27 Sept 2015 – Can you see and touch Life Force energy?


For quite some time, even before I learned about Dr. Wilhelm Reich and his study of “life force” energy…Source, Ether…orgon I was very conscious of energy and my interaction with it.  I can feel it everywhere in people, places and things.  To me it’s like a thin veil, a matrix all around us and some of us can actually sense it, see it, feel it.  When I’m outside doing my exercises which flows into meditation with Mother Nature, I try to be conscious of this energy field….touch it.  Sometimes I image my fingers permeating it like one does when you stick your hand in a water source…liquid, flowing, warm.  You can feel a slight tingling, pressure and warmth against your hands when you connect with it.  It makes me feel so connected and alive!

To describe what I see when I see this energy field is like the pixilation of a television screen only at a much denser level if that makes sense.  At night the color is a dark blue or purple color.  At first I thought I needed my eyes checked lol – they say when your vision is going you might see white “floaties” but I gradually discounted this the more I learned about what Dr. Reich discovered, witnessed for himself and was able to capture in the lab.  The very air we breath is this Source — this is why our breathing is so important!  A funny thing I think about is “just breathing through it” when it comes to my crochet and I get a nasty knot in the thread.  When I just relax and breath when considering the knot…it unwinds quickly versus when I get pissed and breath shallowly or in a short…angry fashion.

This course of thinking can be applied to human emotions I think.  The phrase, “count to ten” before you say something in anger really applies here.  Those deep breathes help reduce the blood pressure and elevation anger can take you to…give your brain a chance to sort out what’s going on with oxygen flowing freely within it.  This is what I’ve discovered in my own personal experience so I don’t speak as a specialist in any other field than my body “-)

I challenge you to stand still outside for a moment today and look at the sky with new eyes.  What do you see?  A clear blue sky or something more?  Look at the areas around tree leaves, flowers and grass.  When I look at these things from a conscious perspective like I’m suggesting to you….I image you will see it too.  We take this beautiful gift of the Earth for granted and discount her humanity so often.  To me she is a living, breathing being just like any of us alive on this planet are…we came from her…we are her….she is us.

Think about your interactions with others and your “bubble” of comfort when meeting with people.  For me the bubble expands, my “shields up” kind of thing, when it comes to meeting new people or interacting with others in public.  When I am with family, friends and people I know my bubble retracts further in…I allow these people closer access to me.

As an Empath aka Highly Sensitive Person I have had to learn the hard way in regards to energy and having a healthy “bubble” and or boundaries.  When energy vampires meet someone like me and I don’t have my shield in place….yum yum gonna feed on Jackie.  I’ve had to learn that when I go out into public I must “put on my holy armor” lol or pay for it later.  I’ve gotten so I can sense when someone is taking more than they are giving and enjoy the pleasure of meeting fellow Empaths or just really positive people who meet me and we interact on a balanced level.  Like difference of when a magnet will attract or repel.

As human beings we must develop consciousness of ourselves as beings containing energy and thus how this energy affects others and the environment we live in.  We are ironically part of the “Matrix” of life and I believe this matrix to be pure energy – many scientists in the more junior fields of Quantum Physics and Mechanics are proving this.


Here are some highlights from an article I found that is interesting and a great overview of Dr. Reich’s body of work if your interested to learn more:




(1934 — 1939)

“The discovery of orgone energy was made through consistent, thorough study of energy functions, first in the realm of the psyche, and later in the realm of biological functioning.”

– from Ether, God and Devil

Reich traveled to Scandinavia where, despite incessant bureaucratic interferences, he managed to continue his research. In Oslo, while continuing to teach and develop his therapeutic techniques, Reich undertook a series of laboratory experiments to verify the existence of a physical biological energy expressed in the emotions.

Using human subjects, Reich was able to demonstrate a charge at the skin’s surface directly related to feelings of pleasure and anxiety. This charge would increase when a subject felt pleasure, and decrease during feelings of unpleasure. From this, Reich concluded that pleasure is the movement of biological energy toward the periphery of the organism, while anxiety is the movement of this energy toward the center. Reich initially assumed that biological excitation of living matter might be electrical, but the results of these experiments indicated otherwise. For example, the biological energy that Reich measured moved in a slow, wave-length fashion, in contrast to electromagnetic energy which moves much faster. Reich wondered if similar energy processes existed in more basic life forms.

