27 April 2016 Help from Rose Crystal during storms and the consequence of not spaying and neutering pets

Wow…what a night.  As is customary here in North Texas, some pretty powerful storms moved through when we were trying to sleep and they kept us up off and on until they  moved on.  During the worst of it, I grabbed the rose quartz I have next to my bed and just held it tightly repeating over and over to myself, “I choose calm.”  It worked.  Gradually the storm quieted down and moved on.  I have found a very assertive voice presents itself in times like these and usually the message is, “What do you want?!”  Not in the, “why are you are bothering me again?!”  type thing but more of asking what do I want the outcome to be in the situation.   When I can firmly focus on what I want, things are okay.  Coincidence, chance or great timing….it could be any of these things but I like to think it’s the power of prayer and intention at work.  When you don’t “too many mind”  or “conditionalize” prayer and meditation – it works.

Anyhew…..I am feeling better but my allergies are horrific.  I am afraid to take any kind of allergy medicine or anything while I’m on Lithium – have to talk to my doctor on that.  So, it’s holistic remedies for me – Peppermint and Eucalyptus oils and good ol’ Altoids mints….and of course using the power of self-healing.   Kyle had been doing well at work with his cough and as soon as he came home he started in again.  There is something in our “Alvarado air” I guess that’s just aggravating both of us.  This year is the worst it has ever been for the two of us  since we moved here in 2009.

I hope all who were in the path of the storms are o.k.   We have dear friends/family in Oklahoma (Links family)that were in the path of this thing too!   So much damage with these storms.  The Insurance companies can’t be happy campers!   If they are in fact trying to “farm the weather” artificially, I wonder how much longer until the insurance companies raise the bs flag?  If stuff like this is going on, people should know about it….we all need to be “in” on it.  There wouldn’t be so darn many conspiracy’s if there was more truth about things.

On a different note……

I don't know 67,000 people who want to adopt a dog!

I don’t know 67,000 people who want to adopt a dog!

Today is a sad day my local Animal shelter.  The shelter is full and they are having to euthanize several dogs.  A big part of why this is happening is people refuse to spay and neuter their animals.  I say a prayer for these unfortunates who didn’t choose to be here, didn’t choose to be abandoned, neglected, abused and are going to die with strangers.  I don’t feel like this how we  should treat family!  Kyle and I do we can to help but it is the owners of the dogs and cats that end up in shelters like ours that need to do their part.  Do your homework before you decide to buy or adopt a pet.  Something very important to remember about pet ownership – IT IS A LIFELONG COMMITMENT!  Dogs, cats, and other domesticated animals are not stuffed animals and or toys that you throw away after your bored with them – a lesson more parents need to be teaching their children I think!  Those of us who have spent a life time with animals realize they are not just “animals” but living, thinking, feeling beings who are in many cases far more noble than most human beings.  Some of the greatest life lessons I’ve learned I’ve learned in the company of my dogs and cats.

https://www.facebook.com/alvarado.shelter/?fref=photo – this link to FB page if you can help or know who can, please contact them.

My prayers of peace and comfort for Selina, Jozel and Pricilla who are scheduled to cross the rainbow bridge today.


27 April 2016 pink spirit book intentions yesterday and today rose quartz

Pink spirit book notes for yesterday and today



24 April 2016 Canaries in the coal mine…..why are Texas and other skies so full of “plane tracks” (airplane Chemtrails conspiracy theory or not?)

Hello all, hope this finds you doing well.  I’m fighting the effects of the “crud” Kyle has been fighting for several days now.  My go-to is anything Peppermint!

I woke up very early this morning with a couple Prince songs on my mind that are my personal favorites.  As I was looking for video links I found an interview of Prince talking to Tavis Smiley.  He mentioned Civil Rights Activist Dick Gregory and how Dick suspected there was a connection between airplane chem trails and elevated violence in black neighborhoods after they appeared.  I’ve talked about the alarming rate of chemical trails I’ve been noticing the past couple years here in North Texas – since about 2011 – and I guess I’m supposed to revisit the subject again.

