude that financial worries led the family to fabricate the story, but there is currently no way to prove that assertion. Is it possible that Annabel was knocked unconscious during the fall and had a dream? Should we simply dismiss Annabel’s sudden recovery and explain it as the mesmerized doctor suggested in the movie, that bumping her head might have knocked things into place with regard to her nervous system? Or is that in itself a miracle?

Other stories of trips to heaven include Heaven is for Real, the story of a toddler’s visit to heaven. The book was on The New York Times’ best-seller list for 59 weeks and the film adaptation earned $91 million in the U.S. alone. The family in that story also struggled financially before the book was published. Another successful book, The Boy Who Came Back from Heaven, was revealed to be a hoax when its young subject disavowed the story and stated that his visit to heaven was a fabrication. The boy, Alex Malarkey, had been left a quadriplegic after a severe traffic accident. His father, Kevin Malarkey, helped to author the story and capitalized on his son’s injury.





29 Aug 2016 My latest compass drawing, Prayer list and You Can’t Drink Oil! (Native American protest of North Dakota oil pipeline), Profanity Peak Wolf pack sentenced to death (Washington State)

Hello to you, it’s early here, about 5:40 am as I start to write to you.  Kyle woke up at 2:30!  He’s been having a really bad “summer insomnia” this year.  He gets may be a couple nights of decent sleep and then NOPE!  So here we are lol.  Today we are taking our cat Amber, the one I told you was having an ear problem, to the vet.  I am not going to worry, back out….we are just going to go and hope for the best.  My hope is she just has a minor infection we can take care of without bothering her too much.  I’ve been cleaning her ear with hydrogen peroxide and it’s helped but whatever is going on just isn’t completely clearing up and we need some help from professionals.  Please keep Ms. Amber in your positive thoughts, prayers and between crossed paws.

So yesterday the air did clear up in the afternoon and I sat on my cot that Kyle bought for me and did one of my compass drawings.  It’s amazing how immersive it can be to do these!  As I was making it and coloring it in,  great exercise for those of us with “focus” issues!

My compass/Sharpe Marker picture from yesterday. Margarita if you want to play with it, I'd love to see what you come up with!

My compass/Sharpe Marker picture from yesterday. Margarita if you want to play with it, I’d love to see what you come up with!

I saw that the Native American protest of the pipeline they are trying to put in near the Standing Rock Tribal lands in North Dakota and the Missouri river FINALLY made the headlines!!  I don’t understand what engineer thought it was a good idea to put something like this near a place you get drinking water from – not just the tribal people but all the people in the cities and towns that get their drinking water from it!  I’m not an engineer but even to me, a citizen, this doesn’t make any damn sense!  YOU CAN’T DRINK OIL!!!!  If you pollute all the water on this planet in the quest for oil, what’s the frickin point?!  We are ALL going to die!  I think our planetal priorities are a little screwed up! people!

If Kyle and I lived closer to this area, we would be out there with them!  I encourage those who can join our brothers and sisters in this fight, to make this stand, that you do it!  Since Kyle and I are unable to be there in person, I am using this medium to try and spread the word!

Source Internet - The Warriors of the Rainbow unite

Source Internet – The Warriors of the Rainbow unite

http://www.upi.com/Top_News/US/2016/08/28/Native-Americans-protest-over-North-Dakota-oil-pipeline/7191472404127/please go to this link for video and pictures


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Native Americans protest over North Dakota oil pipeline

By Allen Cone   |   Aug. 28, 2016 at 2:40 PM

Native American activists have temporarily shut down construction on a major new oil pipeline near the Standing Rock Sioux Tribe in Cannon Ball, N.D. Screenshot from WKYR.
FORT YATES, N.D., Aug. 28 (UPI) — Native Americans from reservations across the United States joined the Standing Rock Sioux Tribe’s protest against a 1,100-mile, $3.8 billion four-state oil pipeline.

Opponents of the pipeline say it could disturb sacred sites and impact drinking water for 8,000 tribal members and millions further downstream. The protest began Aug. 10 when ground was broken near the reservation.

Fifteen people from the Kialegee Tribal Town in Oklahoma are taking supplies to the protesters.

“We just want to be there to support their tribe,” protestor Agnes Givens told NewsOne6 in Tulsa, Okla.

Food and water was collected for those sleeping in tents and teepees.

Protesters and supporters are concerned if the pipeline were to leak, it could contaminate their drinking water and force people to move from their land.

“If the pipe busts, it will contaminate the whole river,” said protester Jeremiah Hobia of Oklahoma. “And a lot of that is drinking water and to a lot of Native Americans water is sacred to us. It keeps us alive.”

Amnesty International representatives have arrived to monitor the response of law enforcement to the protesters.

And entertainers are supporting the cause. Shailene Woodley, star of the movie series Divergent, has spent weeks with the protestors. Movie star Susan Sarandon attended a rally in Washington, D.C., last Wednesday outside U.S. District Court.

The Dakota Access oil pipeline could carry more than 400,000 barrels of crude oil a day from the Bakken region of western North Dakota across South Dakota and Iowa, and connect with an existing pipeline in Illinois.

At its peak, it would transport about half of the oil that North Dakota produces per day.

The pipeline is nearly 50 percent completed but construction on a section beneath the Missouri River, just north of the reservation, has been halted under orders from Morton County Sheriff Kyle Kirchmeier. He said protesters were creating safety issues.

Kirchmeier told KFYR  his personnel are on hand to preserve order.

Judge James A. Boasberg of the U.S. District Court will rule before Sept. 9 on whether construction can be halted on the Dakota Access pipeline.