This led Reich to conduct laboratory experiments in which he used time-lapse motion picture equipment affixed to microscopes with over 3000x magnification to record the development of protozoa. During these experiments Reich discovered that under certain conditions, sterilized and unsterilized substances–grass, blood, sand, charcoal and foodstuffs–disintegrate into pulsating vesicles that often exhibit a bluish color. Reich observed internal motility in these vesicles, an effect of energy. He called these vesicles “bions,” after the Greek word for “life.”

Reich’s research also revealed that certain bions exhibited a strong radiation phenomena, and that these bions could kill bacteria and cancer cells. This radiation confirmed the existence of an energy that did not obey any known laws of electricity or magnetism. Reich called this energy “orgone,” because its discovery had evolved from his investigation of the orgasm function, and because this energy could charge organic materials. When Reich published his findings, the scientific and psychiatric communities responded with a vicious year-long attack in the Norwegian press.

In the wake of this attack, and the inevitability of a second world war, Reich began to look to America as the future home for his work. Theodore Wolfe, M.D.–a representative of American psychosomatic medicine who had come to Oslo to study with Reich–was instrumental in arranging for Reich’s emigration. When Reich was invited to teach at the New School for Social Research in New York City, the U.S. State Department finally issued him a visa in the summer of 1939. On August 19, Reich sailed for America on the last ship to leave Norway before World War II broke out.

http://cosmiclifesite.com/id19.html -interesting site



19 Sept 2015 – Seeing Soul fragments in strangers, my organic orgonite bowls, drawings and poem

This morning I find myself wanting to write to you about something I’ve come to believe after having had the subject come up back in Nov 2009 and then again just a couple of weeks ago; I want to call this soul fragments.  When I meet people sometimes, I often see more than just the person before me.  It’s like they remind me of someone I’ve met before.

Have you ever met someone or seen someone and felt like you knew them from somewhere before?  Sometimes its legitimately you’ve crossed paths at a party, gathering, chance meeting in passing but sometimes it feels like more than that.  I felt this way about Kyle and so many others close and not so in my life.

Well what I feel is when we die and are reborn we inherit fragments of a soul.  Kind of like the Harry Potter Voldemort Horcrux thing but in a much more positive light! It’s like a soul is such a powerful energy source that once it’s set free, it’s fragments of energy have to find a place to go.

Let me give you a recent example.  I know this may seem out there but this may resonate with you.

19 Sept 2015 drawing of Yamila I did after hospital stay Alvarado TX


When I was at the hospital this time I met a woman named Yamila.  As soon as I made eye contact with her I knew I knew here from “before.”  Sure enough when I asked her if we’d met before she made the comment, without knowing me, “May be in a reincarnation.”  She was pissed off at the time for being at the facility but this comment was not of that nature…it was genuine.  Sure enough after we spent time together I realized she was, in a different form, just like a girl I worked with back when I was stationed at my first duty station Travis AFB.  Eveline was Dutch and we just really felt close to each other.

AB Eveline Ravenstein

AB Eveline Ravenstein

Eveline Ravenstein was the first person I ever supervised.  When we weren’t at work, we were “European” affectionate.

Something I noticed when I was stationed in Germany and traveled in surrounding countries was how much more comfortable Europeans were with touching.   It wasn’t uncommon to see two women arm in arm walking down a street.  Eveline was like that and it was refreshing as I’m an affectionate person too.  I’ve always been drawn to European people or any one “not from here” because I have always been able to relate to being an outsider, being a stranger in my homeland kind of thing.  When we had foreign exchange students at my Senior High School I got so close to them!  Got a long better with them than I did my US classmates.

So anyways, back to Yamila.  She was beautiful and we almost immediately connected after our brief exchange.  As we got to know each other, she exhibited almost the exact same mannerisms Eveline had when we’d be together.   Her laugh, her frequent affectionate behavior, even the way she walked!  As we talked we figure we could trace each other back well beyond even this life time.  Call it two bat shit crazy girls in a Mental Health ward coping with the situation lol or as I feel, it was much more than that because it’s happened so many times to me.

It’s like we are passenger vehicles and sometimes for more than just our soul….but fragments of others too.  I call it “The Before.”   It can be a mannerism, a laugh, a scent (as Yamila added to my list), a walk, way of thinking, speaking….all those things that make us human.  I feel like I carry many more than just a few fragments sometimes.  Is it multiple personality disorder as the Mental Health community chalks it up to or is it what I’m talking about?  Some people exhibiting this phenomenon much more actively than others?