12 Nov 2015 plane chem trail halo around the sun Alvarado TX distance

airplane chem trails and halo that forms around our Alvarado TX sun

taken 12 Nov 2015 – airplane chem trails and halo that forms around our Alvarado TX sun

Yesterday there were so many lingering trails from plane exhaust the sun was blotted out and they remain yet this morning and there was an unpleasant smell and metallic taste in my mouth after the dog walk.  As a person who likes to spend time outside and sky gaze, this is very alarming.   Whatever is “up there” is falling “down here” on our fruit, vegetables, water supplies, trees….into our lungs and so on.  Is the increase of trails just an increase in airline traffic since we live in between two international airports and dozens of small ones?  Is the increase in emmissions because more people are buying and flying personal aircraft to avoid the increasingly bothersome cases of daily gridlock on our roads?  OR is it something much more insidious?  Have the powers that be decided to tackle climate change on their own to secure and justify the continuation of the fossil fuel industry?   If this is so, ALOT of members of the arena have their hats in this ring.   I would think flying planes over populated areas with toxic substances, good intentions or not, would require the buy in of the global population…..nice thought anyway right?

This is why I say pay attention, look up, notice what’s going on around you!  Situational awareness.

Anyhew….this may seem a rant into the realm of conspiracy theory and what not but I’m not so sure.  I am going to focus my prayers and intentions on this subject and we’ll see what comes forth from here.

“Remember as is above is below and if we keep screwing around, there will be no in between.” 

Prince Talks About The Illuminati & Chemtrails



Wilhelm Reich talking about chemtrails – Reich suspected these trails had something to do with Deady Orgone “DOR” so if he’s right, the trails lingering so long means there is a lot of DOR in our area.

22 April 2016 Symbol for today honoring a man who used a symbol to defy an industry

Hello out there…..I’m still processing things.  Today’s symbol is both to mourn and to honor Prince and  it is also about defiance against the “machine”.  An ode to a rebellion only silent in tangible form.  He is one of our immortals now – the staying power of music defies any dimension.

I tried to find information about the meaning behind Prince’s symbol besides it being a middle finger to Warner Brothers and couldn’t find as much as I’d like.  On the http://prince.org/site there was talk of being an alchemist symbol: http://prince.org/msg/7/195052


“Some people rebel with raised fists and gun barrels pressed against flesh and some people are welcomed into the echoed halls of the Muses…their whispers translated into melodies to defy the seeming forever flesh of the masters.”

when doves cry-prince & revolution

Love to you through the wires and through the winds that sustain and bless us.

21 April 2016 Intergenerational Trauma and the Blood that remembers it

Good morning or day to you! I hope this finds you well in mind, body and spirit. The dogs and I are huddled up in bed as another round of thunderstorms moves through. It’s feast for famine when it comes to weather here in Texas….the feast is underway.

Just finished my Facebook perusal this morning and came across a great article on a topic I touched on last March on intergenerational trauma. I was looking for a topic and this feels like a good one to revisit.

Here is direct link to the March post – there are links to some great videos about the subject in the context of Native American culture:


My Facebook comment to the article:

“It’s called intergenerational trauma on the “surface level” where it can be see and experienced but it is in the blood — the blood carries the memory of all who have ever been…and it is the recording device of living history.”

I firmly believe our blood is the recording device and transmitter of living history….each blood cell a recording disk. It only makes sense that we “pass it on” through each generation and each “copy” gets more and more data (positive and negative)….more and more mutations and even perversions of the original “story” aka truth. Our blood to me is like the ancient campfires where we used to sit and listen to the stories of our ancestors. I know from my own experience that each time a story is told it isn’t told exactly like the time before!

Anyhew….interesting subject.

Perhaps another pathway to peace is to be found in the healing of the blood memory? May be we could try using something besides just more pills, electric shocks, bombs, gunfire, aversion, immersion?