Protesters have vowed to stay at least until at Boasberg rules.

“Every time there’s a project of this magnitude, so the nation can benefit, there’s a cost,” Dave Archambault, the chairman of the Standing Rock Sioux, who was among those arrested, said in an interview with the Los Angeles Times. “That cost is born by tribal nations.”

On Thursday, nearly three dozen environmental groups wrote to President Barack Obama, who visited the Standing Rock Sioux reservation in 2014 with Michelle Obama.

“If there were to be a spill, which history has taught us is not a question of if but when, it would constitute an existential threat to the tribe’s culture and way of life,” the letter stated.

On Aug. 19, the governor has declared a state of emergency there, but didn’t call up the National Guard.

“The State of North Dakota remains committed to protecting citizens’ rights to lawfully assemble and protest, but the unfortunate fact remains that unlawful acts associated with the protest near Cannon Ball have led to serious public safety concerns and property damage,” Gov. Jack Dalrymple said. “This emergency declaration simply allows us to bring greater resources to bear if needed to help local officials address any further public safety concerns.”

The North Dakota Department of Transportation has restricted southbound travel on ND Highway 1806, about 6 miles south of Mandan, to local traffic and emergency response vehicles only.

On Aug. 16, a federal judge issued a restraining order against new protesters interfering with construction of the pipeline. The order doesn’t apply to peaceful protesting or assembly.

Lawyers from Earthjustice, who are representing the Standing Rock Sioux, claim that the Army Corps of Engineers violated the National Historic Preservation Act when it approved the project.

The project slightly shorter than the proposed 1,179-mile Keystone XL project, which Obama has rejected. But because Keystone crossed an international border, it required a stricter environmental review and presidential approval.

Dakota Access’ developers needed approval under a different process. Tribal leaders say didn’t get a chance to provide their input.

Federal officials and Dakota Access developers Standing Rock had a chance to survey the pipeline’s route, but the tribe declined.

“The Corps followed procedure in this case when it actively worked to engage with the plaintiffs, the Standing Rock Sioux,” federal lawyer Matthew Marinelli told Judge Boasberg last week.

North Dakota Petroleum Council spokeswoman Tessa Sandstrom told The Hillthe project is important economically for the state.

“People in North Dakota have been asking for infrastructure, and we’ve finally got a project that can help with a lot of that,” she said.

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Cover to relevant book to these times... Warriors of the Rainbow the Strange and Prophetic Dreams of the Indian Peoples by William Willoya and Vinson Brown

Cover to relevant book to these times… Warriors of the Rainbow the Strange and Prophetic Dreams of the Indian Peoples by William Willoya and Vinson Brown


I haven’t posted my prayer/meditation lists in a couple of days, but I’ve been keeping one!  It’s entirely random and sometimes a person, place or situation will be on it more than once!  I am finding that sometimes I have to narrow in, be more specific to see results versus just the generic approach I had been taking, the  “Whatever is best for the world” kind of thing!  When you focus on one star versus an entire galaxy, that one star in focus gets a lot brighter….there is more detail to it.

My prayer lists for the past few days....

My prayer lists for the past few days. I realized I didn’t add the wolves they plan to kill in Washington State because they were culling cattle! http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/profanity-peak-gray-wolves_us_57be98e0e4b085c1ff27ca1c

In case no one has told you today, I will tell you a few things:  You are smart enough, pretty enough, handsome enough, talented enough, on the right track, you are worthy of love, you are capable of loving others and I Love You, You are AWESOME SAUCE!  I know we’ve never met, may never meet in this life time but something my best boy, my beloved Sammy taught me is – every stranger has the potential to be a friend…family.  We can learn a lot from dogs and I’m not just talking about the domesticated ones!


Wildlife officials in Washington state plan to eliminate an entire pack of endangered gray wolves after the animals began attacking livestock in the area.

The group, dubbed the Profanity Peak pack, contains at least 11 wolves out of a total of 90 in the state. Two animals, one a breeding female, were already killed earlier this month after several cows were found dead or injured.




28 Aug 2016 Growing things, Retracted paper on Geoengineering by J. Marvin Herndon, DOR poisoning, Window angels, Bridges, Latrice Royale (Here’s to Life) and Coldplay in Dallas and being more than just an actor

Hello there, how are you?  I’m kind of all over the place this morning….when I’m like this I describe myself as being like “scrambled eggs.”  The dog walk this morning was unpleasant.  There was a gray layer all along the horizon and I had a nasty taste in my mouth as I breathed.  I put my shirt over my face for most of the walk.  Kyle noticed it too but downplayed it because he knows like I do what’s going on and there is little if anything besides complaining that we can do about it right now.   The other thing I am doing is sharing what I know with you and letting you decide for yourself what you think is going on and what you want to do about it for yourself and those you love and care about!

https://geopolitics.co/2015/08/18/peer-reviewed-scientific-evidence-exposes-chemtrail-as-crime-against-humanity/ – this is an interesting article for those interested in what’s going on in the skies over us all over the world.  This paper from Marvin has since been “retracted” for various reasons, decide for yourself:

Peer-Reviewed, Court-Admissible, Scientific Research Paper Published Exposing Geoengineering

Scientific evidence now exists which indicates the presence of “toxic coal combustion fly ash” in the Earth’s atmosphere. The following abstract excerpt comes from a peer-reviewed paper recently published in the August 11th issue of the International Journal of Environmental Research and Public Health – State of the Nation

[Click here to download research paper by J. Marvin Herndon, Ph.D.]