Yamila and gave each other our contact information but for some reason I don’t think we will be crossing paths again right away if ever in this life time.  She has much to work through in her personal life and I have to stay out of the way.  I can be lioness protective when it comes to wounded members of my tribe and this over-protectiveness, wanting to protect/shield behavior can be obstructing to someone trying to get their life together!  I am just happy knowing she’s out there and if she should think to contact me, I’ll be happy about that.  She and I share many gifts.

So I would say the next time you do the “do I know you?” thingy — may be you do!

The latest batch of my organic orgonite bowls are coming along nicely.  Don’t stink so much either LOL.  The bowl I recently gifted a fellow light worker was instantly loved – she didn’t want to put it down after I gave it to her.  When one of my pieces of anything I make connects with it’s rightful owner – has the right energy signature – this is what happens and I love it!  Makes me feel great to be able to help people.

18 Sept 2015 my organic orgonite bowls yesterday Alvarado TX 18 Sept 2015 my organic orgonite bowls waiting to dry

Yesterday I started on one of my “Show me” drawings and this is what I have so far.  A lot of my drawing like this feature doorways to other dimensions.

Show me in progress

Show me in progress

Poem about soul fragment recognition:

“The Before”

by Jackie Wygant

In a passing glance there is something about you that makes me stand still

Long ago did I catch your gaze

In a sunlit window ceil?

Is it the way you smile at me, a familiar mischevious glimmer in your eye?

Are you eager to approach me

Or just a little shy?

Where we lovers, friends, family or enemies to each other in the many times “before”

Did we part tearfully long ago

At the break of dawn clutching each other close on the sandy beach of some distant shore?

When we met I saw your soul today I knew you beyond the flesh you now wear

A little bed head going on or adorned in a well-sewn suite

Kindred, forever souls we circle and cross paths

Perceptions clear, clarity astute

Never mind when or where this time you were born, what was the last thing you’ve done

Here we are this time, in this place and segment of the eternal wheel

Our new circle in time has just begun

Nothing about our past matters now that I found you again

This time even for just a snippet of the eternal slip of time

I embrace you and call you my friend……

18 Sept 2015 – Energy vamps – do the people around you life you up or eat your inner spark?

The house is feeling a little empty this morning. Calmer but emptier. We took Spot in for her teeth cleaning appointment at Banfield Pet Clinic in Burleson. Not happy about putting her under but we’ll do it this once and that will be it! Getting her nails trimmed too while she’s out….she hates that.

Finished my angel drawing last night and made up a couple protection pendants for a gal referred to me by one of our tribe members – like a brother. He called while we were at the Gardens to tell me about her. She’s a fellow light worker who apparently has been inundated with energy vampirism lately and was looking for some help. I have a couple of my organic orgonite bowls around so going to take one of them and the pendants I made last night over to her shop. We have an appointment today and her shop is right in the area. Hope these things helps!

Completed last night - I'm pleased with how this came out

Completed last night – I’m pleased with how this came out

17 Sept 2015 protection pendant 2 for Beverly Texas Medicine woman by Jackie Wygant Alvarado TX 2


As empaths we are fine dining for people who consciously or unconsciously feed on light energy. These people are unable and or unwilling to ignite themselves so they buzz around looking and feeding on people like this gal and I. I’ve gotten so I can tell when a feeding is occurring and politely separate myself from the person. Sometimes I can tell even before I actually engage with a person whether or not it’s going to happen. This kind of thing happens to people not fully conscious of energy exchange all the time and they just don’t realize it.

If you have people around you who aren’t positive and you feel tired, uneasy, anxious, downright exhausted after being around them – they are toxic. You need to enlighten them, pardon the pun, about what is going on and if they can’t or won’t change how they interact with you, you have to let them go until they can. They are toxic!

About a week ago I saved some grass clippings to break down for my bowls and mannnnn does it smell! Smells like well, cow shit or may be cabbage lol. Anyhew, got it bubbling on the stove with my frankincense and myrrh incense desperately trying to cover the smell. Kyle can’t smell anything with his allergies…blessing for him!

One of my completed all organic orgonite bowls - I put crystals in them. Have it on the kitchen table.

One of my completed all organic orgonite bowls – I put crystals in them. Have it on the kitchen table.