Many people from generations from and before my own don’t like to talk about the past…”be stoic!” “quit whining and just get on with your life!” “we don’t talk about the past.” This attitude has proven futile.  For even if we don’t talk about it, the past doesn’t go away.  The past is in the blood memory and on an unconscious level we ACT out the past without having to say a word lol.  We can’t help it!  The only way we will every get rid of the past is if we no longer need blood to live.  Don’t know if you ever thought of that but it’s the truth lol.

Now I’m not suggesting “wallowing” in the muck of the past and or using it as an excuse not to live a productive life BUT I am suggesting we cross the river of “Denial” and quit acting like things never happened. It’s reasonable to think generational denial is probably why we as a species keep repeating the same damn mistakes lol. From my own experiences it seems like the only way to truly get beyond the “sins of our fathers and mothers” is to talk about what happened, acknowledge it, grieve or express our emotions about what is revealed, learn what can be learned and THEN move on.

I believe the core to the “Why” of suffering can be found in the blood memory which isn’t just DNA. Blood, like anything, is an energy force….a stream (Meridians). What if holistic energy healing techniques like Reiki, the Meridians, Acupuncture, Quantum Touch and the like could heal the very “battery” of suffering…the heart and the blood?

Much smarter people than I at all levels of science and medicine are catching up to the ancients who figured all this out in their times. What I suggest is not a unique idea by any stretch. Modern humans (myself included) like to see “proof” of the sometimes intangible, and we finally have the gadgets to get it. Let us get more data…proof.

We already know that behaviors have a “chain of custody.” When someone grows up exposed to violence, extremists beliefs and or behaviors, lives in poverty etc., it isn’t just a tangible/visible thing going on. This is an energy thing going on. The energy doesn’t just disappear once the surface of a problem or situation is solved…it’s energy — it either becomes positive or negative and is either discharged or stored just like a battery. The discharge part…reference all my blogs about the work of Dr. Wilhem Reich! We are organic electronic devices and our blood and intangible energy impulses, to me, are much like batter fluid and can either make a device run like its supposed to or explode and destroy the outer casing!

Anyhew…the musings of a housebound crazy house wife……lol. Just something to think about if your interested in these things. Upliftconnect.com is on Facebook if your interested in more topics like this. I am on Facebook too https://www.facebook.com/jwygant and my blog posts show up there too. I send you love hugs and all the best through the wires on the winds that bless and sustain us.


Learning to release trauma before we pass it on to the next generation

PTSD is a whole-body tragedy, an integral human event of enormous proportions with massive repercussions. ― Susan Pease Banitt

Intergenerational Trauma is the idea that serious trauma can affect the children and grandchildren of those who had the first hand experience, due to living with a person suffering from PTSD and the challenges that can bring. What’s new is that, thanks to the emerging field of epigenetics, science is discovering that trauma is being passed down to future generations through more than simply learned behaviours.

One widely reported example is of holocaust survivors passing on the effects of trauma to children and grandchildren. It seems that trauma or its effects are being passed down through our genes, and it has enormous consequences for us as a species.

What are we Passing on our Children?

The single most dangerous idea I learned in school is that the genes you get from you parents are passed on to your children, and nothing you do in your life changes them. Thankfully, however, the findings of the new scientific field of epigenetics is starting to change this dangerous attitude. We do indeed pass on the exact same chromosomes from parent to child, however the quality they are in when we receive them can be improved or diminished according to what happens to us and the choices we make during our lifetime.

The reason why it’s dangerous for us to believe otherwise is that it has lead to entire generations of people believing that their choices concerning their own body and the environment affecting it have no detrimental effect on the genes of future generations. In short it has the potential to see us devolve, simply out of ignorance. Fortunately, as awareness of epigenetics spreads, it’s helping people understand that how we live our lives can change the quality of our own genes for the better and those we pass on to our offspring.

What Is Epigenetics?