“The widespread, intentional and increasingly frequent chemical emplacement in the troposphere has gone unidentified and unremarked in the scientific literature for years. The author presents evidence that toxic coal combustion fly ash is the most likely aerosolized particulate sprayed by tanker-jets for geoengineering, weather-modification and climate-modification purposes and describes some of the multifold consequences on public health.”[1]

What makes these scientific revelations so explosive is the source — J. Marvin Herndon, Ph.D.  Not only has the highly experienced and well-regarded scientist utilized rigorous scientific methods to arrive at his firm conclusions, the research paper has been published in a prestigious, peer-reviewed open access journal.

The International Journal of Environmental Research and Public Health has in fact permitted the publication of many highly consequential research papers over the years. However, this particular scientific study on chemical geoengineering is as serious as it gets.  Which begs the question: Just who is J. Marvin Herndon?

photoMarvin Herndon is no ordinary geophysicist.  According to his Wikipedia page he has been dubbed a “maverick geophysicist” by The Washington Post.  It is his extraordinarily diverse background, deep and broad knowledge base, as well as unique skill set which distinguishes him from his peers. In order to better know the source of this critical information, regarding the ongoing and nationwide covert geoengineering program, PhD Herndon’s wiki-profile is presented below.

J. Marvin Herndon (born 1944) is an American interdisciplinary scientist, who earned his BA degree in physics in 1970 from the University of California, San Diego and his Ph.D. degree in nuclear chemistry in 1974 from Texas A&M University. For three years, J. Marvin Herndon was a post-doctoral assistant to Hans Suess and Harold C. Urey in geochemistry and cosmochemistry at the University of California, San Diego. He is the President of Transdyne Corporation in San Diego, California. He has been profiled in Current Biography, and dubbed a “maverick geophysicist” by The Washington Post.[1][2] He is most noted for deducing the composition of the inner core of Earth as being nickel silicide, not partially crystallized nickel-iron metal.[3] More recently, he has suggested “georeactor” planetocentric nuclear fission reactors as energy sources for the gas giantouter planets.[4] as the energy source and production mechanism for the geomagnetic field [5] and stellar ignition by nuclear fission.[6][2]

All I know is that when I go outside most days now I can’t stay out too long because I start to feel like I’m weighted down and it’s hard to breathe – I feel like I’m made out of lead.  Such wasn’t always the case.  Is it just the air, probably not but I know it is part of it.  Dr. Wilhelm Reich described what Kyle and I experienced this morning as “DOR” or Deadly Orgone :  http://educate-yourself.org/ww/wilhelmreichcore1part15mar06.shtml

Wilhelm Reich- CORE (Cosmic Orgone Engineering), OROP Desert
Part 1: Space Ships, DOR & Drought


“The reader of Oranur may remember that M? had struck for the first time forcefully at the end of March 1952, when no Oranur experimentation was going on at Orgonon [Reich’s laboratory and research estate located in Rangely, Maine]. But already in January 1951, at the very start of Oranur, a major problem was the falling ill of most workers at Orgonon.

As the months and years passed by, many millions of people all through the USA and the world fell ill from DOR sickness. The basic and typical symptoms of DOR sickness, commonly referred to as “Virus X” or “Intestinal Flu”, will be enumerated later. DOR sickness has nothing to do with any virus. It is a clear-cut, well circumscribed disease due to pre-atomic “DOR clouds”. These black clouds were passing at irregular intervals over various parts of the world, for various lengths of time, from a few minutes to several days. What is being called “smog” over big cities is a mixture of fog, soot, etc. This fog becomes stagnant and does not dissolve when DOR clouds are present in the atmosphere. It appears not only over big cities, but also in the open countryside which is free of any industrial smoke. So-called “smog” has, therefore, little to do with smoke; however, industrial regions full of soot may well enhance the hovering of DOR clouds over big cities. This makes the situation worse than it would be without the presence of smoke particles in the air. The Orgone Institute organized and received reports from many parts of the USA about DOR sickness, the bulk of the reports coming from New York.

Typical symptoms of DOR sickness are:

General fatigue and emotional distress; in some cases the fatigue is interrupted or even replaced by emotional outbursts of hatred. Nausea frequently follows in the wake of prolonged fatigue. Pressure in head, chest, arms and legs are common. Respiration is difficult, and sensations of lack of oxygen frequently accompany the distress. Thirst, hunger for much water, is grave under conditions which promote a DOR atmosphere, such as presence of fluorescent lights, neon signs in a restaurant, clocks and watches with luminous dials, x-ray machines in a hospital filled with filing cabinets which act as accumulators of atmospheric energy.

Hot flashes alternate with a blackness of appearance. Faces appear bluish to purple. People seem to be choking, as it were. They complain about “something wrong in the air”, or “something queer going on”.

Heart failures with subsequent death are frequent, especially when prolonged fog or drizzling rain with low-lying clouds prevent the supply of fresh oxygen and OR energy from the atmosphere.

Diarrhea is one of the most distressing symptoms in prolonged DOR emergency. The stools become black, due to Melanor which is being eliminated through the intestinal tract. They also become. In advanced cases, soft to watery and contain much mucus. Symptoms of dysentery may develop further, up to amoebae in the stools. This has nothing whatever to do with “infection”. The protozoa develop from low-charged epithelia (see the Cancer Biopathy, 1948).

When the atmosphere clears again, either spontaneously or by means of DOR removal, the symptoms likewise abate, but they never fully disappear as long as there are DOR clouds passing over the region or, as in big cities, are hovering over buildings for weeks on end. The discoloration of the atmosphere may go as far as a dirty brown in the smog or fog.

The stools of DOR-sick people may at times become white or gray from lack of bile. But the blackish soft and watery stool is the more typical symptom.