Poem about energy vamps:

I see you coming, you have that look in your eyes

Your being precedes you and I want to run away

When you’re around me, a little bit of me always dies

You can’t help it, but like the moth to flame you’ve come to my light

I want to push you away but I’m the foolishly caring sort

If I were to ignore your torment it would keep me up at night

So you come, transparent fangs bared to graze my flesh

Like a hungry spider you wrap me

In your drama, a binding and unyielding mesh

Unlike the unsuspecting fly I can find an escape

With a kind word and a step away

I send you off with your red and black swirling cape

Each time I get a little wiser to my lack of will

This time I don’t end up in my bed

With your turmoil, angst and painful bile swill

You can’t help it, you can’t find your spark

Until you find it

People like me are your light in your infinite dark

17 Sept 2015 – Ft Worth Botanical Gardens visit today

Ok, 3 posts in one day is unusual for me as I know how it is to get spammed from one blogger!  I just had such a great time with Kyle and we actually got some great pictures (we think!).  Want to share like I promised!  Probably won’t have time tomorrow – normal life resumes!

The gardens were just lovely!  For nothing we got to see almost all the gardens and to gain admission to the Japanese Gardens was only $5 a person!  If the conservatory wasn’t under repairs it would have been just $2 for that.  We had an awesome lunch at The Gardens on premises Restaurant for only $40 and that’s with tip!  We even had dessert – chocolate mousse cake…oh yeah it was good!  We had to have fuel to get back to the car right?!  The experiment with going vegetarian…two weeks.  Still going to make a conscious effort to cut meat intake and eat meat from ethical sources.

Link to find out more: http://fwbg.org/ – Ft Worth Botanical Gardens Official Page

Having this date with Kyle was so romantic and relaxing.  All around us were magnificent trees – some very old.  Of course I had to say hello!  I do that.  As we walked we caught light scents of things like Honeysuckle…just the kind of scent you want to bask in!  We had to thank the folks along the way working so hard to keep the place so lovely.  It was hard to believe such a pocket of tranquility could exist so near to the busyness that is Ft. Worth.  I imagine it’s kind of like Central Park in New York….a place to just stand still and take a deep breath…aaaah….peace!  The Japanese Garden part was so worth going into.  We have never seen such large Koi!  HUGE!  What I loved is the scenery wasn’t awash in color like the rest of the gardens because it didn’t need to be.  The fusion of trees and plants with many ponds just gave me peace to look at.  Very Feng Shui!

So if you visit the area – highly recommend visiting this place of loveliness.  We definitely want to go back for some of the events they have through the year.  They have Japanese festivals for the seasons and apparently from what a gal in the gift shop said, springs cherry blossoms are just lovely.  We will go back for sure!


10 Sept 2015 – Before and After – challenge of revisiting 9/11/2001

Just peeking in after having a major shit-storm of sorts fall upon me but it’s alllllll gooood!  Thank God I have  loving family, friends, neighbors, complete strangers and all of Momma Natures creation.  Once the dust settles more and I’m back at home with my own stuff, then I’ll share more of what happened.

My editor’s topic for today correlates to what we all know as 9/11/2001 – the day almost the entire world stood still.

I could go into a long dissertation on this topic but by doing so, I give the horrors of that day the power I need for today and all the days I’m blessed to remain here.  If I keep focusing on all the “BEFORE’s” then any chance of a “NOW” gets further and further away….mired in the layers of the past.

My snippets of Sage wisdom today:  Stay in the now, Be here, Let Go of the past (Doesn’t mean forget but it does mean forgiveness and letting the past go with love) What you focus on expands so if you keep thinking of the bad stuff from the past, you manifest it in your current reality….like a magnet.

Serenity Prayer

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Serenity_PrayerReinhold Niebuhr

The most well-known form of the prayer attributed to Niebuhr is a late version, as it includes a reference to grace not found before 1951:[1]

God, give me grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

I like this version a lot — we used part of it in AA, I didn’t realize this until today!  Awesome sauce!

Tomorrow is the 14th anniversary of a day we don’t want to forget.  The pitfall I see about this trauma is some of us are like a child out trying to fly a kite on a windy and stormy day.  They are holding on the kite string to the past so tightly they cannot see any thing else.  They don’t even notice when all they have left is the string!  I’m done with “BEFORE’s” and am going to let them go with love in my own personal space and hope others will to.


I love you my friends and family.  I hope you have a blessed day and know how precious and unique you are — a shining star!  SHINE SHINE SHINE!  😛