Hello to you. Hope this finds you having a good day. It’s Friday around 10:12 am here. I’m a little later at writing to you today because after we walked the dogs this morning, we went to our local Waffle House for breakfast before going grocery shopping. We had the delightful surprise of seeing our neighbor Pam already seated at the Waffle House, so we joined her and had a nice visit. It was great to get caught up with her and Kyle did his usually sneaky and paid for her breakfast when we left LOL. I’m pretty sure we aren’t going to get away with that but it’s fun to try! She’s one of those people who doesn’t accept something for nothing. She should…she’s such a wonderful neighbor and friend and we try to take care of each other.
Yesterday was awesome because Katie, Jonathan and Robbie came and picked up our old brown couch and coffee table. It’s their first apartment and they didn’t have any furniture and I remember what that was like! When my first husband and I got our first apartment we had nothing too – used card board boxes for our furniture! When Kyle and I moved in together, we didn’t have much either so we know what it’s like! It was just such a great feeling to see Katie’s face as she described telling her Mom about the couch….”Mom we are going to have a couch!” I love the thought of a world where we can do for each other like that. They helped us by taking the couch as we were going to be replacing it, and we helped them by giving them a couch! A world where things don’t go to waste is what I want to see….repurposing!
Dreams…..well last night the only dream I remember was a very brief one. It was being followed by 3 senior German Shepherd dogs and the dream ending up with me standing on a car with them following in the distance. This dream is significant to me because of another dream I had back in I want to say 2001 when I was still in the Air Force back at Patrick AFB FL in base housing. It was around the time I was transitioning out because of medical retirement and I was attending many AA meetings and trying to do volunteer work. I was overextending myself and had just come home from trying to find a fund raising event I wanted to go to. I had written down the address and directions and just couldn’t find the place! I had driven back and forth and all over the place trying to find it….it was as if the place had just disappeared from the map! When I got home I was on my last nerve and took a large butcher knife and held it to my wrists and started yelling at God, “Is this what you want me to do?!! Is this what you WANT?!” A voice inside told me to put the knife down, I was tired….go take a nap. Well I did and fell asleep almost instantly.
Then there was this dream that ties into the one from last night.
I was watching three German Shepherd puppies and they were being nice to me and we were playing at first but all the sudden they started to get very aggressive and I tried to run from them. Then I saw a scene of those three puppies each holding a part of a white rabbit in their teeth and pulling….they were going to tear the rabbit apart! I woke up with the realization that this dream was symbolic of what I was doing to myself in my life at that time….I was the white rabbit and the life I was living was “for the dogs!” The dogs were symbolic of the people, places and things I was allowing to “use me up” and in the dream, symbolically tear me to pieces.
When you are a volunteer and people know that you are a nice person who “can’t say no” easily….they will tap that shit until it’s dry! From personal experience and what I’ve heard from others, this happens a lot in volunteering! “Volunteer Fatigue!” It’s so important to establish healthy boundaries when you are a volunteer and stick to them. It’s got to be okay to say no! When volunteering becomes more of a job than just something you are doing to help out….hmmmmm!
So what does it mean to have this dream of the three very old German Shepherd dogs following me and my actually escaping to the top of a symbolic image of a car? Freedom perhaps? The “dogs of war,” albeit my own personal war, are still there but old, tired and I may have found an escape from them? How to escape from the top of a car….you fly!
I don’t have wings you can see with the naked eye, but I know they are there. Wings can be made of feathers or they can be made of intangible things like faith, hope, joy and love. Wings made of intangible things allow you to flow above, below and in between….to be seen but also unseen.
*side note – when Kyle and I were talking about the triumvirate idea for our government, I had a thought that these 3 dogs could be symbolic of that too somehow? Instead of tearing rabbits apart, the three dogs had matured and may still have the desire to chase the rabbit but have decided to just follow it instead?
I’m on the last part of a symbolic corner-to-corner afghan I’m making. It’s not a mix of colors most people would put together but I did because it has meaning to me. The white is the purity of a thought…a child before they come under the influences of the world we’ve created, the browns, tans and white yarn are symbolic of the labels we’ve given ourselves for our “colors” and how we are all woven together, The pink, white and tan yarn is symbolic of my discovery of the “hidden pink” in the rainbow…”pink spirit” and finally the blue, white, pink and yellow is symbolic of my dreams for this world…the move to total unity of all living beings…peaceful coexistence of all creation.
One more thing……
Yesterday I mentioned the Triumvirate idea and how I’m considering Green Party Presidential candidate Jill Stein as an alternative in the upcoming election. Well on BING there was this note for this article, “Don’t forget about this guy” and I was amused lol! It was like that Progressive Insurance commercial where Flo is trying to sell insurance like a drug dealer…”psst…hey…over here!!” I’m not a Libertarian but I did mention this party as a viable option to voting for Hillary and Donald. I didn’t know they had a candidate running also! I’m excited to see other options are available and making it through the Trump and Clinton campaign (noise) to the surface so people can see a way out of this poop pile of an election we got going here. Ted Cruz said one thing I agree with this year and that is, “Vote with your conscience!” You have options…you ALWAYS have a choice.
Libertarian candidates say Mitt Romney is considering endorsing them
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Washington (CNN)Libertarian presidential candidate Gary Johnson told CNN Thursday that Mitt Romney was considering endorsing him for president this fall.