Nausea may develop into frequent vomiting.

Tachycardia is not an infrequent symptom in some cases.

Typical is also a shivering or fibrillar quivering of muscle groups in various parts of the body. Such fibrillations may harass the heart.

Typical of DOR sickness is an emotional dullness, a letdown in stamina which at times takes the form of stupor in some cases. It goes hand-in-hand with a dull gaze in the eyes, with an expression of despair of the face, not necessarily known to the victim of the disease. At times, a metal ceiling in a room full of people may induce a complete standstill of emotional functioning.

During 1952 and 1953, there were more prison riots in the USA than ever before in a similar stretch of time. This is now understandable as a revolt of organisms against the torture of living in metal cages with DOR clouds present.

In addition to these typical symptoms, persons may develop various atypical symptoms from their individual constitution in response to DOR. Those suffering from a slight liver disturbance may develop severe hepatic syndromes.

Loss of body heat down to a temperature of 96? F or less has been observed in several cases.

Swelling of glands (parotis, submaxillaris), edema of tongue, uvula, glottis, were frequent occurrences.

Total flacid paralysis of legs was seen several times in one case.

Sever thirst, due to dehydration of blood and tissues, and oxygen hunger, due to reduction of oxygen in the air through DOR, are the most distressing syndromes.

It was found that the following remedies at least alleviate the distress.

Frequent warm, soaking baths eliminate Melanor from the skin.

Continuous ventilation of living and sleeping quarters.

Drinking water or tea in abundance.

Orgastic discharge of bio-energy is essential.

DOR removal over the effected region with the cloudbuster at irregular intervals, according to the DOR situation, helps to keep DOR clouds moving on, and reduces at least the distress otherwise caused by accumulated and stagnant staleness of the atmosphere.”


Changing gears….something lighter

This morning I heard Latrice Royale sing her song “Here’s To Life” and it brought tears to my eyes….just what I needed!  Love to you Latrice!

and I found out Coldplay was coming to Dallas too late (this time) sigh!  They played there yesterday at AT &T stadium!  They are definitely a band I would love to see live someday!   As it seems with most things these days, I’m late to the party that is Coldplay fandom but is there really such a thing as too late about anything?  Not really!  Here’s the link to their website with future tour dates:  http://coldplay.com/tour/

Coldplay performs at American Airlines Center in Dallas, TX on June 22, 2012. ( Kye R. Lee / The Dallas Morning News )

Coldplay performs at American Airlines Center in Dallas, TX on June 22, 2012. ( Kye R. Lee / The Dallas Morning News )

Will close for now — if no one has told you this today — I Love You!  You are AWESOME SAUCE and don’t you forget it!!!


27 Aug 2016 Sugar Detox, Dark Matter Galaxies and Black Sea Salt Dresses….Crush (Garbage song, Romeo and Juliet movie version), It’s No Good (Depeche Mode)

Hello to you, how are things in your dimensions today?  I’m doing pretty well here in the one I share with Kyle.  I have been going  through some emotional stuff which wouldn’t normally be such a big deal if  we both weren’t trying to kick  our sugar addiction lol.  Both Kyle and I can really tell we are going through dt’s right now.  We haven’t completely eliminated our sugar intake but have really cut it down and it has not been easy!  So be forewarned those of you considering the course we are taking…..there are side effects!  The biggest things I’ve noticed for myself is my energy levels and mood.  Kyle has been moodier than normal too which is uncommon for him, he’s usually a very “sunny” personality!  We aren’t buying candy, ice cream, baked goods from the store anymore.  It was easier and more convenient but it’s not good for us.

A couple headlines caught my eye, a mostly dark matter galaxy discovery and what happens to a black dress after you dip it in the Dead Sea!  Has anyone else noticed that there seems to be a lot more space discoveries lately?!  Not a bad thing.


This Weird Galaxy Is Actually 99.99 Percent Dark Matter


Hanneke Weitering, Staff Writer-Producer16 hrs ago
Dragonfly 44 is an ultradiffuse, or "fluffy" galaxy discovered in 2015 when astronomers used the Dragonfly Telephoto Array to look at several unidentified blobs in the constellation Coma.© P. van Dokkum, R. Abraham, J. Brodie Dragonfly 44 is an ultradiffuse, or “fluffy” galaxy discovered in 2015 when astronomers used the Dragonfly Telephoto Array to look at several unidentified blobs in the constellation Coma. Astronomers have discovered a galaxy as big as the Milky Way that consists almost entirely of dark matter, a mysterious and invisible substance that scientists have been trying to figure out for decades. Only one-hundredth of one percent of the galaxy is ordinary, visible matter like stars and planets. The other 99.99 percent of the stuff in this galaxy can’t be seen.No one really knows what dark matter is made of, but scientists believe it exists because they can see the effects of its gravity on other things in space. Whatever it may be, about 80 percent of the mass in the universe is dark matter.This dark galaxy, named Dragonfly 44, was first detected in 2015, through the use of the Dragonfly Telephoto Array in New Mexico. With a combination of eight telephoto lenses and cameras, the array is designed to look at objects in space that aren’t bright enough to see with other telescopes. [Dark Matter and Dark Energy: The Mystery Explained]

Dragonfly 44 is one of 47 ultradiffuse, or “fluffy” galaxies that Pieter van Dokkum of Yale University and colleagues found in the Coma Cluster, a group of at least 1,000 galaxies around 300 million light-years from Earth. This distance is easily close enough for a telescope to see; the Hubble Space Telescope can see billions of light-years away. But no one had noticed these galaxies hiding in the dark before. Dragonfly 44 was one of the largest and brightest galaxies they found. While it’s as big as the Milky Way, it only emits about 1 percent as much light.