We all know the image of a DNA double helix. Imagine now that each of the thirteen rungs in the spiral ladder that makes a chromosome is not simply a rung, but a binary, amino acid on/off switch. You may have received an exact same chromosome that your mother or your father carried, but this chromosome has been changing according to the way you’ve been living your life Some rungs in the ladder are off where they were once on and vice versa. Your genes are responding to the environment like you are, because like you are, they are alive.

Our DNA exists at the heart of our cells and provide the instructions for new cells to be created, so better quality DNA equals better quality instructions for cells to be created and in turn a happier, healthier body. On the other hand continued degradation of the epigenetic structure of our genes could be leading to lowering of immunity and fertility, and increased susceptibility to cellular mutation.

When Emotional Trauma Becomes Overwhelming

In simple terms trauma occurs when we reach a point where we can’t cope, we are overwhelmed and we don’t have the tools or skills to find our way through. We find ourselves in a state where our sympathetic nervous system goes into overdrive and we can get stuck in fight or flight mode for far longer than our body is designed to remain that way. Sustaining this state of high alert causes depletion and disruption of the normal functions of our system. In our culture we refer to acute cases of this as PTSD, post-traumatic stress disorder.

Thanks to this diagnosis, we have this somewhat arbitrary boundary which almost says that the truly traumatised people are on one side and the rest of us are on the other. The reality is that the boundary between those who suffer from PTSD and everyone else was invented, created, made up by the human mind with little regard for the fact that trauma is carried within us all in varying degrees. Each of us is on a sliding scale that goes all the way up to and past the line that tips a person into being diagnosed with PTSD.

The kind of trauma we all carry can include the smallest things like the time we were laughed at for not knowing the answer to a question, or other seemingly insignificant things like being teased as a child. It can include any moments of pain and tragedy that have occurred throughout our life, but by far the biggest factor of whether the pain remains with us as trauma is whether it was overwhelming, and whether it continued to be overwhelming.

According to transpersonal psychologists, when the trauma is so overwhelming that our only defence mechanism is to avoid feeling it, then we continue to carry it until someday we have the courage and strength to finally feel all of it and come to emotional completion, though the physical event may have ended long ago. A number of problems can prevent this: a person may not feel like they are in a safe enough environment, or not supported enough to go into the vulnerability of feeling their old pain in order to release it. The person may struggle with being re-traumatised by going back in to the memory of what happened.

Releasing Our Trauma So It Doesn’t Get Passed On

For some people, it’s enough to explain to them that they simply need to accept and allow the feelings of pain and discomfort to exist instead of trying to hide them, avoid them or push them away. As soon as as a person judges and labels their inner pain as something bad or something they don’t want or don’t like, they are inadvertently and unwittingly grabbing and holding their pain and preventing it from leaving.

Allowing the pain to flow instead of trying to stop it from happening is how we allow it to leave us and be released, however there is considerable risk of re-traumatization. In my opinion, this occurs when a person wakes up their old pain and trauma to try to release it, but then instead of accepting and thereby allow it to flow out of them they contract contract around it with their judgment that this is something they don’t want. So they experience the pain again, but do so without actually releasing it.

For many at the extreme end of the trauma scale known as PTSD, these experiences of past pain and trauma coming up in order to be released are uninvited and involuntary. During these bouts which can be triggered by anything that remotely resembles the original trauma or nothing at all, re-traumatisation is occurring repeatedly and compounding the problem.

What Happens When We Can’t Release Our Old Pain and Trauma?

If a person experiences trauma and they are never able to come to emotional completion because it is simply too overwhelming then the environmental influence of those events on the body through immense amounts of stress hormones signal to the genes that the environment is hostile and unsafe, and this has an effect on the epigenetic quality of the genes. The epigenetic structure of the genes changes and these genes in this state can then be passed to subsequent generations.

The worst examples of intergenerational trauma occur when a generation is born carry the trauma of their parents, and their parents and now the children as well are still living in circumstances that are traumatic. In some cases this can go on for generations, particularly in cases of ongoing war, colonialisation and genocide. Prof. Judy Atkinson speaks about her work helping entire indigenous communities heal from transgenerational trauma in her book Trauma Trails, and the traditional approach she works with can be found in the following Uplift article. Techniques such as breathwork and vipassana have also been successful as well as severe cases of PTSD having been healed through psychedelic means such as MDMA assisted psychotherapy, or ceremonial use of Ayahuasca.