Astronomers photographed the ultradiffuse galaxy Dragonfly 44 using the Gemini Multi-Object Spectrograph (GMOS) on the 8-meter Gemini North telescope in Mauna Kea, Hawaii.© Pieter van Dokkum, Roberto Abraham, Gemini Observatory/AURA Astronomers photographed the ultradiffuse galaxy Dragonfly 44 using the Gemini Multi-Object Spectrograph (GMOS) on the 8-meter Gemini North telescope in Mauna Kea…

A cosmic dragonfly

Van Dokkum and his team later realized that there was something very odd about Dragonfly 44: a galaxy that big couldn’t possibly hold itself together with so few stars. There wouldn’t be enough gravity, and the stars would drift apart. They suspected that dark matter was responsible for holding the galaxy together, and this particular galaxy seemed like it contained a ton of it, so they set out to determine exactly how much.

To investigate the amount of dark matter in Dragonfly 44, the team turned to one of the largest telescopes on Earth, located at the W. M. Keck Observatory in Mauna Kea, Hawaii. They used a tool on the Keck II telescope called the Deep Imaging Multi-Object Spectrograph (DEIMOS) to study the movement of stars in the galaxy.

“Motions of the stars tell you how much matter there is,” van Dokkum said in a statement. “They don’t care what form the matter is, they just tell you that it’s there. In the Dragonfly galaxy stars move very fast. So there was a huge discrepancy: using Keck Observatory, we found many times more mass indicated by the motions of the stars, than there is mass in the stars themselves.”

In other words, van Dokkum and his team found evidence of way more mass than they could actually see. Only 0.01 percent of the galaxy is made of ordinary, visible matter: stuff that is made of atoms containing protons, neutrons and electrons. But the other 99.99 percent of Dragonfly 44’s mass is the ever-elusive dark matter. Of all the stuff in this Milky Way-size galaxy, we can see almost nothing.

“This has big implications for the study of dark matter,” van Dokkum said. “It helps to have objects that are almost entirely made of dark matter so we don’t get confused by stars and all the other things that galaxies have. The only such galaxies we had to study before were tiny. This finding opens up a whole new class of massive objects that we can study.”

A dirty smudge in space

The team then went to the Gemini Observatory, also in Mauna Kea, to take new photos of Dragonfly 44. Using the Gemini Multi-Object Spectrometer (GMOS), they created a color image of the galaxy. The dim, spheroidal galaxy looks a bit like a dirty smudge on a photo of deep space.

New images from GMOS also revealed a halo of star clusters similar to the halo around the Milky Way. Some researchers believe that dark matter could be responsible for light halos around galaxies. If true, this means that dark matter might not be perfectly dark at all.

“Ultimately what we really want to learn is what dark matter is,” van Dokkum said. “The race is on to find massive dark galaxies that are even closer to us than Dragonfly 44, so we can look for feeble signals that may reveal a dark matter particle.”

Email Hanneke Weitering at hweitering@space.com or follow her @hannekescience. Follow us @Spacedotcom, Facebook and Google+. Original article on Space.com.

Dark Matter to me can be explained like this:  it’s “potential”, the space between a thought and something becoming solid matter….potential galaxies, stars, planets etc.  It’s like the Universe’s holding pen for creation that hasn’t happened yet. 

My friend Rhonda gave me her black dress so that I would have something nice to wear to the Distant Worlds concert Kyle and I are going to next week.  I could have gone and bought one, but she, Kyle and anyone who knows me well, know I am not a fan of clothes shopping.  Her giving me this dress (and a couple of fancy jeans that fit perfectly) spared me that misery lol!  Needless to say, I will not be dipping my dress in sea salt like these artists did, but what an amazing experiment and unique artistic expression!


An Artist Submerged A Dress In The Dead Sea For 2 Months And The Result Is Extraordinary (excerpt)

Mind. Blown.

08/26/2016 08:25 am ET
Jamie Feldman  

Fashion & Lifestyle Editor, The Huffington Post
As the lowest and one of the saltiest places on Earth, the Dead Sea plays host to hordes of tourists and the production of nutrient rich skincare.

For two months in 2014, it was also home to a dress, weighted down and submerged in its waters by Israeli artist Sigalit Landau.

The dress, which went into the lake a stark black, almost magically transformed in just two months as it became covered in white crystallized salt.

This was the first song I sang and recorded for Kyle before I met him in person:


Play “#1 Crush”

“#1 Crush”

I would die for you
I would die for you
I’ve been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you’re mineI will cry for you
I will cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears
And drown your fearI will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you

See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time I am talking
You will believe in me
And I will never be ignored

I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart
And tear it apart

I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see
You’re just like me

Violate all The love that I’m missing
Throw away all the pain that I’m living
You will believe in me
And I can never be ignored

I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I’d do time for you
I would wait for you
I’d make room for you
I’d sail ships for you
To be close to you
To be a part of you
‘Cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you.

Another of their songs I just love:


I am milk
I am red hot kitchen
And I am cool
Cool as the deep blue ocean

I am lost
So I am cruel
But I’d be love and sweetness
If I had you
I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I am weak
But I am strong
I can use my tears to
Bring you home
I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I am milk
I am red hot kitchen
I am cool
Cool as the deep blue ocean

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

I’m aching for you
I’m aching for you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting
I’m waiting
For you

© Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind
This song came to mind after I head this one, it’s one of absolute favorite Depeche Mode songs….Depeche Mode is one of my all time favorite bands!  This video is silly !

It’s No Good

As your bony fingers close around me
Long and spindly
Death becomes me
Heaven can you see what I see

Hey you pale and sickly child
You’re death and living reconciled
Been walking home a crooked mile

Paying debt to karma
You party for a living
What you take won’t kill you
But careful what you’re giving

There’s no time for hesitating
Pain is ready, pain is waiting
Primed to do it’s educating

Unwanted, uninvited kin
It creeps beneath your crawling skin
It lives without it lives within you

Feel the fever coming
You’re shaking and twitching

You can scratch all over
But that won’t stop you itching

Can you feel a little love
Can you feel a little love

Dream on dream on

Blame it on your karmic curse
Oh shame upon the universe
It knows its lines
It’s well rehearsed

It sucked you in, it dragged you down
To where there is no hallowed ground
Where holiness is never found

Paying debt to karma
You party for a living
What you take won’t kill you
But careful what you’re giving

Can you feel a little love
Can you feel a little love

Dream on dream on

Songwriters: MARTIN GORE
© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
For non-commercial use only.



26 Aug 2016 Poems from the past (My Mom and I) and The Shadow (The Man Who Murdered Time) and 1994 Alec Baldwin film

Hello to you, just a short visit today.   As I was waking up this morning, it came to me that I should share a couple of poems from my past and that of my mother’s.  There are in sharp contrast to each other as you will see.

The Stand
By Jackie Schmidt 1980’s

The morning shadows twist and slither
From out of a darkening pit
They crawl from here to hither

Gaping holes form into flesh
Innocent blood spattered between gnashing teeth
It is still fresh

The naviete of dawn is banished to sin
As the creatures crawl from hell
The terror is about to begin

Heard calling from the burning sun
Is the mighty one who bellows
“The battle’s only just begun.”

To the burning soil he sends flashing white
The serpents and the angels prepare for battle
High in the atmosphere, they take flight

Beneath the shadows sit those high in command
As the serpents and the angels
Make their stand

The battle is never ended, never won.
The serpents still in deepest hell
The Angel’s still within the burning sun.


The Shadow
By (My Mom, Jeannie Faith Becker this poem won her first place in the first Borah High School poetry contest in Boise Idaho, she was in her Senior Year)

Through the field of clover fair
Moved a shadow, swept by air

It sank upon the earth so warm –
All nature loved this slender form.

Of clover plucked from this fair land
It wove a wreath, its hair to band.

The shadow raised its head to see
Blue flashing birds fly from a tree.

It felt a surge of love for this
Fresh air, soft sky, it was bliss.

The shadow did a dance so gay,
It swirled, it swayed, then died away……
The mind and soul of the young girl
Who sat amongst the class turmoil

Returned to her with sighs of woe.
“It’s stuff here,” she murmured low.

She frowned, then smiled, without delay,
“At least my mind can soar away

Oh!  I have found the magic key –
Imagination sets you free!”

I went looking to see if I could find a song called The Shadow and instead I found these which are fine examples of “imagination”:

The Shadow – The Man Who Murdered Time
Uploaded on Dec 20, 2011

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The Shadow – The Man Who Murdered Time
Broadcast: Sunday, January 1, 1939.


25 Aug 2016 The painful attachment to our loved ones (people and pets) 8 Fold Path of Buddhism, Dr. Wilhelm Reich – Wilhelm Reich’s Bion-Biogenesis Discoveries Experimental Verification (Dr. James DeMeo), Wilhelm Reich Orgone Energy (Documentary) and Listen, Little Man! (Wilhelm Reich reading)

Hello family, how are you today?  I’ve been better.  My cat Amber has something going on with her ear that we have to get checked out.  I’ve done all I can for her but the condition doesn’t seem to be getting any better.  I dread the thought of taking her to the vet.  She’s about 17 years old now and I don’t want them to give me a litany of drugs and bad news like is typical for vet visits for animals her age.  She’s the first name on my prayer list today!  She gets the benefit of more than prayers.  I’ve been trying to use the tools available to me – Quantum Touch, plasma….strong Love energy.   All I want is whatever is best for her!

15 Apr 2016- Ms. Amber trying to avoid the camera

15 Apr 2016- Ms. Amber trying to avoid the camera

I want to share something with you that I shared with her…you know cats understand our every word!  In these past few years I have found myself distancing from her and I realized why, I’m afraid to lose her.  The logical part of me knows she can’t stay with me forever such as she is…..this is attachment of the most painful kind!  So I haven’t spent the time and given her the attention I used to when she was younger….healthier because I know she’s going to leave me and the selfish part of me just can’t handle it!  I feel so weak and ashamed about that!  Does this resonate with you?  What I’m describing is applicable to any form of  attachment… to any person, place or thing.

Life is Suffering and freedom from suffering is losing attachment…..(4 Noble Truths of the 8 Fold Path: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noble_Eightfold_Path)

The Noble Eightfold Path (Pali: ariyo aṭṭhaṅgiko maggo, Sanskrit: āryāṣṭāṅgamārga)[1] is one of the principal teachings of Śrāvakayāna. It is also known as the Middle Path or Middle Way. Its goal is Arhatship.[2] The Noble Eightfold Path is contrasted with the Bodhisattva path of Mahayana which culminates in Buddhahood.[2]

Also called the Eightfold Path of the Nobles, eight concepts constitute the path: right view, right resolve, right speech, right conduct, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness and right samadhi.[3]

The Noble Eightfold Path is the fourth of the Buddha’s Four Noble Truths, and asserts the path to the cessation of dukkha (suffering, pain, unsatisfactoriness).[4][5] The path teaches that through restraining oneself, cultivating discipline, practicing mindfulness and meditation, the enlightened ones stop their craving, clinging and karmic accumulations, and thus end their rebirth and suffering.[6][7][8] It is used to develop insight into the true nature of reality, achieve liberation from rebirths in realms of Samsara, and attain nirvana (nibbana).[5][9][10]

In Buddhist symbolism, the Noble Eightfold Path is often represented by means of the dharma wheel (dharmachakra), whose eight spokes represent the eight elements of the path.