Evolving, Not Devolving As A Species

I like to think that the epigenetic structure of our DNA can be like either a rock or a crystal. The molecules in a rock can be identical to those found in a crystal with the only difference being that the molecules in the rock are jumbled and those in the crystal are more aligned allowing light to pass through. In the same way, perhaps there are more jumbled and more aligned states that the those amino acid on/off switches in our DNA can find themselves in. The good news is that if our epigenetic structure can become relatively jumbled due to challenging and painful environmental factors, they may also become more aligned as we make healthier decisions about exposing ourself to less environmental contaminants and, if possible, less emotional contaminants like stress and trauma.

My personal theory about life is that the reality we live in is a rigged game; that all paths lead to learning and growth. The less gentle path may be for the quality of our DNA to degrade, perhaps increasing the likelihood that a) those that can’t adapt fast enough don’t survive, as well as b) sudden mutation jumping us to a different sub-branch of the evolutionary tree. The more gentle path to evolution may be by bringing our epigenetic code into higher states of alignment by healing our past pain and trauma and perhaps even healing the trauma that was passed to us from our ancestors. The only question that remains is: what kind of species do we wish to be?


http://whitebison.org/ – White Bison, Inc., is an American Indian/Alaska Native non-profit charitable organization operating under the provisions of 501(c)3 of the Internal Revenue Code and is based in Colorado Springs, Colorado. Through White Bison, it’s Founder and President Don Coyhis, Mohican Nation, has offered healing resources to Native America since 1988. White Bison offers sobriety, recovery, addictions prevention, and wellness/Wellbriety learning resources to the Native American/Alaska Native community nationwide. Many non-Native people also use White Bison’s healing resource products, attend its learning circles, and volunteer their services. White Bison is a NAADAC approved provider (#64009) and a Combined Federal Campaign (CFC) Member #11364.



16 April 2016 Litany Against Fear – Dune House of Atreides by Brian Herbert and Kevin J Anderson and sky gazing

Good morning (here) all and hope this finds you in great spirits!  For us it’s the weekend which is well….AWESOME SAUCE!

I don’t have a specific symbol for you today but last night, whilst reading from Dune House of Atreides, on page 370 I came across words that truly inspired me – The Litany Against Fear from the ancient Bene Gesserits (fiction).  I even jotted it down in my  pink spirit book!  The message is so powerful!  Even if you are not familiar with the Dune series and or the context of it I think it will still resonate with you (when I was looking for my feature image I saw many pictures of this whole saying as a tattoo!  OUCH!):

“I must not fear,” she intoned, her eyes closed, “Fear is the mind-killer.  Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.  I will face my fear.  I will permit it to pass over me and through me.  And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.  Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.  Only I will remain.”

Isn’t that some powerful shite?!  OMG!  I remember a paraphrase on this message in the Dune movie starring Kyle MacLachlan as Paul:

dune-17 Kyle Mclachlan

Who are the Bene Gesserit?  I will “cliff notes” you a little if you are unfamiliar with Dune and Frank Herbert’s work;  but I highly recommend you check out the books!  I am amazed more movies haven’t been made from this – it’s a rich, complex and detailed world you just get immersed in.


The Bene Gesserit (/ˈbɛn ˈɛsərɪt/ BEN-ee-JESS-ər-it)[1] are a key social, religious, and political force in Frank Herbert‘s fictional Dune universe. The group is described as an exclusive sisterhood whose members train their bodies and minds through years of physical and mental conditioning to obtain superhuman powers and abilities that can seem magical to outsiders. Acolytes who have acquired the breadth of Bene Gesserit abilities are called Reverend Mothers within the organization’s ranks.[2] Some of these fictional powers are analyzed and deconstructed from a real-world scientific perspective in the book The Science of Dune (2008).[3][4][5]

Sometimes called “witches” due to their secretive nature and misunderstood powers, the Bene Gesserit are loyal only to themselves. However, to attain their goals and avoid outside interference, they often screen themselves with the illusion of being loyal to other groups or individuals. Their every move is calculated toward a result. As the skills of a Bene Gesserit are as desirable as an alliance with the Sisterhood itself, they are able to charge a fee to school the women from Great Houses, and install some of their initiates as wives and concubines to their advantage.[2][6] In 1965’s Dune, the Princess Irulan is quoted (via epigraph):

The Reverend Mother must combine the seductive wiles of a courtesan with the untouchable majesty of a virgin goddess, holding these attributes in tension so long as the powers of her youth endure. For when youth and beauty have gone, she will find that the place-between, once occupied by tension, has become a wellspring of cunning and resourcefulness.

— from Muad’Dib, Family Commentaries by the Princess Irulan

Much love, light and hugs to you through the wires and through the blessing winds that surround us all!

8 April 2016 Symbol for today Acceptance, dreams and MMORPG life

8 April 2016 Acceptance symbol for the day

Symbol for today is Acceptance – the arrows towards the triangle symbolize arms holding on

8 April 2016 Kyle Wygant

Kyle this morning — my everything


Prayer for today — best one I ever learned when it comes to Acceptance!

I’m in a sort of lethargic “space” this morning.  Kyle and I haven’t been sleeping real well lately which is ironic as I did have many vivid dreams last night.  I have got a “sour stomach” in the middle of the night now…thank God for peppermint!  One of the dreams was about making amends with the psychiatrist I fired.  I was at his office and a nurse or someone there interacted with me and all the sudden started acting strangely.  I did my QT thingy and could see steam coming off my hand afterwards!  The dream was so specific he even told me the milligrams I should be taking for my current medication LOL!  No, I haven’t called to really do this but it was thought provoking.  The other dream was about a family friend and getting news they chose to die.  I don’t like those so I won’t get into specifics.   When I have a lot of vivid dreams I don’t wake up rested….I feel like I’ve worked or  been busy all night!

The phenomenon common to American neighborhoods in spring called “Yard Sales” has started and with our narrow roads, we had to alter the dog walk this morning significantly.  We plan to take part in the antique alley next weekend.  We don’t have enough for a full-blown sale but since the city is waiving fees for a sale….going to take advantage of it.  As far as walks in the neighborhood, we are looking forward to when the road leading to the new addition to the neighborhood is officially open so we can avoid some of the traffic.   Looks like they are getting close to opening it up.

Yesterday I decided to spice things up with Rift (the MMORPG I play) and made a male character for a change lol….Alex Grayson (ode to my favorite Television Dracula played by Jonathan Rhys Meyers)!  It’s fun to do this because I am enjoying seeing how different the outfits look on the male versus the female.  A lot of the outfits on a female look like they might be worn in a red light district!  Not much protection in combat!  In the wardrobe function, they have a random button you can choose and it’s fun to see what outfits it comes up with.  Some of them are pretty darn cool lol.  I’ll have to get a picture of him all duded up!

We tried downloading Terra yesterday as an alternative MMO and NOPE!  Just didn’t like how it played.   It took 15 hours to download and less than 15 minutes to decide it wasn’t worth playing.  What we went through is the typical process when trying to find a new MMORPG to play and is why it has been hard for us to quit Rift.  What’s sad is you spend all that time downloading and to uninstall….a few seconds!!!  ARGGGHH!!!  Ah well….serenity prayer it is.

Hope you are well and enjoy the weekend!  Love, hugs and light to you!

Jonathan as Dracula - I was so excited about this as I just adored him in The Tudors and felt he was perfect for this role and he didn't disappoint!

Jonathan as Dracula – my inspiration for my new Rift character Alex Grayson. Jon’s portrayal of Dracula is my favorite to date and I’ve been watching movies about Dracula ever since I was a little girl.

Bruderschaft – Forever (Original Club Mix)