5 Nov 2015 Jackie handpainted tshirt Alvarado TX 2

5 Nov 2015 Jackie handpainted tshirt Alvarado TX 2 – when I made this, it felt like an original design…guess not. There really is no such thing as an original thought in a collective consciousness is there?

Looks a little the symbol for the 8 Fold Path I realize this morning!

Source: http://destination-yisrael.biblesearchers.com/destination-yisrael/2014/06/ Buddhist Wheel of Law The Wheel of the Sun Gods Chariot is the same as the Dharmachakra of the Buddhists - The Wheel of Karma, The Wheel of the Law. — energyenhancement.org Dharmacakra The dharmachakra (IAST: dharmacakra; Pali dhammacakka; "Wheel of the Dharma"), is one of the Ashtamangala of Indian religions such as Hinduism, Jainism and Buddhism. It has represented the Buddhist dharma, Gautama Buddha's teaching of the path to Nirvana, since the time of early Buddhism.

Source: http://destination-yisrael.biblesearchers.com/destination-yisrael/2014/06/
Buddhist Wheel of Law
The Wheel of the Sun Gods Chariot is the same as the Dharmachakra of the Buddhists – The Wheel of Karma, The Wheel of the Law.
— energyenhancement.org
The dharmachakra (IAST: dharmacakra; Pali dhammacakka; “Wheel of the Dharma”), is one of the Ashtamangala of Indian religions such as Hinduism, Jainism and Buddhism. It has represented the Buddhist dharma, Gautama Buddha’s teaching of the path to Nirvana, since the time of early Buddhism.



The dharmachakra (IAST: dharmacakra; Pali dhammacakka; “Wheel of the Dharma“), is one of the Ashtamangala[1] of Indian religions such as Jainism, Buddhism and Hinduism. It has represented the Buddhist dharma, Gautama Buddha‘s teaching of the path to Nirvana, since the time of early Buddhism.[2][note 1] It is also connected to the Noble Eightfold Path.

We are called to enjoy the people, pets, places and things in our life while they are here and be able to, when the times comes, when they are broken, sick, in misery of one form or another to let them go…..to let “be” what is best for them without obstructing the path of it.   Such is the lesson living a life with animals teaches me in shorter and shorter increments.  It could make me hard in my heart and not allow any others “in” but no.  It is in the passing of one that a space is made for another.  Every time we have said good bye to one of our animal family members, there has been a spirit to appear needing the space the vacancy has prepared.  This is my only comfort in this and time….lots of time.

Yesterday my friends Stacey Smith (Zen Tala) and Cyndy Morgan brought forth a couple of men to my consciousness that I wanted to share again.  For those of you that are regulars, you already know about my love and respect for the late Dr. Wilhelm Reich and the author Erich Fromm.  For those of you that have not been here before or are new, I introduce you to one of the greatest men of his time.    The Listen Little Man recording is over 3 hrs…..I would encourage you to listen to it like you would a podcast or any book on tape and take the time.  You won’t regret it.  My alternative goal in highlighting Dr. Reich here is for the personal Empowerment of anyone who would listen…..I wish for your personal liberation and freedom.


Uploaded on Nov 30, 2011

In the 1930s, Dr. Wilhelm Reich made reports in published books and research journals, and to the French Academy of Science, on the discovery of a microscopical vesicle of around 1 micron, which appeared as a transitional form between living and non-living substance. Called the Bion, this vesicle could be derived in abundance as a break-down product from the incandescent heating and freeze/thaw disintegration of inorganic materials such as iron dust, charcoal, clay, or ground up rock powder or beach sand, as well as from deteriorating living tissues. Bions, he observed, were charged with a specific life-energetic radiation of blue color, possessed living properties, could be cultured, and also could re-organize into clumps out of which larger and more complex micro-organisms such as ameba or protozoans would arise. He argued this was an additional process in nature whereby new living microbes could arise from non-living or previously alive matter, aside from the known pathways of dormant spores or direct cell replication. Degeneration and rotting of dying plant or animal tissues, where the life-energetic cohesive charge had been lost, or the deterioration of inorganic matter in water, would give rise to bion formation, after which the chemistry and environment of the solutions would determine how far the life-process would go. Reich argued a similar bionous decay process was at work in the human body to give rise to certain microbes, including cancer cells, which resembled protozoans in many ways. The human bio-energy, or orgone energy as he called it, played a fundamental role in the cohesion of tissues and cells. This is not “spontaneous generation” but a specific developmental process with similarities to the works of Bechamp, Bastian and other nearly-forgotten pioneers in biology. Reich’s work on bionous disintegration anticipated such modern findings as the phenomenon of apoptosis, and new observations on unexpected abundant life in deep-sea hydrothermal vents or boiling hot springs, or life-like forms in incandescent-heated meteorites or deep within the Earth’s crustal rock. Reich’s bion vesicles thereby have many similarities to modern archaea or extremophiles, and his work suggests to the field of exobiology, that wherever liquid water exists in the cosmos, abundant microbial life should be found. As one of the earliest natural scientists to engage in open research on the Origins Of Life question, a regrettable ridicule and attack followed his work across Europe and into America. In spite of many replications of his experiments on the bions by a small group of credible scientists, professors and physicians world-wide, a great ignorance and hostility about his work still persists within the mainstream community.

This video was produced in hopes to stimulate more openness, particularly among younger students of biology and medicine. It documents one such replication study, undertaken by Dr. James DeMeo, Director of the Orgone Biophysical Research Lab, and presented as a PowerPoint lecture in 2000 to the Second International Symposium on Pleomorphic Microbes in Health and Disease. A reference list to books and articles are provided in the video, but similar information can be obtained from the weblinks to follow.

The presentation is difficult to fully appreciate in the small format of YouTube, and much of the fine detail (and some of the blue energy-field color around red blood cells) is lost, but this is only an introduction to a complex subject, and it is suggested to view at “double size” to optimize the microphoto images over the text, which remains readable.

To learn more about James DeMeo’s research, buy his books via Amazon.com (do a browser search on his name) or go here:

Dr. DeMeo’s research website is:

Please consider supporting Dr. DeMeo’s research through a tax-deductible donation to the non-profit Orgone Biophysical Research Laboratory.

Drawing based on dream I had 18 Jan 2006

Drawing based on dream I had 18 Jan 2006

Wilhelm Reich Orgone Energy – Documentary

Listen, Little Man! (Wilhelm Reich reading) – 3+ hrs worth listening to if you don’t decide to buy the book instead.  I have done both.  This message is something us “little men (and women) need to hear”  – we are not powerless.

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24 Aug 2016 Drawing for all who are suffering, my Airplane “poop” aka exhaust tantrum, Music is my light in the darkness, Tina Turner – Sarvesham Svastir Bhavatu (Peace Mantra), Shantala Hanuman Chalisa, poem Just For You

Hello to you, how are you doing today?  Today has been ok….there have been some tears the past couple of days.  This morning I found out there were large earthquakes in Italy and Nepal…..spiritual “epicenters” of this world for sure.  Then there is the ongoing misery in California and Idaho (fires) and Louisiana (flood recovery).  Every time I look at the news there is something that makes me go “WHAT?!” and seldom in the good way.

What’s weird is the day before last I put that world map I shared a picture of with you…that had prayers on it under my mattress along with all the other prayer lists!  Yesterday afternoon I was outside enjoying the cooler temperatures and listening to the Coldplay song Midnight I had just bought and then one of those planes that leaves exhaust trails flew right over my house….I got so mad and hurt!  WHY are they doing this?!  Don’t they realize what goes up must come down on ALL of us?!  Unless they are walking around in bubble suites….they get to breathe it too!

My middle fingers were going and I just kept thinking, “why are you crapping all over what I think of as heaven?!”  Anyhew….I had a sort of tantrum with that apple tree of ours that I think I told you had all the leaves go brown on it like it got a blight or something.  I must of looked like a crazy woman flinging dead leaves at the sky…all over the yard!  SO MAD!  Then I sat down and tried to calm myself.  I  layed my hands on the ground as if I were doing Quantum Touch with a person…looking for mutual comfort but I didn’t find it…it wasn’t pleasant.  I felt nauseous and overwhelming sadness. and I just cried.  I know the reason for the crying was probably just the “other side of anger” which for me is usually tears.

The same thing happened today…..beautiful dark blue sky and then there they come with a trail from one end of the horizon to the other!  This time  I treated it like a “test” and vowed I wouldn’t get mad like I did yesterday and I just cried instead.  I feel pretty powerless about this “airplane poop” thing.   Unless I’m willing to do something more than blogging and other things I do….pretty powerless!  I doubt writing letters to the EPA and all the others who should be doing more about this isn’t going to do diddly…so I haven’t.    Sigh.  Not going to go into any more of it beyond what I’ve mentioned.  I need to practice what I preach to others and stop giving my personal power away to people, places and things that don’t deserve it!  Just have to let this go with Love or it will rot my soul!

For anyone who reads this that is suffering in any way…..my love and prayers to you.  Don’t give up!!!

This drawing I did today is for you….for me…..for us…..

I drew this today with all those who think there is not hope left in mind. We must never give up Hope.

I drew this today with all those who think there is not hope left in mind. We must never give up Hope.

So today has also been a day about music.  For me, music and the people that make it are my family that can be anywhere and everywhere my flesh and blood family and friends cannot!  Music is the light that can pierce through the deepest darkness I may slip into. My comforter.  Thank you to all of you workers of light…musicians.

I was listening to a song I first heard this week that our friends at Spirit Post shared (Shantala) and was curious to see if there were more songs like it.  Well, like typically happens to me, I was then was lead to an old friend that has been a comforting voice through so many of my years….Tina Turner!  I had wondered where she was as I hadn’t heard anything about her for some time….she’s been doing wonderful things!  I love you Tina!  Thank you!!!  You are AWESOME SAUCE!

Tina Turner – Sarvesham Svastir Bhavatu (Peace Mantra)

Tina Turner – We Don’t Need Another Hero [Official Music Video] – this song has gotten me through some of my darkest times!

Kyle’s favorite: Tina Turner – Golden Eye (HD)

and just because this is beautiful and we need more beautiful sights and sounds in our world don’t we….her voice reminds me of my friend Sarah Brock.


Just for You by Jackie Wygant 24 Aug 2016

When shadows fall and all seems dark
Close your eyes and listen
In the simple song of the birds
And the passing clouds
A symphony plays
Just for
The silence is anything but silent
Embedded within every Element is a song
A melody, a prayer, a mantra, a phrase
Just for

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